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//中文/Eng/Fr// Adult-in-denial in the midst of an existential crisis. Currently at the cottage. (Fandom side blog.) See Masterlist here. Visit me on AO3

[mindlesslittlefreak]

what is a writer, if not a miserable little pile of ideas and half written google docs

[merakilyy]

Lessons in Two-Factor Authentication

Summary:

Boodram: Rozy how the fuck do you get your google docs hacked Dykstra: In his defense, who the fuck hacks into google docs? Holmberg: Roz why are you using your work email for groceries????

Or: Ilya Rozanov's gmail gets hacked in February 2021. To everyone's surprise, they find zero sex tapes, one Shane Hollander-shaped grocery list, and one list of travel notes.

~~~

Breaking News: MLH Star Ilya Rozanov’s Phone Hacked! See the Salacious Details Below

The captain of the Ottawa Centaurs is in hot water after private documents from his phone have just been leaked. The Centaurs, famously the worst team in the League, have had an unexpectedly eventful season beginning with the sudden addition of Troy Barrett to their roster in November, followed by a close call after their plane engine caught fire in January. Since then, the team has been on a roll with a shot at making the playoffs for the first time in over a decade. Will their Captain’s scandalous private life bring an end to their lucky streak? An anonymous source tells us more [...]

Comments:

Guest user: there’s nothing salacious?? It’s just a grocery list and some travel notes???

Guest user: op isn’t wrong but travel notes is a little reductive when Rozanov calls Montreal “a city of cucks like Constantinople in 1453”

Guest user: Ain’t no way op just called hundreds of words of Montreal slander “some travel notes”

Continue reading on AO3.

[merakilyy]

Lessons in Two-Factor Authentication

Summary:

Boodram: Rozy how the fuck do you get your google docs hacked Dykstra: In his defense, who the fuck hacks into google docs? Holmberg: Roz why are you using your work email for groceries????

Or: Ilya Rozanov's gmail gets hacked in February 2021. To everyone's surprise, they find zero sex tapes, one Shane Hollander-shaped grocery list, and one list of travel notes.

~~~

Breaking News: MLH Star Ilya Rozanov’s Phone Hacked! See the Salacious Details Below

The captain of the Ottawa Centaurs is in hot water after private documents from his phone have just been leaked. The Centaurs, famously the worst team in the League, have had an unexpectedly eventful season beginning with the sudden addition of Troy Barrett to their roster in November, followed by a close call after their plane engine caught fire in January. Since then, the team has been on a roll with a shot at making the playoffs for the first time in over a decade. Will their Captain’s scandalous private life bring an end to their lucky streak? An anonymous source tells us more [...]

Comments:

Guest user: there’s nothing salacious?? It’s just a grocery list and some travel notes???

Guest user: op isn’t wrong but travel notes is a little reductive when Rozanov calls Montreal “a city of cucks like Constantinople in 1453”

Guest user: Ain’t no way op just called hundreds of words of Montreal slander “some travel notes”

Continue reading on AO3.

[merakilyy]

Lessons in Two-Factor Authentication

Summary:

Boodram: Rozy how the fuck do you get your google docs hacked Dykstra: In his defense, who the fuck hacks into google docs? Holmberg: Roz why are you using your work email for groceries????

