meeting packs are never easy but what's suppose to be 2 might turn out to be more chaotic than initially thought
Poly!Skz x Tall!Nonbinary!Alt!Reader
Series Warnings: Omegaverse, Alternatively Dressed Reader, mentions of workplace abuse, suggestive themes, bullying, polyamory, references to oral fixation (see individual chapters for specific warnings)
Chapter warnings: mentions of stress, mentions of dating struggles, reference to piercings and tattoos, consumption of food, mentions of courting and gift giving Reader uses they/them addressed using Mx And is an Alpha.
WC: 3.2k
Series Masterlist
A/N: Im so sorry for the false promises about posting I found myself in a rough patch mentally but I'm in a better spot to post and write so if your seeing this then other fics should be on the way with it.
do I like this chapter no but I wrote it in a slump and its the best its gonna get Im sorry T-T
The alarm blares by my bed. My eyes move behind my eyelids in the dark not wanting to greet the world but rather stay comfortable in bed with my eyes closed.
My legs swing over the side of the bed. Feet meeting the cold floor. I slip slippers on and trudge my body from the bed to the bathroom. I wash my face fresh for the day brush my teeth and turn the shower on. the water hitting the tiles ringing through the bathroom. I climb into the shower after the water warms feel in with my hand right before I step in. I had set an outfit out the night before,knowing I'd rather not be bothered this morning with choosing something from my slightly overwhelming closet. Using a wash cloth I wash my body standing in the water for a minute after I finish washing my body the hot water running down my body swirling into the drain. My hand reaches the knob to turn it off the tapping on the tiles coming to a trickle than stop, before I proceed to step out. I look at my options for jewelry, black satin button up with black dress pants jewelry picked out rings bracelets a necklace opting to switch out some of the rings on my lips for barbells. I take another look in the mirror and make my way to the kitchen to make something light to eat.
I get to where the meeting suppose to be held the company headquarter. I find myself approached before I can even ask for help to find out where to go.
“Mx.L/n please come with us.” The woman is dressed nicely in black. a few people following close behind her. I follow the women and group of people. The slacks and button ups they're dressed in making me feel grossly underdressed.
Im walked to the room, a long table in the middle white boards lining the wall. I'm invited to take a seat I find my self at the end of the oval table. People sat all around the room and standing lining the walls. The gaze on me in the room makes me feel under scrutiny.
“Were going to introduce scents. one at a time, then as a combined pack scent.”
I nod in understanding.
Cloth in containers are lined in front of me things flash by me containers are held to my nose lifts of coconut Woodsy and spice combined with other scents fill my nose. It's warm I feel it in my chest it cushions the rise and fall of it. I feel my head feel slightly floaty before I register
“Mx. L/n…..Mx. L/n?” my eyes snap open looking at one of the betas in the room.
“Your thoughts please.” I jump forgetting i was in a room with so many people eyes staring me down.
“They smell good comforting and warm I like it.” The information was probably more than they need.
“Good, with that we are in the ok to move forward?”
My head bobs up and down hesitating for a sec the yes hanging in front of me making me question if this was something I was truly ready for having already been so entranced with the passed cloth.
Papers sit down in front of me while jargon hits me in the face, stuff that doesn't make much sense to me. My eyes run over the words on the page, breaking it down better than the words being spoken to me.
the paper essentially stating that I'm not allowed to talk about the comeback and events before they are let out to the public. Where my power stands as a pack alpha to the company while I represent an idol pack, who I report to, what information I will have access to what resources will be accessible to me and a fuck ton more of information that starts to make my head hurt. way more information than i can reasonably take in in this moment.
“With that information we would like another signature saying that you agree to terms we've gone over in the past and today.” The beta’s pen pointing down at the line for my signature.
A hum of agreement leaves my tongue darts out between my lips under my face mask. Moistening them out of habit. I take a pen my fingers hug it’s sides with a fluid motion running the ball point over the stark white paper lined with agreements.
More discussions of expectations of my position get laid out more legal jargon that gets thrown my way make me realize I maybe should have requested the presence of my own lawyer.
The multi hour meeting was draining I was informed that jype would be willing to reimburse me for some of the courting gifts and outings for the pack if I provided them with receipts.
