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Hello
This blog is the archive of @/mochasandwords. All fanfics and some personal posts have been moved here.
Fanfics -> #fic
Personal -> #oldrambles
Enjoy!
It’ll Be Okay
Ok, forewarning, I really had no idea where this is going to go. I was going to do one where everyone was acting, but I felt that that was an easy way out, so… I hope this is descent! I’m not used to writing Roceit, so I hope this is ok!
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Warnings: self-hate, crying, angst to fluff (let me know if i need to add anything!)
Pairings: Roceit
Summary: Janus and Roman talk after the video.
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The glee that Janus felt from being accepted was slowly wearing off, (well, not fully accepted, but having Thomas and most likely Patton, of all sides, accept him was definitely a step in the right direction.) and other emotions started to hit him. Embarrassment for some of the things he had said to Thomas in his glee, nervousness to see how Virgil would react to him being more active, anxiousness to tell Remus -.
Oh Roman, thank god you don’t have a mustache. Otherwise between you and Remus, I wouldn’t know who the evil twin was.
Janus froze in his steps.
“Did – did… I say that?” He whispered, putting a hand to his mouth as he felt his heartbeat speed up. Guilt sheered through him. How could he say that? To his crush no less? To the hero of the Mindscape?
“Say what Double D?” Remus asked, walking into the Dark Side Livingroom. Janus stared at Remus. Roman and him were not alike. Yes they looked similar, but all the sides did. They were both creative, but their interests differed so much. They held themselves differently. They acted differently.
“Dee?” Remus asked, walking closer, hesitant.
“I was accepted partially.” Janus whispered. Remus tilted his head to the point it was laying on his shoulder.
“That’s good! Right?” He asked. Janus nodded slightly.
“But I screwed up.” He gasped, and Remus put a hand on his shoulder, grounding him.
“JD?” Remus whispered. Janus inhaled slowly.
“You know those things we said that we would never say?” Janus asked. Remus nodded.
“Like you said you wouldn’t mention the King or say I was evil or -.”
“Yes. Like those. I – messed up and said something to Roman I shouldn’t have.” Janus admitted. It was so easy to tell the truth when Remus, a side unable to lie, grounded him. His truth seemed to ebb into Janus.
“Janus. Did you compare him to me?” Remus asked, pulling away abruptly.
“No.” He lied, his… curse flowing back into him.
“Janus! Even I don’t bring that up! What the hell?” Remus scolded.
“He insulted my name and there was just so much anger in the room and I was just so…. I put myself out there again and he -.” Janus tried to explain, but he knew that there was no good excuse. Yes, Roman had hit a very sensitive part, but Janus had cut.
“Dee you need to talk to him. He won’t come to you. You know just as much as I do that Thomas needs Roman.” Remus growled. Janus flinched as the anger and hurt in Roman’s eyes flashed before him.
“How? I need your help.”
“No you don’t. You’re Deceit, but also Self-preservation. You can do this, Dee. Do you want him to hate you? You were a blushing mess after filming that courtroom scene. After the anger subsided, at least.” Remus muttered.
“Remus you didn’t see him -.” Janus tried to say. Remus held up a hand.
“Don’t care.” Janus felt his stomach drop as he was forced into the Imagination. Damn it Remus. He looked around, trying to see if there was any path. He looked up, but the sky was blocked by clouds. Dark, dark clouds. Worry wormed its way into Janus.
“Roman?” He called. This wasn’t what he had seen of Roman’s side of the Imagination before. Even when it was night, it was always bright and beautiful. As Janus walked farther into the Imagination, he noticed that the dirt beneath him slowly turned to sand and the trees around him grew thinner and few and far between. He froze as he saw a vast ocean before him. His mouth dropped and slowly started to walk toward it.
The ocean was unnerving. It was very dark blue, almost like the color of the sky right before it goes black and as Janus started to walk toward it, he realized that he couldn’t see anything beneath the waves. It was pitch black and when Janus touched it, he jumped back. This isn’t water. Its… oil?
Janus whipped around, trying to find Roman.
“Roman! I’m sorry! I didn’t mean it!” He yelled, “Roman!” He started to run along the beach, yelling louder and louder. He tripped, but caught himself as he saw an orange light ahead.
Janus started to run faster.
Soon, a figure appeared in front of him. It was crouched near the ocean, curled up into a ball. Another, glowing orange figure stood behind the smaller figure.
“Get away from him!” Janus shouted, lunging at Anger. The outcast Dark Side’s head whipped to the side just as Janus tackled him to the ground.
“Janus?” Anger shouted, struggling against the deceitful side, “What are you doing here?”
“I wanted to see Roman and try and apologize. What do you think you’re not doing here?” Janus snarled as Anger rolled them over. He tried to stand up but Janus kicked his legs out from under him and anger fell with a yelp. Janus stood up and walked over to the dazed Roman, his eyes slightly orange and tears streaming down his face. He stood between the two Sides.
“I’m helping Roman. And from what he’s told me, you and the others really hurt him.” Anger grinned, trying to walk closer.
“Back off. You’re not helping him by making him fester in his anger.” Janus said. Anger paused.
“I wasn’t doing that. I was really trying to -.”
“Bull. Shit. I know you Anger. Fuck off.” Janus ordered, forcing Anger to cover his mouth. Anger scowled at him and his free hand clenched into a fist.
“Fime.” Anger muttered, “But I’m gona be beck. You hvn’t won.” He said from behind his hand before vanishing. Janus panted, adrenaline rushing though his body. He whipped around and knelt next to Roman.
