Milk's Sin Bin

Requests Always Open! Remember to read the rules, ya funky squid baby.

[milksbigbookosin]

Request Guide

How goes it, studs?

Just here to give an easy to follow guide on how to request a little oneshot and to show you what i’m all for tossing your way.

Keep in mind; it’s very likely that I will miss some stuff so please, when in doubt, just ask!

My ask box is ALWAYS open!

PLEASE NOTE; I sway more to Fem reader. I will gladly do gender neutral but you have to let me know that you want that! 

This account may have nsfw stuff here so please be cautious of that and I'll be sure to make updates to this and hopefully figure out a safe tagging system to better keep those who don't want to see that stuff safer.

What I’ll Write

Headcanons

Ficlets

Oneshots

Imagines

Songfics

Topics I May Touch On

Fluff

Angst

Smut

Non-Con/Dub-Con

Very Mild Gore

Emotional/Physical Violence

Kinky Shit

Crack Ideas

What I Won’t Touch

MAP Bullshit

Heavy Gore

More Out-There Smut Topics

[milksbigbookosin]

It really trips me out to see that I had notifications when logging in for the first time in months..

Thank you so so much guys

[churchofvergil]

Hello, dear 💖

Can I request headcanons, can be both sfw and nsfw, for Vergil with younger, in her 20's like, and shorter, like 160-165 cm, fem s/o?

I've never seen a headcanon on this topic, and as a girl that age and height I burning with curiosity 😩💙 (and maybe some Daddy and Size kinks 😌)

Stay safe! 💖

Hullooo, thank you for requesting! And ofc ofc <3

I've written a lot of x short reader so some of these might've been written already in another post...

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Vergil x short Fem!Reader headcanons!

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༄ؘ - Vergil absolutely adores having such a small companion by his side, he doesn't show how he's so enraptured by you and honestly you're kind of unaware of it too... He just wants to stare and take in your beauty all day, keep you close by and make sure you feel safe and loved.

༄ؘ - He's very defensive over your height even though you really don't care if someone calls you "shorty" jokingly, the second he hears that he's off telling them off for a painfully long amount of time, he's worried about you feeling insecure, he'll do everything in his power to keep you happy.

༄ؘ - One time while it was raining unexpectedly and neither you or him brought an umbrella, he took his coat off and put it over you so you wouldn't get wet. Of course Vergil got fucking soaked, but he'd probably get mad at himself for letting you sit there in the rain.

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i couldn't write the nsfw :(

[animalcrackeralien]

Okay I'm gonna shoot my shot here-

Hi! My name is Milk! I run @milksbigbookosin where I write fanfiction for lots of things but mainly DreamSMP x Readers.

I'm about to turn 21 and I'm like really aching for some DreamSMP friends so-!

Here's a little bit about me;

I go by she/he/they , really doesn't matter to me!

I am a hypersexual

I'm a Gemini! Birthday is June 2nd

I am queer

I adore musicals. My favorite is RENT.

Favorite movie is The Lost Boys

Will punch a nazi

Has punched a nazi

I love to play on PS4 with friends.

I play allot of Overwatch and Watch Dogs.

I have a couple very close friends who I'd love to have you meet

I am the drunk aunt friend

I will never judge you for ships or anything like that

I am part of the F/O community

I have an F/O discord server

I'm a huge Techno and Philza lover

I'm a George kinnie

Never grew out of my emo phase

I will literally make you playlists for you and your F/O

I roleplay!

Would love to hear about your OCs

I will write you whatever you want little buddy

And ya know what? Since you made it this far, if you're interested and 18+ you can by all means add me on discord! Milk_#9238

[milksbigbookosin]

Me over here, knowing full well people want those X Readers

But my brain is just full of ideas for my own Self Insert with my F/Os

[mitsies-deactivated20240911]

this is a milk stan account btw

[basilly]

HAHA oh my gosh- i am an anti-milk stan account

[mitsies-deactivated20240911]

you’ve upset me basilly, i dont understand why you dont like milk

[basilly]

its just not good by itself😭

[naosaki-deactivated20240120]

im not lactose intolerant but literally any kind of “other” milk is better than actual milk

pls milk is so ugh (unless it’s like chocolate but even then I’m iffy)

[mitsies-deactivated20240911]

i’m being ganged up on and i really dont appreciate it

[burntcilantro-deactivated202104]

okay but straight up milk is actually horrible

[basilly]

i think the consensus is @mitzimania is the only one who likes milk o.o

[cr0wbonezz-wr1ting-inc]

MILK IS SO GOOD BRO

[basilly]

damb ok @mitzimania u got one

[dysfunctionalcrab]

milk is superior by itself :)

[basilly]

NOOO anissa pls😭

no milk- 5(?)

milk- 3

[sugarsoftie-deactivated20210824]

Milk is good!