Or: Ilya Rozanov's gmail gets hacked in February 2021. To everyone's surprise, they find zero sex tapes, one Shane Hollander-shaped grocery list, and one list of travel notes.

~~~

Breaking News: MLH Star Ilya Rozanov’s Phone Hacked! See the Salacious Details Below

The captain of the Ottawa Centaurs is in hot water after private documents from his phone have just been leaked. The Centaurs, famously the worst team in the League, have had an unexpectedly eventful season beginning with the sudden addition of Troy Barrett to their roster in November, followed by a close call after their plane engine caught fire in January. Since then, the team has been on a roll with a shot at making the playoffs for the first time in over a decade. Will their Captain’s scandalous private life bring an end to their lucky streak? An anonymous source tells us more [...]

Comments:

Guest user: there’s nothing salacious?? It’s just a grocery list and some travel notes???

Guest user: op isn’t wrong but travel notes is a little reductive when Rozanov calls Montreal “a city of cucks like Constantinople in 1453”

Guest user: Ain’t no way op just called hundreds of words of Montreal slander “some travel notes”

Continue reading on AO3.

[viktor-the-leshen]

[void-chorus]

[ID: tweet by @/pookiednp, text reads: i really don't like how so much social media activism is focused on “do this or you're a bad person" instead of “do this because it's going to help people" /end ID]

[merakilyy]

Building A Home

Montreal, November 2018

“Canadians are terrifying,” Ilya gasps, bursting into Shane’s downtown Montreal apartment — Shane’s actual apartment and not their sex building. Ilya slams the door shut with his back and leans against the frame, taking large, dramatic breaths as if he had been chased by loons up all 38 flights of stairs leading up to Shane’s unit.

“I told you not to go to that grocery store.” Shane sat at his kitchen counter, back facing Ilya as he took notes while an Edmonton-Toronto game played on his tablet. He was undoubtedly studying for Montreal’s upcoming game against Toronto.

“Is grocery store on Monday,” Ilya huffed, making no move to take off his jacket or snow boots. “Why are Canadians fighting over disgusting canned beer on a Monday. Do Canadians have no jobs? Too boring to work?”

“I told you to go to the Chinese grocer a few blocks away.”

“There is construction.”

“This is Montreal. There’s always construction.”

“It’s too far to walk with construction.”

Shane finally paused the game on his screen, spun in his chair to look at Ilya hugging a 12-pack of ginger ale for dear life, and raised an eyebrow. “The Chinese grocery store is only a 10 minute walk away and they’re cheaper.”

“You are multi-millionaire Mr. Real Estate and second best hockey player in MLH,” Ilya huffed, finally toeing off his shoes and joining Shane in the kitchen. He set the ginger ale on the counter and, standing by Shane’s bar stool, wrapped an arm around Shane’s waist.

“Oh, fuck you,” Shane said affectionately before catching Ilya’s lips in a kiss. His freckles popped against the faint red dusting his cheeks which made Ilya’s heart jump, knowing Shane held onto these small acts of affection.

Continue reading on AO3.

Other titles I considered: A review of Montreal-area grocery stores disguised as fic Reasons why Montreal is a stupid city 5 times hollanov stood 2 metres apart because they're not gay + 1 time they hold hands because they're super gay How many Canadian-isms can I fit in one fic An exploration of Asian diasporic identity but fun

[merakilyy]

Building A Home

Montreal, November 2018

“Canadians are terrifying,” Ilya gasps, bursting into Shane’s downtown Montreal apartment — Shane’s actual apartment and not their sex building. Ilya slams the door shut with his back and leans against the frame, taking large, dramatic breaths as if he had been chased by loons up all 38 flights of stairs leading up to Shane’s unit.

“I told you not to go to that grocery store.” Shane sat at his kitchen counter, back facing Ilya as he took notes while an Edmonton-Toronto game played on his tablet. He was undoubtedly studying for Montreal’s upcoming game against Toronto.

“Is grocery store on Monday,” Ilya huffed, making no move to take off his jacket or snow boots. “Why are Canadians fighting over disgusting canned beer on a Monday. Do Canadians have no jobs? Too boring to work?”

“I told you to go to the Chinese grocer a few blocks away.”

“There is construction.”

“This is Montreal. There’s always construction.”

“It’s too far to walk with construction.”

Shane finally paused the game on his screen, spun in his chair to look at Ilya hugging a 12-pack of ginger ale for dear life, and raised an eyebrow. “The Chinese grocery store is only a 10 minute walk away and they’re cheaper.”

“You are multi-millionaire Mr. Real Estate and second best hockey player in MLH,” Ilya huffed, finally toeing off his shoes and joining Shane in the kitchen. He set the ginger ale on the counter and, standing by Shane’s bar stool, wrapped an arm around Shane’s waist.

“Oh, fuck you,” Shane said affectionately before catching Ilya’s lips in a kiss. His freckles popped against the faint red dusting his cheeks which made Ilya’s heart jump, knowing Shane held onto these small acts of affection.

Continue reading on AO3.

Other titles I considered: A review of Montreal-area grocery stores disguised as fic Reasons why Montreal is a stupid city 5 times hollanov stood 2 metres apart because they're not gay + 1 time they hold hands because they're super gay How many Canadian-isms can I fit in one fic An exploration of Asian diasporic identity but fun

[merakilyy]

Building A Home

Montreal, November 2018

“Canadians are terrifying,” Ilya gasps, bursting into Shane’s downtown Montreal apartment — Shane’s actual apartment and not their sex building. Ilya slams the door shut with his back and leans against the frame, taking large, dramatic breaths as if he had been chased by loons up all 38 flights of stairs leading up to Shane’s unit.