“Roman. Roman, don’t-.” He stopped and collected himself, “Roman focus on me. Please.” After a few blinks, Roman’s eyes returned to normal, but still tearful. He inhaled sharply, as if coming back to life, and started coughing. Janus rubbed his back, trying to calm him and help him breathe.
“Deceit…? What are you doing here?” Roman muttered in a raspy voice, some anger still in his voice.
“I… Roman I wanted to say sorry. I shouldn’t have said those things.” Janus whispered. Roman narrowed his eyes.
“You – what? No. Deceit, I provoked you. I – I’m the one in the wrong. I was supposed to be the good prince. I protect everyone! Yet I hurt you. I didn’t make you feel safe. I’ve hurt everyone. I hurt Logan. I hurt Virgil. I hurt Patton and Thomas. I hurt you and my brother. I’m worse than my brother. He knows when to stop when it really counts.” He paused, “He’d be a better light side.” Roman shook his head, and thunder rumbled overhead. Janus shivered at the cold wind. He sat down and turned Roman to look at him. His sad eyes broke Janus’ heart. Roman refused to meet his eyes.
“Roman, no.” Janus grabbed Roman’s arm gently, “You are still the prince of the Mindscape. But even princes mess up.”
“Not as badly as me. I’m always screwing up, Deceit. I can’t do anything right. I’m not chivalrous. I’m the villain.” Roman muttered.
“Ok, that is a big ass lie.” Janus said. Roman raised an eyebrow.
“But… you nodded when I looked at you after Thomas said I was still his hero.”
“Yes, because he was telling the truth.” Roman blinked.
“Wh…what?”
“I sense lies, which means I know when someone is telling the truth. Everything you just said about yourself was a lie, Roman! And Thomas loves you. All of us do! We wouldn’t be full without you.” Janus said, grabbing Roman’s hand. Roman didn’t pull away, he just looked at Janus, the smallest bit of hope in his eyes.
“Roman, I know you’ve been hurting for so long. Those lies… they’re old. Roman, I’m so sorry. I know I hurt you and I probably made the lies worse. Can… I show you what we really see?” He stood up, brushed himself off and reached out his hand once again.
“Can you trust me?” Janus whispered. Roman exhaled and shook his head but reached up to grab Janus’ hand.
“That’s not the saying.” Roman muttered somewhat lightheartedly.
“I know. But I didn’t want to steal your thing.” Janus winked, trying to lighten the mood. Roman rolled his eyes, but Janus noticed the sky grow a bit brighter. Janus pulled Roman up and they sunk out together.
They reappeared in Janus’ room. It was a dimly lit room with gray walls. Gold stars and sparkles were decorated on the wall. Along one of his walls was a huge terrarium which held his snakes. His room was sparse, but it was comfortable. Janus sat Roman down on his bed and stood in front of him.
“What are we doing here?” Roman asked.
“My room enhances my being. Just like everyone else’s. Virgil’s enhances anxiety. Logan’s enhances logic. And so on. Mine though, has two enhancements. It can make people lie or take away their ability to lie. Right now, I think we need truth.” He snapped his fingers, and the stars along his wall started to glow gold.
“I didn’t know you could to this.” Roman gasped, looking around. Janus smiled.
“There are a lot of things you all don’t know about me.” Roman flinched.
“Like your name….” He muttered, “and I made you feel bad by making fun of it.”
“I forgive you, Roman.”
“What?”
“I forgive you. You are beautiful. You are loved. You are worthy.” Janus stated, walking closer to Roman. Roman started to tear up and shook his head.
“I – I’m not-.” Roman gasped. Janus grabbed his face in his hands.
“You’re lost. It’s ok. I was lost once too, but thanks to all of you, life sucks less now.” Janus started to sing softly. Roman’s tears started to roll down his cheeks.
“You feel low. It’s ok. You don’t need to save face in any case. I embrace you. None of us hate you. Everybody’s got flaws but with no you at all we’re incomplete.” Janus wiped Roman’s tears away.
“Now you see. Everybody goes wrong and I put in song so it’s easier to hear it. This puzzle’s tough.”
Roman nodded and added sadly.
“But in time we’ll find where everything fits.” Janus tilted his head and wiped away Roman’s tears with his thumb.
“That’s right. You belong here. We all do. We’re not perfect. You’re not perfect. But that’s ok. Because we’re human.” He whispered.
“I’m just so confused.” Roman said, “My world is falling apart, and I can’t keep up.” Janus sat next to Roman on the bed.
“Let’s look at the facts then.” Janus said, “I’ll go first. My name is Janus and yours is Roman. You are creativity. Thomas loves you. I….” He drifted off.
“You…?”
“I have a crush on you. Yes even after what you said. People fight.” Janus said, waving a hand.
“You can still -.”
“Yes! Oh god Roman, yes. I want to help you realize how lovable you are. Now you say some facts.”
“Uh. Thomas is accepting you guys. The world is not black and white, which is hard for me to understand at times, but I’m trying. You’re here. I’m… still a hero.” Roman whispered.
“Yep, good. That’s good Roman.”
“I… like you too.”
“Ah-. Roman you don’t have to say that.” Janus blushed.
“You’re room is prohibiting me from lying, right? That’s part of the reason I’m beating myself up so much. I like you and I made fun of you. I fucked up and I ruined my chance -.” Roman started to ramble.