[basilly]

ajdbajs milk is gaining😭

no milk- 5

milk- 4

[milksbigbookosin]

[milksbigbookosin]

Hi, yes, uh, I requested the philza imagine and I'm just passing to say that I loved it do much! Thank you! Thank ypu!! It's so good!!

I'm happy you liked it my child

[milksbigbookosin]

Hello anon! I'm so happy you requested this and I hope you like it as much as I loved writing it!

Warnings: Nsfw, Biting, Bruises, mentions of choking

Word Count:1,280

I Wanna Get Stuck Between Your Teeth Like Cotton Candy (Philza x Reader)

The little things tend to be the things you love the most about those you care about. Usually they range from facial tics or habits that may be small, but give their partner a familiar comfort. Learning these things is usually done without you thinking about it, you go through daily life with that person and you subconsciously note these things but don't tend to pay them much mind. It's something you take for granted and usually it results in you realizing these little romanticized details when it's too late to actually appreciate them. For Phil, it wasn't much of a problem though. He had forever to appreciate these little things in people and after centuries of outliving others, he knew better than to wait.

You were someone that drove him wild in that regard. The two of you were a cute couple to say the least, your friends often hearing from you just how happy you were with Phil. Now, that doesn't mean Phil didn't feel that strongly about it. Phil was simply more of a private romantic in that regard but it was obvious to him that it made you a little anxious. So, to make up for it he'd always make sure that the two of you were touching in some sort of way when in public. He'd often find himself molding himself ever so slightly to get smiles from you or the kind of laughs that weren't rehearsed, leaving you snorting and getting red in the face when you noticed him grinning at the noises. 

One of the joys of a new relationship is learning those ways to get reactions from your partner and gods, was it fun to get them out of you. The way you'd smile at him instantly when he waved to you or how you rolled your eyes at his dad jokes were little things that went straight to his heart. The cute little peppering kisses you gave him in the morning when you stayed the night, gently carding your fingers through his messy locks. So many things you did made him so content with your relationship.

Of course though, the romance aspect isn't the only part of (most) relationships but he had yet to really think about you in any sort of flustering way.

At first it was very subtle, he'd notice you tense up ever so slightly when his arm would drape over your shoulder, usually hook just slightly over your neck. He was worried at first that it made you anxious but the rigidness would leave rather fast after the first few times he did it.

After that, Phil would forget it for the most part. You were just a skittish girl who was on the sensitive side after all, didn't help having a guy thousands of years old towering over you so, yeah you needed time to adjust. But then it kept happening, going from you being tense to jerking your head and raising your shoulders when his hands got too close to the curve of your neck. He started to get a little deliberate with it, offering to help you put on your necklaces only to make his fingertips linger on the back of your neck. 

He'd lean down so his chin rested on your shoulder, smiling at you in the mirror in the morning just talking to you all while he secretly smiled at the bright pink that would creep onto your cheeks. Sometimes during those mirror moments he'd close his eye and press a tender kiss to your pink cheek, at first in an attempt to ground you in a simply soft mood but then came the day he missed and instead pressed his lips to your neck.

Your face turned crimson and that marked the beginning of your undoing.

From that moment on, your poor neck and shoulders were his. Your little squeaks and whines would become a high that he easily became addicted to. The addiction would get him to try and up the game each time, chasing for new reactions to melt over the old so you in turn would feel that all too smug smile against the crook of your neck time and time again. From kissing to dragging his tongue experimentally across your skin, your shuddering breath as you let out his name kept him up at night. Then sucking till pretty little bruises littered your neck leaving you a whimpering mess, a mess that he never sorted just so you could stay up at night like he had to.

