Escape

[mind-ofa-stranger]

Thank you.

I wish I could go back to the moment we first spoke. I’ve never felt such a strong connection with someone in such a short time, and even though getting together destroyed my “happiness” with someone else, I thank you for opening my eyes and realising that the situation I was in was not right and that I deserved so much more. Thank you for making the effort. Thank you for being honest. Thank you for introducing me to new things. Thank you for accepting me for me. Thank you for being you. Thank you for everything.

[mind-ofa-stranger]

I spoke too soon.

It wasn't perfect but it was getting there. We were so close to making it work. How did I actually believe it would work this time? Why would I think that I could love someone and that they would actually love me back without any complications? We were so close yet I spoke too soon and now we're both alone.

[mind-ofa-stranger]

I think this might actually work this time.

[mind-ofa-stranger]

Why is it that whenever something positive happens, it has to be at the worst possible time. I'm so unlucky.

[mind-ofa-stranger]

This is not fair.

This is not fair. We speak all the time We both clearly miss each other We both confessed our love to each other But nothing will or can ever happen. This is not fair.

[mind-ofa-stranger]

It's getting really bad again and I can't take the voices in my head anymore.

[mind-ofa-stranger]

It happened again.

You. Why is it always you. Whenever I'm at my lowest or highest, it's you I want to be with. And after 4 months we've met again. Again you picked me up and again we slept in each other's arms. I try my best to forget you but how can I when all I see if your face, your soft lips opening and hearing the words "I've missed you..so much". Feeling your warm body and smelling that familiar smell. Hearing you whisper "I love you" and then pretending nothing ever happened the next day. How am I expected to cope with this when all I want is to forget you, but I can't help but love you. You've ruined me and I can't thank you enough.

[mind-ofa-stranger]

And because of you, i’ve pushed away three super kind and caring guys who could have helped me become the best person i can be, but you always get involved and i hate you for that, but what makes me hate it even worse is that i love you for it. 

[shefoundherselfsomehow]

And I think the thing that terrifies me most is that one day, you will be the story I tell my daughter, when she is curled up in bed, wrapped in blankets and heartbreak, when she has not eaten anything in days expect for the voicemails he left her, when she has not been able to sleep because the goodbye that broke her shatters her bones all over again everytime she closes her fucking eyes. And I will climb into bed with her and she will lay her head on my lap and I will try to push him out of her mind and her tears will soak through my shirt

letter I will never send #1 (via angelsbecomedemons)

[unacceptedstranger]

You took what you wanted and left.

My late night thoughts (via unacceptedstranger)

[mind-ofa-stranger]

You accuse me of seeing other people. You accuse me of not caring about you. You do all this while telling me that you love me to bits and can't stop thinking about me.. But this isn't true. You lie about everything and blame it on alcohol. I actually opened up to you and admitted how I really feel about you and you just chewed it up and spat it on my face while saying the words "I was drunk and didn't mean anything". Fuck you you fucking fuck.

[mind-ofa-stranger]

I knew it. I knew this would happen. Did it really have to get to the point where I had to push you to the ground to listen to me? Don't you know how much I hate violence? You say you don't want anything yet you won't let me go, and if I try to move on you come running back. My mind is already fucked up enough as it is, you are destroying something that is already destroyed! Please don't do this to me, or do it, just decide please.

[mind-ofa-stranger]

CAN'T YOU SEE I LOVE YOU.

[mind-ofa-stranger]

I knew this would happen. We promised that it would just be for fun yet I always get so attached. The more I try to avoid you, the more I want you, I guess it is true, absence makes the heart grow stronger. But I'm trying to stay away, yet your soothing voice and touch is only making me fall harder. Please stop but don't stop.

[mind-ofa-stranger]

Why am I so confused.

[mind-ofa-stranger]

Why am I so confused.