“No you didn’t. Like I said, everyone fights. But that doesn’t mean you are terrible.” Janus said, keeping his hands on Roman’s cheeks and staring into his eyes.
“I’m sorry, Janus.”
“I forgive you, Roman Prince. Guardian of the Mindscape. Holder of Thomas’ dreams. Gay beauty -.” Janus was cut off as Roman surged forward and kissed him. Janus started and froze. Roman pulled back immediately.
“I’m sorry, I just got caught up and I didn’t think-.” Roman turned away, blushing. Janus grabbed his face softly and pulled him back.
“I didn’t mind.” He whispered against Roman’s lips, then gave Roman a soft kiss.
“What does this mean?” Roman asked. Janus hummed.
“I would love to be with you, Roman. But I’m also willing to go slow. In fact, I think we should. This is new.” Janus said softly, gripping Roman’s hand. Roman nodded, and his small smile, looked genuine. It warmed Janus’ heart to see that smile. He hadn’t seen it in so long. No one had.
“I love you, Janus.” Roman whispered, pressing his head into Janus’ shoulder. Janus held the shaking prince close.
“I love you too, Roman.”
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Hello, Dolan!
Heyo, it’s me again! Yes with another AU! (I need to stop…) I’m still working on my Greater Beings AU and a one-shot I’m debating on doing, but my school is putting on Hello Dolly and this idea came to me. I want to do more of these, but I don’t know which scenes to do more of. I will definitely be taking suggestions if anyone has a preference!
Dolly Levi= Deceit (Dolan) Lyre
Horace Vandergelder= Logan Vattel
Irene Molloy= Roman Monarch
Cornelius Hackle= Remy Hiatos
Minnie Fay= Emile Falloppio
Barnaby Tucker= Virgil Turnus
Ambrose Kemper= Remus King
Ermengarde = Patton Bennet
Ernestine = Wade Sanders (Wrath)
Words: 1818
Pairings: Intruality, platonic Sleepxiety, implied Logince, implied Loceit
Warnings: death mention, kinda mean rich person? Idk let me know if I need to add anything!
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Snitties
I… Have no excuse. I had this written a while back but I wanted to post it… @strawberryjellystuff (you said you wanted a story?)
Warnings: Snitties, cussing, Remus, Deceit
Ships: DLAMP
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Deceit couldn’t believe this. This wasn’t allowed in court. Patton was definitely not trying to butter up Roman. He hissed; a bit quieter than his previous outburst. He glanced back at Logan, regretting not letting him participate. This would be so much easier or at least more… fun. He noticed Logan signing something in sign language to Virgil, who was lazily signing back.
He felt something slither up his calf and jumped. Deceit glanced down to see Remus staring up at him from under his desk. Remus had a finger trailing his calf but froze when Deceit caught him. Deceit raised an eyebrow.
“Take off your shirt.” Remus whispered loudly. The only way Remus knew how to whisper. Deceit glanced over at the Light Sides and Thomas, praying no one had heard Remus.
“What?”
“Take off your shirt.”
“Remus why-.”
“They’re your boyfriends. Taunt them!”
“We’re recording.”
“Take. Off. The. Damn. SHIRT.” Remus growled, “Please! I want chaos! Court rooms are so boring.”
“Why should I listen to you?”
“I’ll take it off by force.” Remus said, putting his fingers together.
“You would.” Deceit warned.
“Either be a flustered gay, or be a strong, sexy snake gay.” Remus pressed his fingers together. Deceit sighed and stood up with a jolt. Everyone was still distracted, so they didn’t hear Remus’ somewhat quiet ‘yesss’.
With slightly shaking hands, Deceit took off his jacket and unbuttoned his shirt, putting them both on his chair. Remus instantly reached up and pulled them off the chair.
“I-.” Deceit took a deep breath and restarted.
“I’m afraid I must object.” Deceit said as silkily as he could. Roman turned from Patton and instantly turned red.
“Is there a problem, Roman?” He asked.
“Holy shit, Dee.” Roman said, dropping his gravel and putting his head in his hands. Patton turned around and squeaked, turning pink and turning away, then running to Thomas and covering his eyes.
“Oh COME ON.” Virgil shouted, “This can’t be fucking allowed!”
“It says nowhere it isn’t.” Deceit smirked, seeing the anxious side turn red. From anger or blush, Deceit couldn’t tell. Remus’ cackling came from below the desk.
“What’s going on? Roman are you alright?” Called Logan.
“I can’t do this!!!” Roman cried. Logan appeared next to Virgil, who had given up trying to restore order.
“What in the – OH.” The Logical stared at Deceit. Mind almost seeming to need a reboot.
“Something wrong?” Deceit asked, blushing a bit himself.
“DEC-! …Deceit. I would like to implore that you put back on your clothes. So that we can resume the recording.” Logan said, pushing up his glasses. Deceit looked around slowly, making sure to show off the scales he was so insecure about. His morale boosted a bit when Roman said, “How is he so pretty? My word.”
“I can’t seem to find them. And that is no lie.” Deceit said with a smirk.
“Dee please! We’ll do anything!” Patton whined.
“Anything?”
“Within reason.” Virgil interjected.
“Cuddles?”
“Deal.” The four said in unison. Deceit broke out into a smile.
“Let me guess. We have to rerecord.” Thomas sighed from behind Patton’s hands. Deceit smiled.
“So sorry Thomas, but it appears so!”