As my hands lay ready to push up off my chair another folder is slid in front of me. A lay out of the pack members and sub-genders of the pack of idols I would be courting
| Idol | Sub-gender |
| --- | --- |
| Bang Chan | Alpha (stand in Pack Alpha) |
| Lee Minho | Beta |
| Seo Changbin | Alpha(Head) |
| Hwang Hyunjin | Omega (Head) |
| Han Jisung | Omega |
| Lee Felix | Omega |
| Kim Seungmin | Beta |
| Yang Jeongin | Alpha |
The members of one of our top idol group under jype
To be completely honest I don't know much about the group stray kids, now if this was told to Eunji she would be over the moon The women knows a shit ton about the group I'm pretty sure she's been keeping up with the group since before they debuted?— I’d ask her if I was allowed to mention something to her, at least until its a statement is put out. I'm not suppose to mention anything to anyone. We had set up a meet up for two members. A Small cafe, I wasn't informed who would be joining me there quite yet allowing the members of the pack to decided who wanted to go first but I was informed I would most likely be meeting with who's been acting as a sort of pack alpha to group. The problem is in idol groups the pack alpha won’t be recognized by the government unless they stay uninvolved with the industry. Mostly meaning they cant be an idol themselves.
The next week of work goes by fast things are steady but the idea of this date stays hanging in my mind like an enigma. The slipping my tongue piercing between my lips sliding.
“You’ve been quite,” The beta sweeping speaks cutting the silence in the studio.
“yeah I've got a lot on my mind” I don’t look up from my Tablet looking over the designs for the next week of appointments.
“I saw you have a space blocked out next Wednesday, Finally Have a Dateeeeeee???” Eunji’s teasing tone holds onto the word.
“Kinda, it’s complicated hopefully though if it goes well things will become less…. Complicated?” uncertainty Filling my voice.
”Interesting date, but not a date, who's the luck person”
I wince as the words fall from her mouth “Unfortunately I can't say”
she pauses eyes narrowing on me
“No way” stiffening at her words I try to deflect.
“Its someone famous isn't it” the Beta glaring at me gives me an analyzing look, a Cheshire like smile raising from the corner of her lips.
“No comment why don't you go eat lunch or something” the fact she guessed so easily wasn't that surprising I'm honestly not very good at having a poker face my emotions are ofter all over my face.
Courting. A process of proving that you are worthy of being in a pack and its a process even more important when presenting yourself as a pack alpha.
This is why I now sit in a booth with a basket full of items snacks some baked good and nesting materials more hoodies with good scenting labels blankets things. My hands fiddle in front of me the ring spinning between my finger tips. I spent the last few days making sure everything was perfect and that there would be enough things for all 8 members of the pack. A text the other day informed me that the standing pack alpha the head alpha and An omega would be meeting with me.
My eyes casted down at my hands the rings on them twisting on my fingers while I fidget anxiously. The scent in the cafe was inviting warm and like a blanket of comfort the smells of baking batter hangs in the air mixed with cocoa coffee and vanilla.
“L/n Y/n?”
My eyes turn to the voice. The figure was short…. quite a few of them are short truthfully it would have been probably a little useful to do some research. But there were far more than 3 of them all 8 had shown up
“Uh yes.” I’m quick to answer.
“We have a private room reserved” I’m motioned to follow by the shortest one my rather large basket at my side.
The room stinks with scent neutralizer, a spray to rid the room of scents. All of us sit at the table and some how having all 8 members of this pack in front of me is much more nerve racking than just the 3 who were suppose to show up.
“Sorry for the surprise but we wanted to meet you as a pack first.” The shortest one says “I’m Seo Changbin current head alpha.”
“Oh your good I was just surprised is all uh—"my hands scramble to the handle of the basket "Here this is a courting gift to your pack” I lift the big basket the 8 men in front of me have surprise written all over their faces.
“We haven’t had a courting gift aimed at all of us in a while.” Changbin says as he looks through the basket nesting materials hoodies blankets some baked goods I had made over the course of the past several days.
“It’s a pretty broad courting gift I’ll give more specific ones as I get to know all of you hopefully.” My hands continue to twist the rings on my hand placed in my lap.
“This is great thank you” Changbin says, with a smile.
“So how much do you actually know about us” one on the end says. Hair cut close to the tip of his ears and the front of it slightly in his eyes.
