Misty and Mara's Prose, Quotes, and Mutterings

Two best friends. Two crazy minds. Two metric tons of words and emotions. Our Secondary Blog Dedicated to Poetry, Short Stories, and Quotes

[haleyincarnate]

Based off of this post by @drinkt0forget.

[mistyandmara]

The Lovely Tree

You will move on. And grow into a beautiful tree if he chooses to eat your fruit that's his gain. If he doesn't that's his lost. If he eats and runs let him go. One day he might returned to the beautiful tree. But will the tree might bot be in season to share her fruit. But the tree can share her fruit with others and develop new branches. The tree will grow stronger. And bloom new again.

[ammitandotherpoems]

Why should I retract my claws for you? What do I earn from playing nice? I’ll choke on the cries I leave in my throat. I am not sorry. If I am angry, I will be angry. I will be blinding light I will be rage and shaky hands I will be venom and teary eyes I will not laugh at your jokes I will not tuck my fangs away to smile for you. I will look you dead in the eye and I will spit out teeth that are not mine.

“Ammit” by Jasmine Khaliq (via pillowstars)

[mistyandmara]

Today my heart is troubled

Today my heart is troubled For yesterday it was not But upon the morning greeting Dark tidings were aloft Feelings of confusion Bolstered by discontent Rear their ugly temper Trying to tear us apart Long have we waited A residence we call our own Our small space of warmth That the world rips asunder The choice was your own And it still remains to be You joined me here at will And can leave at your own volition

[mistyandmara]

Never Be Mine Again

We spent almost four years, living in each other's skin Breathing in, breathing out, oil to my vinegar Fanning the flames of all my bad habits We spent our time passing the days comfortably Until the time came where the was a need for more I being selfish and you had your independence Domestic bliss was not our agreed upon future We parted, peacefully, but regrettably Time passed and we both struggled to fill the void We coped and found ways to deal You in the arms of another Myself in schooling and trying to pay rent We gambled with getting back together Nothing more than a fling a chance to slip back together Becoming more two halves of the same whole I got the phone late on a Sunday night Your Another had raised his arms holding a gun Put a bullet or five into you breaking your living symmetry Taking his life along with that of your grandfather He made sure that you would never be mine again

[mistyandmara]

Nervous

Lighten up they say While smiling and cracking jokes. Trying to ease in to a relaxed state, Plastering on a false grin and Ignoring the clenching of the guts. Questioning how the desire to succeed Is overcome by the fear of screwing up.

[mistyandmara]

Controlled Variation

You are the noise in my process.Your whims push up against the boundaries of my tolerance levels. Your pressure drops and mood swings balancing out and preventing signal boots. Your disappearance from my daily routine would result in out of control, unstable operation outcome.

[mistyandmara]

Failure Mode and Effect Analysis

Looking at our situation Its easy to tell that Hell in a hand basket Is our final destination. Forecasting and planning All the possible methods The domino could fall And picking our poison. Following a whim And playing would you Rather fall off a cliff Or burn to death?

[mistyandmara]

Introvert thought process

Well thought through and claclucated Phrases percolate and grow to a fullness Meticulously worded, organized for logic Slow and steady cadence Sometimes never verbalized For the moment has already passed

[mistyaurorablue]

Smalltalk

Pointless pleasantries White lies Filling the void Avoiding awkward silences Meeting social norms Braying like animals Words of false concern

[mistyandmara]

Personal Problem

The true definition of its not you,

Its me. Not finding the calm 

inside my mind. An endless

debate with you on

the outside. A circle

surrounding the warring

sides contained in my mind.

I ignore you, seeking to be alone.

How can I make a decision, 

properly relay my thoughts?

When the addition of you

causes more indecision.

It is a personal problem I tell

you. Nothing will change until

I face it and make a change.  

[mistyandmara]

Irritation

Getting from point a to point b quickly

Impossible, not in this crowd

Doting grandparents, moms and dads beaming

Wild little siblings running lose

Side swiping and jostling me where I stand   

I’m not hurt, but I want to scream

  I can’t say I am any better

Here to watch the show choir

Little brother smiling on stage

Just another supporting family

Lost in the masses

  I try to get my family to move

To stop standing in the isle

They stay rooted on spot

They start to ask me what is wrong

Noting the agonized expression

I wear as a defensive shield

  I slowly get them moving

Shuffling to the door

Our group gets separated

My grandmother lost

And no one notices, but me

I have to fight back against the flow

Seeing her, I yell and she makes her way

I take her hand and we head to the car

Strapped in and motor running

All I can think of is the fact that

I came, I saw, I survived  

[mistyandmara]

The Last Goodbye

You always showed up in my dreams. It was never enough that you we in all of my classes and I saw you every day. You walked through my dreams making me smile. In my dreams we went to concerts, watched movies and even spent time in the gym.We would hold each other, comforting away the failure of tests, long sleep less nights, and the sense of never moving forward.  I don’t know why we related so much. It could be that we had kindred souls or our similar outlooks on life.

There were times where I felt guilty for my subconscious’s desire for your company. I was fully committed to another, happy and loved. The only consolation that I had was that I spent more time with you than I did my own love. How could I hold that against my self? In time, I let it go and the dreams lessened. 

Graduation was over four months ago. I have not seen you once since then. Not a single text message or dream. That was until last night. A bitter sweet dream of you and I. I looked into your eyes and saw care and affection. But mostly I saw understanding; an understanding that this was to be the end of our dream escapades. As you stood there smiling sadly, I stepped up and kissed you softly. At first, shock held you motionless, but you grabbed my hand when I tried to pull away. You kissed me back, conveying all the emotions real and imagined. You gave my hand a slight squeeze then looked over my shoulder.  You whispered in my ear, “You better go. He is waiting. I will miss you.” I nodded silently in return and walked into the arms of my love. Never looking back again.  

[mistyandmara]

The Huntress' Prayer

I clear my mind and move with ritual like movements

The light breeze of the night plays with the long strands of my hair

I wait for the red circle in the sky to close and fulfill the last requirement

Nerves threaten my calm and clench my shaking fingers into fists

I push them aside and remind myself that I need this to work

My resolve is strong--I will not fail this time

My hair creates a veil as I bow my head in prayer

"Mother, goddess, hear my plea

Let the blood flow freely and the light of life extinguish quickly  

Let the soul of the kine rest knowing its death was not in vain

Please let me provide sustenance for my family

Mother, goddess hear this plea of your daughter"

Finished with my supplication,I dust of my knees and stretch

I gather my bow and arrows and head into the hills

[mistyandmara]

Sweetest Day

I should have kept my mouth shut And simply smiled as I watched Teenaged boys and married men Pick out flowers, cards, and sweets I didn't mean for you to spend Extra time or money trying to figure out How to make dinner special making a Big deal asking me what I wanted Its just another Hallmark holiday Ment to generate money and romance Now I stand here pleased to bits Yet ashamed I fell for marketing tactics

[mistyandmara]

Worry Seeds and Rain

I cant find happiness inside my mind Every train of thought starts well But a seed of worry has been sewn It grows and spreads its thorns Summoning tears and gray skies

[mistyandmara]

Finally Confessing

I can hardly stand myself Looking in the mirror All I see is a broken soul Occupying a dark deranged shell Once a human being shining with hope Is now emitting a miasma of self hate