Hey! I'm Moth, Iโm 29, gender abstinent, and I use they/them pronouns. Iโm a writer at [video game company redacted] by day, and I write both interactive and prose fiction in my spare time.
My favourite genres to both read and write are surreal/psychological horror, slipstream, fabulism, and literary fiction, but I also love SFF/spec-fic and all things whimsical and absurd.
โ Themes such as grief, interdependency, otherness, trauma, gender, and sexuality
โ Extremely soft/unexplained/cryptic magic
WIPS under the cut:
โ Last updated: 17/02/26
Novels โธปเผบ
"Eumelia" (Working Title)
Tagline: A gender-flipped retelling of the origin of Peter Pan and Captain Hook's antagonism. Set in the early 1700s.
Genre(s): Literary fantasy, fairytale retelling, flirts with folk horror and ancient mythology
"Vessel & Shade" (Working Title)
Tagline: A woman doomed to offer up her body and soul to a draconic goddess falls in love with the gentle thief who sneaks into her cult's village.
Genre(s): Romantasy, adult
Short Stories โธปเผบ
The Ark House
Tagline: A woman's house floats across a flooded world.
Genre(s): Literary fiction, fabulism, surrealism
the thing about media literacy is that understanding why the author chose to specify that the curtains are blue is the same skill set as understanding that the way the author characterizes all black characters as angry or all chinese characters as meek and silent is racist. it is the same skill set as being able to identify when a news source is biased or when someone is feeding you propaganda. the ability to ask "why did this person choose to present this premise in this specific way?" is a critical skill in a world full of misinformation. why are the curtains blue? maybe it's a characterization detail. maybe it's extraneous worldbuilding. why is this character written as being right all the time? maybe you're intended to disagree with them. maybe it doesn't matter. maybe you should still ask why.
"Just because I'm right, doesn't mean I'm being helpful" is a vastly underrated thought process that I strongly encourage others to get comfortable with
I took my little brother (autistic, mostly non verbal) out and he was using his voice keyboard to tell me something, and this little boy (maybe 4 or 5?) heard him and asked me "Is he a robot??" I tried to explain to him that no, he isn't a robot, he just communicates differently, but my darling brother was in the background max volume "I am robot I am robot I am robot I am robot"
My little brother insisted if I was going to post about him, he wanted a cut of the "profits". When I explained to him that Tumblr isn't monetized, and is pretty pointless, he and my older brother pointed out that he'd still be bringing me "fame and notoriety" if the post got "big". So we agreed, if the post hit 10k notes, which seemed extremely farfetched and silly at the time, I'd take my little brother out for sushi (his favorite food) and let him eat as much as he wants.
I guess God wanted the little robot to enjoy some sushi ๐ฃ ๐ฅฒ
โYou write the beginning and then you go back and rewrite the beginning, and you never got off page one. Itโs kind of a syndrome, and I have a rash piece of advice which is โ Go on, page two, page three, and never look back. Get something finished, no matter how lousy it is. [โฆ] Perfectionists cannot get going unless they kind of do violence to their own instincts, and just blast ahead.โ
โ Ursula K. Le Guin, The Last Interview and Other Conversations
God sometimes I'm writing smut and I'll like, delete a sentence because I'm like, no, I can't write that. It's too indulgent. And then it's like. Girl, what the fuck are you even going to the candy store for if you're just going to buy raisins. Get real.
I've been seeing a lot of posts lately that tell dropouts "you can always go back!"
And that's not bad! It's true for a lot of people! You CAN go back later! You can apply to university, you can get your GED, you can pursue whatever level of education you want. It's not bad to share that message. If you dropped out and want to go back eventually, there is zero timeline. You can go back at any age, with any life experience. You do not have to graduate by a specific age.
But as someone who dropped out of college over a decade ago, sometimes "you can always go back!" starts to feel a little like an empty platitude. Sometimes it starts to feel grating instead of hopeful. Even when it might technically be true, sometimes it still feels like a hollow sentiment.
