౨ৎ·˚.⋆·˚ about me: Welcome to my blog! I'm a Sylus main who has been following Love and Deepspace since before release! This game holds a special little place in my heart, so I hope I can share my love for it with all of you. Other interests of mine include drawing, cooking, and going to bed later than I probably should.
౨ৎ·˚.⋆·˚ guidepost: I write Love and Deepspace fanfics, as well as the occasional drabble. This is also my personal blog, so I may repost things occasionally, but I plan on mainly using this platform to showcase my works.
౨ৎ·˚.⋆·˚ blog info: This is an 18+ blog, minors DNI. I do not currently accept requests, but I do love hearing suggestions—so feel free to reach out! I also want to note that I am currently a full time college student, meaning that this blog, as well as my works, are something I work on during my limited free time. Slow writing and temporary hiatuses are common, but I will do my best to alert readers before hand. Thank you!
౨ৎ·˚.⋆·˚ fic masterpost: find all of my fics and upcoming releases here! → ✧.*
Hey everyone! I Unfortunately the Sylus bridgerton au fic has been pushed back two weeks. I was very sick last week, and spent my entire spring break throwing up 😭
I am feeling better now, but my classes started again, and so I find myself once more extremely busy. I am so sorry about this, but I did promise to update you guys, so I’m keeping my word.
A Long Overdue Update on the Lads Bridgerton AU Series
I am aware it has been nearly a year since my last last Bridgerton AU update, but I'm picking the series up while my Bridgerton hyperfixation is back.
That being said, after logging onto my personal fanfic writing account—I was faced with the wonderful realization that all of my previous drafts for the series—including the completed Raf fanfic I only needed to finish editing—were somehow corrupted, and my progress completely gone.
Yes. I am serious. I wish I were joking.
Thankfully, I have all of the assets I spent hours making for the posts, just not the actual writing itself.
This is 100% karma for taking so long, but alas.
Anyways, since I have to start over again, I figured I might as well do a poll to determine which fanfic you guys would prefer to see first.
As a refresher, here are the titles and tropes of each fanfic:
Zayne; For Our Duty — Where Viscount Li and Miss Reader find themselves forced to marry after being caught in a compromising situation. (Society scandal, spice, pining, guilt, angst, misunderstanding, happy ending)
Rafayel; Anyone But You — Where Miss Reader finds herself in an unlikely partnership with the famously handsome, and very bothersome, Marquess Qí. (Fake dating, matchmaker gone wrong, banter, pettiness, his muse, fluff, happy ending)
Xavier; To be a Princess — Where Prince Xavier throws caution to the wind by doing everything in his power to capture the attention of the most recent addition to palace staff, Miss Reader. (Forbidden love, prince x commoner, he falls first, yearning, happy ending, slight spice)
Sylus; Matters of Business — Where the Duke of Taurus strikes a deal to marry Miss Reader, so that he may conduct business unperturbed, and, so that she may live freely on her own terms. (Marriage of convenience, banter, teasing, mutual pining, fluff, spice, firsts, happy ending)
Caleb; My Soldier (Link Here: 🍎) — Already posted! Might re-do if there is enough interest, as my writing style has changed a bit. If I do re-do, it would be after all the remaining Li's have been completed.
Looks like the order in which the fics will be posted is Sylus, Zayne, Rafayel, and last but not least, Xavier!
I am currently finishing up Sylus (you can look forward to him in the next week or two!) and starting Zayne!
Based off of what I have written and planned for Sylus, it’s looking like I could easily hit 5k words, if not more! Whatever word count I end up with is the word count that i’ll try and keep upcoming fics in this series close too :)
Miss Reader expecting the Duke of Taurus to be a cruel old man with yellow teeth—only to find out he's the impossibly handsome man with striking red eyes who she almost pushed into a fountain while hiding in the gardens at a previous ball.
In her defense... everyone kept on emphasizing his white hair... how was she supposed to know he was a mere eight and twenty...
All works are sorted in chronological order from top to bottom. If multiple works are listed as in progress, the fic above the other work will be published first.
Bridgerton AU Series (1/5)
౨ৎ·˚.⋆·˚ Caleb; My Soldier — Completed! → 🍎
౨ৎ·˚.⋆·˚ Sylus; Matters of Business — Will be posted soon!
Hello everyone! Just a quick update regarding future fics—they will be available on AO3.
