FROM THE RIVER TO THE SEA. PALESTINE WILL BE FREE.

"Fishstick" / 24 / Southeastern American cripplepunk with a little anarchy mixed in / famously took kinning cWilbur a little too seriously / https://maybe0rdinary.carrd.co/ (not QUITE done with my carrd- fixing coding issues and broken links but it's all accessible!)

[maybe0rdinary]

CAW

(IF I SUDDENLY BLOCK YOU, MY TUMBLR'S FUCKING BROKEN. PLEASE FEEL FREE TO GO OUT OF YOUR WAY TO FIND OUT WHY, you have my FULL permission to contact me anyway)

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☆ Call me Fishstick :] crow irl, lvl 24, and they/them strictly, thank you (if you know me by my actual name, you can still call me it, this is just to avoid employers) ☆

☆ World's most okayest fanartist, Acolyte of Divine Cringe, and really fucking sleepy all the time. Scorga, Derse, Page of Space. Obnoxious nihilistic optimist. Fair warning, I curse like a sailor but I tag accordingly for content. FUCK GOLF, comorbid as shit while also working minimum two jobs.

☆ no. 1 Karlnapitybur fan. Bdubs and Keralis supremacy. Homestuck selfshipper on levels previously never imagined (DirkJohn fan). Misa Amane my beloved. Senshi could whip me up a disability diet and fucking fix me. Silent Hill 4-6 were great you guys are just mean :( inspired by Arin Hanson ☆

DNI: ED blogs and hardcore yandere themed blogs. Also, I don't do petty online infighting/discourse (YKINMKATO) so that means if you aren't hurting yourself or anybody else, I have no qualms with you ☆

(If you're here for DSMP, I rarely if at all post about it here anymore, I loved the series when I was going through some deep shit and now it's got cooties. My sincerest apologies.)

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[natnormalatall]

roald dahl was antisemitic and misogynistic. george orwell was openly homophobic. edgar allan poe married his 13 year old cousin. dr seuss cheated on his wife (and was racist as well as antisemitic!). hp lovecraft was racist as fuck. anyways they’re fucking dead it’s not like you’re enabling their behaviors in the afterlife or something. then again I think they bleed into the books so uh keep an eye out for that

the difference between these old white guys and jk rowling is that the former group is all dead. jk rowling is alive and using your money to oppress trans people

[maybe0rdinary]

@wiiwarechronicles Scott what the FUCK IS GOING ON. I know there's like a bajillion and one storylines (I only know vaguely of Sonic Underground from VHS tape advertisements on my favorite childhood films) but fucking. SATAB???

[maybe0rdinary]

So after a full two years, I've immersed myself into Sonic like a bathbomb into the ocean and I understand what Scott was trying to say now.

[woman-becomer]

would you rather fight two Mordecais and one Rigby or two Rigbys and one Mordecai

ㅤ

2 Mordecais 1 Rigby

1 Rigby 2 Mordecais

Voting ended onJun 2

[woman-becomer]

fucked up the poll awful style I'm sorry

[focawire]

it's pride month. you know what that means

[focawire]

it's pride month. you know what that means

[maybe0rdinary]

Reading Iron Widow (first book I've read in six years) and I'm enjoying myself so thoroughly, that I'm actually indignant that people rate it so low. I'm having a ragingly good time- no, no not a good time, I feel like my soul is being clicked back into the place of my body and emotions. I would recommend this book.

[liirker-at-thresholds]

I really like how the scientology speedrunning trend is developing, in this clip we see that the participants are

Not deterred by the closed door

Working as a group

Protecting their identities

Inflicting material costs to the institution via property destruction

Getting away at the end

These ideas were not all here from the beginning. They are genuinely gaining experience that can be applied elsewhere

[liirker-at-thresholds]

The church of scientology is on tumblr and they are sending me anon asks telling me that they can't even commit to reporting a post

