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#MAYAPENELOPES ; an    independent,    private,    and    selective    exploration    of    the    character    maya    penelope    hart-hunter    from    disney    channel’s    girl    meets    world.    studying    themes    of    losing    childhood    to    trauma,    rebel    with    a    heart    of    gold,    dedicating    your    life    to    art,    the    beauty    in    the    breakdown,    and    more.    penned    by    birdie.    28.    she/her.    eastern timezone. 

find me elsewhere: @mythloved , @girlsings , @inspotlight​ ​

001. you can call birdie, and i’m 21+. i will not interact with anyone under 21 for my own peace of mind. 002. i am mutuals only and only follow people i intend to interact with. if i follow you, i am interested in roleplaying with you. 003. please do not control my character, and i won’t control your character. no godmodding. 004. just ask if you need me to tag something for you, i’m more than happy to. i’ll do my best to tag everything, but i may slip up, so just pop into my dms or inbox and i’ll get it taken care of. 005. i do not own, or claim to own, maya. i am simply playing a character that i like. the only thing that i own are my headcanons and my writing.

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maya is being moved to a new blog! url is the same, @mayapenelopes , too new to tag ! the blog is not set up in the slightest and it might take a few days but i'm going to log out of here and work on it so this might be the last post here lol

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maya is being moved to a new blog! url is the same, @mayapenelopes , too new to tag ! the blog is not set up in the slightest and it might take a few days but i'm going to log out of here and work on it so this might be the last post here lol

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maya is being moved to a new blog! url is the same, @mayapenelopes , too new to tag ! the blog is not set up in the slightest and it might take a few days but i'm going to log out of here and work on it so this might be the last post here lol

[mayapenelopes-a]

maya is being moved to a new blog! url is the same, @mayapenelopes , too new to tag ! the blog is not set up in the slightest and it might take a few days but i'm going to log out of here and work on it so this might be the last post here lol

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maya is being moved to a new blog! url is the same, @mayapenelopes , too new to tag ! the blog is not set up in the slightest and it might take a few days but i'm going to log out of here and work on it so this might be the last post here lol

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maya is being moved to a new blog! url is the same, @mayapenelopes , too new to tag ! the blog is not set up in the slightest and it might take a few days but i'm going to log out of here and work on it so this might be the last post here lol

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maya is being moved to a new blog! url is the same, @mayapenelopes , too new to tag ! the blog is not set up in the slightest and it might take a few days but i'm going to log out of here and work on it so this might be the last post here lol

[bassettmemes]

EMAILS I CAN'T SEND FWD ↳ starters from sabrina carpenter's eics deluxe tracks.

opposite —

oh, so you do have a type and it's not me

oh, so you can reply, just to not me

if you wanted brown eyes, i could have got contacts

she looks nothing like me

should i be trying to take it as a compliment?

she looks nothing like me, so why do you look so happy?

you were holding out to find the opposite

even if i tried to change, you'd end up with her anyway

does she say nothing so you feel good?

does she step out the spotlight so you bathe in it?

does she get up on top of you more than I would?

does she just love the picture cause you're painting it?

when you said i'm beautiful, was i just being lied to?

feather —

i feel so much lighter like a feather with you off my mind

floatin through the memories, like, whatever

you're a waste of time

your signals are mixed, you act like a bitch

you fit every stereotype, "send a pic"

i feel so much lighter like a feather with you out my life

it feels so good not caring where you are tonight

it feels so good not pretending to like the wine you like

i'm so sorry for your loss

you miss me? no duh

lonesome —

if i fall in love with all my problems will they leave me, too?

maybe i believed in all your lies because i believed in you

why were you somewhere else when you were next to me?

did you think about her face with your hands around my waist?

did you even give a fuck?

you can't spell "lonesome" without "me"

there's no hope in misery

tell me i was more than a decent opportunity

will you tell me anything i wanna hear to control how you're perceived?

isn't it kind of strange how it all changed?

i wasn't the one they wanted you to love

things i wish you said —

baby, sorry i left you in the dark

i always reach for your leg over there on your side of the car

baby, everything reminds me of you

nobody gets my jokes, everyone here thinks I'm fuckin' rude

when I saw you cry, i didn't handle it well

without you here, I don't know what to do with myself

i saw you met somebody and I'm jealous as hell

i can't even stomach loving somebody else

i think about these things at night before I fall asleep

i'm sorry that I pulled the "it's not you, it's me"

one day, i'll make sure you get a real apology

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i just rb'd some memes but... i still wanna archive and move this blog... so... that might be happening actually...