So I'm at this show choir competition and finals were being announced and everyone was standing up and cheering and clapping and whatever, and then in the middle of the crowd there was this guy and he was just sitting down carefully balancing a single Mountain Dew on his head and honestly he looked so serene and at peace like you go dude
-A quote from my friend
Ahh the Mt Dew lord
So I'm at this show choir competition and finals were being announced and everyone was standing up and cheering and clapping and whatever, and then in the middle of the crowd there was this guy and he was just sitting down carefully balancing a single Mountain Dew on his head and honestly he looked so serene and at peace like you go dude
-A quote from my friend
I See Fire (Part 1)
*taps mic* Is this still on?
Uh, hi! I’m back with another part of my Greater Beings AU! I’m still working on this fic, but it’s becoming very lengthy. Almost 4,500 words currently. There will probably four parts, and I am working on part three. (I’ve got my inspiration back! Woo!)
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Warning: This whole fic is very depressing. Warnings will be used for each part individually.
Word Count: 2,849
Warnings: Near falling, snakes, homophobia, transphobia, implied stalker, aphobe, threats (let me know if there’s anything else)
Ships: Adster (Adonis x Aster (OCs)), eventual implied dukceit
Doran grunted as the stubborn apple finally came off of the branch it was on. He threw it into the basket of apples on the ground beneath him. He reached for another apple on a higher branch and felt the hand that was steadying him start to slip. He quickly wrapped his legs around the branch he was on and grabbed it with his arms.
“Doran, please be careful!” Papa yelled up into the branches. Doran smiled through shaky breaths.
“I am!” He shouted back down. Through the branches, he saw the figure of his papa standing with his arms crossed. His green eyes glittered nervously.
“Come on down, this tree’s been picked enough,” Papa said, shaking his head. Doran looked back up at the apple he had been trying to reach. If he was just a bit taller…
“Don’t even think about it, mister.” Doran groaned but obeyed, making his way down the tree. Once his feet hit the ground, his papa ruffled his hair. Doran hissed and shrank away, running a hand through his blonde hair in an attempt to fix it.
“You’re brave, Doran, but a part of being brave is knowing when to stop.” Papa chuckled, “Come on, there are only a couple more trees to pick.” Doran nodded and walked after his papa, eyeing his hat. A few seconds later, he jumped up and snatched it from his papa’s head, revealing his brown hair. Doran laughed and took off, hearing Papa gasp and laugh behind him.
Doran felt strong arms pick him up and spin him around, stopping him mid-sprint.
“You little thief!” Papa laughed. Doran giggled loudly as he held the hat close. Papa set him down after a while, Doran having to close his eyes to keep the world from spinning. When he opened his eyes, his papa had his hat on his head. Doran gaped; he hadn’t even realized he had lost it.
“Disorient the person and take your thing back. I’ve taught you this, Doran.” Papa said, wagging his finger playfully. Doran shrugged.
“I wasn’t looking to keep it.” He grinned. Papa smiled.
“No more playing or climbing trees so high you almost fall, ok? Your dad will have dinner done soon, and I want to be at the house when your sister gets there.” Papa said. Doran perked up and nodded. How could I forget that Zandra was coming home? His sister was a priestess of the god Roman and didn’t have many opportunities to visit. Doran loved his sister and missed her often. They had been close as kids and she had been a pillar of strength in his life. Other than his papa and dad of course.
Doran couldn’t stop the memories that flowed back to him, and honestly, he didn’t want them to stop. The beaming smile paired with bright green eyes. Strong arms that made Doran feel safe. The games they would play where she was the Dragon Witch that had to be slain and he was a brave knight. All the things she taught him, like prayers to the different gods, their parent’s weak spot for puppy-dog eyes, how to hold and swing a sword, and most importantly, how to be a good older brother to Kit.
Kit was the youngest kid in the family, and once he could walk, he had been a handful. His curly hair was untamable, and his normally blonde hair was always caked with dust and mud. He had a chipped tooth from the time he had tried to jump over a stream and his green eyes were always filled with mischief. Doran loved him but got overwhelmed by the six-year old’s endless energy easily. He was learning to be patient.
Doran considered himself to be one of the calmest people in his family, even though he did have sudden spurts of energy and was always down to have fun. He was also hardworking, like his papa and dad. Since Kit couldn’t do many of the bigger chores, the responsibility fell on Doran most days. He didn’t mind though, it was something to do, and he got to bond with his parents.
“Let’s head back, Doran! That’s enough for today!” Papa called, pulling Doran from his thoughts.
“Coming!” Doran shouted, sliding down the tree he had been in. Once on the ground, he grabbed as many of the baskets of apples that he could carry and hauled them onto the cart his family owned. Doran wiped a bead of sweat from his brow and looked up at the sky, smiling at the beautiful sunset. Papa placed the last basket into the cart and then the two were off, both pulling the cart behind them.
When they finally reached the house, it was almost dark, the god Logan’s stars already poking through the sky. Their house was small, just a hut with a straw roof. It had a kitchen area and three rooms, one for Doran’s parents, one for Doran and Kit, and one for Zandra when she visited.
Papa and Doran dropped the cart off near the front of the house and walked in, letting the warmth and sweet smells wash over them.
“Papa!” Kit cried, jumping off the stool he had been on and running to Papa. Papa laughed and kneeled down so he could hug Kit. Doran smiled and took off his cloak, hanging it up, and pulled off his shoes, putting them by the door.
“Hi, dad!” Doran said, turning to his dad. His dad stood over the fire as he finished with dinner, blonde hair pulled back into a ponytail.