“Oh uh close to nothing I know your all a kpop group but aside from that I don’t actually know about you individually I don’t consume a lot of kpop in my free time nor am I like in the fandom? So I’m kinda going in blind.” The words tumble out more clumsily than i want them too.
He let out a hum at my words. The silence following slightly unnerving
“Most of the people who have made it this far tend to know quite a bit about us so to have you make it to this point and know barely anything is different.”the one with freckles dotting his face clears up.
“Ah ok, uh I have an employee who talks about you guys but I think that’s about it”
“What do you do?” Changbin questions
“I own a tattoo and piercing shop”
A course of wows and cools sound through the room.
My eyes catch one of the members at the end of the table pop up at the mention of my job.
All of us keep talking going through introductions. The conversation going well. The energy shifting from unnerving and anxious to warm and inviting.
“You’ll Probably accompany us to some fittings first to help get to know the team that’s around us all the time , and then we’ll still proceed with more courting date less likely to ambushed by the entire pack ” Chan says I let out a chuckle at his words
“Got it, you all seem very cool I’m very happy to have a chance at this opportunity and I hope I don’t let you all down.”
“Thank you, we’ve got a meeting soon so we have to go but we’ll be in touch” they slowly get up Changbin grabbing the basket. Hauling the large basket away.
I found myself sitting in the cafe private room wondering what I had gotten myself into.
I was going over the lines on a girls arm, a beta who had wanted a cloud tattooed across her bicep. My body felt tenser than I usually am. My thoughts running as I work thinking about the fact I had yet to hear from the pack. I had spent so much time trying to put something halfway decent together into the basket, the idea that they hated it has been eating away at me for days. The fidgeting with my tongue perching against my lips happens repeatedly. As I finish the beta's tattoo I tell her after care instructions letting her go on her way.
“You so off today.” Eunji words break my train of thought.
“That bad huh?”
“Your shoulders are here they need to be here” she raised her hands close to her hears lowering them significantly.
“Ha. Ha, I get It” I force my shoulders down as I clean. Its been a few days since the cafe and I haven’t heard a single thing something about that was hitting much harder than I thought. A deep pain. A deep dread, caused by people I don’t really know. I haven’t given out many courting gifts, not because is don’t think they’re important. I just haven’t courted many people. And Ive never made a routing gift that large. I think my alpha is taking the few days of silence as rejection.
Rejection happens its unavoidable some hurts ore than others. Never having been a fan of ghosting. That one was the one that left a pretty bad taste in my mouth.
I as ruminate my dejected alpha feelings my phone vibrates on the counter.
I lift the phone screen lighting up at me
“Sorry for the silence for the past few days we’ve decided we will move forward with courting” I pause staring at the screen time ticks in the background before I feel a towel hit me in the face.
“Earth to Y/n you’ve just been standing there for 2 minutes staring at your phone with a blank face”
“I think I’m like officially courting a pack” I mumble
“What?!”
I don’t respond to her my own fingers typing away a response.
“You can’t just say that and then go silent”
I continue typing.
‘Okay great so what now”
‘Mostly we’d continue courting as normal.
At least for the next few weeks ’ The text comes through pretty fast. We text back and forth for a second about details moving forward. I slip my phone back in my pocket for a second looking up, my eyes meet with Eunji her eyebrows wiggling at me.
“That the pack your courting”
“Don’t you got books to keep floors to sweep or something” my face goes warm as I look away to continue the task I was doing before.
My phone pings more my ringer being on normally wouldn’t cause as much as a disruption my clients typically email or message me through other social and text app than my normal messages.
A check my phone out of curiosity a group with 8 other people shows up the numbers texting their names for me to add to my contacts.
I decide for the time being its best to stress later when im on my lunch verse worrying right this moment.
The day picks up pace a little as I wait for my lunch to hit.
“Eunji, im going down to the convince store for my lunch I'll be back, want anything?”
“A soda please” the red head says looking up from her phone. I nod heading out the door pulling out my phone.
‘Hi sorry for the late text things picked up at the studio.’
The group goes back and forth for a little trying to decide who’s date would be next deciding, Hyunjin would be the best choice due to being the head omega.
A date at the end of the week giving me barely enough time to plan something.
During my lunch I text back and forth with Hyunjin.
Though half way through he ends up calling me.
