Bore the shadows

[photos-or-inkblots]

ok but guys what are your guesses on SHIELD's seemingly infinite money source while underground and labeled a terrorist organization. the show never answered that question

[mercyandmountainwater]

Daisy is playing insane amounts of shuffle via assets.

She’s skinning small amounts off of every billionaire in the world and then funnelling it into offshore trading accounts (using shield info to game the market) then putting it into bank accounts in Switzerland and the Canary Islands before sending the shield agents to take the money out and exchange it for gold bars that they stash around the world.

[mercyandmountainwater]

the idea of the people of earth thinking that the Bloodymary Hail Mary logs are a horror story.

We send three people to space and two of them die and one of them’s alive. He has amnesia. He meets an alien rock spider and saves the earth and that’s all weird but mostly in the realm of possibility.

Except there’s someone in the background. It can’t be human. There’s no way that a human could find themselves that deep in space without people knowing so it’s either resembling a human by some strange coincidence or it looks like a human on purpose.

This not-human thing never shows its face. Everyone and then you see something that looks just off and people claim they see folks or tree bark but it’s too far away and the camera is too bad to tell.

Grace acts like he’s human. Like there’s always been another human on the ship. The poor fool has no idea that there’s something wrong.

[mercyandmountainwater]

this might be a weird question but I’m a little confused as to why Akemi is so against the blackening of her teeth?

From my surface level looking ohaguro was the practice for noble women at the time and wouldn’t go out of practice for another 200 years. I’ve also seen that it could prevent tooth decay though I don’t know if anyone at the time knew it. Being from as high a ranking family as she is wouldn’t every woman in her social circle have blackened teeth?

[thereal-sillyguy]

I've talked abt this with mutuals but a lot of Bloodymary shippers seem to not understand that PTSD flashback reactions aren't exclusively violent. Not every PTSD flashback has a follow-up reaction of violence or attacking someone & thats my issue. Idgaf if you write the violent flashbacks but I kinda start to side-eye you when they're the ONLY type you write.

Like, guy with PTSD here and guy who knows a lot of ppl with PTSD I have found it is way more common to Fawn or Freeze / Flight. Half of the time the violent reaction is an initial "create distance", not the strangulation that you guys like 2 write.

And I'm talking as a guy who HAS had a violent reaction in an almost-strangled-someone.

The moment my hand was near their throat I snapped out of that part specifically really fast and grabbed their shirt and yelled at them instead (because they did deserve it; the only reason I REACTED like that was because they had done something that was very adjacent to when I had gotten jumped) because I'm still aware enough of myself.

Half of the time when I have a flashback I either freeze or flee, and a lot of the time my "fight" is yelling at / getting angry with someone, which doesn't even happen that often.

You can have ur drama without a character strangling another; and I've seen this in SEVERAL fandoms where the characters would have PTSD and it kinda pisses me off because it feels like you guys r just villianizing the fuck out of PTSD and trauma responses in general.

Oh & also you guys rarely write Grace having a proper PTSD flashback from like. a majority of the fics I've read?? Where the fuck did his trauma go

If this doesn't make sense idk I dont rlly gaf I'm tired and annoyed LMAO. Ur free to ask clarifying questions but I'm not gunna reply to any "well what about" comments or reblogs.

[mercyandmountainwater]

There was a famous greys anatomy scene from 2011 where a former soldier has a ptsd flashback and strangles his partner and the was the beginning of his PTSD Storyline. It was either playing into or helping build the cultural image of ptsd being related to Military service (I wasn’t really on the pulse at the time). I would theorize that that plot beat was probably big enough and explored enough online that it disseminated into other fandoms.

[mercyandmountainwater]

I’ve yet to see a bloodymary fic where Simon hears that Grace was in a coma and then immediately goes. “Oh no this poor researcher has no idea about the Quiet Rapture because it happened while he was asleep.” Then Rocky mentions how he’s been gone from his planet for decades and internally Simons inner monologue is…

Oh No these incredibly kind people have no idea that there isn’t a planet to get back too. We are stuck in a research vessel with dwindling resources, no allies, and I have no idea how these two will react to realizing how fucked we are but I’ve already pack bonded and now I need to keep all of us alive.”

[mercyandmountainwater]

my only contribution to bloodymary (at least til watching the movies) will be as follows.

You ever think of how matted Simon’s hair must be? Loose and full of sweat and grime and blood. How long it would take to dematt? How it would be absolutely impossible for in injured man with one arm to do so?

Think about the fact that to clean it Ryland would have to be bent over Simon who would probably be leaning or kneeling. Simon who’d have to tilt his head back into a bowl of water and show Grace his entire neck while Grace manipulates him like a rag doll.

