#ftm update

[just-taylor4]

Haven’t posted in a while. Here I am 3 years on T and feeling great!

[despicable-exe]

I made it to 2 years on Testosterone!

[jaaaybear]

[He/They]

My hair matched my jumper!!

Excuse how crappy I look today ~ I've been stuck in the house all weekend because my binder is in the wash

Side note: i recorded my voice today and I actually didn't hate it. My voice has suddenly gotten so much deeper over the past couple weeks and I'm so happy and excited. It's nice to note get crippling dysphoria and cry whenever I hear my voice. It's still there a bit but so much less now

Five months on T my Bois.

[alexohagan]

Crazy what a bit of the right hormones, knowing who you are and trying to be as true to yourself as you can be can do ☺️

I will never stop being grateful for being able to transition ❤️

[mikael-nc]

Facial hair update! I'm now 4 years and 8 months on T. I had just finished cleaning up the scruff before taking these pictures (which is why my neck is red). 3mm guard for my moustache and lower lip and 5mm for the rest.

[nbandtransmascblogging]

“In a world full of trends, I want to remain a classic”

Almost 8 months on T 😊

<3

[nofuckingminecraft]

trans update

i thought i was going to be put on hormone blockers today bc  told my doctor I LITERALLY can bARELY handle it anymore and my mental health has been rapidly declining because of dysphoria but my primary care physician/endocrinologist wanted me to get put on and used to anti-psychotic medication before I go on T... I don’t know what the situation is with my psychiatrist. I have to get blood work done in two weeks, my next appointment is in June. I don’t know when i’ll be meeting with my psychiatrist though or if my insurance has approved me for the anti-psych inject-able. 

I still need to talk to my peer support specialist about his experiences with top surgery and the process he went through and i ALSO have to finish writing my book and get it selling just in case my insurance doesn’t approve my top surgery (they almost always decline the first time but eventually come around) and then I also have to get my name changed in the school system AGAIN because everyone calls me judith and she, despite my gender marker saying male.I have to get trans tape because my chest and voice don’t let me pass at all. (I can’t bind, I get lumps on my chest from it, sharp pains and not only am I no where near flat, even standing can make me pass out because I can’t breathe at all in a binder) 

not necessarily trans related but somewhere along there,, uh I might be straight?? but like I don’t want to get into any relationships because I don’t want to be called a lesbian also dating bi/pan girls kinda makes me feel a little invalidated but no straight girl would ever like me so there’s a minor dilemma. But like on top of that.... I don’t want to be straight... there’s so much hatred for straight people and straight trans people aren’t represented so...

[opinionated-truscum]

Transition Update

I'm being referred to another psychiatrist. I know my issues and I also know my genitals are my biggest one. Before top surgery, I really refused to acknowledge it (which is unhealthy tbh) but since surgery I've been slightly more lax.

However, I've never been to a gyno and I've never had anyone check down there and I know I need to. But I'd still rather shoot myself in the head then let that happen.

But I plan to get bottom surgery in a year or two and I obviously need to be comfortable enough with it for that to happen. So I decided to reach out to my doctor and get her to refer me to someone. Here's hoping that shit actually helps.