“Hello Doran, how did harvesting go?” Dad asked, turning slightly to look at his son.
“Good! We’re all done!” Doran answered, grunting as Kit barged into him, giving him an aggressive hug.
“So you’ll be able to attend the market with me tomorrow?” Dad asked. Doran sighed.
“Sure.”
“What’s wrong? You love the market.” Papa said.
“I just wanted to spend time with Zandra,” Doran muttered.
“You’ll have plenty of time to do that.” Said a voice from one of the back rooms. Doran gasped and ran to hug the robed figure.
“Zandra!”
“Hey, Doran!” His sister said with a laugh.
“When did you get here?” He asked, muttering into her white robe.
“A few minutes ago,” Zandra said.
“Let me hug her too, Doran!” Papa said. Doran backed up and let Papa hug his daughter.
“Hi, papa,” Zandra said softly.
“We’ve missed you, Zandra,” Papa replied.
“I’ve missed you too.” Zandra smiled.
“You look good! Your work has been treating you well?” Papa asked. Zandra nodded and did a little twirl, showing off her priestly outfit. She had a long, flowy white robe on. The insignia that was sown over one of her breasts was a red flame. At her hip were a sword and a brown satchel. She was pretty muscular but had defiantly gained a few pounds from how well the priests and priestesses were treated.
Zandra gasped and knelt down, looking at Kit, who was currently hiding behind Dad.
“Is this Kit? Hey, kiddo!” She held out a hand to him, “You’ve grown up so fast!”
“Who is that?” Kit whispered after a few moments. Zandra giggled.
“I’m your sister, Zandra. Gosh, the last time I saw you was when you were born.” She smiled. Kit still wore a look of confusion. Doran bent down to his brother’s side.
“Remember the Dragon Witch? And who I told you came up with her?” He whispered. Kit gasped and pointed.
“You’re the Dragon Witch!” He squealed. Zandra laughed.
“Well, I made her, yes.” She winked.
“Doran’s the Dragon Warlock!” Kit blurted out.
“Oh is he now?”
“Yeah!” Kit squeaked.
“I… might’ve taken some of your ideas,” Doran said, coughing.
“It’s good to have the team expanded, Warlock,” Zandra smirked.
“Witch.”
“No! They’ve made an alliance! I need my sword! The kingdom is in danger!” Kit shouted, running to his and Doran’s room, voice fading a bit. Papa and Dad chuckled.
“You can fight them later, dinner is ready!” Dad shouted, taking the stew away from the fire. Doran, could you put the fire out?” Doran nodded and grabbed the bucket that they used to put out the fire. He carefully placed it over the fire, covering it completely. Zandra came by his side and said a quick prayer over the now enclosed fire. Doran was in awe with how reverently she was speaking, how her words wove through the air like birds flying through the sky.
Doran and his family had sworn an oath to the god Roman when Zandra had become his priestess. Though the family didn’t have to do as much as Zandra by any means. They honored Roman and the fires he let the family used. They prayed to him as a family before they slept. They welcomed any priestess or priest or cleric of Roman’s that came along. And they never put out a fire with water. To them, that was indirectly saying that Remus was more powerful than his brother, as Remus was the god of water.
“Kit! Help me set the table!” Dad shouted.
“But the kingdom!” Kit yelled.
“Now, Kit!” Papa warned. There was a groan, and Kit walked back into the main area, dragging his feet. Zandra smirked and nudged Doran.
“He reminds me of someone.” She whispered. Doran stuck his tongue out in retaliation.
Soon, dinner was placed on the table, with the entire family around it. Zandra said a prayer to Roman and Thomas, who was the head god. The meal was bigger than it normally was, as Papa and Dad didn’t want to make Sandra worry. They weren’t poor, but they weren’t wealthy either. They lived comfortably. At least, that’s how Doran would describe it.
Doran tried to hold himself back from eating his food quickly, but the smell and taste of the food were hard to resist. Dad really pulled out all the stops. He thought with a smile. Too soon, the meal was over.
“That was really good, Dad. Thank you.” Zandra said, dipping her head.
“I’m glad you liked it,” Dad replied, glancing at the empty plates and what little was left of the stew.
“Kit, why don’t you and I clean up?” Papa suggested, standing up. Dad reached over and put his hand on his husband’s.
“Let me do it, Aster. You’ve been working all day.” He said, smiling lovingly. Papa sighed and nodded, resting in his chair.
“Come on, Kit,” Dad said, stretching.
“Fine.” Kit whined.
“Oh, Doran! I have something for you.” Zandra said, standing up with a big smile. Doran raised an eyebrow.
“I have learned not to trust that sentence, Z,” Doran said hesitantly.
“I promise you, it’s nothing bad, D.”
“Mhm.”
“You don’t trust a priestess?” Zandra grinned. Doran rolled his eyes and stood up. Zandra’s grin widened. She led him back to her room and sat on her bed, patting next to her. Doran sat down with hesitance. Zandra clicked her tongue and made a low ‘pspsps’ sound.
A tiny head popped up out of a pile of dirt.
Doran felt his eyes widen in awe as he saw the snake slither toward him, tongue flicking out. Its black scales shone in the dull light.
“Woah!” He gasped. Zandra laughed softly and picked up the snake.
“This one was brought over from Nusantara. He was going to be sacrificed, but after praying and talking to a high priestess, I was allowed to keep her. I felt that she would be perfect for you. She’s not venomous, and Dad and Papa said it was ok for you to have her.” She said, holding up the snake to Doran.
