"EvErYoNe HaS aDhD ThEse dAyS"
No, being easily distracted by phones and media isn't fucking ADHD, do you know what the FUCK it is?
- living your whole life feeling like you're defective and broken
- feeling like a failure even if you try BEYOND your hardest and burn yourself out bc it's not enough to keep up with the Neurotypical pace of the world
- hating yourself for being literally, PHYSICALLY unable to do things - even things that you love! (*the last 20 minutes of one of my favourite movies glare at me in absolute fury from the corner*)
- being called a liar by your loved ones bc you didn't do something or forgot something or messed up anywho - "just do it, what's the problem! Just don't forget!"
- getting so angry about the dumbest thing you feel like you're physically about to explode, yet being unable to even express that anger bc you'll be yelled at or punished for it
- in regards of the previous point, also having the emotional regulation ability of a fucking cabbage
- having your abilities to function so inconsistent you don't fucking trust yourself anymore
- having to fight 25 bajillion mental barriers every day to do the SIMPLEST FUCKING ACTIONS
- getting SO STUCK in a deep hyperfocus on what the fuck ever which isn't what you have to do and panicking w each moment you cannot rip yourself out of it and do a productive thing
- not having a sense of time and either being late all the time or being WAY too early everywhere bc you got so fucked by your time blindness you're now getting everywhere way before you have to
- having ZERO self esteem. Fucking zero.
- being told to "suck it up" or "it's not that bad stop whining" when sensory stuff bother you, sometimes to the extent of being gaslit
- just fucking hating yourself for existing
-oh also being bullied and hated for your "weird obsessions" and having to hear stuff like "stop talking about [hyperfixation] no one cares!"
And the list go on and fucking on, I could keep it going forever. I'm so pissed off at this shit, and do NOT get me started on how poorly this fucking condition is named, 'attention deficit' is our smallest fucking problem
(Also, everyone's experience is different, I'm just talking about my personal experience - it's okay if you don't relate to it! It doesn't invalidate you as a Neurodivergent individual. Remember to take care of yourselves❤)
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