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[midnightpink]

I Broke What You Gave Me, But You Kept Giving More

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The memories aren’t fully fleshed out, only flashes of places, people, and feelings. Sometimes they’re tangible, so much so he feels like he can reach it within his fingertips and hold them there.

He’d be washing dishes, and he’d feel the phantom arms of Eddie around his waist, the junction of his neck and shoulder feeling warm. For a flash, he’d see a different kitchen than the one he was in. He’d be looking at a menu in a restaurant, and he thinks he’d hear Eddie’s voice asking, ‘You gonna order the usual?’ When he glances down at the table, he’d be surprised he’s not seeing a deep green tablecloth. He’d doze off on the couch and feel his cheek land on Eddie’s chest, arms wrapping around him, and he’d open his eyes to find himself alone.

How do you explain that away? Missing something you can’t fully remember having?

=

Or, Evan Buckley wakes up without eight years of his memories with some guy named Eddie Diaz on his bedside. Which could mean nothing.

by: rcdwings

Words: 39,205, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English 

Collections: 911 & 911 Lone Star Action for Gaza

Fandom: 9-1-1 (TV)

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: M/M

Characters:  Evan "Buck" Buckley, Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Firehouse 118 Crew (9-1-1 TV), Maddie Buckley, Phillip Buckley, Margaret Buckley

Relationship: Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley & Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Christopher Diaz & Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley & Evan "Buck" Buckley's Parents, Evan "Buck" Buckley & Phillip Buckley, Evan "Buck" Buckley & Maddie Buckley

Additional Tags: Amnesia, Temporary Amnesia, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, Slow Burn, kinda!, Christopher Diaz Has Two Dads, Bad Parent Phillip Buckley, Bad Parent Margaret Buckley, Unfortunately he is his father's son, This was kinda psychosis im not gonna lie idk how i wrote this, Suicidal Thoughts, VERY VERY BRIEF + IMPLICIT

[midnightpink]

ilyuca81 (otherwise known as lucarozanov)

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lucarozanov if shane hollander gets mad at me reading about him getting blasted in the ass then he can check his bank account. i know ilya would be chill with it though

Luca Haas tries very hard to not let anyone know about his dark (read: embarrassing) past. Unfortunately, the fans are ready to let people know for him.

Or, Luca used to run a tumblr blog for Hollanov and the internet goes wild.

by: Anonymous

Words: 8,603, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English 

Collection: Anonymous Fics

Fandom: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: Gen, M/M

Characters: Luca Haas, Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, Harris Drover, Ottawa Centaurs Team Ensemble (Game Changers)

Relationship: Luca Haas & Ilya Rozanov, Luca Haas & Shane Hollander, Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov

Additional Tags: Crack Treated Seriously, Social Media, Texting, Not Beta Read

[midnightpink]

( i am done ) trying for beauty.

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Ilya glances at Shane, at the way the dying light is catching in his hair, refracting. At that spiderlily mouth, slightly open and curling coyly, two teeth peeked through the dark gap like an American Girl doll. At that shoulder, bare and pale and close enough to touch if Ilya just leaned forward, if he just reached out and took another liberty. To touch another person is to say: I know you will die, and I am doing this anyway. His mother used to say something like this. About painting. Every portrait is an act of faith, Ilyushenka. Faith and futility both.

⋆

contrary to personal preference, ilya gets a roommate.

by: hcneymooners (romqntics)

Words: 19,746, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English 

Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, Svetlana Vetrova, Hayden Pike, Rose Landry, Irina Rozanova

Relationship: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov, Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov, Ilya Rozanov & Irina Rozanova