It was beginning to drive you mad but in the most beautiful ways. You loved seeing your neck afterwards just littered with marks in the mirror the morning after a night of his relentless teasing. Every time you'd beg for him to finish the job but he never did, leaving you to squirm and writhe under him until he was satisfied with teasing you for the night. You'd have to give yourself that release when he was busy the next day but it always felt like an eternity. 

You'd call out his name desperately, curling your fingers to bring yourself over the edge as your free hand gripped onto the sheets. Sure you came but- you still ached by the end of it, your thoughts of his hand wrapping around your throat and pressing your wrist to the mattress with the other, giving you a high that lips just couldn't do or him actually filling you instead of just your trembling fingers.

You weren't sure how much of this you could handle.

~

Phil once again was teasing you relentlessly, your palms gripping onto the kitchen counter he hand you sitting on as he kissed down your chest exposed under your now partially unbuttoned shirt.

"Gods- you're so needy aren't you?" His eyes peered up at you, a smug smirk on his lips at the sight of your crimson face frowning down at him. His hand gripped onto your thighs, giving them a firm squeeze as he started to leave his all too familiar marks across your chest.

You could feel heat pooling in your stomach, wishing those hands would just slip in between your thighs instead like you've been so desperate for. 

"Phil please-" you whined, nails desperate to grip onto something as you felt his teeth start to sink into your skin making you let out streak of high pitched 'fuck's. You needed him to give you some sort of release, anything. Instead all you got what more bites and deep laughs against your skin. His thumbs started to rub circles through your leggings, occasionally bringing his hands inwards getting so tantalizingly close to where you craved him. You moved your legs apart to try and give him the hint, your arms coming up to wrap around his neck to grip onto his shirt waiting to finally feel him properly touch you. His hands slowly slid in, one of thumbs pressing in just near your clit which was enough to get a proper moan from you and your hands slid down his back.

"Fuckin hell you are so desprate~ oh-!" his words caught in his throat, feeling your nails suddenly dig into the base of his wing. You froze, feeling your own curiosity rise up as the man who had you so needy was now still under your fingertips. Curiously and carefully you dragged your nails down the wings, earning a low groan from the now red faced man. 

"Jesus Y/N" he gasped "do that again."

A wave of irony and arousal washed over the room and the only thing that was certain, tonight was far from over.

[jesuschristonadonut]

Dream smp fans I come with a humble request!!! Please provide me with what tag a bitch has to look up to get some x reader fanfiction on the dream smp, Now I dont mean the streamers oh no- I mean the CHARACTERS! I want fanfics on Ghostbur, The orphan hating pig man, A tall hippie father with wings, a lonely fox man, A half ender person! I do love these streamers and don't get me wrong im as attracted to Wilbur as the next LGBT depressed fool in this fandom, but i personally dont like reading fanfiction on real people (no shame to those who do as long as your not being sexual with either the minors or creators that have said they dislike it then go off vibe) BUT I WANT TO BE DATING A FANTASY PERSON IN THE FANTASY MINECRAFT!!! let me pretend I'm in the lore for like- 5 minutes man. What tag I gotta look up cause Dreamsmp is all the streamer and I'm not gonna make a tag for it if im just writing to myself the whole time. (Tho I would if other peeps wanted to take part as well so like- just inform me if so idk)

Thank you for any awnsers you may give me i shall greatly appreciate it!

[milksbigbookosin]

I will gladly try to help with this.

And personally I would LOVE to take part.

[hornedsimp]

As a fellow writer I would also love so much to take a part on this too, to my knowledge the tags you can search for would be c!willbur x reader, basically putting the c! Will mean you are searching for ghostbur or willbur's character but not content irl, that only works for specific people though, and it's not a oficial thing fir the whole community.

[milksbigbookosin]

We should really try to make that a thing tho- more tags means it's easier for readers to find what they want.

If only tumblr had a multiple tag system like AO3 but hey, can't have shit in detroit

[animalcrackeralien]

Good morning just really quickly wanted to make a little post here for the antis who think that they're doing a good job and protecting their faves.

People can ship whatever (legal) ships they want. They can create any fanart for it or stories they want when they are tagged properly.

You are the one making your fave uncomfortable by shoving the content in their face and saying 'Hey look what people are doing'.

This kind of shipping has been around since fucking forever. Back in the day band fanfics were like the wildfire of the internet. They were EVERYWHERE and yes, our favorite bands thought it was weird but here's the thing though.