“I told you not to go to that grocery store.” Shane sat at his kitchen counter, back facing Ilya as he took notes while an Edmonton-Toronto game played on his tablet. He was undoubtedly studying for Montreal’s upcoming game against Toronto.

“Is grocery store on Monday,” Ilya huffed, making no move to take off his jacket or snow boots. “Why are Canadians fighting over disgusting canned beer on a Monday. Do Canadians have no jobs? Too boring to work?”

“I told you to go to the Chinese grocer a few blocks away.”

“There is construction.”

“This is Montreal. There’s always construction.”

“It’s too far to walk with construction.”

Shane finally paused the game on his screen, spun in his chair to look at Ilya hugging a 12-pack of ginger ale for dear life, and raised an eyebrow. “The Chinese grocery store is only a 10 minute walk away and they’re cheaper.”

“You are multi-millionaire Mr. Real Estate and second best hockey player in MLH,” Ilya huffed, finally toeing off his shoes and joining Shane in the kitchen. He set the ginger ale on the counter and, standing by Shane’s bar stool, wrapped an arm around Shane’s waist.

“Oh, fuck you,” Shane said affectionately before catching Ilya’s lips in a kiss. His freckles popped against the faint red dusting his cheeks which made Ilya’s heart jump, knowing Shane held onto these small acts of affection.

Continue reading on AO3.

Other titles I considered: A review of Montreal-area grocery stores disguised as fic Reasons why Montreal is a stupid city 5 times hollanov stood 2 metres apart because they're not gay + 1 time they hold hands because they're super gay How many Canadian-isms can I fit in one fic An exploration of Asian diasporic identity but fun

[cloudabserk]

he was bracing himself for bad news

[drpanda99]

[Podfic] 拔根补种 || Uprooted, Replanted

Thanks to merakily for giving me permission to record this pod!

Rating: General Audiences

Fandoms: 陈情令 | The Untamed (TV), 魔道祖师 - 墨香铜臭 | Módào Zǔshī - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù

Relationships: Lán Jǐngyí & Lán Qǐrén, Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī/Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn

Additional Tags: wangxian is very background, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Family Feels, Diaspora, China, Generation Gap, Family Bonding, Good Uncle Lán Qǐrén, Jingyi is Wangxian's child, Podfic, Mandarin-speaking reader, Podfic Length: 20-30 Minutes

Collections: Red Seafarers (Voiceteam 2023 Team Red C), MXTX Chinese Diaspora Event: May 2023, Danmei Diaspora Creatives

Summary:

On a trip to China, Jingyi learns about the family he never sees and connects with his great uncle. ~~~ ‘You should practice your Chinese with your tang-ge,” Lan Qiren says, casually slipping the correct Chinese term for cousin into their conversation. “It’s a shame that Lan Zhan doesn’t converse in Chinese with you.”

“We speak Chinese at home,” Jingyi is quick to defend, even though the eclectic mixture of Chinglish they use at home is most definitely not what his shugong means by “speaking Chinese.”

Click here to listen!

[pumpkinpaix]

Chapter Spotlight 6:

"Vibe Checks: Chinese Overseas Labor as a Prerequisite Activism to Participation in Anglophone Chen Qing Ling Fan Communities" by Tina Tianyi Liu

Describe your topic/chapter in one sentence/one meme/140 characters.

My chapter is the result of one (1) pandemic's worth of trying to logic myself out of an identity crisis over my "Chineseness."

Was there anything you were surprised to discover while researching?

This was the first time where I realized that I might be more of a labour theorist than a critical race theorist. I'm still having a scholarly identity crisis over it.

If there’s one thing you hope the fandom takes away from your article, what would it be?

Cross-cultural communication is very complicated and multifaceted, and sensitivity checkers within Anglophone Chinese drama fandoms are semi-regularly at each others' throats.

Favorite adaptation, if any?

No competition: MDZS Q. What's better than adorable, unhinged chibis?

If you were isekai-ed into MDZS/CQL, what sect affiliation would you choose and why?

Lan, because I want Lan Qiren as a teacher.

Who's your favorite character?

Lan Qiren is my favourite character, but Lan Jingyi is a close second. I will (and have) subjected poor innocents to impromptu essays on why Lan Qiren is not a bad uncle.

Why am I so defensive of Lan Qiren?

Because I have been brainwashed by this fic and this meta.

Anything to say to potential readers of the collection?

Coming from an academic librarian: Talk to your local librarian to purchase a copy (or 3) of this collection for your community or university :3

(FAQ) (all posts on Catching Chen Qing Ling)

[moveslikekeithrichards]

doing my damnedest to free myself of the “just gotta get through this week” “only x more days til the weekend” mindset & learn to appreciate each day for whatever it is lest i be driven to madness

[moveslikekeithrichards]

so what if tomorrows monday i have leftovers & maybe this week i will make soup. maybe ill see a cat. maybe each day will show me something worthwhile even if im tired & maybe i can enjoy it

[moveslikekeithrichards]

if u are negative on this post im blocking u ! some of us are trying to get better

[merakilyy]

拔根补种 || Uprooted, Replanted

On a trip to China, Jingyi learns about the family he never sees and connects with his great uncle.

(”You should practice your Chinese with your tang-ge,” Lan Qiren says, casually slipping the correct Chinese term for cousin into their conversation. “It’s a shame that Lan Zhan doesn’t converse in Chinese with you.”

“We speak Chinese at home,” Jingyi is quick to defend, even though the eclectic mixture of Chinglish they use at home is most definitely not what his shugong means by “speaking Chinese.”)

Tags: Background Wangxian, Modern AU, family feels, Chinese diaspora, briding the generational and cultural gap, family bonding, good uncle Lan Qiren, Jingyi is Wangxian’s child