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - College/University, Hockey Player Ilya Rozanov, Nursing Student Shane Hollander, Alternate Universe - Roommates/Housemates, Strangers to Lovers, Strangers to Friends to Lovers, Angst with a Happy Ending, Mental Health Issues, Implied/Referenced Suicide, bc of ilya's mother, irina is a central character in this and is studied through ilya's grief, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, food as the sixth love language, Language Barrier, Canon Autistic Character, Mutual Pining, Touch-Starved, both of them but esp ilya, Non-Sexual Intimacy, Unresolved Sexual Tension, Dom/sub Undertones, Painting, Grief/Mourning, Dysfunctional Family, the immigrant experience bc i think about this a lot as a first generation, me locking in on shane speaking french bc i speak french so, Soft Ilya Rozanov, Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander, Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov, they are down bad its sooo, guys its not as bad as it reads please i swear, im really proud of this, Slow Burn, more like medium burn but, ilya's mother died later in his life than canon

[midnightpink]

under crashing waves

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He's seen a few other guys get their bell rung. Has seen a couple of them get to their knees almost immediately; has seen them struggle to their feet, then almost wipe themselves out again. Has seen them kneeling with a dazed expression, trying to figure out where they are. And has seen a couple of them lie there. He's been one of them before. Swallowing down bile, he asks, "How long did I take to get up?" Please have tried. Please, please, have been one of those guys kneeling almost immediately. Please have been moving. Please have let Ilya seen that.

A couple of years into playing on the same team together, Shane gets concussed. It's a little bit different this time.

by: boxysmiles

Words: 8,769, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English 

Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov

Relationship: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov

Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Concussions, Domestic, Soft, POV Shane Hollander, Married Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov, ilya is very soft and lovely and in this essay i will, mild spoilers for TLG, Post-Book 6: The Long Game (Game Changers)

[midnightpink]

June

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"Yuuji?” A blink, a slow turning of the head. Midas-spun sun, sinking its long gold teeth into Yuuji’s frame. Against the light, he’s darkening in ink blue. “Yeah? What’s up? “Let’s go home.” Megumi murmurs. Yuuji's eyes soften. “Okay.” He says, and pulls Megumi close. A sweet kiss presses itself into the seam of his mouth, thick with summer.

Or: Over the course of a single summer, slipping through their fingers like water, Yuuji and Megumi learn the intricacies of each other.

by: kwiewi

Words: 32,858, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English 

Fandom: 呪術廻戦 | Jujutsu Kaisen (Manga), 呪術廻戦 | Jujutsu Kaisen (Anime)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply, Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: M/M

Characters: Fushiguro Megumi, Itadori Yuuji, Kugisaki Nobara, Fushiguro Toji, Gojo Satoru (cameo), Geto Suguru (cameo), season one student ensemble

Relationship: Fushiguro Megumi/Itadori Yuuji

Additional Tags: Trans Male Character, Trans Fushiguro Megumi, Coming Out, A trans coming out story disguised as a romance one, Summer Romance, Young Love, Teen Romance, my love letter to summer to being young to queerness, all synonyms if you really think about it, Established Relationship, Love Confessions, There's a roadtrip in there somewhere, Asexuality, Asexual Itadori Yuuji, Non-Sexual Intimacy, Menstruation, and the effects it has on the trans mind and body, an exploration of being trans, Coming of Age, Slice of Life, Lots of kissing, Summer storms, LGBTQ Themes, Queer Themes, LGBTQ Character, Trans Character, Aged-Up Character(s), Alternate Universe - No Curses (Jujutsu Kaisen), Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, the vague american setting returns, Hurt/Comfort, some environmental commentary, poems and Bob Ross paintings, Developing Relationship

[midnightpink]

Throat Curtain?

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A missing tooth. A standard hockey emergency.

When a brutal elbow leaves Shane Hollander spitting blood on the ice, he lands immediately in the hands of the opposing team's dentist.