“Really?” He whispered. Zandra nodded, loving the look of awe on her little brother’s face. He was a pro, holding the snake so that it was supported, but letting her slither around his arms. He giggled as she came to rest around his shoulders, flicking her tongue at his face.
“She likes you.”
“Can… I name her? Or does she have one?”
“Go ahead.”
“…Nothing seems right.” Doran said after a few seconds.
“Let’s go get the night fire started. I want to show you something she does.” Zandra said, standing and walking to the main area of the house; Doran following close behind with his snake on her perch. When they got out to the main area, the fire in the fireplace was already going, with the rest of the family sitting in front of it.
“Hold her up to the light, D!” Zandra said with a flourish of her hand. Doran gently took his snake off of his shoulders and held her up. Doran’s jaw dropped as his snake’s scales turned rainbow. Wherever the light hit the scales, they shone and danced with color.
“She looks like a beam of sunshine!” Kit gasped.
“Liakáda.” Doran whispered, “That’s your name.”
“‘Sunshine’. It’s perfect.” Zandra nodded. Liakáda lifted her head higher, seeming like she was proud of herself.
“Thank you Zandra,” Doran said, a huge smile bursting forth. He put Liakáda back around his shoulders and hugged his sister tightly.
A knock came at the door.
“Who could be here at this hour?” Papa asked, humming.
“I’ll get it.” Dad sighed, getting up. He walked to the door; a bit tense. Doran glanced at the window, noting how late it was. He released his sister, intrigued. When Doran’s dad opened the door, Doran heard Zandra give a huge sigh.
A pale man stood outside, his outfit garish and startling. His hair was greasy and black, only reaching his ears. His dark brown eyes glittered with mischief. He wore black, flowy pants with a matching long sleeve black shirt. The shirt had puffy sleeves with green frills on the cuffs and on the bottom hem of the shirt. The top few buttons were undone, partially covering the wave insignia that was sewn over his breast. A medium-sized silver morning star hung on his back, supported by a leather sash. He had a leather pouch that hung from a silver chain around his waist. His pants were tucked into high heeled, black boots.
The man bowed deeply.
“Hello, sir. I am Xeno. I am a priest of Remus.” Xeno said.
“What are you doing here, Xeno?” Zandra snapped, suddenly upset. Xeno grinned.
“Zandra! Hello, my dear.” Xeno greeted.
“I have told you how many times to not call me that.” Zandra sighed.
“I will win you eventually.” Xeno winked.
“You know this man?” Dad asked, turning to Zandra.
“The head priests, priestesses, and clerics in our area have been trying to get Remus’ and Roman’s followers to get along. But like the twins and like fire and water, it’s not working.” Zandra growled.
“All of you Roman followers are just a bit too stubborn. You need to relax!” Xeno said.
“We’ll relax when you all calm down and stop gallivanting everywhere in search of fun.” Zandra snapped.
“Anyway. I was just on my way to town when I thought I’d drop by. I might have seen you through the window and decided to say hello.” Xeno suddenly changed the subject, looking around, “This must be your family. Is your mother out?”
Everyone in the room stiffened.
“I told you, Xeno. I have two fathers.” Zandra whispered, venom in her voice. Xeno’s face fell into one of mean scrutiny. His eyes seemed to turn black. Doran moved in front of Kit and Liakáda hissed.
“You were serious about that?”
“And the fact I don’t experience romantic or sexual attraction.”
“I’ve told you, that can be changed.”
“Get out of here.” Papa spoke up as he stood, “Get out of our house. And never speak to us again.”
“You want to live like this, Zandra? With people that are not norm-.” Xeno started. Zandra cut him off by thrusting her sword against his throat.
“If I somehow change, which won’t happen, I would never be with you, Xeno. Get that through your head. You’ve insulted my family, me and Roman. You try and ridicule me when I have done nothing wrong and am accepted by my fellow followers of Roman. I suggest you leave this instant before my hand slips and I push this sword deep into your throat.” Zandra hissed. Xeno growled and backed away.
“You are all insane. This world is being infected with people like you. My fellow followers accept your kind for some reason. You’ve tainted them. I could fix you, Zandra, if you weren’t so stubborn. You’ll pay for breaking my heart and insulting me. For being one of their kind.” His head jerked toward Papa and Dad.
“Roman will protect us. And I’m sure even Remus wouldn’t be happy with what you’re saying.” Zandra said. Xeno snarled.
“I know my god better than you, freak.” He turned, as if to leave, then paused.
“And let’s see how long your god will be willing to protect people like you.” After that, he stalked into the night, morning star glistening under the light of the moon.
Your ten most recent emojis describe how the 2020s will go for you
A show choir: *does really well (like jaw dropping well)
Me: That was so good! The costumes and music and moves! Perfect!
Friends: The boys were so cute!!!!!!!
Me: ... I guess... But the overall show was more enticing-
Friends: But the boys!
Me: *smiling fondly* Yes, they were attractive.
Friends: Hell yeah they were! I wonder if I could get one of their numbers....
Me: *thinks* ... Am I demiromantic too? Or are they over reacting? *walks into my choir's room to see all girls talking about the boys* *thinks* Ah it is me.
When you were trying to fix something on your computer and then you find something else that is wrong and the your computer freezes when you try to fix it
Me: I should write.
My brain: You haven't played Minecraft in a while.
Me: No.
My brain: You're hardcore world is waiting.