It only got weird because people kept sending it to them.

You guys have to learn the line between fan domain and the creators. Some people have no problem crossing into the fan domain and even liking it, see for example the Game Grumps where they have said that they would constantly go on tumblr and reddit to see the ship stuff and loved it.

But, you will also have the creators that don't like seeing it and that is perfectly okay. But if you think that you trying to police others and tell them what they can and can't do, showing the creators what fanfiction or ship fanart people are making, posting hate in the ship tags and other dumb stuff. If you think all of that is helping, it's not.

Writers and artists are the most resilient fuckers okay. We don't care.

Try looking at content you enjoy instead of scrolling through ship tags that you know are going to aggravate you.

Your fave doesn't want you showing that stuff to them, your fave doesn't see you as their little puppy dog. Stop seeking their special attention like that.

[arminocean]

Hello I am begging you guys please boost this if you can, this keeps happening an I am so tired of it

Where I live there is this man named Pervis Payne and he is suppose to be executed in 29 days please boost this. In Tennessee specifically shelby Tennessee he is suppose to be executed. During his trial and during his time of being on death row he has faced racism, and been told things like "you think your black now just wait until we fry you."

He has so much proof of being innocent but won't be let off death row. Police has said that he was in a drug fueled frenzy with no evidence and REFUSE to do DNA testing or drug testing. He done nothing wrong but is being called a animal.

He has a proven intellectual disability where he shouldn't be on death row at all. I don't care at all what your account is about just please spread awareness knowing that stuff like this is happening where I live to innocent black people just like me is disgusting.

If you can please @ your mutuals. This man deserve freedom.

Here are things you can do

Petition to allow to do DNA testing

Call (615)-741-2001 and press 1 to leave a voice mail granting a stay of pervis payne execution

I sadly can't find anymore at the moment but if you do please share also some petitions are fake so please be careful.

Also realize that he is probably going to be executed in 28 days now since his execution is on April 9

@angiebug101 @mypimpademia

[mypimpademia]

@mixfi @myhoodacademia @katsuflossy @kunikida-kun

[angeliciie-deactivated20210318]

@karls-bb @sugarsoftie @altsoupi @alex-quackity @arson-frog-art @inniterhq @bugthegremlin @blu-is-a-ghost @hubblie-deactivated20210310 @corpse-br1de @nocturnal-dreams @yesland @qtip-whore @rat-kinggg @mina-luv-bot @eave3 @dreamsfoot

[cr0wbonezz-wr1ting-inc]

@basilly @for-memories-sacrifice !!!

[jesuschristonadonut]

Dream smp fans I come with a humble request!!! Please provide me with what tag a bitch has to look up to get some x reader fanfiction on the dream smp, Now I dont mean the streamers oh no- I mean the CHARACTERS! I want fanfics on Ghostbur, The orphan hating pig man, A tall hippie father with wings, a lonely fox man, A half ender person! I do love these streamers and don't get me wrong im as attracted to Wilbur as the next LGBT depressed fool in this fandom, but i personally dont like reading fanfiction on real people (no shame to those who do as long as your not being sexual with either the minors or creators that have said they dislike it then go off vibe) BUT I WANT TO BE DATING A FANTASY PERSON IN THE FANTASY MINECRAFT!!! let me pretend I'm in the lore for like- 5 minutes man. What tag I gotta look up cause Dreamsmp is all the streamer and I'm not gonna make a tag for it if im just writing to myself the whole time. (Tho I would if other peeps wanted to take part as well so like- just inform me if so idk)

Thank you for any awnsers you may give me i shall greatly appreciate it!

[milksbigbookosin]

I will gladly try to help with this.

And personally I would LOVE to take part.

[milksbigbookosin]

31 one followers man-

I'm so happy people are starting to really like my writing and you guys have no idea how much it means to me.

Thank you so much guys-!

Remember that you can send in requests and I'd love to hear your ideas!💜

[milksbigbookosin]

Helpless (Philza x Reader)

Oh boy here we go, exposing my dilfza side!

Once again I hope you guys enjoy and feel free to send requests in my ask box!

