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[vesperosy]

this tweet has been fucking killing me

[zoinyoi]

teachers

[crumpet099]

Those are his fledglings man

[meiinoe]

f&f spoilers

imagine not serving cunt while on your quest for vengeance

[meiinoe]

amber doodle

[maddyhope-art]

The Fool animatic - 500 miles

So here is the animatic for the Fool that I have been working on and off for months! I wanted to do something special for him since he means the world to me <3

Quote used at the beginning is from Fool’s Quest chapter 32.

Quote used at the ending is from Fool’s Fate chapter 31.

Enjoyyy <3

[maddyhope-art]

Description of my process for the animatic and what each piece represented to me while creating it ^^

The theme of the animatic is Mercenia and home. It has a cyclical beginning and ending. We start off with the Fool and his mother in Mercenia as shown in the first art:

It’s warmth, it’s safety and everything good. I focused a lot on bright colours and the feelings of warmth and belonging.

Then we move into the next stage of the Fool’s life in Clerres:

Everything is colder and it is night. I showed it through the cooler blue and the only light present is that of the moon. The Fool’s eyes are lifeless. He has been working as a clerk for Capra and destroying the evidence of his family history behind her back. This scene is him sneaking in the dream library one night before deciding to leave and search for his Catalyst. Probably the scroll is one of the many ones about the unexpected son.

We move to Buckkeep era where Fool’s tower room is a bright place and he had made certain of creating that impression of light and colour from his childhood. The baby doll in my headcanon represents tiny Beloved. And he is holding a little version of himself and missing being loved. His white and black motley sets him apart from his childhood self. He is already on a mission to fulfill his role as the White Prophet.

Amber somewhere at the beginning of The Mad Ship. I imagine she is looking ahead, thinking of Fitz and his home, thinking of Paragon and the unfair treatment of his family and alas thinking of her own family. Are her parents alive anymore? Are her sisters? She is hugging herself because in spite of the sun, the day is chilly and her heart longs she could be by her beloved ones.

The Fool in the Lord Golden era set in the Golden Fool. The costume is from chapter 4 where he pretends he has a broken leg for Fitz to have a reason to join him in the Great Hall. This is after the ceremony is over and everyone has left and the socialising is over. The one looking at us through the mirror is a more vulnerable Fool who ponders the next steps of the mission regarding Icefyre and Aslevjal. But also thinking on his childhood with both Mercenia and Clerres, trying to make his family proud, trying to prove to everyone to Clerres that he is the White Prophet. Of course he knows that even if his teachers from Clerres believe him, he will be dead and he will never see them having a change of heart.

This is right before he decides to remove his make up for the night. The curtain that appears in the mirror signifies his privacy and a safety for his vulnerable side to come out.

The last two arts are a set and it is chapter 30 in Fool’s Fate:

“He looked down at the world portrayed there. His long fingers wandered over the rippling sea and then returned, to hover over Buck. Without touching them, he indicated the four jewels set near Buckkeep. ‘These gems … they indicate Skill-pillars?’

‘I think so,’ I replied. ‘And those would be the Witness Stones.’

He touched, a wistful caress, the coast of a land far to the south and east of Buckkeep. No gem winked there. He shook his head. ‘No one who knew me lives there any more. Silly even to think of it.’

‘It’s never silly to think of going home,’ I assured him. ‘If I asked Kettricken, she –’

‘No, no, no,’ he said quietly. ‘It was but a passing fancy, Fitz. I cannot go back there.’"

The aftermath of the torture by the Pale Woman has left the scars, the bruises that had darkened on his face (finally healing properly after a few days). Aslevjal is cold and the blue light comes from the corridors. But also there is the heaviness of the feelings such as it is too late for something or the torment of the nightmares and the longing for safety. The resurrection as a sort of rebirth in a life where he is visionless. It makes one think of their origins and of their purpose.

I imagine that even if Mercenia is not as clear on the map for Fitz, the Fool sees it with his heart. Always.

[yafufuoi]

They have chosen me to be a shepherd, before I even knew if I was human.

[ververejdu]

Finished Tawny Man recently and it absolutely obliterated my brain and i truly can’t stop thinking about it so i draw my visions of doom and despair

[meiinoe]

my ocs and my artfight sorry im too lazy to make a proper card 😭

Art Fight

An art gifting game

[meiinoe]

oh, your love is sunlight closeups below :))

[meiinoe]

sunrise

[rawrdragonblah]

My girl Leafpool, the Character of all time. She deserved so much better

[fitzlovedcomplex]

Kettricken is not stupid. If Beloved is so stricken each time Dutiful is in view because of how much he looks like Fitz, I imagine she came to her own conclusions eventually. I imagine in some proportion she knows what happened, even if perhaps she denies it. I wonder how devastated she must have been. I wonder if she was excited for her child so that she may see Verity’s face again, only to see Fitz in the features of her son. I wonder if she felt violated in the same way Fitz did. The same way she felt the same heartbreak as Fitz for Nighteyes. Fitz and Kettrickens relationship is so very dear to me, they struggle in things so similar that truly only they could understand one another in them. I wish they had more moments to blossom their friendship together.

[foolsjustice]

thinking about fitz’s relationship with hunger in the beginning of assassin’s apprentice and how food (or the lack thereof) is part of the reason for his abandonment at moonseye.

his grandfather says, “I’ve fed him at my table for six years…I’ll not feed him any longer…Let him be fed by him what got him.” almost certainly, his grandfather can’t feed him any longer. when fitz ate that night, he “wasted no time filling [his] mouth” and “stuffed as much bread into [his] mouth as [he] could.” he was starving! given how desperate his mother was to keep fitz and his grandfather’s emphasis on food, their family had to have been experiencing severe food insecurity to finally have the grandfather give fitz up.

food insecurity can be defined in two ways: 1) limited or uncertain availability of nutritionally adequate or safe foods 2) limited or uncertain ability to acquire acceptable foods in socially acceptable ways. while we don’t have confirmation for the nature of food insecurity fitz experienced before moonseye, we do know afterwards. the first day fitz arrives at buckkeep, cob and burrich obtain food for fitz but out of his sight and neither show him how to properly acquire food in the keep. during the time period after the first day and before burrich takes nosy away, burrich leaves before fitz wakes up and pays no mind to fitz as long as fitz is in bed every evening.

burrich’s negligence causes fitz to experience both of the definitions of food insecurity. he acquires food in socially unacceptable ways by learning to steal from the kitchens and town, as well as scavenging other food (burned crusts, raw sheel - this can be dangerous to eat, seaweed, fish) which is a nutritionally inadequate and unsafe diet. fitz mentions that burrich sees fitz “fed well enough to grow heartily,” but we can presume from fitz’s descriptions of daily life that he uses the word to mean burrich perceives fitz to be fed and the measure of “well enough” is clearly ambiguous. basically, anyone that’s eating burned crusts is not being fed well enough.

hunger is an inextricable part of fitz being forcibly removed from his mother. hunger drives fitz to steal sausages leading to burrich catching him red-handed (which burrich deals with by drinking and leaving fitz hungry for the rest of the day) and forcibly removing nosy from him. hunger drives fitz to eat from the great hall’s leftovers where shrewd catches him and makes him the crown’s tool, forcibly removing fitz’s autonomy from himself. essentially, hunger in fitz’s childhood is a catalyst for life-ruining events. and knowing that food insecurity in early childhood is a predictor of depression and may contribute to substance abuse disorders and unhealthy attachments to caregivers, well it’s something to chew on.

[meiinoe]

i miss them </3

[bowiestarzzz]

This was yuri

[meiinoe]

the royal adviser