[bassettmemes]

THE LOVE HYPOTHESIS. ↳ quotes from the love hypothesis by ali hazelwood. some quotes have been edited for clarity or usability.

"carry yourself with the confidence of a mediocre white man."

"i'm going to kill you."

"i wish you could see yourself the way i see you."

"i'm starting to wonder if this is what being in love is. being okay with ripping yourself to shreds, so the other person can stay whole."

"you can fall in love. someone will catch you."

"i'll come find you, and i'll take care of you."

"did you... did you just kiss me?"

"expiration dates are for the weak."

"i think about you before falling asleep. then i dream of you."

"it's fine. more material for my title ix complaint."

"this might be inappropriate, but, you are really extraordinary."

"i know it’s scary, being vulnerable, but you can allow yourself to care."

"everyone likes tall, broody, sullen hunks with genius iqs."

"a good kiss will do that: make a girl forget herself for a while."

"i liked you when i didn’t know you, and now that i do know you, it’s only gotten worse."

"you could stay mad, and we could go to your lab and throw test tubes full of toxic reagents at each other until the pain of third-degree burns overrides your shitty mood? sounds like fun, no?"

"my heart may be broken, but my brain is doing just fine."

"i'm fine. i mean, i wish i were dead, but aside from that..."

"i've never been surer of anything. except maybe cell theory."

"hypothesis: the more i mention an attachment in an email, the less likely i will be to actually include said attachment."

"are they deporting you back to canada because we've been sharing a netflix password?"

"tell them we didn't know it was a federal crime."

"i think that somewhere along the way i forgot that i was something. i forgot myself."

"academia takes a lot from you and gives back a little."

"not having a life came in handy sometimes."

"i do reserve the right to comment on your abysmal taste in men."

"pumpkin spice is satan’s dandruff, harbinger of the apocalypse, and it tastes like ass—not in the good way."

"hypothesis: if i fall in love, things will invariably end poorly."

"you just had to go and make me fall for you."

"a heart will break even more easily than the weakest of hydrogen bonds."

"there will only be one bed. it doesn't matter what it says; it's always one bed."

"i must say, the line between excellent career choice and critical life screwup is getting a bit blurry."

"you probably don’t like ice cream anyway, because you don’t enjoy anything that’s good in life."

"i have access to your google calendar, asshole. you're not busy. if you don't want to hang out with me, you can just be honest."

"to be fair, i don't like people in general."

"how much do you hate this, on a scale from one to ‘correlation equals causation’?"

"hypothesis: any rumor regarding my love life will spread with a speed that is directly proportional to my desire to keep said rumor a secret."

"approximately two out of three fake-dating situations will eventually involve room-sharing; 50 percent of room-sharing situations will be further complicated by the presence of only one bed."

"i'm never going to get used to the fact that professors are real people and have first names."

"that’s the thing with science. we’re drilled to believe that false positives are bad, but false negatives are just as terrifying."

"maybe so many years alone has warped me in some fundamental way."

"did this fortune cookie just throw shade at me?"

"based on the available information and the data hitherto collected, my hypothesis is that the farther away i stay from love, the better off I will be."

"i had financially rich, but emotionally poor, parents."

"talking on the phone is the hardest, most stressful thing in the world."

"no. i don't want to fake break-up."

[bassettmemes]

TWICE IN A BLUE MOON. ↳ quotes from the twice in a blue moon by christina lauren. some quotes have been edited for clarity or usability.

"for the first time in my life i get it: home isn’t always a space; it can be a person."

"can you believe me, though? that the worst thing i ever did was for the best reason i ever had?"

"i don't know why people think permanent denial is better than temporary disappointment."

"he’s the one who taught me what love looked like and felt like and then taught me it’s a lie. i have never been able to come back from that."