Word Count: 1,673

You absolutely adored spending your time in the town’s library even since you were little along with Wilbur. Ever since you were younger you tended to be far too awkward when it came to starting friendships. Wilbur would come into the lounge for the teens, sitting around the computers with the other kids yelling and joking around. He had seen you being rather sheepish, oftentimes peering over your book to see whatever they were up to only to quickly avert your gaze when he caught you. If anyone asked him, he’d say he walked over to you to say hi just for you to start following him around like a puppy. In reality, he had started to pester you when he caught you looking. He was so stubborn to talk to you and wouldn’t let you be whenever he saw you from there on.

Regardless of how he claimed the two of you met, you were grateful that you did. He was one of your first friends growing up and you wouldn’t trade the world for him. That being said, he drove you nuts along with the kids that had started to follow him around like he was some big brother. Tommy was by far the worst of the two, constantly making little jokes towards you trying to “flirt”. You know, as much as a 12 year old could flirt with a 20-something year old when he was barely over his cootie phase. Thankfully though today it was just the two of you.

A sigh from Wilbur caught your attention, peering over your book to him. He was looking around from his seat, a bored look on his face. God you already knew he was about to be overdramatic...

“Doesn’t this ever get old to you,Y/N?” he asked,eyes looking desperately for something, anything to give him some sort of excitement but he was instead met with nothing but countless shelves of books and the occasional noises from who knows where.

You hummed to yourself, seemingly thinking it over before bluntly saying “Nope! We always go to the library on Saturday Wil, this isn't new.” He turned his gaze to you and pouted, eyebrows furrowed in annoyance as you went back to your book. “Come oooon,” he leaned across the table, pushing down your book so you were forced to look at him “You’re telling me that you don’t want to go out and do something for once? I’m sure Techno is probably doing something cool, probably going in the Nether or something else fucking bonkers.”

Was he serious right now?

The Nether, especially with Techno, was far from a fun idea to you. Techno wasn’t as impulsive as Wil or Tommy but that didn’t exactly mean it would be a calm trip. Techno was a little strange to you, always going on and on about chaos and little philosophical rants about politics and such. He was one of Wilbur’s friends from before he met you and if you were honest, he was weird back then too.

“Yeah, just so Tech can get us lost like he did last time in the woods when you guys wanted to find a dog?”

“Hey! We got home didn’t we?”

“Wil it took us till sunset to get home and you almost broke your leg on a log-”

He once again sighed, this time louder and more dramatic than before. It was kind of cute when he went on these little tangents, now going on about you having to learn to ‘live a little’. Yeah right, because living meant taking dumb risks for literally no reason. Part of you wished you had the guts he had, making friends with so many kinds of people and going on crazy adventures but you knew better than to get wrapped up in all of that. Something suddenly caught your eye, something dark poking out from one of the aisles behind Wilbur as he went on talking. There was someone standing in the aisle, the strange object seemingly fluttering when they moved. Your mind was wandering, curious of who lingered out of sight before finally walking out from behind the shelf.

Blonde locks rested on green clothed shoulders, bright eyes glancing over the spines of books. The dark objects you had seen now were much clearer, turning out to be a rather large pair of what seemed to be raven wings. You had seen some rather interesting people around L’Manburg but, wow, they were rather gorgeous.

‘The wings.

The wings were gorgeous’ you thought to yourself.

Goodness what was wrong with you?

“-I’m just saying, I don’t want you to be so damn sheltered that you cease to function if I ever had to leave or anything you know?” He said, looking up at you expecting to see you giving your usual pained smile you gave when it came to serious talks but, strangely enough, you weren’t even paying attention to him. He raised an eyebrow, tilting his head in confusion before following your gaze behind him. It was silent for a moment as Wil looked at who had your attention, feeling even more confused to see his friend Phil. Why were you looking at Phil like that? Granted, he never introduced you two but it wasn’t like you to just stare like that at people. He turned back to you, waving one of his hands over your eyes.

“You alright there, Y/N?”

You flinched, snapping out of your little trance and looking back to Wilbur. Oh goodness, how long was he done talking? You didn’t mean to space out on him so bad. “Yeah- I'm sorry about that..just got a little” you paused cheeks heating up, trying to think of how to word it without Wilbur possibly prying “spacey.”

Something seemed to click in Wil’s mind as he saw your cheeks darken, looking back to Phil then back to you as he worked it over in his head. Suddenly his lips curled into a mischievous smirk, watching you try to look back down at your book that now rested on the table. You had no idea just how guilty you looked, failing to catch that look on Wil’s face as he suddenly stood up from the table.