Shane thinks the dentist saw a cavity. The dentist knows he saw a secret.

by: Z1r1al

Words: 4,118, Chapters: 2/2, Language: English 

Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid

Rating: Mature

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, OMC

Relationship: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov

Additional Tags: Embarrassed Shane Hollander, Possessive Ilya Rozanov, Implied/Referenced Blow Jobs, Bruises, Jealous Ilya Rozanov, Medical Procedures, Medical Inaccuracies, Dentists, Spoilers for Book 6: The Long Game (Game Changers), Post-Book 6: The Long Game (Game Changers), Book 2: Heated Rivalry (Game Changers)

[midnightpink]

stars will fall

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Regulus is dying and Sirius will do anything to save him

Based on Jo and Beth March's relationship from Little Women.

by: calamitoustide

Words: 28,506, Chapters: 4/4, Language: English 

Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Major Character Death

Characters: Regulus Black, Sirius Black, James Potter, Remus Lupin

Relationship: Regulus Black & Sirius Black, Minor or Background Relationship(s), Sirius Black/Remus Lupin, Regulus Black/James Potter

Additional Tags: Inspired by Little Women, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Bittersweet Ending, Grief/Mourning, my bad - Freeform, Minor Regulus Black/James Potter, Unrequited Love, technically they aren't actually together but they want to be, Asexual Regulus Black

[midnightpink]

to better and brighter days

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At twenty-one years old, the concept of having children feels like a far away dream to Sirius. He’s too preoccupied with finishing university, struggling to pay rent, and loving on his delicious boyfriend, Remus Lupin, to think about settling down. He doesn’t even know how he’ll afford dinner next week, let alone feed an extra mouth.

Then his parents die, and he learns he has a tiny baby sibling in the NICU who needs him. Suddenly, all he can think about is being a parent. Good thing his parents left him everything in their will, including their exorbitant wealth.

But Sirius knows better than most that it takes more than money to be a good parent.

And he will be a good father. His baby deserves nothing less.

by: rxgulus

Words: 131,484, Chapters: 17/17, Language: English 

Series: Part 2 of baby bumblebee, Part 1 of tbabd-verse

Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, Regulus Black, Mary Macdonald (Harry Potter), Hope Lupin, Barty Crouch Jr., James Potter, Dorcas Meadowes

Relationship: Sirius Black/Remus Lupin, Regulus Black & Sirius Black, Regulus Black & Remus Lupin, Regulus Black/James Potter

Additional Tags: Modern Era, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Alternate Universe - Muggle, Modern Marauders (Harry Potter), Trans Regulus Black, Korean Regulus Black, Korean Sirius Black, Sirius Black is Regulus Black’s Parent, Sirius Black and Remus Lupin are Regulus Black’s Parents, Sirius Black and Remus Lupin Raise Regulus Black, Remus Lupin is Regulus Black’s Parent, Fluff, Angst, Preemie Baby Regulus, raising regulus black, Cute Regulus Black, Good Parent Sirius Black, Good Parent Remus Lupin, Established Sirius Black/Remus Lupin, Future Jegulus, Minor Regulus Black/James Potter, Minor Character Death, Trans Pregnancy, right at the end, Kid Fic

[midnightpink]

a history

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Shane opens his eyes and tears spill onto his pillow and into Ilya’s hand. He has that apologetic stare again. He says, “Love you.”

“Nothing in the world could make me stop loving you,” Ilya says. “Do you understand?”

With hesitation, his eyes darting around, Shane breathes out, “I understand.”

by: laundry (lovesjar)

Words: 7,882, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English 

Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: Rape/Non-Con

Categories: M/M

Characters: Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, Hayden Pike, Original Characters, Yuna Hollander, David Hollander

Relationship: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov

Additional Tags: Childhood Sexual Abuse, Past Rape/Non-con, Repressed Memories, Post-Canon, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Dissociation, Trauma Recovery, Humor as a coping mechanism, post-retirement, Racism, Homophobia, Internalized Homophobia, Married Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov, Referenced Eating disorder

[midnightpink]

How Will I Know (If He Really Loves Me)

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Ilya Rozanov is a natural caretaker. Shane Hollander is a natural clutz who keeps getting into situations where he needs taking care of.