I plan on posting all of my future fics on here—as well as on AO3—but this might take some time as there is a bit of a learning curve. I’ll also be uploading my older fics there as well.
Also…
If you’re one of my older followers, you’ve probably noticed I’ve done some cleaning of my blog, thus some of my older fics are gone.
Since I’m planning on posting only love and deepspace works and content, all older fics and posts that were unrelated have been deleted.
Specifically, I wanted to apologize to those of my followers who were waiting for my anticipated Shouto x Reader Soulmate fic—as I will not be continuing it.
And lastly, thank you to all of my followers who have been patiently waiting for the continuation of my Bridgerton Lads Au series! I know, first hands how frustrating it can be when an author doesn’t update and/or forgets a series.
Although I am a busy student, I will now do my best to give you all timely updates about fics and notices of any hiatuses I may take. Without disclosing too much about myself, I am currently preparing for both a study abroad program and grad school applications—so as you can probably imagine—my life is pretty hectic.
However, writing is one of my biggest creative outlets, and I want to share it with you all! So I hope you stay tuned for what is to come!
A Long Overdue Update on the Lads Bridgerton AU Series
I am aware it has been nearly a year since my last last Bridgerton AU update, but I'm picking the series up while my Bridgerton hyperfixation is back.
That being said, after logging onto my personal fanfic writing account—I was faced with the wonderful realization that all of my previous drafts for the series—including the completed Raf fanfic I only needed to finish editing—were somehow corrupted, and my progress completely gone.
Yes. I am serious. I wish I were joking.
Thankfully, I have all of the assets I spent hours making for the posts, just not the actual writing itself.
This is 100% karma for taking so long, but alas.
Anyways, since I have to start over again, I figured I might as well do a poll to determine which fanfic you guys would prefer to see first.
As a refresher, here are the titles and tropes of each fanfic:
Zayne; For Our Duty — Where Viscount Li and Miss Reader find themselves forced to marry after being caught in a compromising situation. (Society scandal, spice, pining, guilt, angst, misunderstanding, happy ending)
Rafayel; Anyone But You — Where Miss Reader finds herself in an unlikely partnership with the famously handsome, and very bothersome, Marquess Qí. (Fake dating, matchmaker gone wrong, banter, pettiness, his muse, fluff, happy ending)
Xavier; To be a Princess — Where Prince Xavier throws caution to the wind by doing everything in his power to capture the attention of the most recent addition to palace staff, Miss Reader. (Forbidden love, prince x commoner, he falls first, yearning, happy ending, slight spice)
Sylus; Matters of Business — Where the Duke of Taurus strikes a deal to marry Miss Reader, so that he may conduct business unperturbed, and, so that she may live freely on her own terms. (Marriage of convenience, banter, teasing, mutual pining, fluff, spice, firsts, happy ending)
Caleb; My Soldier (Link Here: 🍎) — Already posted! Might re-do if there is enough interest, as my writing style has changed a bit. If I do re-do, it would be after all the remaining Li's have been completed.
Autarch Sylus x Princess Reader Arranged Marriage Fanfic?
I’ve been hyperfixating on Autarch Sylus and so I want to write a fanfic with a spin on the memory where—instead of running away from her prince consort selection ceremony—she’s running away from meeting her arranged fiancé for the first time—who she heard whispers of being menacing and ruthless.
So after her elaborate escape plan, she manages to hide in an empty carriage while her guards search for her, and for a second, she thinks all is well—until the door to the carriage opens and a very handsome, and very surprised, Sylus stands there looking at her in amused interest. She practically begs the man to not expose her location, haphazardly attempting to bribe this stranger to take her with him, which only serves to amuse him even more. He asks why she’s attempting to escape, and she reveals that she wants a chance to live her own life, free from the expectations of nobility, and, after also admitting she’s a heard bad things about her fiancé—he agrees to take her with him.
However, the one thing MC certainly didn’t take into account was that this attractive man was also that very same man she was meant to marry.
Anyways… idk if something similar has been done before, but that’s the little plot im considering writing. Mainly fluff, yearning, (possible final chapter smut) and a confused MC when the carriage arrives at the gates of the Autarch’s palace. I’m also considering having either Sylus lie and convince her he’s the Autarch’s advisor OR have her come to that conclusion on her own and trying desperately to convince herself it’s the truth.
But before I writing…
Would you be interested in this story? If so, how should the Autarch misunderstanding come about?
Yes, but where Sylus convinces her he’s just the royal advisor.