“I got tired of texting back and forth”
“That fine I like phone calls” I walk through the convince store picking things up that would hold me over till after I close the shop later and making Sure to grab Eunji’s cherry soda, the girl pretty much refuses to drink anything not cherry flavored.
“What do you like to do with your free time I can plan around a mutual interest I think” I pay for the items as I pinch the phone between my ear and shoulder my hands holding the bag of food.
“I like art.” the words offer something I can latch onto.
“Like drawing and stuff?”
“Yeah I paint when I have the time.” The words trail a little in to the phone.
“That cool I was never very good at painting, I’ve gotten better with time but I'd love to see some of what you’ve made” i cant help but feel the corner of my lips lift at the idea of seeing some of his art.
Us talking on the phone is good it helps with us getting comfortable and now I’ve got a few ideas for the date and some courting gifts.
“You draw tattoos for your clients right.” The question comes through the phone.
“Yeah I also draw on my free time it helps me not get art blocks,” making my way to the studio I make a mental note to find some a place to do some painting. Potentially a cafe or maybe a picnic. The two of us talk on the phone until I reach the studio
“I gotta get back to work but I hope we can talk more in the future." the door of my studio stands in front of me.
“Yeah I hope so”
We say out goodbyes as I open the door my hands moving the phone from my ear down to look at it.
The new contact staring back at me in my recent call list.
I walk through the door my fingers quick to scroll through paint recommendations and things to put in another courting gift something more personal.
Courting is one of the most important part of any mating process it can cause problems later if courting isn’t done right.
During my residency I had found a pack who rushed things and pretty much skipped over proper courting and it left the pack unstable in a hierarchy. Pack hierarchy’s aren’t ment to be a power thing but represent who in the pack was trusted enough by the pack alpha to be there and support the pack and guide.
An unstable hierarchy means that the pack won’t think they can lean on the pack alpha.
That pack ended up not making it and splitting up leaving especially the omegas of the pack in a really vulnerable place especially since the splitting was messy. It took everyone in the pack a really long time to feel like they would be able to be in a pack again.
I don’t want to cause problems like that in a pack already so developed.
let me know if y'all liked this chapter. its not my best work but aye if y'all like it I love it.
Despite both Ateez’s Fem Pack Alpha and New Inklings Reader both being pack alphas they both have very different approaches to how they think about thier role in the pack.
Both have a very good under that role is built on trust and effort and time. I think NI!Reader and FPA!Reader just mentally work differently in the role.
NI!Reader, I’ll explain a bit more as the story goes on isn’t insecure in their ability to do the work but more anxious in their potential to royally fuck up something so established and seemingly secure. Vs. FPA!Reader inherently worries about her effort and weather or not she’s enough for the pack or the role and wether or not she’s doing a good job or letting the pack down
And I think how these two interact with their instincts in comparison to each other are/will be very important or at least it’s important in my head the two stories don’t interact but in-terms of when I’m getting in the minds of the characters they both occupy the same job yet they both are very different
Idols need alphas in order to make sure pack needs are met. What happens when a potential pack alpha has no clue about the idol world and quite literally stumbles their way into it while on their way back to their tattoo studio.
meeting packs are never easy but what's suppose to be 2 might turn out to be more chaotic than initially thought
Poly!Skz x Tall!Nonbinary!Alt!Reader
Series Warnings: Omegaverse, Alternatively Dressed Reader, mentions of workplace abuse, suggestive themes, bullying, polyamory, references to oral fixation (see individual chapters for specific warnings)
Chapter warnings: mentions of stress, mentions of dating struggles, reference to piercings and tattoos, consumption of food, mentions of courting and gift giving Reader uses they/them addressed using Mx And is an Alpha.
WC: 3.2k
Series Masterlist
A/N: Im so sorry for the false promises about posting I found myself in a rough patch mentally but I'm in a better spot to post and write so if your seeing this then other fics should be on the way with it.
do I like this chapter no but I wrote it in a slump and its the best its gonna get Im sorry T-T
The alarm blares by my bed. My eyes move behind my eyelids in the dark not wanting to greet the world but rather stay comfortable in bed with my eyes closed.