Me: I said-
My brain: It has 🐝🐝🐝
Me: ....fine
I just met the sweetest woman at work. She saw something was out of place and put it away, put away her clothes, and was just a really positive and kind person. My work was packed today with a lot of clothes to put back from people trying them on, so this made my night!
Thank you, lady!
So there's an app that let's you customize your keyboard on your phone and I made mine have a click clack sound. I am very happy!
Me, trying to write a fic: Is this how fast people normally fall for each other?
My friends: Yup!
Me: It just feels so rushed and can they really be in love when they just met-
My friends: You're doing it right, L. That's what happens to people. This isn't rushed.
Me: *confused demisexual noises*
Let’s hope we all see clearly in 2020!
@blue-dress-and-ready-to-impress @diamondstarsart @introvertedturtlechickennuggett @thequeen-of
You Are Loved (Part 2 and End)
@strawberryjellystuff I hope it’s ok that I continued this! I will take it down if you want!
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Word Count: 1,699
Warnings: Sympathetic Remus, Sympathetic Deceit, Unsympathetic Roman, Unsympathetic Patton, self-deprecation, touch starvation, exclusion, crying, kidnapping, panic attack, manipulation, mention of killing (let me know if there is anything else!)
Ships: Unsympathetic Royality, Platonic Analogical, Intruloceit
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Virgil’s anxiety was through the roof. It had been a week and Logan was nowhere to be found. He kept trying to leave the Light Side, but somehow Patton and Roman always knew when he was trying to leave. He’s got to be with Remus and Deceit. Please, Deceit don’t be harming him too much. Virgil bit his nails, rocking back and forth on his bed.
There was a knock at his door, making him jump. I’m next. They’re going to hand me over next. Virgil’s breath sped up. Patton and Roman had to have forced Logan out. Logan wouldn’t have left by himself. He knows he’s needed. I have to be next.
“Virgil, can I come in love?” Asked Patton. Virgil opened his mouth to respond, but only a strained whine came out. He cleared his throat.
“Yeah, sure.” He finally got out. The door opened and Patton stepped into Virgil’s room, smile wide and relaxed. Once he laid eyes on Virgil, the smile faded, and his eyes turned down in concern.
“Vee, are you ok kiddo?” Patton asked, rushing to Virgil’s side. It took everything not to flinch.
“I’m fine.” Virgil gave Patton a small smile. Patton’s gaze pierced Virgil, making him look away.
“Is this about Logic?” Patton asked, his grip on Virgil tightening the tiniest bit. Virgil kept his eyes on his blanket.
“Virgil. Is this about him?” Virgil gulped and gave one shaky nod.
“Oh kiddo! How many times do Ro and I have to tell you? He’s fine. Most likely. Thomas is doing fine, isn’t he? He’s still thinking rationally and logically! So, Logic didn’t duck out, quack, and he hasn’t been destroyed by the Subconscious. The most logical explanation,” Patton giggled, “is that he’s with Remus and Deceit.”
“Where he fits better.” Roman’s voice came as he entered the room, “He didn’t really fit with all of us, Vee. You know that. We all feel more than he ever did, and he never really helped with anything. We always ended up solving everything ourselves. Take ‘Moving On’ for example. Doesn’t it feel better to not have him hanging over your shoulder all the time?” Roman asked, smiling. Virgil nodded, trying his best to fake it.
“Y-yeah I gu-guess that makes sense.” He stuttered. Patton squeezed his side.
“That’s the spirit!” He cheered, “Dinner will be ready soon, ok? Come on, Ro!” Patton leaped off the bed and grabbed Roman’s hand, pulling him out of Virgil’s room. As soon as they turned the corner, Virgil felt tears start to run down his face. What made all this worse was that Patton and Roman’s attitude hadn’t changed. They were still happy, boisterous, courageous. They were still Morality and Creativity, and yet they weren’t.
“Logan, I’m so sorry. I should’ve helped. I should’ve stopped them. I-.” Virgil started to mutter, but then jumped off of his bed and raced to his desk. He grabbed a sheet of paper and a pen and started to write.
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Dee led Logan out of the kitchen and into his and Remus’ room. The logical side was awkward to hold up, being a head taller than Deceit. Deceit wasn’t going to complain though, he would give Logan all the care and love he had lacked while with the Light Sides. He helped Logan onto the bed.
“Rest Logan. You definitely don’t need it.” Deceit whispered.
“No. I can’t just intrude like this.” Logan muttered.
“You are not intruding. We’ve actually haven’t missed having a third person around.” Deceit said. He pulled away from Logan to grab extra blankets but froze as Logan whined, hand stretching out before curling into a fist. Deceit grabbed the blanket quickly and went back to Logan. He placed the extra blanket on the exhausted side.
Deceit put a hand on Logan’s cheek, wiping away the tears. Logan grabbed his wrist with surprising strength.
“Don’t- don’t move away please.” He whispered. Deceit’s heart swelled and filled with rage simultaneously. He climbed into his bed, keeping his hand on Logan’s cheek. As soon as he sat down, Logan latched to his side. But as soon as he did that:
“I’m sorry. I’m probably being too touchy.” Logan said, trying to pull back. Deceit could feel the desperateness waving off him, so he held him closer.
“Logan. How long has it been since you had the touch of another side?” Deceit asked.
“Right now,” Logan replied. Deceit sighed.
“Logan.”