Yes, but where MC convinces herself he’s the royal advisor.
Currently, I’m working on Rafayel’s Story in my lads Bridgerton Au Series, but since he is the li that I play the least with, i’m afraid I’m a little stuck on how I should go about writing him.
Without giving too much of my plot so far away, I’m planning on frenemies to lovers and matchmaker gone wrong for his story, and playing around with a fake courtship idea as well!
So far, i’ve written him as super teasing, always trying to get a reaction out of the reader for reasons that she doesn’t yet know.
Here’s an example: (Please keep in mind this is super rough, as I haven’t edited at all yet)
“His presence quickly became all consuming, his annoying smile, the way he pretended to be “oh so deeply wounded” when you would tell him to stop pestering you. How he looked at you with a knowing glint while you danced with some other suitor your mama had pushed you towards, looking all too pleased to see you not enjoying yourself.”
“You rather often found yourself thinking how a man who was regarded as mysterious and cold to the entire ton, could go about behaving like a bothersome child just to get your attention.”
Eventually, the reader decides to fight fire with fire, and they begin a sort of light-hearted rivalry, bickering and trying to bother each other to watch the other lose their composure. Which he will ultimately win, but that I will not spoil quite yet.
Towards the end of the story, I plan on focusing on the readers shift in perspective about him, how they notice that he’s always been quite more gentle and supportive than they had thought him to be. How he always waits for them (cough inspired by lore cough), listens to them, remembers little things about them— basically the subtle little things that make them start to realize that maybe they feel more towards Rafayel than they had originally thought.
So that’s why i’m enlisting help!!!
Rafayel is probably my least played character, and although I know a lot about his lore and other details, I still find it pretty hard to write his personality!
As i’ve mentioned before, my biggest fear is mischaracterizing any of the li’s, and I want to make sure that what I have so far isn’t straying from who Rafayel is.
If you have any advice on writing his personality, or any suggestions if you feel the plot I have so far isn’t right for him, then please feel free to share! I take all sorts of criticism, good and bad, (As long as they are not downright mean) and I want to make this story as enjoyable for everyone, and accurate, as I can!!
Anyways, if you’ve made it this far, thank you so much for reading!! I would greatly appreciate any advice given!!
*side note: I’m not sure if this is entirely accurate, but i’ve sort of been picturing Rafayel as howl from howls moving castle. Their personalities, at least to me, seem pretty similar, so I’ve been using him as a basis as well. 😭
✧.* Summary Pt. 1 of my Lads Bridgerton Au Series, focusing on Caleb; a man who after many years of close friendship, seemingly disappears without a trace. But just as you've come to accept the ache of his loss, the familiar figure reappears in your life, this time, a stark contrast to the young man you once knew.
✧.* Authors Note As mentioned before, this is only a small Drabble! There are some nsfw insinuations here, but nothing explicit. If these gain enough traction, I plan on re-writing this drabble into a longer fic focusing on more dialogue and spice.
For as long as you can remember, Caleb and you were inseparable.
You practically grew up together, his familial home a short distance from your own. Many of your summers were painted with the colors of his laughter, the mischievous curve of his smile, and the warmth of his familiar presence.
And although the seasons changed and you both grew older, he remained.
Constant.
Familiar.
Unabashedly him.
But life, as it often does, had other plans.
Because before you could even begin to understand the depths of your feelings for him, he was gone.
Of course, he had promised you he would return, his words earnest and laced with that boyish charm you had known all your life. “I’ll write to you,” he had said, his voice steady, his violet eyes holding your own as he bid you farewell, “Every chance I get.”
And for a while he did. His letters arrived like clockwork, each one filled to the brim with stories of his travels, his humor, and his longing for home, family, and more importantly, you. And you, ever enamored with his words, eagerly replied, pouring your heart out into every letter you wrote.
But as the weeks turned into months, and the months into years, his letters grew fewer and farther in between, until eventually, one day they stopped.
At first, you told yourself it was the war. He was busy, overwhelmed, and perhaps even unable to find the time or means to write to you. You knew him better than your lingering insecurities, and you knew that he would never hurt you.
But time passed, and it became harder and harder to come up excuses on his behalf, so you didn't. You tried to bury the pain, to convince yourself it didn’t matter, that he didn't matter. After all, he was a soldier and you were just a girl from his childhood.