“Gimme a sec-”

Before you could question him he scooted his chair in, turning around and walking right up to the winged man. ‘Oh god,’ you thought as Wilbur started talking to him. You couldn’t hear anything they were saying so all you could do was watch helplessly as they chatted away. After what felt like an eternity Wil leaned in closer to him, turning to look at you while he seemed to whisper something to him ‘Oh god what is he doing?!’ You felt like your heart was going to burst when the stranger’s eyes looked right at you, shifting from Wilbur then back to you. You quickly looked down at the book again, unable to look either of them in the eye. You wanted to sink into the floor, why is it the moment you get the slightest bit of a crush you had to be with Wilbur? If only you didn’t stare, if only you just agreed to something different today..Maybe you could just leave honestly. Wilbur would probably tease you for a week over you being a chicken but at the very least you’d still have some breath left in you.

“Hey-”

Your eyes shot up at the new voice, shocked to see the blonde in front of you and even more shocking, Wilbur wasn’t behind him taunting you silently. Nope, instead it was just you and the raven winged stranger. You swallowed nervously, trying your best to give him a friendly little smile that came out making you look far too small and mousey.

“You mind if I sit with ya?” he asked, a knowing smile on his face that made you jittery. Not wanting to seem weird you simply shook your head, grateful as he didn’t pry for a verbal answer and instead took Wilbur’s seat across from you. Goodness that smile was going to be the death of you. He propped his elbow up on the table resting his chin on his palm as he watched you shift in your chair nervously. “So,” he finally said “Wil says apparently you were givin me the eyes”he teased, loving the way your cheeks darkened at that far too much.

“He’s such an ass” you muttered to yourself,nervously playing with the pages of your book as you tried to search for some sort of way to get yourself out of this “I’m sorry I wasn’t trying to be weird or anything.” This was so embarrassing, having to admit that you were being some weirdo and staring at him.

“Honestly I think it’s cute if it means anything” he admitted, once again catching you off guard. You haven’t felt so helpless before. You didn’t feel uncomfortable in a bad way or anything but to have a much taller and very handsome guy right across from you was really something for sure. You knew now that you’d never hear the end of this and in all honesty? Wilbur was going to probably die if she didn’t melt by the end of this. He extended his hand, giving you a patient smile “I’m Phil.”

You gave a slightly more comfortable smile to him, gently taking his hand and giving a shake “Y/N…”

“Well Y/N, I mostly came over here to introduce myself since Wil had to be a little tattletail” he joked, giving your hand a gentle squeeze before letting go and standing up“Hopefully i’ll actually get to see you around when you’re not all frazzled, yeah?”

You could only manage a nod again, melting as you heard him chuckle at you being so nervous. You think you heard him say bye as he walked off but you were much too focused on how you were going to kill Wilbur later.

[milksbigbookosin]

I Thought I Couldn’t Love Anymore (Wilbur Soot x Reader)

Hello-!

This is my first MCYT oneshot so please by all means, let me know what you think! This was allot of fun to write and I do plan to write more in the future.

Sorry it's so short by the way- Tags/Warnings; Pining, unrequited crush, angst, alcohol use

Words:1034 

Vodka and Geoguesser was becoming too much of a habit nowadays. It was rather fun when he did it in front of chat, loving their reactions to him being a total idiot. Tonight was one of those nights, downing Smirnoff and being oh so wrong when it came to geography. However, he found himself far too distracted now. He had been going on for about an hour but now, the screen was instead on some random musician’s stream while Wilbur tried to play along with his cat keyboard. For the most part he was just being goofy but in all honesty, he was truly just trying to keep his mind occupied. He saw your name mentioned in chat, he knew now that you were online and it was starting to be suggested that you guys do something together.

It was rather obvious to anyone that knew Wilbur that he had a real habit of talking down the whole premise of love. Everything from his jokes to his music painted the picture of a broken hearted romantic who was far too desperate to stay broken. He was content in his nihilistic void, walls and iron doors keeping him in so nothing would ever truly hurt him without his permission and he sure as shit never wanted ‘love’ to slip through.

So, what happens when someone like that starts to fall?

