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I'm writing from the depths of my heart, from the darkness that's my anxiety night and chaos existence, I'm writing in blood of glittering dreams and crushed hopes

[monsterangst]

I'm writing from the depths of my heart, from the darkness that's my anxiety night and chaos existence, I'm writing in blood of glittering dreams and crushed hopes

[monsterangst]

Voices in my head

I do not like these recent voices occupying my head. I might better call them “thoughts” tomorrow, or my therapist will think I’ve gone totally bonkers. Thing is thou, these thought/voices.... I do not think them up by myself, they invade my mind and forces themselves into the front of my brain, forcing me to be occupied by those thoughts whether I like it or not…

They’re going on and on about the SPLENDID idea of downing all my pills with half a bottle of vodka... or jump off a bridge, or slit your wrists and take a warm bath, or those little pills again, maybe it’s a great idea to take them first thing tomorrow, right??! All of them...

Here my sound mind breaks in; “but you got your therapy session tomorrow at 1pm, you can’t take all them pills and then go to see him...”

- well, you can take them either just before you go see him… they won’t kick in until the session - 45min is well over and you are on your way home… or when you’re back home…

[monsterangst]

Lunch, extremt mättande grönsakssoppa #wondersoup

[monsterangst]

Back again...

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. i keep dieting for like 2 weeks, then something _always_ happen, and I’m back to old habits again... #nocharacter?

I’m seriously tired of this... did a weight-in today, i’m only -1,3 kg (-2.86lb) my SW. And I started like, what, 2,5 month ago? Think of all the weight I could have lost during that time 😱

[monsterangst]

Back on track

Did a weigh in this morning and had only gain 0,5kg over the weekend (even thou I had crisps and burger and fries and all kinds of unhealthy stuff)

went for a walk: ended up walking 12km

[monsterangst]

Weekend update

Went visiting my dad over the weekend, ended up eating more kcal this weekend than I did totally this week (more or less) Now when we got home I took my weight; -1.8kg total this week (so up 1.2 kg over the weekend) could have been worse… but really need to get my mind straight now

[monsterangst]

[monsterangst]

Day 4

Daily kcal: 558 Daily water: 2,5 L

[creativewordspowerfulideas]

Headcanon: “Brother mine” and “Brother dear” are actually code words for Mycroft and Sherlock.

Brother dear is “I have a request. You’re not allowed to say no. I’ll make a show of asking, but the answer is already yes, are we clear?” Brother mine is “I am shutting down this particular avenue of conversation. Do not open it again.”

[monsterangst]

Interesting

[monsterangst]

I sooo need to get a Fitbit (thinking of getting a charge 2) I'm not carrying my phone around 24/7 - naturally (thus it won't log all of my steps ☹️)

[myweightlossdiary150-blog]

exactly.

[ana-addicted]

[baymaxbarbie]

Plan/Rules

·Eat between 300-700 calories a day ·Exercise at least an hour a day (45mn-1 hr cardio in morning and 30 minutes pilates/yoga at night preferred) ·Drink at least 8 glasses of water a day ·Drink at least 2-3 glasses of green tea a day No processed junk foods including packaged chips, sweets, and related snacks ·Sleep at least 6 hours a night (bed by 10 p.m) ·No fast food ·The day’s calories must come from healthy foods

//May add more as time goes on

[monsterangst]

great plan!

[monsterangst]

day 3:

Have to say, this goes really well!

I’m on day 3 and I’m eating around 500 kcal and i’m feeling great 

I think it’s going better this time around since I’m eating warm dinners (soups and stuff) and skipping the shakes. I’m mixing it up a bit and still keeping it within the “allowed” kcal limit (maximum 800 kcal to count as a VLCD - my personal limit is 600 - this way i’m allowed to eat more if I want... don’t ask me how I think...)

[creativewordspowerfulideas]

Headcanon: “Brother mine” and “Brother dear” are actually code words for Mycroft and Sherlock.

Brother dear is “I have a request. You’re not allowed to say no. I’ll make a show of asking, but the answer is already yes, are we clear?” Brother mine is “I am shutting down this particular avenue of conversation. Do not open it again.”

[monsterangst]

Start of the weightloss journey

158 cm (5'2) SW 79.9kg (176.2 lbs) 🏆47 kg (105 lbs)

[savannahkills]

The good thing about being short: 10 pounds can make a difference

The bad thing about being short: 10 pounds can make a difference