As the Winchester boys held my hand to get through this journey
Balls as Bobby Singer would say.
My nerves are shooting into the sky like rockets
My heart beats as fast as drums.
This is the longest wait I've ever had to do so far.
The nurce comes in and takes me away.
My scorpion pal reassures me that it's going to be okay.
It's all blurry and I really wish I had 20/20 vision.
My heart has become speedy Gonzalez by now.
They take me upstairs and so many people come in and out asking me the same questions.
Christian the new nurse comes in. He says "Think happy thoughts. The happiest thoughts "
The only thing I can think starts coming out
"The second star to the right
Shines in the night for you
To tell you that the dreams you plan
The second star to the right
Shines with a light so rare
And if it's Never Land you need
It's light will lead you there
Twinkle, twinkle little star
So we'll know where you are
Gleaming in the skies above
Lead us to the land we dream of
And when our journey is through
Each time we say "Goodnight"
We'll thank the little star that shines
The second from the right"
The staff tries to calm me down and I all I can do is just think of the song and somehow gasp for air.
They give me medicine on the IV and it burns my left arm.
They strap me on the stomach
Christian says "You will be okay. Think of happy thoughts"
He puts the mask you see in movies.
Im walking up and my nose burns. It's the oxygen tube. My legs hurt and my bottom abdomen hurts. It's the cramps. It feels like a cat scratched me from the inside.
My hands move down my abdomen and my tears escape me.
The river running down my cheeks wont stop.
This tall man approaching asks me
"Can I get you anything?"
I took the deepest breath I could and and even the lord heard my despair. I could feel my soul cry and I could feel my heart stoping
"I'm so sorry. Yes. Everything will be alright.You are in the recovery room. I will get you some tissues. "
He walked back with a box of tissues and put them on top of my belly. He opened them and placed his warm hand on my shoulder.
I nodded at him. It's like I couldn't speak anymore. He nodded back at me.
When he came back he put something in my IV. I felt cold and hurt. But nothing hurt as much as everything else.
He placed his hand on my shoulder again. He looked at me and he asked me.
"Can I get you anything else ? A warm blanket perhaps?"
I still couldn't speak. I nodded at him again.
He walked back in and placed the blanket on me. I gathered as much strength as I could and said
"Thank you. What's your name?"
"You are welcome miss. My name is Peter. Please let me know if I can get you anything else."
As he walked away all I can think of what so how all I was thinking about before surgery was Peter Pan.
Here I was having Peter be my nurse.
I'm not sure how long I was there. I just laid there for a long time.
This old man. This old Portuguese man came on the other side. He was confused and no one understood him. He kept trying to take his gown off. He kept asking Peter for his pajamas.
Once they got the old man to stay on the bed. Peter came back to see me. He checked my vitals.
"I laughed and said I'm sorry about our Portuguese friend. "
"He laughed and said yeah he doesn't want to keep his robe on! You speak Portuguese?"
"I do not. I lived with a crazy man and his family for 6 years and all I remember how to say is 'estoi quiata com mihha vida ' Which means. I'm disgusted with my life."
"Oh no! Why do you remember that? ".
"well you see the old grandma that used to visit. She was disgusted with her life and all she used to say was that. She would walk around saying it all the time".
"Oh my god! This old people crack me up sometimes. Do you know any other languages?".
"Well I speak Spanish too. And I took French for two years but all I know how to says is "Cest la vie " which means such is life and I didn't even learn it in school. It's funny how life works. "
"Oh that's wonderful! I know that one I speak French ! I visited Paris last year. It was lovely have you ever been?"
"I haven't but it's definitely on my dream places. "
"You should definitely go. I think you will love it. I'm going to start getting ready to transfer you okay? "
"Yes okay. Thank you Peter"
"Not a problem. Have you visited any places?"
"I have recently been to Hawaii. It's beautiful. Have you been?"
He starts rolling me out of the place and as he pushes me on the bed down the hallway. He keeps talking to me. We talk more about our travels. He wishes me good luck. And he helps me get on the chair. He introduced me to Maria and Yenzi. They will take care of me now.
Peter places his warm hand on mine again and bows down to look at me.
"It was a pleasure miss. Good luck and don't forget to keep traveling ".
He walked away. And Maria and Yenzi got me ready to get going home.
Now maybe it was coincidence or pure luck. I'm not sure.
But I'm glad that Peter was my nurce when I woke up. So Peter. Thank you.
I know one day I will see my sweet angels 👼🏼 👼🏼 with their big brother or sister 👼🏼. I know my grandma is there taking care of them.
Each time we say "Goodnight"
We'll thank the little star that shines
The second from the right". ✨ 👼🏼👼🏼👼🏼💕 mommy and daddy love you. We will be okay. You will see.