You came into his life a few months ago now, a small streamer that had been introduced to the circle of Minecraft streamers that Wil was in. You started to play every once and awhile when Tommy found some stupid mod to make a video out of, somehow already unlocking a door in Wilbur’s mind. Your laughter was infectious whenever you all filmed together. That laugh made the smile on his lips linger a little too long, watching Tommy's videos back and seeing your actual webcam reactions was dangerous as well. Your smile had started to tie his nerves into knots and god, the way your eyes seemed to brighten when he talked infested his insides with butterflies.

He wanted nothing more than to chalk it all up into being some sort of parasite, something that no business being in his body. Years of avoiding any strand of love gone to waste all because of you. You infected him and now he had no idea how to cure himself.

A sigh finally left his lips, fingers hovering over the keys of the cat board that grinned at him. The vodka wasn’t helping, Geoguesser wasn’t helping and this damn cat that was mocking his hidden grief sure as shit wasn’t helping either. He finally put the keyboard down, turning back to his stream.

“Alright I think, we’re going to call it a night” he said, trying his best to sound light hearted. His outro was quick but made sure that it didn’t seem rushed, the last thing he needed was people worrying about him. Once he was sure things were properly turned off he let out a long sigh, leaning back in his chair and staring numbly at the screen. Why the hell do you always manage to sneak into his brain like this? Especially with him being so damn drunk, it was practically begging for him to do something stupid.

His poor bottom lip was nervously being chewed on as he found his brain wandering again to your name. Wilbur didn’t want to go home just to sleep… Granted it was late and he was still smashed but he knew damn well he wouldn’t be able to sleep soundly without at the very least seeing what you were up to. He sat up, scooting up to his desk again and within seconds he had your stream up. You seemed to have started a game of Jackbox with a couple of the guys. He could make out Phil’s laughter along and he thought he heard Schlatt and Quackity but he wasn’t too sure. Whoever they were, they had you laughing and showing that all too familiar smile.

It felt like a God he didn’t believe in was purposely turning all the love sick words he wrote in songs around, plunging them deep into the unthawed heart in his chest. He wasn’t sure what to do. He wanted to make you smile like that, he wanted to be the one who got to hear you in calls that weren’t just for business but he knew it was an awful idea. After all, Wilbur was a problem, at least in his own mind.

He went this long shooting down anyone who seriously had feelings for him. He wouldn’t accept when things were working right those rare occasions when he thought he found love, ruining it in one way or another. As much as Wilbur was falling for you, he couldn’t see past the countless times he fucked up. He knew that there was a chance that he would ruin it again, leaving you crying like he had done so many times before to others. The idea of you crying because of him was enough to cover the idea of a happy future with you. It was enough to make his breath shaky and for his eyes to become glossy with tears of frustration.

Why was it so hard for him to just be happy?

Why did he always have to ruin any sort of positivity that he could look forward to?

Even if it wasn’t true that things were hopeless his mind would swoop right in with intrusive thoughts, instantly breaking him down with insults and far too many ‘what if’ scenarios. He knew deep down he wouldn’t hurt you on purpose. He knew deep down that he deserved love and that he could make you happy and just maybe, you could be good for him. The only thing blocking him was the walls he had put up and doors that he had lost the keys to ages ago.

But if you could unlock doors before, maybe the keys were in your possession. And maybe, just maybe, soon enough you’d unlock the rest of those for him and save him from the isolation he had sentenced himself to.

[grimesoblivion]

My class pretended to play dead.

[tyleroakley]

Just as the Mayans predicted, the apocalypse came with the signal of a cough.

[quibbs]

these middle schoolers read better than my high school honors english class

[attackonsociallife-deactivated2]

I REALLY HAVE TO REBLOG THIS IM SORRY THE FUCKING TEACHER

[emodesertwitch]

“Stop being dead right now”

[kaldurcalm-deactivated20240513]

That’s the reaction of an adult who delights in what you just did, but is in the position of Enforcing The Rules, so they have to tell you to stop anyway

[soliddreamsblog-deactivated2018]

Every time I see that glee face he gets its like “fine I guess I’ll reblog”

[garrettauthor]

Same.

[fangirltothefullest]

The teachers continued laughter and the “it’s really 2012” just gets me

[memewhore]

[wordsaremylife]

Healthcare PSA

[prismatic-bell]

Tiktok removed this, so keep it moving!