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PSA: This blog has moved to @limpingconscience !

I apologize for my absence with this blog but, I rebooted and it feels very neat and refreshed over there. All threads will continue over there/plots as well, and I’ll keep this blog up as an archive for the new blog.

I’ll be refollowing on that blog as well/getting into contact with those whose messages I never managed to see/respond to as well!

Thank you all - it’s been wonderful over here. See you on the other side!

#PSA;#(this will circulate for a few days in my queue/etc but then I'm taking this chrome marker off my blog.)#(just to fully get the feel of a fresh start you know?)

#consider this a hostile takeover eden #ahahaha just kidding i love u :)

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LINKIN PARK MEME. Rest in peace, Chester Bennington. Your talent and wonderful personality gave so many people so much hope during their darkest of times, and you will be forever missed.

PAPERCUT.

Why does it feel like night today?

Why am I so uptight today?

Paranoia is all I got left.

I know what it feels like to have a voice in the back of my head.

It’s like I’m paranoid lookin’ over my back.

It’s like a whirlwind inside of my head.

It’s like I can’t stop what I’m hearing within.

Your paranoia’s probably worse.

I don’t know what set me off first.

ONE STEP CLOSER.

I cannot take this anymore.

I find bliss in ignorance.

I’m about to break.

I need a little room to breathe.

I’m one step closer to the edge.

I wish I could find a way to disappear.

Shut up when I’m talking to you.

POINTS OF AUTHORITY.

Forfeit the game.

You can’t run the race.

You just won’t last.

You love the way I look at you.

My pride is broken.

You like to think you’re never wrong.

You live with what you’ve learned.

You have to act like you’re someone.

You want someone to hurt like you.

CRAWLING.

These wounds they will not heal.

There’s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface.

This lack of self-control I fear is never-ending.

My walls are closing in.

I’ve felt this way before.

IN THE END.

It doesn’t even matter how hard you try.

Time is a valuable thing.

I wasted it all just to watch you go.

I kept everything inside.

Even though I tried, it all fell apart.

I tried so hard and got so far.

In the end? It doesn’t even matter.

I had to fall to lose it all.

You’re acting like I was part of your property.

You fought with me.

Things aren’t the way they were before.

You wouldn’t even recognise me anymore.

I’ve put my trust in you.

MY DECEMBER.

I just wish I didn’t feel.

I take back all the things I said.

I’d give it all away just to have somewhere to go.

I’d give it all away just to have someone to come home to.

This is all I need.

BREAKING THE HABIT.

Memories consume like an opening wound.

You all assume I’m safe here.

I don’t want to be the one.

I’m the one confused.

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for.

I don’t know why I instigate and say what I don’t mean.

I don’t know how I got this way.

I know it’s not alright.

I had no options left.

I’m the one at fault.

I’ll never fight again.

This is how it ends.

NUMB.

I’m tired of being what you want me to be.

I don’t know what you’re expecting of me.

I’m under the pressure of walking in your shoes.

Every step that I take is another mistake to you.

I’ve become so numb.

I can’t feel you there.

All I want is to be more like me and be less like you.

Can’t you see that you’re smothering me?

Everything that you thought I would be has fallen apart right in front of you.

I may end up failing.

You were just like me with someone disappointed in you.

LEAVE OUT ALL THE REST.

I dreamed I was missing.

You were so scared.

No one would listen because no one else cared.

What am I leaving when I’m done here?

Forget the wrong that I’ve done.

Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed.

Don’t resent me.

Keep me in your memory.

Don’t be afraid.

I’ve taken my beating.

I’m strong on the surface.

I’ve never been perfect.

I’ve never been perfect, but neither have you.

Save me from myself.

SHADOW OF THE DAY.

Sometimes solutions aren’t so simple.

Sometimes goodbye’s the only way.

The sun will set for you.

Your friends all plead for you to stay.

Sometimes beginnings aren’t so simple.

WHAT I’VE DONE.

There’s no need.

I’ve drawn regret from the truth.

Let mercy come and wash away what I’ve done.

Let go of what I’ve done.

I’m forgiving what I’ve done.

FAINT.

I said goodbye.

All I could think was I need a way to dig through the damage.

I see you takin’ advantage.

I found another reason to do this.

I wanna find a way to rattle you.

I’m not done.

There’s nothing left.

Darkness turned to light.

#BUSINESS & PLEASURE (MEMES);#(the only meme that matters to me right now.)#(please.)#(excellent.)#(rest in peace sir.)

