heeheehoohoo

I'm sooooo stable and also I'm a queer

[livingfictionsystem]

A lot of pop psychology gets thrown around and since I already have a headache, here's preventing you lot from making it worse.

Love-bombing: A manipulation tactic of increasing affection and grand gestures before or after doing something abusive, specifically to weasel one's way out of consequences.

What it is not: A streak of affection and generosity towards friends/loved ones.

Trauma-bonding: Knowingly traumatizing someone to take advantage of their vulnerable state, to then act like the "hero" or the one who cheers them up.

What it is not: Bonding over similar traumas.

Gaslighting: *Knowingly* convincing someone they cannot trust their own perception of a situation in pursuit of one's own narrative.

What it is not: Misaligned perception of events.

Narcissist: Someone afflicted with Narcissistic Personality Disorder, a traumagenic cluster B disorder, that struggles with self-obsession, paranoia, craving validity from the public, delusions of grandeur, and social disconnection.

It is not: Your rubbish ex that cheated on you.

Thank you for coming to my TED Talk.

-Xanthe

[luminarai]

listen, I’m not the biggest fan of kids but if a child looks at me then you bet I’m gonna smile back at them. kids deserve to experience the world as a kind and safe place to explore okay.

[scarlet00rose]

But the world is not kind or safe.

[citizen-zero]

then Fucking do your part to make it that way.

[fibro-memes]

[mewhenmentalillness]

No one sinks into quicksand anymore :/

This is what happens when we let vine growing get out of control. Bring back frail, un-swingable vines.

[yaoist]

i cannot possibly overstate the psychological damage of growing up being abused in a way that is considered so disgusting as to be literally unspeakable and treated as such.

[yaoist]

every single person on this website and everywhere else needs to take a long fucking look at how they talk about and think about csa and how it might fucking feel to have things that literally happened to you be considered so taboo that frank depictions are declared obscene or so disgusting so as to be talked about only in whispered tones

[yaoist]

CAN YOU EVEN BEGIN TO CONCEPTUALIZE THE MULTIPLICATION OF TRAUMA THAT COMES FROM YOUR ABUSE BEING TREATED LIKE RADIOACTIVE WASTE THAT MUST BE BURIED LEST IT CONTAMINATE OTHERS BY ITS VERY ACKNOWLEDGEMENT DESCRIPTION OR EXISTENCE

[roach-works]

i had friends on here that used to be very frank and open about their status as CSA survivors. because they insisted on talking about the subject frankly and with depth and nuance they were called pedophile apologists, which was quickly shortened just to pedos, and constantly harassed. one teenager specifically sent someone she knew to be a csa survivor links to triggering materials in an attempt to get them to reconsider being friends with me because i was also considered a pedo.

the way online spaces decided to Protect The Children from pedophilia has done no such thing, just like we warned you it wouldn't. instead it gave bullies and bigots a perfect label to slap onto any victim they wanted, at the direct expense of csa survivors everywhere. it's also been horrible for queer artists of all sorts. we have been saying this over and over for a decade at least.

im so fucking ANGRY

[honorarycassowary]

#i saw a really enlightening lecture about this#she asked questions like#are survivors allowed to make autobiographical works?#is it better or worse if survivors fictionalise their experiences?#why are they allowed to use some media but not others?#is it the responsibility of a creator or an audience to identify with the abuser or the abused in media?#does the absence of survivor media further isolate children who never get their own stories told?#who can't articulate what they experience or see survival in their future?

tags via boogerwookiesugarcookie

[feelin-frazzled]

Bold of you to assume I can tell apart gender envy, romantic, sexual, aesthetic, and platonic attraction

[feelin-frazzled]

Bold of you to assume I can tell apart gender envy, romantic, sexual, aesthetic, and platonic attraction

[feelin-frazzled]

Bold of you to assume I can tell apart gender envy, romantic, sexual, aesthetic, and platonic attraction

[radioactive-yuri]

"i love complex queer identities" you guys can't even handle aroallos.

[misgenderisms-deactivated202010]

emotional self-harm exists and is fucking horrible

[misgenderisms-deactivated202010]

going back to an ex you KNOW will hurt you? consuming media you KNOW that triggers you? isolating yourself when you KNOW you need help? that’s a form of self-harm and needs to be acknowledged first to get help.

[misgenderisms-deactivated202010]

to be clear; this isn’t a callout. this is recognizing that emotional self-harm is a form of harm.

take this as a gentle reminder that your pain is real, that you are heard, and, most of all, to reach out for help.

[mewhenmentalillness]

Do I like the fact they'll be cruel or the fact they'll say sorry

Do I actually like being degraded or do I like the way they'll reassure me that they didn't mean it

Do I actually like the idea of being hurt or do I like the idea of them kissing my bruises dispite them causing it all

Do I actually want to be dumb and useless or do I just fear I can't be more than that

Do I actually like being dirty or do I like the fact I'll be able to clean myself of it after

Am I just horny or is there a reason I can't imagine a soft and happy relationship outside of aftercare

[mewhenmentalillness]

I have such a hard time responding to people voicing their emotions because when I do it I'm trying to make it digestible through comedy and need people to laugh with/at me but I know most people don't want that for themself

[mewhenmentalillness]

A prophet bound to duty something something

Seeing how uncaring their god is as they look to the future to guidance only for it to be shrouded in pain something something

Not wanting to lie to their people, but knowing the harsh truth would only hurt more in the sea of darkness that awaits them so they knit vauge words with double meanings to try and bring hope that they know is misplaced

something something

[mewhenmentalillness]

Sorry, thinking about unimportant characterization ideas I'll never use.

"I'd die for you."

Vs.

"I'd kill for you."

Because they've been fighting their whole life, they've killed their whole life, they wanted to live.

Because they had to, there was no other way to survive the tragedy they'd been thrown into.

Because no amount of calming words or gentle touch that was haphazardly thrown their way, it never stuck, and they were right back were they started.

And they know, so deeply, they'd never see whatever heaven exists, they know, as soon as their laid to rest they'll suffer. They feel the flames lapping at their fists, clenched, shaking.

No amount of praying, no amount of begging would save them, because that anger and hatred twisting in their gut never rests.

They know they're damned, it's not in question.

They want to live, so desperately.

But maybe they want you to live just that little bit more.

But, on the other hand...

They'd die for you, of course.

A martyr, a savior, you're savior.

They'd be the hero they'd always dreamt of, the knight in shining armor, a tragic, desperate sacrifice.

To reach for heaven, and for the clouds to pull them into their ranks. To sprout those pretty white wings, a golden halo above them.

Perfect.

But anger lingers under their skin when they see you in pain. A rage they didn't know they could have, a rage they've never had before.

It's not holy or right or moral. It's hellish.

But it's hard to care.

No matter how heavy the sword in their hands feel, no matter how sick the dripping blood makes them, no matter how hot they feel as their wings burn and their halo twists.

You're safe.

Oh thank Satan you're safe.

[mewhenmentalillness]

I keep trying to flirt with this guy but he keeps dropping out of the conversation to go play TF2...

[nosongunsung11]

collection of posts for a very specific dynamic

[rapidpunches]

"SURVIVING"