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hi, i'm jourdann. 20. stanford university '20. major: symbolic systems, concentration: hci. infj. enneagram type 8. hufflepuff. i (try to)make youtube videos and update on here every week.

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Hi!!! I’m trying to start an online study session on Zoom for people who want to vibe and do work! Now that we’re all in quarantine, I’m finding it real hard to get schoolwork let alone any work done. When I was in my dorms around people it felt more like a group activity we would do together or I would at least be around people, but unfortunately, that has gone away. That’s why I want to start a Zoom study group where we can all do work together and be social. I would really love it if I got to know some new people while in quarantine, so if you’re interested and you also want to meet new people, please join me!

I’ll make a gc with all the people who like this and seem interested!

Like and reblog this if you’re interested as I really want to make this group soon! 

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hey i’m doing this thing, so please join!!!

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I’m gonna start this once 4 more people say they want to join!!! please consider joining!!! it’s gonna be a lot of fun!!!

[motivationalstudying]

Hi!!! I’m trying to start an online study session on Zoom for people who want to vibe and do work! Now that we’re all in quarantine, I’m finding it real hard to get schoolwork let alone any work done. When I was in my dorms around people it felt more like a group activity we would do together or I would at least be around people, but unfortunately, that has gone away. That’s why I want to start a Zoom study group where we can all do work together and be social. I would really love it if I got to know some new people while in quarantine, so if you’re interested and you also want to meet new people, please join me!

I’ll make a gc with all the people who like this and seem interested!

Like and reblog this if you’re interested as I really want to make this group soon! 

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My Official Senior Year Course Schedule, Fall Quarter

Here are the classes I’m taking this fall! I’m super excited about all of them!

SPECLANG 178A-01 - American Sign Language

I don’t know if I ever talked about it on here, but in my sophomore year of high school I took an american sign language class on the weekends because I was super interested in sign language and deaf culture. So it’s super exciting that I can finally get back to learning a language I love so much. This course will fulfill my language requirement, and I’m super excited to learn even more about deaf culture.

ARTHIST 163 - Queer America

I initially signed up for this class because I needed some more credits to qualify for full-time student, and it looked interesting. I’ve only gone to one class so far, but it looks like it’ll be super cool. It’ll cover american queer art from the 19th century to the 21st century, and I’ll get to learn more about queer studies which I’m super stoked for!

PHYSICS 15 - Stars and Planets in an Habitable Universe

This class is also going to fulfill a science requirement that I have. And it looks like it’ll be a super chill class where I’ll get to learn all about astronomy, other galaxies, and if there are other planets that are habitable for humans. Honestly, it looks like the class will be a walk in the park and also pretty interesting. The teacher is super cool, and we might take a field trip to the telescope on campus to look at planets.

FILMSTUD 120 - Superhero Theory

This class was a last minute addition, but I’m super stoked for it. It’s basically a class all about superheroes in the comics, movies, and tv shows. I like to think it’s an excuse to watch some Marvel and DC tv shows and movies while reading comics I never checked out! I also love this professor so it will likely be one of my favorite classes from this quarter.

Ok, those are the classes I’m taking this year. Let me know what classes you’re taking and are excited for!

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SO EXCITED FOR SENIOR YEAR

hello! i’m starting my senior year in almost a week and i’m so excited but also a little scared for what’s to come. it’s my last year of college, so i want it to be a good one and i want to work on my communication and social skills this year (as i always do). i’m just really hoping that this year turns out great and i that i meet a lot of cool people and enjoy my potentially last year of school (that is if i decide to not go to grad school!). if you’re entering you’re senior year of college or high school (or you already have which is very likely), let me know what you’re excited for the upcoming school year.

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Dealing with Burn Out

Hello, I’m back again with another post. I know crazy! But I thought I’d tell you about my experience with burn out and how I tried to handle it. 

The Summer That Started It All

So it all begun with my junior year of college. The previous summer I had been working my first real 9-5 job in an office and it drained the life out of me. Sitting at a computer all day instead of being outside with the fresh air only to be met with an exhausted slumber once I got home really did a number on me. And at the same time I was trying to go to open mics and upload to my youtube channel (if you want to learn more about that click here). But anyways, I felt like the summer had drained me and before I knew it, I was starting my junior year of college. Not only had the summer drained me, but I was also taking several hard classes at once because at the time, I wanted to study abroad during my spring quarter (hint: i didn’t get to do that) and wanted to get some credits out of the way so that my senior year wouldn’t be hell. Turns out that just meant my junior year would be hell. 

The Junior Year From Hell

The classes I was taking included a really hard project based class that took up 90% of my time plus two philosophy classes (one that included intense readings), a linguistics class, and voice lessons class. And in my winter quarter the pain didn’t stop. I took a probability and stats class (AND I SUCK PROBABILITY AND STATS), a computer science class, another hard philosophy class, and a cognitive neuroscience class that I was intially excited to take because I missed out on it last year. Unfortunately, the burn out started to kick in around this time, resulting in me bringing home a C+ in that class. By the time spring quarter came around, I just wanted everything to be over and was glad that I was taking classes that weren’t too hard on me. And what made this experience so much worse was that I was living basically alone for the entire year with barely any friends to talk to because I knew practically no one in the dorm I decided to move into and was struggling with social anxiety.