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saepins:

& you smile when you dive in — like you’re never coming back. / as told by winter.

#promo!#(listen.)#(winter's my baby daddy and my wife and my sister and my whole world.)#(the bubbles the everything I am blessed and reborn I am revived I am SO alive.)

Actual conversations had during dinner tonight for my middle sister’s birthday:

Georgia and Alabama aren’t the same thing? That looks like our cousin... *takes a picture and sends it to said cousin* How bloody do you want your steak? I want it to moo. I’m becoming a mom I’m always wearing jewelry. I’m so proud you got a job! Yeah he owes me three meals. I’m so proud YOU got a job! I have to feed this child. The guys playing futball are brutal man, that guy just kicked that other guy in the knee on purpose. Anyone want dessert? Turkey. Turkey? Mom, put the peanuts in your purse. The peanuts are free, we don’t have to hide them!

#FROM UNDER THE UMBRELLA (OUT OF CHARACTER);#(it was a wonderful night and aside from my not having a voice/the coughing it was exceptional.)#(and now onward! I will be watching a bit of O/utcast however but then I should be here.)#(gotta get the ol' noggin' going!)

Update: I’m still a bit under the weather with a very weird and painful chest cough, but aside from that, I’m doing very well!

This evening is my middle sister’s birthday dinner, but after, I should be around for all the fun!

My main goal is to finish some edits for my multi/create edits for my permanent starter call for Oswald and respectfully, Olisa as well. <3

#FROM UNDER THE UMBRELLA (OUT OF CHARACTER);#(however I am so excited for the s/hape of water!)#(and I'm so sad over c/hester b/ennington's death.)#(may you find peace sir.)#(it's a bittersweet day I feel and where I am it is about to rain.)#(perhaps there's symbolism in that.)#(*flies around to get ready*)

slagginbitch

i’m so ready for Guillermo del Toro’s Abe Sapien romance fanfic

#FROM UNDER THE UMBRELLA (OUT OF CHARACTER);#(LISTEN...)#(those movies are my life Winter knows this.)#(I'm so happy I could cry.)#(I'm gonna spend the day thinking about him and princess nuala meeting bye.)#(and nuada probably.)

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rebelvow:

a wolf in sheep’s clothing is more than a warning . independent original character , anarchist & cyber punk themes . penned by virgo ,

#promo!#(if you don't follow Oswald's daughter I don't know what to say.)#(I love Valera I love Virgo's wild building I admire them so much.)#(they're gonna be a star one day!)#WHEN YOU KNOW WHAT A MAN LOVES YOU KNOW WHAT CAN QUEUE HIM;

Going to enjoy reading Outcast/watching it and healing after having a very feverish/sick day, of which I triumphed/remained at work but, still!

IM is open for plotting etc! I’ll be messaging lovelies this night. <3

#FROM UNDER THE UMBRELLA (OUT OF CHARACTER);#(the main character is already my muse.)#(kyle b/arnes more like HELLO NEW SON.)#(he'll be on my multi soon!)

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I will be replying to IMs and as much as possible later on today/ so on.

Mutuals may ask for my S/kype and d/iscord as I get back into the swing of talking with lovely people. ❤️❤️

#self reblog;#(still applies!)#(I apologize for leaving all my IMs unanswered!)#(I cannot multi task at times and then my schedule erupted into busyness.)#(but that is neither here nor there!)

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DEATHLESS.

the following prompts were taken from the novel deathless by catherynne m. valente, an american novelist & poet. the novel was loosely based on the tale of koschei the deathless, incorporating other elements of russian mythology, & setting it against the backdrop of the russian revolution. feel free to change the pronouns / prompts as you see fit, but be warned – below the cut, it’s quite long !

❛ the service of your body is not yours to give as you please. ❜

❛ you probably won’t survive. ❜

❛ go. run. don’t look behind you. ❜

❛ i have come for the girl in the window. ❜

❛ i will never be without information. ❜

❛ i will see him with his skin off before i fall in love. ❜

❛ if the world is divided into seeing & not seeing, i will always choose to see. ❜

❛ secrets are jealous things, permitting no fraternization. ❜

❛ no, it’s not like that, when magic comes. ❜

❛ magic does that. it wastes you away. once it grips you by the ear, the world gets quieter & quieter until you can hardly hear it at all. ❜

❛ the sight of it bruised my heart so that i cannot think about anything else. ❜

❛ i’ll be so quiet, i’ll never talk again. ❜