you don’t realize how important lunch is until you’re wandering around thinking about how unloveable and untalented and uniquely cursed you are and then it’s 4pm and you finally eat lunch and you go Oh. oh right.
lot of people commenting on this post like "who eats lunch at 4pm that's a terrible time to eat lunch" yes. that is the point. 4pm lunch is inadvisable. 4pm lunch is not the ideal. 4pm lunch makes the mind demons real.
(You can make really good easy peanut butter cookies using just a cup of sugar, a cup of peanut butter, and an egg - the sugar provides the sugar, the peanut butter provides the flavor and oil/butter, and the egg proteins hold it together - but I want to push the boundaries of this recipe, so)
i loooove little moments of human connection. i love it when a stranger has something good happen to them and you get to be a part of the celebration for a moment. i love it when it starts raining and you and a stranger get to say wow its really coming down out there! i love it when something happens and you and a stranger get to share a look. i will never see you again but we did experience something together and for just a moment we were a pair! i genuinely live for that shit
if you’re offline or away and i message you something (like a link to a meme or a picture or w/e) honestly just assume that i’m just leaving it there for when you get back and not expecting you to answer straight away. i don’t need you to respond with “hey, sorry, i wasn’t at the computer!” or anything. i was leaving u a gift for later.
This also applies if you’re online and just don’t want to or have the energy to deal with humans in the moment. Just because we have the ability to reply in real time does not mean we have the obligation.
seriously tho, that’s how the internet was intended to be, just in general. you reply to things when you get to it. idk how the HELL that ended up turning into a culture of constant availability, but that’s not how it was meant to work. constant availability is unhealthy.
I always say my DMs are a bulletin board, not a phone call. We come back to the conversation whenever, it doesn’t have to stop and start only when we’re both there. Something really joyous about walking up to a huge message from your pal replying to the huge message you sent them before sleep!
My rule of thumb is always “if it’s not time-sensitive it’s not time-sensitive”.
A message saying “hi how’s it going” or “want to get coffee sometime” or just generally chatting doesn’t come with a deadline attached. I never expect someone to get back to me within a given time frame unless that’s specified in the message (like, I’m inviting someone to a party and I need to know if they’re coming by a certain date so I know how many people to plan for, or I’m visiting the town they live in on a certain week and I want to know whether they’d like to hang out.)
Furthermore I’d rather hear back from someone a year after I sent the original message than not hear back from them at all because they were embarrassed about replying “late”. Far as I’m concerned if the message is just conversational and isn’t literally time-sensitive in any way, there’s no such thing as late.
writing a canon divergent fix-it fic while also shaking my head to show that i actually really like the canon's tragic narrative and am not trying to say i think it would be better if canon was like this
i appreciate what we got. i understand the limitations. i had fun watching it. i am also happy many people accepted and loved it and found meaning in it
however (spoilers under the cut)
the ending is not for me. i do not think this story had to turn into a story of great sacrifice for the sake of humanity to communicate its message, though it is interesting to tell this story along with the literal second coming going on in the background
it doesn't sit right with me. there were better ways, in my opinion, to conclude the story about choosing the world and humanity, about free will and how our choices concerning ourselves matter more than what we are told we must be. Crowley's speech about how he wants a world with free will doesn't sound like the same Crowley to me because the Crowley i knew already lives in a world like that. he was there when in season 1 we were shown, (through mostly Adam, especially in the book, but also other characters), that free will was already a thing people had within this universe. and i do not think the New Universe necessarily guarantees free will in ways that the Old Universe did not. yes, sure, now supernatural beings cannot influence humans, however the show has told us before, multiple times, that one barely had to do anything to make humans do evil. or good, for that matter. they did it all on their own
i also find it unfair to blame those who care about the show for caring about the central relationship and their arguably deserved happy ending. the book wasn't really about these two, that is true. however, the adaptation made them into the main characters, evident by the amount of screen time and a&c-centered ending of s1 (or the entirety of s2). it is a story about loving humanity and choosing to fight for this world instead of running away, and their relationship and conflicts are central to the storytelling. if anything, by making the culmination of the story be that these two characters, alone, saved everything in existence... you centre these two even more than, say, season 1 already did
i, personally, will always care more about stories where characters save the world by *living* more than the stories where characters do that by *sacrificing their lives*. not all stories should be like that, obviously. there are many stories that need bad, bitter-sweet, sad endings to be told properly. but i hoped for this story to be the former. it easily could have been the former
yes, their decision saved the world. their decision also, retroactively, doesn't really exist, just like they don't exist. i enjoyed the cute human AU bit in the end. the "they would find each other in every universe" bit. i laughed and i smiled. but ultimately, to me, this ending renders the story i cared about for years... unimportant. it is not sad or bittersweet to me. it leaves the same aftertaste as a "it was all a dream" ending would have