My legs swing over the side of the bed. Feet meeting the cold floor. I slip slippers on and trudge my body from the bed to the bathroom. I wash my face fresh for the day brush my teeth and turn the shower on. the water hitting the tiles ringing through the bathroom. I climb into the shower after the water warms feel in with my hand right before I step in. I had set an outfit out the night before,knowing I'd rather not be bothered this morning with choosing something from my slightly overwhelming closet. Using a wash cloth I wash my body standing in the water for a minute after I finish washing my body the hot water running down my body swirling into the drain. My hand reaches the knob to turn it off the tapping on the tiles coming to a trickle than stop, before I proceed to step out. I look at my options for jewelry, black satin button up with black dress pants jewelry picked out rings bracelets a necklace opting to switch out some of the rings on my lips for barbells. I take another look in the mirror and make my way to the kitchen to make something light to eat.
I get to where the meeting suppose to be held the company headquarter. I find myself approached before I can even ask for help to find out where to go.
“Mx.L/n please come with us.” The woman is dressed nicely in black. a few people following close behind her. I follow the women and group of people. The slacks and button ups they're dressed in making me feel grossly underdressed.
Im walked to the room, a long table in the middle white boards lining the wall. I'm invited to take a seat I find my self at the end of the oval table. People sat all around the room and standing lining the walls. The gaze on me in the room makes me feel under scrutiny.
“Were going to introduce scents. one at a time, then as a combined pack scent.”
I nod in understanding.
Cloth in containers are lined in front of me things flash by me containers are held to my nose lifts of coconut Woodsy and spice combined with other scents fill my nose. It's warm I feel it in my chest it cushions the rise and fall of it. I feel my head feel slightly floaty before I register
“Mx. L/n…..Mx. L/n?” my eyes snap open looking at one of the betas in the room.
“Your thoughts please.” I jump forgetting i was in a room with so many people eyes staring me down.
“They smell good comforting and warm I like it.” The information was probably more than they need.
“Good, with that we are in the ok to move forward?”
My head bobs up and down hesitating for a sec the yes hanging in front of me making me question if this was something I was truly ready for having already been so entranced with the passed cloth.
Papers sit down in front of me while jargon hits me in the face, stuff that doesn't make much sense to me. My eyes run over the words on the page, breaking it down better than the words being spoken to me.
the paper essentially stating that I'm not allowed to talk about the comeback and events before they are let out to the public. Where my power stands as a pack alpha to the company while I represent an idol pack, who I report to, what information I will have access to what resources will be accessible to me and a fuck ton more of information that starts to make my head hurt. way more information than i can reasonably take in in this moment.
“With that information we would like another signature saying that you agree to terms we've gone over in the past and today.” The beta’s pen pointing down at the line for my signature.
A hum of agreement leaves my tongue darts out between my lips under my face mask. Moistening them out of habit. I take a pen my fingers hug it’s sides with a fluid motion running the ball point over the stark white paper lined with agreements.
More discussions of expectations of my position get laid out more legal jargon that gets thrown my way make me realize I maybe should have requested the presence of my own lawyer.
The multi hour meeting was draining I was informed that jype would be willing to reimburse me for some of the courting gifts and outings for the pack if I provided them with receipts.
As my hands lay ready to push up off my chair another folder is slid in front of me. A lay out of the pack members and sub-genders of the pack of idols I would be courting
| Idol | Sub-gender |
| --- | --- |
| Bang Chan | Alpha (stand in Pack Alpha) |
| Lee Minho | Beta |
| Seo Changbin | Alpha(Head) |
| Hwang Hyunjin | Omega (Head) |
| Han Jisung | Omega |
| Lee Felix | Omega |
| Kim Seungmin | Beta |
| Yang Jeongin | Alpha |
The members of one of our top idol group under jype
To be completely honest I don't know much about the group stray kids, now if this was told to Eunji she would be over the moon The women knows a shit ton about the group I'm pretty sure she's been keeping up with the group since before they debuted?— I’d ask her if I was allowed to mention something to her, at least until its a statement is put out. I'm not suppose to mention anything to anyone. We had set up a meet up for two members. A Small cafe, I wasn't informed who would be joining me there quite yet allowing the members of the pack to decided who wanted to go first but I was informed I would most likely be meeting with who's been acting as a sort of pack alpha to group. The problem is in idol groups the pack alpha won’t be recognized by the government unless they stay uninvolved with the industry. Mostly meaning they cant be an idol themselves.
