Hi! :) im so sorry if this is rude just curious/wanting to learn :) i was wondering, when you transition, do you identify with the physical aspects of your gender or like the societal aspect? (i'm not wording this right but) for example someone afab transitioning to male, would they 'want' to be male as in the like (for lack of a better word) illusion society has made of it (like blue, very masculine, trucks, that kind of stuff) or would they 'want' to be male as in the physical aspects (muscles, facial hair, that kind of stuff) sorry if this is rude i was just wondering! ty <3
Hi there, that's a great question.
I think it's different for everyone but for me, it was a bit of both and then some others. There were multiple aspects to transitioning for me; physical, emotional, social, psychological. I mostly felt like how I saw myself and my body didn't fit how I felt about myself. I also felt like how people saw me didn't fit how I felt so I didn't feel truly seen. When I started taking hormones and my body started to change I could feel those things aligning and I didn't feel so strange to myself anymore.
I also felt more right emotionally. Testosterone changed my emotional landscape in a way that felt good.
I've never been someone who's been into "traditional male" things like trucks, sports, etc. I don't see those as inherently masculine but we live in a society where most people still do. Either way, my need to transition wasn't linked to feeling like I didn't belong in male dominated spaces.
Hope that helps!