Or: 5 times Ilya took care of Shane, and 1 time the favour was returned.

by: dabforpalermo

Words: 13,301, Chapters: 6/6, Language: English 

Series: Part 4 of Hollanov

Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, Hayden Pike, Carter Vaughn, Original Characters

Relationship: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov

Additional Tags: 5+1 Things, Hurt/Comfort, Developing Relationship, Soft Dom Ilya Rozanov, Protective Ilya Rozanov, Anxious Shane Hollander, Fluff, Domestic, Phobia of Needles, Attempted Sexual Assault, Nightmares, Sick Character, Depression, Panic Attacks, not as upsetting as the tags make it seem!!!

[midnightpink]

I'm Reading Your Lips (You're Speaking My Language)

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Rozanov cocked his head. “You speak Russian? Or just the curse words?”

“Yes, I speak Russian,” he snapped, defensive and angry. He knew that it had been a mistake to even try to be friendly with Rozanov. “Why? Do I not look Russian to you?” He scoffed.

“No, not really,” Rozanov said. Some of his teammates laughed, although they mostly looked surprised that Shane was speaking to them at all. Rozanov didn’t laugh, though. “Are you Russian?”

“Go fuck yourself.”

+++

Despite an inauspicious start, when Russia’s Ilya Rozanov learns that Canada’s Shane Hollander is fluent in Russian at their first World Junior Championships tournament, it changes everything and sets them on a different course. Instead of being branded as rivals from the very beginning, Ilya and Shane start off as friends.

And, after all, a little friendly rivalry never hurt anyone, did it?

by: some1_around

Words: 30,440, Chapters: 4/4, Language: English 

Collections: Part 1 of Speaking My Language

Series: HollaNov fanfics I Love, 🏒Heated on Ice🏒

Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid

Rating: Mature

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov,Yuna Hollander, Hayden Pike, Cliff Marlow, Svetlana Vetrova, David Hollander

Relationship: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Shane Hollander Speaks Russian, Fix-It, Friends to Lovers, Canon Rewrite, Childhood Friends, (not really - more like teenage/WJC friends), Русский | Russian, Language, Multilingual Shane Hollander, Mongolian-Japanese Shane Hollander (specific i know but trust), Translation as a metaphor for trust, Male Friendship, Racism, Microaggressions, Homophobia, Internalized Homophobia, Developing Relationship, what if ilya and shane were friends the whole time but still couldn't talk about their feelings?, Author Does Not Know Russian but Wrote a Whole Ass Story About Russian, Sexual Content, Las Vegas Fix-It, Professional Yearner Shane Hollander, Angst, Model Minority Myth, Blood and Injury, Interracial Relationship

[midnightpink]

a work in progress

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What do you say to someone who you spent the last decade believing was dead?

That’s what his father told him anyway.

His mother was dead.

She couldn’t handle it anymore, she couldn’t handle him anymore so she ended it. Took her own life while he was at school.

It was for the best his father told him. They were better off without her.

or ilya finds out his mother is alive and tries to make up for lost time.

by: buttercupkisses

Words: 10,394, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English 

Collections: Fulfill A Crave-ing

Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: Gen

Characters: Ilya Rozanov, Irina Rozanova, Shane Hollander, Anya | Ilya Rozanov's Dog, Yuna Hollander, David Hollander

Relationship: Ilya Rozanov & Irina Rozanova, Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov

Additional Tags: Mother-Son Relationship, Fluff and Angst,Family Dynamics, Happy Ending, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, set somewhere between heated rivalry and tlg, Irina Rozanova is alive, Established Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov

[midnightpink]

Parasitic

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Ilya rubbed his thumb across Shane’s hand. “Thank you for sharing that with me. I know it was not easy.” Shane scoffed, “No shit.” Ilya flicked at him playfully. “Shut up. I am trying to be comforting.” Shane peeked at Ilya from under his arm just to glare at him. Shane was glad Ilya wasn’t being careful with him or anything–that would have just made him feel worse. Ilya was just being Ilya, and Shane needed that.