The next week of work goes by fast things are steady but the idea of this date stays hanging in my mind like an enigma. The slipping my tongue piercing between my lips sliding.
“You’ve been quite,” The beta sweeping speaks cutting the silence in the studio.
“yeah I've got a lot on my mind” I don’t look up from my Tablet looking over the designs for the next week of appointments.
“I saw you have a space blocked out next Wednesday, Finally Have a Dateeeeeee???” Eunji’s teasing tone holds onto the word.
“Kinda, it’s complicated hopefully though if it goes well things will become less…. Complicated?” uncertainty Filling my voice.
”Interesting date, but not a date, who's the luck person”
I wince as the words fall from her mouth “Unfortunately I can't say”
she pauses eyes narrowing on me
“No way” stiffening at her words I try to deflect.
“Its someone famous isn't it” the Beta glaring at me gives me an analyzing look, a Cheshire like smile raising from the corner of her lips.
“No comment why don't you go eat lunch or something” the fact she guessed so easily wasn't that surprising I'm honestly not very good at having a poker face my emotions are ofter all over my face.
Courting. A process of proving that you are worthy of being in a pack and its a process even more important when presenting yourself as a pack alpha.
This is why I now sit in a booth with a basket full of items snacks some baked good and nesting materials more hoodies with good scenting labels blankets things. My hands fiddle in front of me the ring spinning between my finger tips. I spent the last few days making sure everything was perfect and that there would be enough things for all 8 members of the pack. A text the other day informed me that the standing pack alpha the head alpha and An omega would be meeting with me.
My eyes casted down at my hands the rings on them twisting on my fingers while I fidget anxiously. The scent in the cafe was inviting warm and like a blanket of comfort the smells of baking batter hangs in the air mixed with cocoa coffee and vanilla.
“L/n Y/n?”
My eyes turn to the voice. The figure was short…. quite a few of them are short truthfully it would have been probably a little useful to do some research. But there were far more than 3 of them all 8 had shown up
“Uh yes.” I’m quick to answer.
“We have a private room reserved” I’m motioned to follow by the shortest one my rather large basket at my side.
The room stinks with scent neutralizer, a spray to rid the room of scents. All of us sit at the table and some how having all 8 members of this pack in front of me is much more nerve racking than just the 3 who were suppose to show up.
“Sorry for the surprise but we wanted to meet you as a pack first.” The shortest one says “I’m Seo Changbin current head alpha.”
“Oh your good I was just surprised is all uh—"my hands scramble to the handle of the basket "Here this is a courting gift to your pack” I lift the big basket the 8 men in front of me have surprise written all over their faces.
“We haven’t had a courting gift aimed at all of us in a while.” Changbin says as he looks through the basket nesting materials hoodies blankets some baked goods I had made over the course of the past several days.
“It’s a pretty broad courting gift I’ll give more specific ones as I get to know all of you hopefully.” My hands continue to twist the rings on my hand placed in my lap.
“This is great thank you” Changbin says, with a smile.
“So how much do you actually know about us” one on the end says. Hair cut close to the tip of his ears and the front of it slightly in his eyes.
“Oh uh close to nothing I know your all a kpop group but aside from that I don’t actually know about you individually I don’t consume a lot of kpop in my free time nor am I like in the fandom? So I’m kinda going in blind.” The words tumble out more clumsily than i want them too.
He let out a hum at my words. The silence following slightly unnerving
“Most of the people who have made it this far tend to know quite a bit about us so to have you make it to this point and know barely anything is different.”the one with freckles dotting his face clears up.
“Ah ok, uh I have an employee who talks about you guys but I think that’s about it”
“What do you do?” Changbin questions
“I own a tattoo and piercing shop”
A course of wows and cools sound through the room.
My eyes catch one of the members at the end of the table pop up at the mention of my job.
All of us keep talking going through introductions. The conversation going well. The energy shifting from unnerving and anxious to warm and inviting.
“You’ll Probably accompany us to some fittings first to help get to know the team that’s around us all the time , and then we’ll still proceed with more courting date less likely to ambushed by the entire pack ” Chan says I let out a chuckle at his words
“Got it, you all seem very cool I’m very happy to have a chance at this opportunity and I hope I don’t let you all down.”
“Thank you, we’ve got a meeting soon so we have to go but we’ll be in touch” they slowly get up Changbin grabbing the basket. Hauling the large basket away.