~~~

The problem is, Lan Jingyi thinks as he sits across from a great uncle on a street he doesn’t recognize in Suzhou, his rudimentary Mandarin skills that have gotten him through Chinese dinner parties back at home in Canada are woefully inadequate when it comes to trying to converse with people who don’t actually speak any English. He likes his great uncle, but he has no idea how to talk to his great uncle.

“Shugong,” Jingyi says, internally wincing at just how white his accent sounds. His tongue doesn’t curl the right way when it comes to the ong sound, and he’s only mostly sure that this is his shugong and not his bogong.

“En,” Shugong responds with a smile. “This must be very different from Canada.”

Jingyi is in China because a cousin he’s met two times over the seventeen years he’s been alive is going to be attending a university in Canada.

“The elders want to see you,” his father had said, even as he made plans in fifteen different cities to meet up with old friends and classmates along the way.

What was supposed to be a short, week-long trip to pick up said cousin turned into a two month extended vacation to parade Jingyi in front of all the relatives he’s never met.

Continue reading on AO3~~

[merakilyy]

拔根补种 || Uprooted, Replanted

On a trip to China, Jingyi learns about the family he never sees and connects with his great uncle.

(”You should practice your Chinese with your tang-ge,” Lan Qiren says, casually slipping the correct Chinese term for cousin into their conversation. “It’s a shame that Lan Zhan doesn’t converse in Chinese with you.”

“We speak Chinese at home,” Jingyi is quick to defend, even though the eclectic mixture of Chinglish they use at home is most definitely not what his shugong means by “speaking Chinese.”)

Tags: Background Wangxian, Modern AU, family feels, Chinese diaspora, briding the generational and cultural gap, family bonding, good uncle Lan Qiren, Jingyi is Wangxian’s child

~~~

The problem is, Lan Jingyi thinks as he sits across from a great uncle on a street he doesn’t recognize in Suzhou, his rudimentary Mandarin skills that have gotten him through Chinese dinner parties back at home in Canada are woefully inadequate when it comes to trying to converse with people who don’t actually speak any English. He likes his great uncle, but he has no idea how to talk to his great uncle.

“Shugong,” Jingyi says, internally wincing at just how white his accent sounds. His tongue doesn’t curl the right way when it comes to the ong sound, and he’s only mostly sure that this is his shugong and not his bogong.

“En,” Shugong responds with a smile. “This must be very different from Canada.”

Jingyi is in China because a cousin he’s met two times over the seventeen years he’s been alive is going to be attending a university in Canada.

“The elders want to see you,” his father had said, even as he made plans in fifteen different cities to meet up with old friends and classmates along the way.

What was supposed to be a short, week-long trip to pick up said cousin turned into a two month extended vacation to parade Jingyi in front of all the relatives he’s never met.

Continue reading on AO3~~

[merakilyy]

拔根补种 || Uprooted, Replanted

On a trip to China, Jingyi learns about the family he never sees and connects with his great uncle.

(”You should practice your Chinese with your tang-ge,” Lan Qiren says, casually slipping the correct Chinese term for cousin into their conversation. “It’s a shame that Lan Zhan doesn’t converse in Chinese with you.”

“We speak Chinese at home,” Jingyi is quick to defend, even though the eclectic mixture of Chinglish they use at home is most definitely not what his shugong means by “speaking Chinese.”)

Tags: Background Wangxian, Modern AU, family feels, Chinese diaspora, briding the generational and cultural gap, family bonding, good uncle Lan Qiren, Jingyi is Wangxian’s child

~~~

The problem is, Lan Jingyi thinks as he sits across from a great uncle on a street he doesn’t recognize in Suzhou, his rudimentary Mandarin skills that have gotten him through Chinese dinner parties back at home in Canada are woefully inadequate when it comes to trying to converse with people who don’t actually speak any English. He likes his great uncle, but he has no idea how to talk to his great uncle.