Honestly, junior year was a dark, lonely pit of hell and I would not wish that existence on anyone. Thankfully, it’s over. My only advice is that if you’re struggling with burn out, don’t hesitate to reach out to counselors or teachers unlike I did. They may be able to help. Also, don’t feel pressured to go back to college too soon. If you’re feeling uneasy about the idea, take a break and go back the next semester when you’re feeling rested (as long as you have the means to do so). I don’t know if anyone found anything useful in this little entry but it felt cathartic to write it. If you’ve struggled with burnout in the past or are currently struggling with it now, feel free to respond with your experiences and I’m rooting for you!

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Hi! I’m Back

I feel like I keep making posts like these but I’m actually finally back, mainly due to the fact that I start school soon and it’s my senior year. Because it’s my senior year, I want to document it fully. And after suffering from a year of burn out, I think I’m finally ready to get back into the swing of things. That means better studying, better grades, and better documenting. I plan on making an entire post about burn out and what that was like but I’ll probably do that in a later post. Anyways, if you’re reading this, I hope you’re having a lovely day and I’ll see you later (most likely tomorrow).

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it’s never too late to start again. 5pm on a thursday can be your new monday. you don’t have to wait until the new year to better yourself. time is an illusion, don’t forget that. just because you woke up at 1pm, it doesn’t mean you messed your whole day up and that you can’t turn the mood around. it’s never too late to start again!!!!!

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I really love studying with the sound of rain! And you?

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10.11.18

🗑 So recently, my new habit has been tidying my desk, because when it gets messy and there’s stuff everywhere it stresses me out. The first photo was from earlier today, in the morning, and the second photo was taken just after lunch. It’s a lot easier to keep it tidy on the weekends though, because I have a lot of time, but on weekdays, I don’t have as much. 🗑 

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The Idiot, Fyodor Dostoevsky (b. 11 November 1821)

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Classes I’ve Been Taking Over the Past Seven Weeks

I meant to upload this post weeks ago, but school has been a lot. Better late than never right! So as usual, I’m going to post the classes I’m taking this quarter for future reference. If anyone has any questions about my major or the classes I’m taking, feel free to put a message in my inbox.

This quarter I’ve been taking 18 units (a lot, I know!). It’s actually been really stressful to juggle and really bad for my mental health. Even though I need to take a lot of units to graduate on time, I might be taking extra time in school to finish my degree so that I don’t have this type of quarter again. (If you want to learn more about that, feel free to ask and I will answer!)

Phil 80: Mind, Matter, and Meaning (5 Units)

This class is one of my hardest classes this quarter, mainly due to the amount of papers I have to write. This fulfills my writing in the major requirement (WIM). I really do enjoy the subject of the class even though the readings can sometimes be quite hard. I definitely think my writing is improvement and even though, I might not get the best grade in this course, I am trying my best. And in the end, that’s all you can really do. I’m learning a lot about how to write better as a philosopher at least, and that’s what really matters!

CS 147: Introduction to Human-Computer Interaction (5 Units)

This class is the next hardest class I’m taking. It’s essentially a design thinking and computer science class that focuses in on a group project that will result in the creation of a mobile app. This is a requirement for my concentration in Human-Computer Interaction. I’d say it takes up the majority of my time and has caused me a lot of stress over the quarter. However, I am learning some cool design stuff, so I guess that’s super exciting!

Phil 150: Mathematical Logic (4 Units)

This is one of my favorite classes this quarter, something I hadn’t anticipated. It’s actually a really cool logic class and a lot of the things I’m learning helps can be applied to my other philosophy class for this quarter. The concepts are really cool and intriguing. Also, the class is a nice medium. It’s not too hard that I can’t understand what’s going on in class, and it’s not too easy that I get bored. I did cry completing some homework assignments though as I didn’t finish my last one because I didn’t fully understand a concept we talked about in class. But overall, my experience with this class is pretty good.

Linguistics 1: Introduction to Linguistics (4 Units)

Honestly, I was expecting to like this class a lot more than I actually do. The lectures can be kind of boring sometimes and so are the assignments. This is definitely one of those classes that is just a look at everything in linguistics at a superficial level. I guess it’s great in that I get to learn more about Linguistics before I decide what other class I want to take for my major. Unfortunately, that leads to a lot of the lectures not being really exciting. Hopefully, I like my next Linguistics class better.

(Bonus) Music 65A: Voice Class 1 (1 Unit)

Because this class is really more of just a bonus class, I didn’t really count it in the amount of units I’m taking this quarter. It is helping me gain more confidence in my voice, which is great!

Again, if you have any questions about my classes or my major, feel free to let me know in my inbox.

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11.11.18

I took this photo two weeks ago, and now I’ve finally posted it. If I’m being honest, I’ve been really depressed for the last three weeks. I only really realized it recently, but honestly it just makes so much sense. It’s been hard to do anything, but I think (at least for now) I’ve won the fight. I’m trying to get back on top with my studies.

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10.25.18 - 12:05am

I have so many things due throughout the week that I've found it helpful to keep reminders on my wall. I'd like to thank Meghan Tonjes for this lovely idea.

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bought a new book and it’s cute 🌻

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10.20.18.

Working on some Linguistics Homework earlier

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remember when i said i was active. lol. jk, i’ll be posting on here soon. school is just a lot rn with a group project i’m working on. will explain in an upcoming post. see ya soon!