OKAY LEGIT I REBLOGGED THIS YESTERDAY. ME AND MY PARTNER ARE IN SUCH A TIGHT SPOT FOR MONEY ATM AS WE ARE SAVING FOR A DEPOSIT ON A HOUSE. I GOT PAID DOUBLE WHAT I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO GET AND SO DID HE AND HONESTLY I CRIED SO MUCH TODAY IM SO HAPPY AND RELIEVED
So first of I really wanna thank everyone for the support and Love! Like I can’t believe how much move Gasoline has gotten and WOW. It’s shocking that it is so well loved. It makes me as a writer feel so soft.
NOW As to why I have been missing for basically a year? So much has happened so I’m try to summarize it all? Here we go.
I got a new job where I work overnights at a Walmart super center. I work 8 hours and I hardly have any time to do much of anything. I’ve FINALLY after half a year of struggling adjusted to my schedules hence why this update is finally seeing the light of day! lol. I work full time so one day I end up sleeping all day and the other I gotta run errends.
I’ve been dealing with my mood swings and depressive thoughts. I’m trying to see someone about it since I have been having dark thoughts. I’m alot happier and writing gasoline helped but the negative part that came with it really put me in a horrible place emotionally.
I would get alot of hate anon asks here and was getting horrible messages. I’ve since blocked all of that so I’m much happier. that and I am learning to deal with the negative and accepting the positive feedback :)!
IDK IF U GUYS NOTICED THO THAT GASOLINE HAS 2 MORE CHAPTERS???? I’ve finally figured out a solid ending that if I ever so choose I can write a oneshot about. And I have a bonus chapter in the works ;D The next 2 chapters will be long and I can’t guarantee that this is really the end but here it is.
I can’t promise to be as active as I want to be but I am still here and still sinning :)
Title: Gasoline
Pairing: Young Rick/a TINY bit older Morty
Warning over all: Rated chapters for the future,au
Warning this chapter: None
Parts: 9/12
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They agreed to let things lie for a moment. To let it see where everything was going to go naturally. That's what they agreed on at least. Those were the thoughts that rick had as he looked a this phone. It blinked with one single message. He hesitated to open the text. He knew that Morty meant well but this was the opposite of trying to let things flow, or at least it felt that way to Rick.
Morty: I miss you
Rick moaned softly as he looked at the words. He wanted to believe them so badly. After the talk he had with Morty He had taken a day off work to think about everything and get his head on straight. He wanted to fix things because he knew deep down he didn't want to lose Morty. It would be so simple to forgive him and go back to the way things were but RIck's mind kept questioning if it was all a lie. If every moment together was a lie or if it had been real. It was enough for him to hesitate and not push forward.
Rick: I miss you too.
Morty: I hope you know I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm sorry.
Rick sighed and shook his head. His hands shaking as he texted him back.
Rick: I want to believe you. so badly. I don't know what to believe.
Morty: Let me prove it. Can you come over?
Rick raised an eyebrows he realized that it was almost midnight.
Rick: Tomorrow.
Rick didn't want to deal with his feeling anymore. RIck walked over to his bed and started to pull the mattress from the wall. He had a bottle of Jack Daniels on the other side and he wanted to be drunk. He pulled the bottle out and stared at it. His mind still racing. How would Morty prove anything to him at this point. Rick Knew that Morty was trying. Hell he was trying and it was making him almost bitter with how much he was feeling.
Morty: Please Rick? It's already tomorrow anyways
Rick sighed as he grabbed his black Jean vest(the only thing he owned that didn't have a bunch of patches or buttons) and pulled on some skinny black jeans.
It could backfire was the first thing that Morty thought after he had text Rick. He had texted Rick in the hopes of getting him to come over. Rick had finally texted that he was on his way and Morty gave a huge sigh of relief. It could be all for nothing but Morty knew that he would regret it if he didn't try to fix things. Morty sat outside of his house on the front steps. He wore a hoodie over a black plain shirt and wore some torn up jeans. Morty could hear Ricks car rumbling down the street and suddenly Morty felt his stomach starting to do flips. He got up as Rick pulled into his driveway and stopped his car. Rick got out and walked over to Morty slowly with his hands stuffed into his pockets.
"Hey."
Morty waved lamely at Rick who in return nodded his head at him. Morty shuffled over awkwardly towards Rick.
"So yeah I know you have every right to be angry and I can't begin to apologize again..... But if you give me another chance.... We can start off fresh. No secrets."
Rick raised an eyebrow at Morty as his face remained blank. Morty was starting to get nervous but continued.
"I know it will be hard to trust me.... after all this but I know that one of the biggest things we have had to do for a while was hide our relationship."
Rick's eyes widened as he realized where Morty was going with this line of conversation.
"Morty what do-"
"My mom had a really late shift so she will be home soon. Can you park your car on the street? If.... your still willing to be with me then I'd like to tell her while you are here. Either way..... I am determined to not lose you. I just... I just need you here with me for this."