“Shugong,” Jingyi says, internally wincing at just how white his accent sounds. His tongue doesn’t curl the right way when it comes to the ong sound, and he’s only mostly sure that this is his shugong and not his bogong.

“En,” Shugong responds with a smile. “This must be very different from Canada.”

Jingyi is in China because a cousin he’s met two times over the seventeen years he’s been alive is going to be attending a university in Canada.

“The elders want to see you,” his father had said, even as he made plans in fifteen different cities to meet up with old friends and classmates along the way.

What was supposed to be a short, week-long trip to pick up said cousin turned into a two month extended vacation to parade Jingyi in front of all the relatives he’s never met.

Continue reading on AO3~~

[wangxianficrecs]

Seasons of Falling Flowers by merakily

Seasons of Falling Flowers

by merakily

G, 40k, wangxian, lan qiren & wei wuxian

[PODFIC] by Spinifex

Summary: Like a parasite, Wei Wuxian has this way of growing on people when you least expect it.

Over the seasons, Lan Qiren slowly pieces back together his relationship with Wangji and learns to like Wei Wuxian in the process.

(“Will you rejoin your sect?” As soon as the words leave his mouth, Lan Qiren regrets his wording.

He is not surprised when Wangji’s eyes narrow, flashing with offence. “There is no need to rejoin what one has never left. I did not turn my back on my sect. My sect turned their backs on me.”)

My comments: This was a really interesting study of Lan Qiren, thoughtfully probing into his ideals and character, with all his strengths and flaws.

The story is from Lan Qiren’s POV and if he and wwx had been a ship you’d call it a veeerrry slowww burn enemies to friends. Seriously, it’s halfway through the story before Lan Qiren starts to understand that the people who like wwx and defend his choices and morality are anything other than besotted and mislead. He ponders a lot on the innate contradictions of Gusu Lan rules and how to internalize the spirit of them rather than the letter. At the midpoint, while begrudgingly tending to wwx’s cold (more out of fear of what would become of lwj if anything bad happened to wwx), lqr realizes that he has no golden core which explains SO MUCH and also sends him into a kind of crisis of faith while he tries to reconcile a bunch of mismatched, and often validly horrific, parts into something whole and honorable.

[There is a short sequel, Inconceivable, linked at the end, that shows a Conference where lqr defends wwx, and is very satisfying.]

Excerpt: Impressed, Lan Qiren slowly nods his assent as his mind churns with contradictory knowledge. You don’t know him, Xichen’s voice rings in his mind. Wei Ying is good, Wangji’s voice chimes in. And with everything he just heard, Lan Qiren wonders if he has misjudged Wei Wuxian’s heart.

From the start, he has seen Wei Wuxian as a trouble making, immoral cultivator unable to see past his own arrogance. For so long he has blamed Wei Wuxian for his demonic cultivation and for ruining Wangji that he had forgotten that Wei Wuxian is also a scholar and a very capable human being — when he wants to be.

post canon, POV lan qiren, character study, introspection, enemies to friends, in-laws, golden core reveal, prejudice, family feels, family issues, family bonding, lan qiren is good, and also bad, he’s an onion, and so is wei wuxian, good parent lan qiren, lan qiren has feelings, emotional baggage, protective lan wangji, protective lan xichen, grudges, forgiveness, slow burn, happy ending, podfic available, @merakilyy​

(You may wish to REBLOG as a signal boost for this author if you like – or think others might like – this story.)

[yutaan]

Emperor’s Smile is the most delicious!

A papercraft Wei Wuxian to go with the Lan Wangji I made a while back! This was actually commissioned specifically to match that other piece, and now they are comfortably situated in the same house, staring besottedly at each other forever. Romance!

The client requested Wei Wuxian’s design here be based more heavily on the novel than on the drama (which is the adaptation I’m more familiar with), so I got to have fun looking through all the different varieties of his design for research! His smile is a knockout in every incarnation.