Or, Shane Hollander has OCD. It's frustrating, scary, and difficult, but Ilya is there for him every step of the way.

by: benwyattirl

Words: 10,504, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English 

Fandom: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov

Relationship: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov

Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Eating Disorders, Shane Hollander Has OCD, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, Mental Health Issues, Good Significant Other Ilya Rozanov, Internalized Homophobia. Neurodivergent Shane Hollander, mentions of depression, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Book 6: The Long Game (Game Changers), Healing, Hopeful Ending, Therapy

[midnightpink]

Shane Hollander's Unexpected Nurse

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When Shane falls ill and isn't answering his phone, Hayden and JJ decide to be responsible teammates and go check on him. They find a very sick Shane, and a very surprising caretaker.

Set after book 1, but while Ilya is still playing for Boston.

by: mightyd0lphin

Words: 4,387, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English 

Fandom: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Hayden Pike, Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, J. J. Boiziau

Relationship: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov

Additional Tags: Humor, Coming Out, POV Hayden Pike, POV Outsider, set between book 1 and 2, ilya is a professional ragebaiter, hayden is about to lose it, shane is trying to stop a fight, and jj is just along for the ride

[midnightpink]

#shaydenreal

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shayden enjoyer @pikespike 11m ago ok but did u guys SEE the way he rushed to defend his man??? ur telling me u dont have EYES?????

#2 shane hollander kisser @shaydenism 8m ago no ur so valid that was a fight to the death before the refs got there

hollanov real @g0v0yageurs 7m ago ur all freaks pike literally has like nine kids

hollanov real @g0v0yageurs 6m ago not to mention the WIFE 🤢

shayden enjoyer @pikespike 2m ago theres no way a hollanov shipper is in my mentions rn calling ME a freak

by: arenasoundsystem (cutflowersounds)

Words: 2,268, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English 

Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, Hayden Pike, Rose Landry

Relationships: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov, Implied/Referenced Shane Hollander/Hayden Pike

Additional Tags: Canon Compliant, Social Media, Fandom & Fan Culture, Humour, POV Outsider

[midnightpink]

Game Over

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Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov have conquered the NHL, but their biggest challenge yet is waiting for them at home: a four-month-old named Wyatt who has Ilya’s eyes and Shane’s nose.

From the terrifying ordeal of six-month vaccinations to the heartache of missing first words over FaceTime, Shane and Ilya navigate the messy, exhausting, and perfect reality of fatherhood. But as the season wears on and the milestones fly by, Ilya realizes that being a legend on the ice is no longer enough.

The "Long Game" is over, and Ilya is finally ready to claim his prize—not a trophy, but the life waiting for him when the buzzer sounds.

by: azraelriego

Words: 12,917, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English 

Series: Part 3 of I love you over and over again

Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: M/M

Characters: Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov

Relationship: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov

Additional Tags: Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander, Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov, Alpha/Alpha, Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Non-Traditional Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Kid Fic, Marriage, Husbands, Domestic Fluff, Anal Sex, Mpreg | Male Pregnancy, Post-Book 6: The Long Game (Game Changers), Not Beta Read, Parent Shane Hollander, Parent Ilya Rozanov

[midnightpink]

sick in boston

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Shane's in Boston to play against the Raiders until he gets an awful cold and Ilya offers to take care of him.

by: prettyhoney

Words: 4,171, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English 

Fandom: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov

Relationship: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov

Additional Tags: Domestic Fluff, Comfort, Sick Character, Shane's got a cold, One Shot, Fluff, Canon Compliant, Canon Universe, Established Relationship, Events after ep 5 but before the cottage, tbh idk where this falls on the timeline i just wrote this