[borderlinereminders]

hi april,

i'm so grateful i found your blog, i've been newly diagnosed with bpd and it has been very scary. the past year i have had some pretty intense bpd rage episodes, and the past month it has been getting worse (like one episode a week.) my partner is so patient, loving, and supportive but i can tell he is burning out. i say a lot of really mean things when i'm in an episode and i don't know how to stop. it's like i have no control and this horrible monster takes over. if he raises his voice to try to tell me to calm down or pause, if he gets frustrated, if he has to take a moment and leave, all those things trigger me even more. i feel like i'm a manipulative person because lately it's like we can't even have "normal" disagreements without me having an episode, and i don't want him to feel like he can't express disagreement or conflict just bc he's worried of how i will react. i want to be better and i don't know how. sometimes i think leaving and isolating myself forever, or hurting myself will make everything better and i'm trying to fight those thoughts but it's so hard. please help :(

First of all, being newly diagnosed can be terrifying, and I think a lot of people with BPD know the feeling of suddenly realizing “oh god, this pattern has a name.” That awareness can feel overwhelming at first, but it can also become one of the biggest tools you have.

One of the things that helped me most was learning to separate myself from the disorder a little bit. Instead of immediately believing every intense thought or feeling, I started learning to pause and go:

“Okay, this might be a BPD trigger/thought/reaction.”

Not in a dismissive way. The feelings are still real. But it helped me stop treating every emotion as an emergency or absolute truth.

And honestly, the fact that you recognize this pattern and want to change it already matters. A lot.

I also want to say that having BPD does not make you evil or a monster. But it does mean you have to learn skills that help you stop causing harm during episodes, especially when the people around you are becoming burnt out.

One of the DBT skills that helps me the most during escalation is TIPP, especially the temperature part. Cold water, ice packs, holding ice, cold air, etc. It sounds simple, but physically shocking my nervous system helps interrupt that “I am completely consumed by emotion” feeling enough for me to regain some control and try a different skill or communication method. Or calm me enough to walk away to collect my thoughts.

I’ve even had it where naming the rage to my husband helps. I might say ‘I know it’s not fair but I’m feeling so much BPD rage right now and I’m struggling to cope with it’. For me, and everyone is different, if he hugs me tightly I’ll usually start crying and then I find it easier to talk things out. The anger is usually trying to protect me from feeling hurt but ironically it ends up holding me back from handling the hurt.

I’m sure you rationally know this but emotionally it can be hard. Your partner taking space, getting frustrated, or needing a pause does not mean abandonment. It means they are a human being hitting emotional limits too.

That doesn’t mean you’re hopeless. It means you need support, coping skills, accountability, and practice.

BPD can improve so much. It does take work though but it really, really is worth it. Truly. I know it feels impossible right now, but you are not doomed to stay this way forever.

[fastaycbb]

horror games presentation card by @fastaycbb

[lupinus-bicolor]

portal stamp dump

[valtsv]

i'm like a fujoshi but for dead people

[valtsv]

if you could see the thread i'm hanging on by you would not say these things to me

[aqueerkettleofish]

For those who have missed it, a tourist in Hawaii decided it would be fun to chuck a rock (a BIG rock) at a monk seal. He missed, but he was captured on video, and when told it was illegal to interfere with them, said "I'm rich, I can pay the fine."

Is the best part that he got doxxed? No.

Is the best part that he got tracked down by a local and beaten? No.

Arrested on state at federal charges, looking at up to 5 years and 50K? Nope.

The best part is the local city council's reaction.

And the best part of that is the look on the attorney's face.

[ralfmaximus]

More of this please, everywhere.

After the incident, another video went viral showing what appeared to be that man getting a beating. The Maui Police Department said they had no record of any reports of disorderly conduct or assault related to the monk seal incident.

Even the local police are being cool about this.

[maybe0rdinary]

Found out my boss had a tumblr for the longest time and now we have a loooooot to talk about. Jesus christ.

[stunningpicture]

[social-justice-stuff]

I don’t know shit about photography, but the person who took this shot must be given the highest award of them all.

this is breathtaking

This is now one of my top three favorite photos of all time. 

another one of my favorites

[maybe0rdinary]

Room-temp butter

[Image ID: several very up-close shots of melting butter. It separates into feathery layers as it liquifies and bubbles form inside the liquid. /.End ID]

[maybe0rdinary]