I found myself sitting in the cafe private room wondering what I had gotten myself into.
I was going over the lines on a girls arm, a beta who had wanted a cloud tattooed across her bicep. My body felt tenser than I usually am. My thoughts running as I work thinking about the fact I had yet to hear from the pack. I had spent so much time trying to put something halfway decent together into the basket, the idea that they hated it has been eating away at me for days. The fidgeting with my tongue perching against my lips happens repeatedly. As I finish the beta's tattoo I tell her after care instructions letting her go on her way.
“You so off today.” Eunji words break my train of thought.
“That bad huh?”
“Your shoulders are here they need to be here” she raised her hands close to her hears lowering them significantly.
“Ha. Ha, I get It” I force my shoulders down as I clean. Its been a few days since the cafe and I haven’t heard a single thing something about that was hitting much harder than I thought. A deep pain. A deep dread, caused by people I don’t really know. I haven’t given out many courting gifts, not because is don’t think they’re important. I just haven’t courted many people. And Ive never made a routing gift that large. I think my alpha is taking the few days of silence as rejection.
Rejection happens its unavoidable some hurts ore than others. Never having been a fan of ghosting. That one was the one that left a pretty bad taste in my mouth.
I as ruminate my dejected alpha feelings my phone vibrates on the counter.
I lift the phone screen lighting up at me
“Sorry for the silence for the past few days we’ve decided we will move forward with courting” I pause staring at the screen time ticks in the background before I feel a towel hit me in the face.
“Earth to Y/n you’ve just been standing there for 2 minutes staring at your phone with a blank face”
“I think I’m like officially courting a pack” I mumble
“What?!”
I don’t respond to her my own fingers typing away a response.
“You can’t just say that and then go silent”
I continue typing.
‘Okay great so what now”
‘Mostly we’d continue courting as normal.
At least for the next few weeks ’ The text comes through pretty fast. We text back and forth for a second about details moving forward. I slip my phone back in my pocket for a second looking up, my eyes meet with Eunji her eyebrows wiggling at me.
“That the pack your courting”
“Don’t you got books to keep floors to sweep or something” my face goes warm as I look away to continue the task I was doing before.
My phone pings more my ringer being on normally wouldn’t cause as much as a disruption my clients typically email or message me through other social and text app than my normal messages.
A check my phone out of curiosity a group with 8 other people shows up the numbers texting their names for me to add to my contacts.
I decide for the time being its best to stress later when im on my lunch verse worrying right this moment.
The day picks up pace a little as I wait for my lunch to hit.
“Eunji, im going down to the convince store for my lunch I'll be back, want anything?”
“A soda please” the red head says looking up from her phone. I nod heading out the door pulling out my phone.
‘Hi sorry for the late text things picked up at the studio.’
The group goes back and forth for a little trying to decide who’s date would be next deciding, Hyunjin would be the best choice due to being the head omega.
A date at the end of the week giving me barely enough time to plan something.
During my lunch I text back and forth with Hyunjin.
Though half way through he ends up calling me.
“I got tired of texting back and forth”
“That fine I like phone calls” I walk through the convince store picking things up that would hold me over till after I close the shop later and making Sure to grab Eunji’s cherry soda, the girl pretty much refuses to drink anything not cherry flavored.
“What do you like to do with your free time I can plan around a mutual interest I think” I pay for the items as I pinch the phone between my ear and shoulder my hands holding the bag of food.
“I like art.” the words offer something I can latch onto.
“Like drawing and stuff?”
“Yeah I paint when I have the time.” The words trail a little in to the phone.
“That cool I was never very good at painting, I’ve gotten better with time but I'd love to see some of what you’ve made” i cant help but feel the corner of my lips lift at the idea of seeing some of his art.
Us talking on the phone is good it helps with us getting comfortable and now I’ve got a few ideas for the date and some courting gifts.
“You draw tattoos for your clients right.” The question comes through the phone.
“Yeah I also draw on my free time it helps me not get art blocks,” making my way to the studio I make a mental note to find some a place to do some painting. Potentially a cafe or maybe a picnic. The two of us talk on the phone until I reach the studio
“I gotta get back to work but I hope we can talk more in the future." the door of my studio stands in front of me.
“Yeah I hope so”
We say out goodbyes as I open the door my hands moving the phone from my ear down to look at it.
