Land of Amerika

Whatever I feel like

[midnightreader112]

I miss you… lots

I miss being by your side all the time. I miss being the person you look for at the end of a long hard day. I miss you initiating the calls and seeking me out. I miss the ease of just being with you. I miss your attentiveness and presence. I miss the peace that being together gave us both. I miss the endless energy we had to see one another. I miss my endless trust and faith in you. I miss when your hand endlessly searches for mine. I miss the way you instinctively put your hand on my thigh when you drive. I miss when it fell like you knew everything about me. I miss when it felt like you appreciated me. I miss everything. I miss us.

I really miss you. Please come back soon.

[midnightreader112]

Endless Insecurities and Never-ending Anxiety

It’s hard to put into words how I feel when a million thoughts are always going through my head. I wish I could have a normal brain, somebody who functions and tackles life fearlessly and unapologetically; but sadly, that’s not me.

Most days, I’m okay. I feel okay. I look okay. Nothing’s really too wrong. A simple routine that’s expected with little to no deviations. It seems fun to have a fast and exciting life. To have a lot of friendships and to laugh and appreciate each other’s company. I’ve tried that route and maybe it wasn’t for me? Or I wasn’t meant to have that kind of life? I’m not sure, but sometimes I’m afraid to let people in. Or is it maybe I’m afraid they won’t let me in?

Maybe I’m too strange, I don’t fit in quite so well. No matter where I am, no matter how hard I try, it’s always the same. Many friendships are made, but not the real ones. Very rarely the real ones, that ones that stick with you for life. When I think back about it, I wonder how many of my interactions were genuine or just being friendly for the sake of companionship. Maybe if it wasn’t me, if I were just someone else, someone with more confidence and appeal, I wouldn’t have to feel this.

Loneliness is a dark and scary place. It makes me anxious and scared. It makes me insecure and turns my actions ugly. Sometimes I fear I inadvertently push people away because I’m scared they’ll leave. Funny how when I do have that company and joy of friendship, it’s so easy to destroy with the actions caused from my own jealousy.

Maybe that’s the ugly truth, I don’t want to share. I want to keep them to myself and not change this comfortable routine we’ve built for ourselves. But that’s incredibly selfish of me, isn’t it? Why would I want to isolate them the way I am? Why would I want to limit their potential? I know it’s cause I’m scared they’ll leave. I’m also scared of change and being forgotten about. I’m scared that maybe when they reach their full potential, they’ll realize I’m not actually that great and there are so many other people just… better.

I’m ashamed to say I’ve done it before, try to keep them to myself. I ended up losing that person. I hope I know better now. It’s happening again, and I can feel the change creeping into my life again. It scares me and shakes me to my cores. I’m trying to be calm and to accept it. To not think about it so hard so I don’t mess up again. I really hope I don’t mess up again. Just act natural. We are not toxic, just infinitely scared.

I want to see him fly and I want him to be happy. No one deserves it more in the world. Than he does. He’s such a good person with an amazing heart. I’m so thankful to have him in my life. I want to support him and I will support him. It’s really scary. New people come and go; some don’t go and that’s OKAY. They won’t replace me. It’s just part of life. Forget about the little things, I shouldn’t let them bother me. A lot of the times they do, but if I want to be there for him I just have to let it go.

It’s really hard to explain everything. Why am I anxious about good change? Why can’t I just be happy like everyone else? It’s still a uphill journey and I don’t know if it’ll ever get easier. If anything, sometimes it feels like it’s only getting harder. But for him, I’ll try. I’ll try not to think so hard. To trust more. To just live more. I can do it, right? Even if this blackhole stays, I can be normal, right?

[keepswingin]

favorite underrated zed dances in z-o-m-b-i-e-s 2 of ?

[luci-hemwin-evanson]

This is so cute!!! 

[darkdamiaknight]

[chrmiing-arc]

Milo Manheim & Meg Donnelly

Z - O - M - B - I - E - S 

PROMOTIONAL VIDEOS

[qveenpoppy]

zed & addison being adorable during “someday”

[midnightreader112]

Good things never last.

