Maddie

She/They/Him ~ Alter in a DID System

[mddienln]

Hello! My name is Maddie Nolen.

I'm an alter in a DID system, and have several headmates with blogs on this app, so I wanted to make one too (because I wanted to have something to do while I'm fronting).

DNI criteria and other information below the cut:3

Please note: I am 100% anti-endogenic. I will not go out of my way to cause problems or arguments, but I would appreciate it if pro-endo individuals would not interact and/or block me. I block liberally, as I prioritize my own mental health over petty internet scuffles that could be avoided by turning off the screen 💀

Basic DNI criteria is enforced: pedos, racists, homo/transphobes, self-proclaimed fascists, and Trump or Elon supporters. If any interact with my blog, they will be blocked immediately (upon seeing it).

[mddienln]

That one roommate that we've been having issues with is sobbing and crying, making a huge deal over her boyfriend.. not having the gas money to pick her up? And blaming him for not having the money, despite "understanding" his situation?

This is making me laugh my ass off.

[mddienln]

I took a break from the other drawing, but I finished this

[mddienln]

Making something,,

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[antiendovents]

"aren't you supposed 2 not care abt what others r doing if it isnt hurting peopleeee lollll" you ARE hurting people. You are spreading the false, harmful information that you can have OSDD or DID without trauma. You are telling young, inexperienced people on the internet that they have a serious mental disorder when they dont. It is hurtful and harmful to spread wrong information on the internet, especially when it goes against actual years of research. Being a system is not some fun 'ooo omg there r ppl in my head my blorbos' it is a trauma disorder.

!! Yeah! There nothing more to add here because you are so correct anon 🫂

[mddienln]

I honestly don't know where it came from but I've personally become attached to saying "I like my suitcase" as a vocal stim. It's genuinely so silly

[willkill4pudding]

You can tell how hungry for blood the tumblr userbase is this year by looking at how early in the month the Ides of March posts are being made

[mddienln]

Someone organized our phone's apps and it looks surprisingly good

[mddienln]

I stressed too hard and I threw up, which is a surprisingly sobering experience. Anyways, popped an eye blood vessel thingy

[mddienln]

Taking a break from drawing bcs the paranoia for tonight has kicked in. One of our housemates said they saw a man walking around the house, and earlier I saw the front motion lights turn on a couple times and saw a shadow but I thought I was seeing things.

Now, since our roommate moved out, we're in an isolated room with a window facing an unsecured area of the property.

Have tea, going to lay off the weed and nic, going to try to sleep 💔 gn tumblr

[mddienln]

I'm gonna throw up I heard knocking

[mddienln]

Taking a break from drawing bcs the paranoia for tonight has kicked in. One of our housemates said they saw a man walking around the house, and earlier I saw the front motion lights turn on a couple times and saw a shadow but I thought I was seeing things.

Now, since our roommate moved out, we're in an isolated room with a window facing an unsecured area of the property.

Have tea, going to lay off the weed and nic, going to try to sleep 💔 gn tumblr

[mddienln]

[nebulous-halo-deactivated202508]

Does anyone ever feel as if you're whole body has a feeling of a plastic board and you're moving/bending it back and forth repeatedly. It makes that odd warping noise? I don't know how to describe it and I can't find a good visual representation..

[mddienln]

I imagine a 3D model of you, standing T-Posed, and then just grabbing the middle spine joint, and moving it back and forth to simulate how those metal sheets look, alongside the sound of a metal sheet warbling

Alternatively; the 3D model ragdolled as though it is being wiggled, like a metal sheet

(I have a video with the sound I'm imagining, but Tumblr won't let me embed the video, so I'll just post it following this)

[mddienln]

I am so so proud of this,, gonna finish it in a bit

I drew it on the chickensmoothie Oekaki, you can find the post here

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[mddienln]

Update:

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[mddienln]

I am so so proud of this,, gonna finish it in a bit

I drew it on the chickensmoothie Oekaki, you can find the post here

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[mddienln]

I got our speaker working after some struggling. I'm enjoying the lack of silence in our room.

And I won't have to rely on our phone's speaker to play rain sounds all night. Yippee

[mddienln]

Kind of nauseous, really tired, but I can't seem to sleep.

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