"do you want to live in the sun? or do you want to go back in the shadows?"

"i think the fact that i never got to fall out of love with him—that i just had to keep moving forward, stumbling into something new and totally different—means that my brain and heart don’t know the protocol here."

"a watched pot never boils, and a watched phone never rings."

"it was two weeks of my life, a long time ago, but i loved him. "

"i want every wish he ever makes to be for this. a penny in a fountain. the first star. an eyelash. eleven eleven."

"uou're an enigma, you have to know that."

"beautiful, but sort of unknowable."

"i’m sure i’m the only one of the two of us who is so fixated on our brief affair."

"it’s so crazy to think that things that I thought only lived in my imagination can be real. but then i touch you, and it’s like every fantasy i ever had coming true."

[mayapenelopes-a]

so i saw sab last night... opening night...

[inspotlight]

WHAT CAN MAKE THE TIDE TURN? WHAT CAN MAKE THE FIRE BURN? ©

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gentle reminder that if you back maya into a corner, she will bite. this is a very basic part of her character and intrinsic to how she overcompensates for the trauma she's endured. she will react accordingly to perceived slights and attacks. she has been raised in fight or flight mode and she generally goes with fight, but if enough pressure is put on her, she will shut down and choose flight.

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it   didn't   take   her   too   long   to   pack   a   bag   and   get   over   to   farkle's   place,   and   before   long,   she   was   letting   herself   in   with   her   spare   key.   she   only   used   it   in   emergencies   and   this   definitely   constitutes   an   emergency.   standing   and   waiting   for   him   to   open   the   door   might   have   driven   her   past   the   brink   of   stability.   ❝   hey...   i'm   all   packed   and   ready   to   go.   everything   sorted?   ❞   code   croissant   had   been   initiated   and   they   were   finally   taking   their   trip   to   paris.   it   couldn't   be   coming   at   a   better   time,   either.   christmas   in   paris   would   be   incredible.

@ofsweetness

[ofsweetness]

farkle had never known real friendship beyond riley and maya for many years, and even as he does now, it's still a challenge with people who don't know him so well.  ❝   it's not stupid to cry. it's a normal response to things getting to be too much for your nervous system.   ❞  he sits a few feet from her on the couch as she looks at the food he got, close enough she can take whatever refuge she needs, far enough she should feel safe in her own personal space. he's learned about these kinds of things.  ❝   and if you want my opinion- i don't think you should change for anyone else. if you want to make a difference in your life, maya, it should be for yourself. people leaving you is about them, not about you. and if they don't want you- they're missing out on a great person. we all screw up. it doesn't make you unworthy of love. no matter what kind of love we're talking about.   ❞  

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she   sets   the   food   back   down   and   looks   over   at   him,   another   tear   slipping   down   her   cheek.   she   lays   down   across   the   couch,   resting   her   head   in   his   lap,   arms   tightening   around   herself   as   she   lets   herself   cry.   she   doesn't   know   what   to   say.   he   says   all   the   right   things,   always   has   always   known   how   to   make   her   feel   better,   but   she   hurts   all   the   same.   it's   more   than   just   what   lucas   said,   or   the   fight   they   got   into.   it's   what   has   always   resided   beneath   the   surface.   the   pain   she's   never   addressed.   rejection   has   never   been   easy.   being   told   she   shouldn't   be   herself   is   not   something   she's   unused   to.   she'd   heard   it   loud   and   clear   when   she   was   a   kid   and   her   dad   walked   out.   heard   it   loud   and   clear   when   everyone   seemed   to   love   her   more   when   she   was   riley.      it   was   easy   to   feel   like   she   wasn't   worth   sticking   around   for.      ❝   you   and   riley   are   the   only   people   who   ever   truly   loved   me.   aside   from   my   mom   and   shawn,   obviously.   but,   everyone   else...   i   know   they'd   love   if   i   weren't   constantly   in   trouble,   or   being   a   brat,   or   whatever   else   it   is   they   think   of   me.   so,   maybe   i   should   change.   i   just   want   to   be   someone   people   don't   see   as   disposable.   ❞