Rick stared at Morty for a little bit longer and then pulled his hands out of his pocket before wrapping his arms around Morty. Morty leaned into him and sighed.
"Morty It's hard for me right now but this is a big deal. I can't let you do this-"
"If it's the only way to have you I will."
"Morty.... Coming out to your family.... It's.... It's not easy. My father hated me for a long time when I told him how I felt. I don't want that for you.I'm... I'm not worth that pain. I don't want you to come out if your going to get hurt. I don't want you to... say anything unless your ready."
"Your worth way more. I... I don't want to hide this anymore. I'm not gonna lie... I'm scared."
Rick nodded as he walked up and wrapped his arms around Morty.
"Are you sure you wanna do this? I don't want you to do this for me... Do it for you."
Morty sniffled as he felt tears roll down his face. He pressed his face into Ricks chest and spoke to him, softly.
"I... I want to. I want to tell everyone how much I love you. I want everyone to know
I'm with you..... If you'll have me again."
"I... I do .I want you. I've always wanted you.... I... I'm here. I'll be here when you decide to tell your parents."
Morty nodded and remained quiet as he felt his eyelashes get wet with new tears.
"Oh Rick, I was so afraid of losing you...."
"I..... Was scared that everything was lost too Morty."
Morty tightened his arms around Rick and started to cry hard . Rick held him and rested his head on his before pulling away a bit. Rick held Morty's head and whipped his tears away with his thumbs.
"I'm gonna move my car then."
Morty nodded and waited for Rick on the front step. As Rick moved his car Beth pulled into the driveway. Morty could feel his heart in his throat as she walked towards him.
"Morty what are you doing up?.... Who was that?"
Beth's eyebrows drew in together as her face shifted from curious to concerned.
"Morty? Are you ok?"
Morty nodded as he heard Rick walking up the path.
"Y-yeah mom. I.... I have something to tell you."
Morty looked up at Rick and it was as if he was pleading with rick for help. Of course RIck understood right away.
"We have something to tell you."
Beth turned around and smiled at Rick who walked past her and stood slightly in front of Morty. Beth looked at them confused for a moment.
"What is going on?"
Morty gently grabbed Rick's hand who in turn squeezed back hard.
"Me and Rick-Rick and I.... we're together. We-We have been together since I started to work at that Concert venue place downtown..... I... I was afraid to tell you."
Beth looked at Morty and then at Rick with her mouth slightly slack.
"M-morty..... Rick.... W-why did you wait for so long to .. to tell me?"
Rick spoke this time figuring that Morty had proven himself.
"We were afraid that you would break us up. We figured now would be a good time to just... come out with it. Hading it is starting to get hard."
Beth Walked over to them with a frown. Rick shifted so he was in front od Morty which caused Beth to look a bit surprised.
"Rick-"
"If you are going to yell at him yell at me instead."
Beth sighed and shook her head.
"No Rick. I just..... can you move?"
Before Rick could say anything Morty moved to the side and Beth sighed.
"Morty I can't stop you from feeling how you feel. I.. I am just glad that it was Rick. I guess I am trying to say I approve of him.... and Of your life choices."
Rick let out the breath he was holding and Morty sobbed loudly as he threw himself into beths arms.
"God I was so freaked out that you would tell me that you wanted us to break up-"
"No no nothing like that Morty but If your father find out... He will give you hell. Let me tell him."
Morty nodded as he let go of his mother and turned to Rick who smiled back at him.
"Now. How about we go inside. I need a drink after all this excitement."
~
Morty was relieved when he woke up and saw Rick laying beside him. It had been a tough week without him and to actually have Rick laying beside him was the one thing he had longed for. Rick mumbled in his sleep about being too hot and then pushed the covers off of himself. Morty almost giggled but heard a loud yell that made Rick jump in bed. It was his father. It was muffled down stairs.
"What the fuck was that?"
Morty almost groaned at the gravelly morning voice that Rick had in the morning. It was sexy . Rick on the other hand stared at Morty in question.
"O-oh it was... my dad."
RIck looked at Morty and then smirked.
"Like something you see?"
"Rick-"
Rick rolled onto Morty and pressed his bulge against Morty's thigh.
"I saw you lookin at me."
"Rick we ca-"
"If were quiet we can."
Morty bit his bottom lip as he turned his head towards his bedroom door. He could hear them arguing down stairs and as bad as it sounded Morty was starting to not care. Rick rutted against his thigh as he pressed his face against Morty's shoulder.
"We don't have to babe."
Morty closed his eyes as he felt Rick shift off him to lay on his back. Warmth flooding him as he heard the word Babe. Morty looked over at rick who was staring at the ceiling.
"Say it again rick."
Rick looked at Morty confused for a moment before it clicked. He smiled at him and took his hand in his. He brought his hand up to his face and kissed the back of it softly.
"Babe."
Morty smiled and rolled onto his side facing Rick. Rick turned his head and smiled at him, his hand still pressed against Rick's lips.
"Rick I love you."
Rick closed his eyes for a moment before he opened them and just stared at him. They ;say like that for a minute before Rick whispered softly.
