moira @membranemutiny - Tumblr Blog

Hello...

Im technically new to this side of tumblr, but not to the online ed community, and not to tumblr, so :) please don’t report just block- i just want to use this blog as a diary for both my ed & vents and also just... my hobbies lol

TWs AND WARNINGS;

I’ll post a lot about my ED of course, so please be warned about that the most, as those vents might be the most graphic. Besides that, the TW should be on the post or within the tags itself, as I don’t post about many other things often. just looking for a community who understands and a place to vent :]

STATS;

Height; 164cm

SW; 60kgs

CW; 47.60GW; 43.0UGW; 37.7

#ed #eating disorder #ed not sheeran #thinsp0 #thinspii #tw disordered eating #tw ana relapse #tw ana diary #tw restrictive ed #pr04nn4 #pr0ana diet #pr0anna #th11n$po #th11n$p0 #th1n$po

I’m trying really hard to not get upset but holy shit it just feels like everyone hates me. Friends of 5-6 years are getting tired of me, my co-workers can’t stand me & I’m trying really hard to get better at my job so at least I’m bearable and they never help, and at school I’m only used for notes and essay review and club activities but I don’t actually have any friends irl beyond one who I’m afraid of losing, & I’m exhausted and want to cry like.

Idk what to do idk how to get people to like me literally what the fuck am I doing wrong I don’t get it

I’m trying really hard to not show how angry I’ve been, or how upset I’ve been over all of this or how alone I’ve felt but like I just ugh

#vent #I’m just so upset #sometimes it doesn’t even feel like my bf likes me #and recently that has partially been my fault I’ve been so tired #and so tired of everyone else #but like idk #stfu stfu stfu stfu #AHHHHHHH #:(#I’m just really upset

Grrr I want this mf to pay me for my notes so I can hurry up and get vanilla protein shakes I accidentally got the wrong flavor for one of them and got mocha instead of chocolate

I’m trying to not be pissed off when bf says don’t overdo it and be careful bc I know he means well but like 😭 how do I lose weight if I don’t overdo it?

I feel bad I know it’s the ed brain rn but I can’t even formulate a response I’m so >:|???

r0tt1ng-c0rp3z

I love fall and winter, it's the perfect time to romanticize my ed, drinking coffee and spending my whole day listening to music and drawing with a lit candle on the table next to me, surviving off of monster and coffee,

I was being over dramatic lol he likes my patch on my bag everything’s good :)

More than anything I hate my job, I hate it, I hate it. I wonder if people hate me that much too

Is everyone tired of me lol

disturbedlolita

Purging pizza is disgusting. Why did I eat it in the first place? I’m miserable now.

#tw ana diary

This is the diet I decided to follow btw! First day went so well, ended at 360 cal, and c/s a drumstick to get rid of cravings. Tomorrow I know my main meal is gonna be a bagel with cream cheese after my lecture, so I’m looking forward to it!

#tw ana diary

09/18

im so pissed off the muscle relaxers make you bloat like no tomorrow. even though all I've had today was 360cal and I c/s a chicken drumstick to get rid of cravings im still so BLOATED!!! WHY!!

#tw ana diary

I don’t know why my coworkers don’t like me so much but it’s to the point it’s debilitating our teamwork. Like. Am I that off putting? What am I doing wrong? I’d like to be able to fix it lol. Please tel me so I can fix it and we can at least be friendly.