The new contact staring back at me in my recent call list.
I walk through the door my fingers quick to scroll through paint recommendations and things to put in another courting gift something more personal.
Courting is one of the most important part of any mating process it can cause problems later if courting isn’t done right.
During my residency I had found a pack who rushed things and pretty much skipped over proper courting and it left the pack unstable in a hierarchy. Pack hierarchy’s aren’t ment to be a power thing but represent who in the pack was trusted enough by the pack alpha to be there and support the pack and guide.
An unstable hierarchy means that the pack won’t think they can lean on the pack alpha.
That pack ended up not making it and splitting up leaving especially the omegas of the pack in a really vulnerable place especially since the splitting was messy. It took everyone in the pack a really long time to feel like they would be able to be in a pack again.
I don’t want to cause problems like that in a pack already so developed.
let me know if y'all liked this chapter. its not my best work but aye if y'all like it I love it.
I need you all to understand how much I loathe editing my own nonsensical WRITINGS.
Huonestly and I have yet to actually find a way to make it suck less and I can’t ask anyone else to do it BECAUSE THIS SHIT IS NON SENSICAL.
Anyway that’s how I announce that new inklings is coming out soon it’s in the last of my shitty editing I give it 2 days after that my new fic cause it’s already got a few chapters then bismuth and probably a non kpop related fic somewhere in the mix. I’ve been watching a lot of Interview with the vampire and I’m in love with Armand and have been writing a shit ton for him and Louis so that’s been what takes up most of my time these days
JOKES ON ME I can indeed be productive it goes up tomorrow. its not great but Its a chapter that I had to get done before I can write the fun stuff for the series
I need you all to understand how much I loathe editing my own nonsensical WRITINGS.
Huonestly and I have yet to actually find a way to make it suck less and I can’t ask anyone else to do it BECAUSE THIS SHIT IS NON SENSICAL.
Anyway that’s how I announce that new inklings is coming out soon it’s in the last of my shitty editing I give it 2 days after that my new fic cause it’s already got a few chapters then bismuth and probably a non kpop related fic somewhere in the mix. I’ve been watching a lot of Interview with the vampire and I’m in love with Armand and have been writing a shit ton for him and Louis so that’s been what takes up most of my time these days
Would yall be interest in the wierd heat and rut habits of the FPA Pack
Mdni mentions of heat and ruts non descriptive mentions of sex. And brief mentions of voyeurism
Like idk yeosang we can always blame yeosang for my omegaverse thoughts
I think he likes watching his pack mates in the nest he made. I think it brings him joy out of heat and especially in heat. There a satisfaction I think it brings him. I’ve had other heat and rut habit thought but I’m not sure if I turn them into small fics or write them headcanon style
My birthday passed and that was taking a lot of time along with work and some mental health stuff but bismuth chapter is on its way to being finished and the new series prologue is getting final edits to post.
I realize I don’t really write much omega!reader fics which is really a shame because I really enjoy omega x omega relationships in fics I read so far I only have one written
It hasn’t been posted yet but it’s a few chapters in but I think I wanna challenge myself to write more omega x omega fics.
There’s a level of venerability expressed by omega!reader characters that’s expected that I think I struggle to write
I'm going to say that again - sex is morally neutral. It's an action some people enjoy partaking in, like gardening or bowling or driving or dancing or holding hands or hugging.
And this applies to everyone. There is no trait about yourself that magically makes sex immoral. Not your race, not your (dis)ability, not your sexuality, nothing.
Obligatory disclaimer that obviously age is not included with this, because for some reason y'all love to assume sex positivity = pedophilia like a bunch of homophobic concervatives.
You're allowed to like sex. You're allowed to want sex. You're allowed to want vanilla sex or wild, freaky kinky sex. You're allowed to want both kinds of sex, or something in between. You're allowed to want to talk about sex. You're allowed to want to read about sex, both academically and smut. You're allowed to engage with sex in the ways that are pleasurable for you.
Sex is morally neutral. You don't have to feel bad for wanting it or enjoying it. It's *supposed* to be enjoyable. It's supposed to be fun. It's supposed to feel good physically and emotionally.
Yall im easily 20 chapters ahead of bismuth in planning and it pains me to not be able to share things with yall or talk about certain things that I haven’t put out yet.
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