How even afterwards Simon would probably need help brushing or braiding said hair and would just have to ask Grace for help and let Grace take care of him.

[mercyandmountainwater]

me describing Shane Hollander: Yeah so technically this version of Shane was essentially created through strange ritual means that caused the original Shane to go through a sort of magical mitosis. He doesn’t know what he actually took with him and what the other Shane kept. He definitely got the Hockey but he’s a little unsure if he has a soul. Still he’s the one who inherited the mantle of Shane Hollander and feels like that must be worth something so he never thinks about his trauma and really doesn’t work to form new bonds because everything’s temporary Y’know. No he still talks to his ‘brother’ fairly often. Guy had a bit of a breakdown in his early twenties but right now he’s doing awesome. Some friends, a dating life, decent job, magical adventures in the weekends. They both tell each other about their epic lives and Shane was terrified for years that he’d be jealous of Shane’s fame and doesn’t know what to do with that fact that he isn’t. That all his friends who decided to have their own magical strange lives accomplished a lot less on paper but still have each other and are happy and Shane isn’t sure he is.

[mercyandmountainwater]

People are talking about Swaisy and all I can think of is Post Hive! Daisy that starts acting a lot more like Cal.

Cal like most AOS characters has some form of mental illness that is unnamed/connected to superhero stuff but his comic book supervillain name was literally Mr Hyde. It isn’t a leap to say that he had some kind of severe mental illness/disorder that was triggered/developed due to canon events.

Then take Daisy who is in her Mid Twenties and just had her Brain Chemistry severely fucked with and a Family History of mental disorders. It’s kind of the perfect storm.

She’s definitely got PTSD but while on the run maybe she realizes there’s something happening that she doesn’t understand. She might be losing time or having strange dissociative fits or hearing things that aren’t there. The isolation isn’t helping nor the crippling guilt but sometimes when she’s alone she sees her father’s manic eyes staring at her from the mirror and she thinks it’s just the price you pay for wanting so hard to have someplace to come from. That you’ll drag it forward with you forever.

[mercyandmountainwater]

Shane Hollander thinks he’s bad at being queer until he joins some sort of gay intramural sport/outdoor hiking/nature group and starts having a blast.

They get to focus on doing a thing at first so he doesn’t worry about saying the wrong thing to strangers and being awkward but then as time goes on he realizes he’s making friends. Group is way more diverse gender and sexuality wise, mostly butch/trans even if he doesn’t clock that immediately.

Shane’s favourite thing is hockey but he can connect with people on other topics (ex Rose). He enjoys both the community but also the chance to have something that isn’t hockey/ilya/buisness. He’s the one player that fully understands neo pronouns and that’s because his friends Leaf uses zi/zir.

C’mon Ilya I know I’ve told you about Leaf. Zi gave us that honey from zirs apiary. Yes Axel is a lesbian, yes Axel uses he/him. Why are you surprised, it’s not that weird?

[mercyandmountainwater]

thinking about the post I saw where Ilya and Svetlana/Shane and Rose are platonic soulmates and how interesting that would be.

Your soulmate in this world is both someone very similar to you but also a person who can push you to be who you want to be. Platonic soulmates are normal therefore it’s likely there are a lot of queer people out there who pretend they have a ‘Platonic’ soulmate. They’re just best friends who live together and don’t find spouses and are buried in adjoining plots. Being queer and soulmates is a weird way of giving you protections but if you aren’t soulmates you’re out of luck. As queer rights and recognition moves forward people do start to question these platonic bonds though.

Scott and Kip are soulmates it was obvious to them that it wasn’t platonic but if it becomes clear that Scott’s soulmate is an openly gay man that gets dangerous for everyone involved.

Ilya and Svetlana are platonic soulmates who are really sexually compatible and best friends so they’re both just pretending that they just like being wild and free in their twenties and assume they’ll eventually get the urge to settle down (neither of them wants a picket fence but hey they have a great soulmate so what’s the worry?)

Rose meanwhile is super lonely and tired of these flings and then meets her soulmate! He’s an absolute Adonis but more than that he’s a sweetheart and funny and respects her and she thinks she doesn’t have to worry about dating anymore.

Shane proved to himself that he’s at least a Kinsey 5! His soulmate is a movie star and is almost instantly his best friend and sure the sex is awkward and he feels really weird and bad afterwards but it’s been a long time since he’s slept with a woman. He’s just rusty. It’s him and Rose forever now and they’ll be happy. He’ll finally have enough in his life.

[mercyandmountainwater]

Really like that you guys are leaning into Shane Hollander Ares Kid because that’s honestly kind of interesting.