[midnightreader112]

Hope when you take that jump You don't feel the fall Hope when the water rises You built a wall Hope when the crowd screams out It's screaming your name Hope if everybody runs You choose to stay

I Lived, OneRepublic

[midnightreader112]

Hiccup Is Always Right

[Amos nudges Snotlout]

Snotlout: I don't know. Just do what he says; he's always right, so there's really no point.

Hiccup: What was that, Snotlout?

Snotlout: [widens eyes] You're like a ray of light, lighting my way. Super shiny... Nevermind.

[midnightreader112]

Most Relatable Moment in RTTE

Snotlout: Why do you even talk?

Amos: It's how I voice my displeasure...

[puzzle-dragon]

Little things about the “Did I Mention” scene that make me stupidly happy:

Ben snatching the microphone away from the announcer

Ben genuinely looks like he has no idea what he’s doing at the beginning

literally no one but Audrey is surprised by Ben spelling Mal’s name and half the audience awww’s because they think it’s adorable

Evie participates in spelling Mal’s name

Doug counting in Spanish

Evie being hyped, while Mal’s just traumatized

Mal’s “I brought this on myself” reaction faces

Ben literally falling to his knees and rolling around on the ground like the adorable puppy he is

Carlos just shrugging after he and Jay have to pull Ben back to his feet

Evie grabbing Mal’s arm and sings in her face

a third of the choreography is just the entire tourney team pelvic thrusting

Ben blowing a kiss to Mal

Mal’s little gasp after the team throws Ben in the air

Ben wolf-howling throughout the song

Ben starts stripping and the entire team just points at Mal in the bleachers like this is no big deal

the fact that other girls actually try to catch Ben’s jersey

Mal’s smile after she catches Ben’s jersey

Jane is the knight mascot

Ben jumping onto two people in a horse costume

the team catching Ben after he slides off the horse mascot

the cheer squad boys throwing their future king into the stands

Ben crowd-surfing over to Mal

Mal attempting to run away the second she realizes what he’s doing

Evie physically stopping her from leaving and turning her around to face the mess she has created

Mal using Ben’s jersey as a shield when he tries to kiss her

Ben immediately pulling her into a one-armed hug after she doesn’t let him kiss her

“I love you, Mal! Did I mention that?” Yes, Ben, yes you did

Mal clinging to Ben’s jersey for dear life

the abrupt cheerfulness of “Chad’s my boyfriend now!”

Audrey and Chad sharing the only actual kiss in the entire movie

Ben snatching the mic out of Audrey’s hand

Ben loudly yelling “Mal! Will you go to the coronation with me!?" even though Mal is literally standing right next to him

Mal shouting "Yes!” just as loudly into the microphone

Ben excitedly shouting “She said yes!” even though everyone obviously heard her

Lonnie being super excited for them

Ben still tries to hold onto Mal’s hand as he walks away

Mal holding Ben’s jersey up to her chest after Ben leaves

the fact that literally no one acts at all put off or confused by the fact that their future king just performed an entire impromptu dance number dedicated to someone who is not his girlfriend

[amythegloriouspond]

(requested by anonymous)

[midnightreader112]

You didn't close the door Left a crack open I couldn't ignore the faint possibility Of having hope in this insanity

Reflections by Misterwives

[midnightreader112]

If my heart was paper, I'd fold it Throw it to the wind and just hope it Ends up with you I'd sign it with love from me to you I'd try to be cool But my feelings, they don't allow me to And all that I ask Is that at least you write me back I'm waiting Here's my paper heart, won't you hold it Hold it

Paper Hearts by The Vamps

[iwrite-myheartt-deactivated2016]

I’m trying my hardest to not act how I feel.

(via oceavns)

[seriestrash]

*slides $20 across the table to the writers* so how bout you email me that Riley and Lucas scene

Slips you $25 to foward it to me