"Say it again babe."
"I love you."
Morty leaned forward and kissed Rick hand that was turned towards him. Rick hummed softly.
"Wow we're so fucking gay."
Morty giggled and pressed his body against the side of Rick. They were both in their boxers and the heat radiating off rick was enough to make him start to feel overhead but to him that didn't matter.
"I hope we are..."
It seemed to have quieted down as Morty sat up in bed and looked at his door. He couldn't hear any sounds anymore and figured it was safe to leave. Rick got up making Morty blush when he saw that Rick was still somewhat hard.
"Come on Mort we gotta get up and see the damage."
Morty hummed and got up. he started to get changed and turned his heda when he saw Rick was belting his pants but still shirtless.
"Do you think my dad is angry?"
"From the muffled yelling possibly but your dad is kinda a shit."
Morty hummed but couldn't disagree. It still made him nervous though. Finally dressed they both left the room hand in hand and walked to the dining room. Beth was sitting at the table looking at some paperwork and Jerry was nowhere in sight.
"Morning Mom."
"Morning Mrs. Smith."
Beth looked up and smiled.
"Morning boys! I'll get the food in a moment. I wanted to talk to you both."
Both of them sat across from Beth who seemed to be anxious.
"So... I talked to your father this morning."
Morty Squeezed Rick's hand who returned the gesture.
"Well he was.... less than thrilled. I'm sure he will come around."
Morty looked at the table, his face starting to fall as Beth started to speak again.
"It will take time Morty, I know Jerry and this is.... this is something none of us expected."
"I-I know mom... Just... Rick makes me happy."
"I know Morty. We will just have to show him how wonderful Rick is. I also have to talk to you guys about the birds and the bees-"
"MOM NO! W-we had sex education classes! I know we gotta get tested and stuff. Please mom!"
Beth started to laugh as the mood lightened a bit.
"Ok ok...Now... how about some breakfast?"
Beth left the room and Morty finally deflated all the way. Rick turned his seat and put his arms out.
"Come here."
Morty climbed into his lap and pressed his face into Ricks shoulder. He felt himself shake as a sob came out.
"I-I don't understand why it hurts so much... Rick... Why..."
"He's your dad Morty. Our parents are the ones that we always want approval from.... I'm sorry babe."
~
"So?"
Rick paused as he looked at Lily. They were back at work and Rick felt uneasy with the way things were. Morty had been trying to avoid being around Lily and unfortunately that meant not being around him since they worked together.
"So what?"
"So , would you go out to eat with me?"
Rick sighed and shook his head no. SHe looked at him confused and frowned.
"Why not? Were just eating."
"My boyfriend wouldn't like that."
Lily's face contorted into a grimace.
"Your still dating him? After what he did to you?"
Rick frowned and looked at Lily.
"We are working through it-"
"Until he lies to you again."
"He ain't gonna lie to me again... What the hell Lily?"
"I'm just... I'm concerned."
Before she could finish speaking she was interrupted.
"Yeah more concerned about your chances with getting with Rick."
Morty walked in with a frown.
"Look. I know that you got a thing for Rick, I don't blame you but you don't have a chance with him."
Lily eyed Morty for a moment before turning around.
"Whatever you say. At Least I’m not the one that started a relationship with a lie."
"No, I'm serious. Leave Rick alone. He isn't single anymore."
Lily kept her mouth shut and walked away leaving them alone. Rick walked over to him and wrapped his arms around Morty.
"Hey none of that..."
"Rick... She... She won't leave you alone..."
"I know but I am not interested."
"You sure?"
"Yeah I am... Promise."
They stood quiet for a few minutes before Rick spoke softly.
"Sometimes I wish I hadn't have found out.... we wouldn't be hurting like this."
Morty sighed softly as he felt Rick rub his back.
"I'm glad it's out in the open. I just... I just wish I had told you."
Rick slowly backed up and smiled at him.
"I know babe.... Just... Lets not keep secrets from each other yeah?"
"Yeah."
A/N: Awww yessss The boys are BACK TOGETHER! But it's not stable just yet. They got some trust issues to work trough and then the whole issue with Jerry LOL.I want to address something important that I usually see in fics though.
When someone is pressured into coming out to there families I feel like it's unrealistic. It's hard and something that not everyone can even do. It's terrifying, like hell I haven't even told anyone in my family that I am Pansexual!
WHO would pressure someone that you claim to love into coming out to their family? Not all experiences are alike but I feel like that is one part that everyone that has come out or is yet to come out to there family can relate to. It's terrifying.
ANYWAYS. I'm sorry I made you wait so long and I feel like the update wasn't that long but it has a significant purpose for the next chapter. I want things to flow better so I ended up cutting the end of chapter 9 to chapter 10~! Also Thank you all for the love. I honestly can't believe it and again I'm sorry that this update took forever. I’ll explain alot in my next post.
I’ll update once I sleep. See you all in a couple of hours! Hope everyone is ready for the next update and possibly 2 more befoe the fic is done? Its been a long time coming
