Cherry 🍒

.:Cherry:. A Fighter🥊 Open Book💀 Tell Me!

[mcherryr]

I would be there for you. And I would trip on things like how come you don't answer my phone calls. Or why you keep on calling me her name for during sex. And you would say "if you don't like it, go home then."

You would never thank me for being there for you. You would blame everything on me.

[mcherryr]

When I do things for you. I'm learning that you will never notice because you don't care. You won't even take it in consideration. We were talking to your friend. You said. "Dam she's cold as fuck every time I hangout with her. I spend all my money. I go stupid for her." And I'm yelling inside me like "that's me too." But when I do it's my fault because you don't ask for it. Why don't you care just a little bit..

Maybe

Maybe just a little bit 10%

You won't even buy me a drink and you bought a bottle last night for them. Dam. What else do I need for proof.

[mcherryr]

Bitch,

you don't need to deal with this shit. How does someone gonna keep calling you someone elses name.

The 5 minutes of penetration and the 18 hours of trying isn't good enough. I'm sitting here crying, and he won't care why I would be crying. As a matter a fact. He knows why I'm crying but he won't give a fuck. And I'm sitting here because I want to be here for him. My heart is so use to being hurt..

[mcherryr]

Focus on the wrong thing.

[mcherryr]

I dealt with all this shit because I love you. Yeah not because you ask but because I love you. And I want to be there for you.

How the fuck do they gain more respect from you than me. At the end of the day when no ones there for you, Im always the one you can count on.

Why you use my love to boost your yourself up.

[mcherryr]

I seen the devil more times

And God wasn't there to protect me.

[mcherryr]

I never go thru your phone because you told me a long time ago.

"Don't be looking for shit you don't wanna see".

OR

"Don't ask me any questions and I won't lie to you."

I was curious today. And fuck

LADY CREEPS

Lady creeps!

She's lady creeps

She was right about the difference. The way you text me and the way you text her.. I will never forget that. Why can't you ever talk to me like that. Why can't you ever say words like that to me. Not as my love, but at least as my friend.

Paragraphs to the ones that don't love you how I love you. But you don't see it as love. It's just things I do because I wanna do them. Not because you ask or because I wanna make sure your okay.

My love isn't shit

Fuck my heart hurts.

See but I knew this. why am I surprise.

You do have feelings. You do understand. .

But it's just none towards me. Wats so ever.

Whatever foo

Is what Ima get, watch.

Cause you simply don't give a fuck

It hurts me so much. You can't even be my friend. After so much.

ps.

This is why I rather do CC around you because I don't have to feel all these hurt. If I were on CC I wouldn't give a fuck.

[mcherryr]

A long time ago you taught me

"Don't be looking for something you don't want to find".

Today I was curious. And I fucked up

Really!?

lady creeps.

Really Jaime

LADY CREEPS!

She was always right.

She did tell me to pay attention to your messages to her and to me And how different they are.

I understand you don't love me but why can't you have my back like you have her back. She did you dirty your whole relationship.

I wish you could talk to me like that. Not as a lover but at least my friend..

Lady creeps

[mcherryr]

You know that feeling where instead of you turning him on, he has to fuck you with his phone in front of his face.

The moment he cums, and he forgets about you. And gets up and ask "so what you going to get into?" "I mean I'm not kicking you out, but I got things to do"

The moment where you notice he doesn't even wanna get to know you anymore. And you question yourself "why can't he just care a little about me?"

........The feeling of being in love with someone and comfortable, but to him your NoTHING...

The nights you stayed home because you wanna show him that you're different. But you are still a whore.

The moment he reads this and thinks nothing of it. And says "I'm not that fucked up to you! Ha!"

The time you want him to hear you but all he says "alright alright," and you are left quiet...

The moment you put on a song you want him to hear because you been playing it all week thinking of him. But he puts the volume up on his phone because he is watching a video.

When he picks up the phone quickly and it's a female or texts back, paragraphs. And when you text, no response.

When you lie to yourself, " his phone is dead," but he has 2 connected cell phones.

When he wants you to suck his DIck, right after fucking someone.

The moment when you realize that he doesn't have your back. After everything. After every hope that you hoped for. After ever heart ache.

....The feeling of your heart breaking every time he answers his phone and tells you to leave the motel because he wants the room to himself.

After every moment you see, he doesn't care about your feelings. Thinking maybe he doesn't know, but then you see him feeling bad for others about stupid shit.

The feeling of wanting to wave, yelling "IM right HERE!"

Maybe this time things will be different.

Maybe this time he would want to hang out with you.

Maybe this time he will look at you. And say "I'm sorry".

The times when he makes NO effort at all when it comes down to respect, friendship, or even fucking,

Maybe this time he will text you "how are you?"

"You okay?" " Did you make it home?" Since you left on an Uber, walking , or catched a bus.

The feeling of being forced to be numb around him because you just want to spend the time with him.

The feeling of wanting to jump out your own skin.

"I'll stay in the pool and drown

So I don't have to watch you leave" -Billie Ellish

"I'll try not to starve myself

Just because you're mad at me" - Billie Ellish

[mcherryr]

You were homeless with me.. instead of being at home with your family. You were out in the streets with me.

Remember it was new years. The fireworks. I got caught stealing candy from numero 1. A piece of candy and I was banned!!

Im sorry for letting the drugs get to me. I love you always. Gordo.

[mcherryr]

Its crazy how I make myself sick over him. Fuck. I feel like I can't do anything .

And I don't do anything.

I told him once, I was going to kill myself. And he said go ahead, I gotta go.

I still don't have his attention and it's much worse.

[mcherryr]

Piece of mind 💕

I'm learning to let's things go, I can't worry all the time, If things happen they happen for a reason and we were never meant to be, But we will see. time will tell. I don't even know where this is going. So let's just sit back and enjoy the time without the negativity and none sense. Let's make something out of it.

[mcherryr]

You and me, we made a vow For better or for worse I can't believe you let me down But the proof's in the way it hurts For months on end I've had my doubts Denying every tear I wish this would be over now But I know that I still need you here [Chorus:] You say I'm crazy 'Cause you don't think I know what you've done But when you call me baby I know I'm not the only one You've been so unavailable Now sadly I know why Your heart is unobtainable Even though Lord knows you kept mine [Chorus:] You say I'm crazy 'Cause you don't think I know what you've done But when you call me baby I know I'm not the only one I have loved you for many years Maybe I am just not enough You've made me realize my deepest fear By lying and tearing us up [Chorus 2x:] You say I'm crazy 'Cause you don't think I know what you've done But when you call me baby I know I'm not the only one I know I'm not the only one I know I'm not the only one And I know... I know I'm not the only one

[mcherryr]

It sucks to get played when you knew you were getting played.

[mcherryr]

I'm sad as fuck, I just wanna go under a rock n cry :(

[mcherryr]

You gotta remember this shitty feeling. Because by the end of the day He doesn't have any fucken idea about you, It ain't real love, just a piece of furniture. Only for a while. It's time to move forward, I seen enough to know better Gotta stand my ground I can't be like this until he decided to throw me Time to go Cherry. Goodnight

[mcherryr]

I couldn't even get what I wanted today. I just asked for a simple mean less kiss. That's what makes my day. When you actually notice me. 💔