I just want to say, to anyone else out there who feels that way, who dropped out and CAN'T go back, potentially EVER, whether it's due to poverty or disability or any other reason:
It's okay to drop out and never go back. It might feel shitty, and you may even feel grief over it. That's real, and painful, and allowed. But you are not lesser. Even if you never go back, you are not a failure or a loser. Academics do not define your worth. You are not stupid. And it is almost certain that the system actually failed YOU.
i'm thinking about charlotte brontรซ spending her last years editing and publishing her sisters' writings and about christopher tolkien dedicating his life to the protection and meticulous reconstruction his father's life's work and about johanna van gogh publishing the letters between vincent and theo that would propel vincent van gogh into fame because she knew how much her husband had loved his brother, and about how so often art isn't just a reflection of the artist's mind and skills but a testament to the fact that they were loved
My sister just quoted this post at me over dinner bc it was discussed in her philosophy class & I can't even smugly inform her of its authorship. Due to the mindhunter yaoi state of my most recent blog history.
i like when people have fun but i cannot process what could be fun in pairing your favourite ensamble cast into nice neat little completely healthy and dramaless romantic pairs that can never be broken ever. nobodys bitchless?? nobodys getting poly with it??? nobodys getting queerplatonic with it????? nobodys getting toxic with it?????? no fwbs???????? its scary.
okay so, guy at work, who i find out afterwards is famous at this place for being a sex pest, comes up and starts with what i also learn is his favorite opener to conversations where heโs going to be a sex pest, namely: โDo you know where the term โblow jobโ comes from?โ
and here he made his first fatal error. his moment of hubristic sex pesting. because of course i know where the term blow job comes from, i love learning about sex and the history of sexual terms! i know so much about oral sex that i could write a book on it!
his second error: approaching a little autistic freak with what he intended to be an uncomfortable sex question that would make me feel weird and gross. Friends, Romans, Countrymen, I Have Never Misjudged A Manโs Intentions So Incredibly In My Life. because i did not realize he was trying to harass me. because i love talking about sex facts, albeit not usually at work. unless. someone prompts me. my coworkers are the kind of people who are generally online enough to know terms, but not exactly what they mean, and they realized they could ask me a while back and get good answers without the resulting awkwardness because i do not experience shame. i am primed to answer questions like the one he has proposed.
So I Answered It.
and well, really, what happened is that I began answering it, then realized the answer required a bit more context. I mean, you canโt just say โoh, well, the term first appears in writing in the 1940sโ without first explaining that โblowโ by itself already had sexual connotations for centuries, and then, really, are we talking about the origin of the term or the origin of the act. and well we have a ton of literature and art depicting fellatio throughout human history, did you know a lot of it was men performing it on other men? oh, that reminds me, there are a multitude of latin words for oral sex performed on penises, and hold on let me quote you the entirety of catullus 16 from memory and explain itโs fascinating insights into the roman world of homosexuality-
i do not know how to turn any of this ^ off, by the way. iโm sure some people out there have a switch that disables their infodumping mid-speech. i do not. and i also didnโt realize he wasnโt looking for a real answer until my other coworker explained so hours later. he could not excuse himself from the conversation he started, and i made a conservative man at least 30 years older than me to listen to my catullus recitation. i will sodomize and facefuck you, indeed.
anyway, i think i got a bad grade in being sexually harassed. my pro tip is maybe donโt start with what a very autistic individual will misconstrue as you earnestly asking them to explain sex to you. the special interest shield will cause splashback damage.
Oh man, I just realised - so I'm autistic but I've worked with the public long enough now that I've started to catch on when this happens, but I remember the autistic no-sell response working really well so now when it happens I just act oblivious anyway. Some dude once called me up asking if we could xray his penis. I'm like, well, actually, an ultrasound would be more appropriate because xray is better for joints and bone than muscle. Sadly he did not pick the low hanging fruit I left him RIGHT THERE and he was like, okay, but what if I WANT to xray my penis? And I'm sitting there pretending to take him seriously and say, well, what is the xray for, exactly? What's the clinical reason for the scan? And dude is like. Well, I just wanted to.
And I'm like, nah, sorry mate, you need a doctor's referral. Go see a doctor and THEN we can xray your penis.