You told yourself some friendships are meant to fade, repeating it until the words became ingrained in your very soul, allowing you the space and time to fully accept the loss of him from your life.
But here you are now.
Standing amidst the glittering splendor of your first ball since being presented to the queen, your breath catches as your gaze locks onto a figure that is both achingly familiar and yet startlingly different.
Caleb.
But not the Caleb you knew, no. This man was taller, broader, his form filling out the decorated fabrics of his uniform, riddled with medals you could only begin to imagine held great meaning.
And his face, one that was once so carefree and hopeful, now carried the weight of a thousand unspoken stories. His eyes, once bright with joy, now seemed dimmer, and for a second you fear that perhaps that happiness is gone forever.
Yet, when those eyes—the very same piercing violet eyes you once knew—find yours across the candlelit ballroom, they ignite with a spark of recognition, and you swear your whole world stops spinning.
Because that devastating, heart-stopping smile that you swore you would never see again, causes your breath to catch; and in that moment you realize that perhaps the Caleb you once knew is still there.
You try to ignore it, of course. The way your heart picks up whenever he is near, the way your chest buzzes when he guides you through each dizzying dance. It’s nothing more than excitement, you tell yourself, a fleeting feeling, a trick of the mind due to years of missing him.
He is your friend. Your Caleb. And you would rather cling to the safety of that friendship than risk shattering it with the weight of something more. You can’t risk it. You can’t risk him. Not when you’ve just gotten him back.
So you continue that familiar dance that you were used to, laughing with him in the corner of each ballroom, listening to the thousands of stories he tells you, each more riveting than the last.
It's different. You're both older, you a lady ready for marriage, and he a decorated war hero. You've heard the whispers, seen the looks you've gotten from judgmental mamas—yet for some reason—you can't bring yourself to care. You've waited too long to push him away now, even if your relationship is "improper" in the eyes of the ton, and you were never one for trivial gossip in any case.
So why care now?
But what you don’t see, however, is their judgment comes with reason.
Because unbeknownst to you, there is a storm raging within him.
You haunt him. You’ve always haunted him, Invading his thoughts, his dreams, his every waking moment.
And seeing you now, after years of clinging to his memories of you, real, and so ethereally beautiful, he can't help it.
He can't help the way his gaze lingers on you when you’re not looking, tracing the curve of your lips, memorizing the slope of your shoulders.
He can't help the way his fists clench to his sides when you accept yet another dance–nor the way his jaw tightens when he watches you twirl with anyone who isn’t him.
And he notices it immediately as well. The way your own eyes linger on his. The subtle way your breath catches when he leans in to hear you clearer, how your fingers tighten around your glass before you avert your gaze as if straying for a second too long might cause you to burst into flames.
And oh how he wants you too.
He wants you to be selfish. He wants you to claim him. Lean in the rest of the way before he closes that distance between you, stealing each and every sound you make for himself.
He could show you so much. The depths of his desire. The depths of your desire. Claim you in all the possible ways he can. Steal each and every one of your firsts until you've bore yourself completely to him. Make up for the years he wasn't allowed to write to you, for all the years he had loved you.
But he can’t.
Not yet at least.
He is a man of honor. A man who worked his entire life in order to become worthy of you. Years spent facing atrocities in war just so that he could have the rank and means to claim you as his prize—and he would sooner endure the torture of his unspoken longing than risk your trust.
Because Caleb is nothing if not a patient man.
He knows you, just as you do him.
And although you try to deny yourself, he knows, possibly better than anyone else, that your desires always have a way of coming to the surface.
For those that aren’t here from my twitter, I’m planning on posting Bridgerton Lads AU Drabbles for each of the Li’s!!
Caleb’s is done and should be posted at some point today, but I thought it would be worth mentioning that if they get popular enough, I plan on making Spicy Pt. 2’s for all of them!! Below are the tropes you can expect for each Li.
- Caleb; Childhood Friends to Lovers (Posted 02/24)
- Rafayel; Fake Dating/Matchmaker gone wrong
- Zayne; Running from a scandal (will most likely be a bit spicy in pt. 1 regardless)
listen …… it’s insane how much this game has consumed me. am I crying over hot fictional men ? yes. their lore is just heart wrenching. anyway ! I wanted to do their standard myth colours in my animated line collection. :’))) hope you like !
heads up, since these are soooo smolllll it’s better to save these via desktop !
blends : 001 / 002 / 003 / 004
read my pinned for usage rules !!
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