“A m-month or tw-two.” Logan choked out, “Virgil was my only contact and whatever contact it was, was minimum. Patton and Roman made sure of that.” Deceit clenched his jaws to keep himself from hissing and baring his fangs. There was a pounding on the wall, and Logan jumped. Deceit turned to see Remus standing in the doorway. His eyes were blazing, and a fist was slammed up against the doorway. In his other hand was a crumpled piece of paper.
“I’m going to kill my brother. I’m going to shove him into a room and keep him there until-.” He started to snarl.
“Remus. Now is the perfect time.” Deceit hissed. Remus ground his jaw before joining Deceit and Logan. He pressed against Logan’s back, and Deceit felt the shiver that ran down Logan’s spine. He’s gone too long without contact. How was he surviving? He may be logic, but he’s still a side.
“What was the paper?” Logan asked, turning toward Remus.
“A letter. From Vee.” Remus said. Logan shot up into a sitting position.
“Is he ok?” Logan asked, “How did he get the message here?” He grabbed the letter out of Remus’ hand.
“When he was trying to infiltrate and pull all you Light Sides down, we totally didn’t put up ways of communication.” Deceit said, sitting up as well, hand moving to Logan’s shoulder.
“Can… we read it too?” Remus asked hesitantly, “We kinda miss Vee… once and a while, at least.” Logan nodded.
“I can read it to you. If you would like that.” Remus’ eyes lit up.
“That sounds amazing!” He cheered. Deceit could tell he was trying to hold back his outbursts and uncouth thoughts. He gazed fondly at his boyfriend. Logan smiled the smallest bit and nodded again.
Logan.
This is going to be very quick and frantic, as I’m not sure how much time I have before Patton calls me down for dinner.
I am so sorry for not defending you more. I should’ve been braver, but I’m not Roman. I’m not the courageous side. (Honestly, I’ve realized I should be glad to not be Roman.) I’m the flight or fight side.
I’m working on the fight part of me. I’m trying to fight the two already, but you know how Patton’s smile makes you want to listen to him. Thomas really is ruled by the heart.
We should listen to the mind more.
I can only guess that Deceit and Remus find this first, and if you never get this, but they do: Can you two show him this letter? Just do that one last thing for me. I was an ass for leaving you two. Forgive me. Please don’t hurt him. He deserves so much. That’s another thing I’ll ask for, I guess. If Patton or Roman gave him to you, please treat him like you did me. Don’t treat him like an outcast.
Crap bye.
Love you Logan.
-Vee
Tears streamed down Logan’s face.
“What have I done? I left him there with those two. I need to go back-.” Logan moved to get up, but Remus grabbed his waist and held him down.
“YOU didn’t leave anyone. WE kidnapped you.” Remus grunted, “Fu**, help me out, Dee! He’s strong!” Deceit instantly sprung to Logan’s other side and helped hold him down.
“Logan, please calm down. They wi- won’t hurt Virgil. They love him. You showed them that he was good, and he’s wormed his way into their heart. He’ll be fine.” Deceit whispered, biting back his lies.
“But his panic attacks-.”
“He dealt with me for how long, Lo.” Remus sighed, “You’ve only strengthened him. You’ve given him a better arsenal of weapons to use. Breathing. Staying in the moment. Ect.”
“Did you just say e-c-t? Like… the acronym and not the word.” Logan asked, relaxing. Remus giggled.
“Maaaaaybe.” He replied. Logan stared at him, before giving a hesitant smile. He allowed Remus and Deceit to guide him back to laying down on the bed slowly.
“Will he really be ok?” Logan whispered after a few minutes of silence.
“He’s probably already spinning his web that’ll ensnare the two jack asses.” Remus grinned.
“Right now though, we need to focus on you. You’re obviously touch starved and paranoid. You’re very thin, probably from lack of someone reminding you to eat. You are exhausted as well. And your self-love is nonexistent.” Deceit murmured, rubbing his thumb across the back of Logan’s hand.
“Am I that easy to read? I didn’t know my mask had slipped so far.” Logan murmured, Remus massaging his back and Deceit rubbing his hand almost putting him to sleep.
“You shouldn’t need to wear a mask.” Remus said.
“Would anyone love me if I didn’t? I don’t serve my purpose as effectively when I’m feeling emotions. Patton and Roman figured that out.” Logan sighed.
“Logan. Look at me.” Deceit said. Logan opened his eyes and Deceit pressed his other hand to his cheek.
“You are more than an emotionless side. If that’s the only truth I ever say without stuttering, then so be it.”
“Don’t forget what we said earlier. We will love you, Logan.” Remus whispered. Deceit nodded.
“We already do. You treated us humanely when the others flinched away.” Deceit added. Logan’s hand covered his mouth as tears fell down his face once again.
“I- I-. Thank you.” He chuckled, “How ironic that the ones cast out are the most kind.” Remus and Deceit laughed.
“I think… I can love you too. Overtime.” Logan whispered. Deceit put his forehead on Logan’s and Remus wrapped his arms around Logan and Deceit.
“If you don’t that’s fine. Don’t force yourself.”
“We won’t let you!”
“No matter what, you’re part of our famILY.”
Hey, I really liked your "You Are Loved" story, and I was wondering if you'd ever continue it? Because I'm wondering if Virgil has noticed Logan's gone and if so, what he's going to do. Of course, no pressure if you don't want to, it was wonderful either way
Thank you so much! I was actually thinking of doing sequel fic, but I would have to make sure it was ok with @strawberryjellystuff, as it’s their AU!