Firstly because now he and ilya both have bad dads except Shane’s bio dad is a god and also more importantly someone he’s met a handful of times. He’s so much David’s boy that he’d forget he wasn’t mortal if being a demigod wasn’t such a nuisance.

This also means he has Clarissa La rue and Frank Zhang for siblings which is fun because Frank and Shane are pretty alike but Clarissa put beside the two of them very much isn’t.

Thirdly because whether Shane is actively making the choice to present as this very good boy of hockey or whether that’s a framing the MLH cooked up it means that’s even more complex because he’s fitting or being fit into this model minority standard and classified as nice and noncombative all while being the son of a war god doing modern day gladatorial sport. Either he’s actively rejecting Ares or he’s just existing as himself and watching people not be able to see it.

[mercyandmountainwater]

If Shane Hollander was a demigod who would his Godly parent be

Athena/Minerva

Aphrodite/Venus

Ares/Mars

Hephaestus/Vulcan

Apollo

Persephone/Proserpina

Demeter/Ceres

Hermes/Mercury

Dionysus/Bacchus

I’m Bald/insert other choice in comment

Voting ended onMay 19

[mercyandmountainwater]

@miles-2-go-before-i-sleep

Soo I don’t know a lot about hockey yet. I’ve just started following the PWHL. But I can see a few things that might affect it.

A) there’s the reputation. Ottawa has never been a historic team. They’re new and undecirated and far away from the action. That combined with most players having been given the boot means that they are super demoralized.

B) Ottawa’s whole take whatever good players were offered thing sounds great but just because a player is good doesn’t always mean that they’re a good fit. Their biggest problem for a while is that they don’t have a great goalie and even if the rest of the team is great that still means pucks are getting in the net.

C) probably some management. Having Rozanov as a captain and Wiebe as a coach really turned things around for them. The upper management might want to build things up a little but they’re not super involved or understanding of how to make Ottawa a great team.

D) Back to the coach thing I don’t think that Ottawa actually had a super accepting locker room… just a quieter one. A lot of things did not fly in Ottawa but no one was willing to actually break the ice and see what their other teammates think because maybe it’s like 30% super accepting people and 60% people who got booted for other reasons. 10% for the people who signed..

It’s only once Troy and Harris come around and everyone realizes that they don’t need to be worried about their teammates starting anything and that they can all be openly cool.

[mercyandmountainwater]

It’s important that you know that to me Shane had one super close friend in high school and that boy was his tutor.

He, like Shane, was a bit in the fringes of the school social order, one of the few kids of colour at the nice school, and as a scholarship student he got roped into tutoring hockey players. Shane was the only one he liked and they actually started sitting together at lunch.

One day Shane had finally saved up enough of his allowance to buy the boy, Marcus, a really cool art kit and gave it to him over lunch. Marcus was ecstatic and immediately wanted to use them so Shane just pushed up his sleeves and let Marcus doodle all over his arms.

there’s a picture somewhere of Shane half laying on a cafeteria table and staring up at a boy who had a marker in one hand and was holding onto Shane’s arm in the other. If it ever leaks Shane will be forced to realize that no, Marcus wasn’t just a buddy but it hasn’t happened yet.

[mercyandmountainwater]

I want to make a joke about Hayden Pike being from ‘berta but I look at that man and hear nothing but wind blowing through the wheat fields of Saskatchewan. He is from a town that had less then 5000 people, only feels comfortable when he can see everything for miles, and his favourite article of clothing is a bunny hug.

[mercyandmountainwater]

Shane Hollander doesn’t dance… not because he’s anxious and stiff (he is) but because he accidentally got trapped dancing in a fairy ring when he was around 20. He has no idea if he was there for months or years but when he returned to the mortal realm no time has past….

Yeah they didn’t have any food that matched his diet at the time so he just politely refused it all and eventually the ball ended. It was a lot of fun at the time but he doesn’t think the bacchanal adjacent free form dancing to a lute he does would fit with edm dance music.

[mercyandmountainwater]

we’ve talked about Ilya finding out he has a kid but what if Shane kind of had a secret kid?

So Shane is a good friend to this married couple. They’re nice people he’s known forever and they realize they need a sperm donor. They reach out because Shane’s a really successful healthy guy. He agrees, donates sperm, and the kiddo knows them as their uncle whom they like quite a bit.

It gets interesting when the kid realizes they are Shane Hollander’ spawn and yeah their dad’s their dad but Shane is like a bonus dad. They also have questions.

Thus a child shows up at the centaur rink claiming to be the illegitimate child of Shane Hollander and no one believes it until they tell Shane the name and Shane rushes out like his hair is in fire and asking the kid where their parents are before making several phone calls and missing the next day.