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[motordyk]

im not a good person

Im tired. Im fucking tired of hurting people and them trusting me and me trying to help them only for it to fall flat on its face right wher

cw: mentions of incest, grooming, manipulation, spying, lying

three months. all those horrible things.

i hurt so many people

id say im sorry, but i dont think that word holds the weight it should to the people who matter anymore.

im fucking done

dont come after me

[t4timekeeper]

everyone start treating incest survivors with basic human decency now

[t4timekeeper]

i would say “everyone be kinder to incest survivors” but apparently that is too high a bar so i’ll settle for not being fetish mined or treated like a punchline or a sex object for once

[motordyk]

For anyone who had gotten any messages from me, I am safe for now. I’m on an airplane right now and have to put my phone in plane mode so if you have any questions for me, I’ll let you know as soon as I’m on the ground.

I’m so sorry this happened. You’re all probably going to wake up very confused and very hurt and I did not mean for it to be like this. Please believe me when I say I did not mean to hurt anyone. I was just trying to keep you all aware and updated instead of leaving you with nothing. I’m sorry. I’ll see you all in a little bit

[motordyk]

OK genuinely I’m. Very sorry. I’ve been off the plane for a while now but the shock was so bad I haven’t been able to properly respond and at most all I’ve been able to do is sleep and eat, and even thats because I don’t want people to worry about me or for their efforts to make me feel better to go to waste

The last few days have been rocky to put it inappropriately but I literally don’t know what other way to describe it without getting too deeply into things or over sharing

Anyone who knows me knows that my family situation is not great, and over the past few months my online situation also cropped up to be not great, so the night before last was not good

I’m honestly just really tired. I still don’t feel great about all what happened and I probably won’t ever feel great about it for the rest of my life. I know I hurt people by doing this. I know I can say sorry all I want but if people don’t want to accept it or find it properly worthy of an apology, then that means it means nothing, and makes it seem like I’m saying it just to say it.

I promise I’m not. I’m sorry, and there’s nothing I can do now to take back what I’ve done to hurt people. Unless there’s anything they even want me to say or do, there is nothing I can say or do.

I will let everyone know I’m not with my family anymore, and I’ve been distancing myself from online spaces pretty much entirely for the past few months, which is part of why you might have been seeing me less and less.

You might have also noticed if you shared a bunch of servers with me that I left those as well. This was from a different unrelated incident, but it is what started me on this downward spiral of not thinking right.

Note: I didn’t expect anyone to notice or say anything about me leaving the servers, I had genuinely tried to do this for my own mental health and it was just meant to be a short break from everything. That was it. I had been planning to come back to the servers one by one once I felt that I was in a better headspace and started feeling better, and was just hanging around friends and websites at large to keep myself connected and also sane from what was going on outside.

To clarify what it was that pushed me to do this: Twitter. Dont go on there. Lesson learned. If there’s going to be accusations about someone, it might be better to let the actual victims come forward and say something rather than trying to speak for them like they can’t say anything for themselves.

Ok I think I’ve made this post long enough. I genuinely have no idea how long I’ve been at this and I’ve said way more than I need to but I also think I’ve said all I need to. If anyone wants to reach out, feel free; Im feeling better now, but I also don’t really feel comfortable coming forward and saying something anymore because last time I did that was pretty much a disaster. lol.

But for the time being I’m still here. I’m free now, somewhat, though I don’t know exactly what that means for me. I do still want to be active online, but returning to full activity will be a Very Slow drip feeding process and whatever spaces I was in before I Probably will not be returning to (I say probably because not all of them were bad. It was just largely an overreaction on my part but given how much damage I might have done I might not even be welcome back and if I’m not that’s probably a good thing wether it just be through conflict of interest or just because people genuinely Do Not want to talk to me anymore. I can understand either way)

Ok I’m tired again and my phones on low battery so after I post this I’ll probably be going back to sleep so thank you to everyone who has all been supportive throughout this and even those who haven’t. You’ve all been wonderful parts of my life and I don’t regret meeting you for a second. Love you guys 💖

[motordyk]

For anyone who had gotten any messages from me, I am safe for now. I’m on an airplane right now and have to put my phone in plane mode so if you have any questions for me, I’ll let you know as soon as I’m on the ground.

I’m so sorry this happened. You’re all probably going to wake up very confused and very hurt and I did not mean for it to be like this. Please believe me when I say I did not mean to hurt anyone. I was just trying to keep you all aware and updated instead of leaving you with nothing. I’m sorry. I’ll see you all in a little bit

[motordyk]

hey i hope everything is alright 🧡

it’s not

[ahmadwaleed55]

Please don’t scroll past this.

My father is very sick and he urgently needs surgery.

Every day I watch him grow weaker while we struggle to provide the medicine, care, and food he needs. We are living in very harsh conditions, and getting the treatment he urgently needs has become extremely difficult.

As his son, it breaks my heart to see him suffer while I feel so helpless.

Please donate to help my father and my family, and share this post.

Your support could make the difference for my father’s surgery and recovery.

📌 Fundraiser vetted (#167 by el-shab-hussein & nabulsi), But we created a new GoFundMe page because GoFundMe suspended the beneficiary’s account on the platform, which put us in a very difficult situation.

[nourhamoda24]

I am watching my health collapse before my eyes, and I feel powerless to stop it.

Recent medical tests and a neck ultrasound showed that I have thyroiditis, a serious condition that needs treatment and regular medical care.

The doctors warned me clearly: I need treatment now, or I may have to undergo surgery to remove my thyroid.

I am scared of reaching that stage.

I cannot face this alone.

I am also responsible for caring for my five children who depend on me every day.

And the hardest part... the last donation to my campaign was 3 days ago, and it feels like time is slowly running out for me.

But it is not impossible.

A few small donations could help me get the treatment I urgently need and avoid surgery.

Please do not scroll past this.

Donate now and share this post. Every moment matters.

Vetted by #731

[xxemarrde]

Please, guys, help Nour and her family and give them a chance to live again. Help her receive her treatment before she has to have surgery. Donate now

[nourhamoda24]

I am watching my health collapse before my eyes, and I feel powerless to stop it.

Recent medical tests and a neck ultrasound showed that I have thyroiditis, a serious condition that needs treatment and regular medical care.

The doctors warned me clearly: I need treatment now, or I may have to undergo surgery to remove my thyroid.

I am scared of reaching that stage.

I cannot face this alone.

I am also responsible for caring for my five children who depend on me every day.

And the hardest part... the last donation to my campaign was 3 days ago, and it feels like time is slowly running out for me.

But it is not impossible.

A few small donations could help me get the treatment I urgently need and avoid surgery.

Please do not scroll past this.

Donate now and share this post. Every moment matters.

Vetted by #731

[xxemarrde]

Please, guys, help Nour and her family and give them a chance to live again. Help her receive her treatment before she has to have surgery. Donate now

[myfamilysposts]

Amin and Youssef should be in school, but because of the war, they've been deprived of their right to education. Their job is now to fetch water from far away amidst the rubble, and they risk injury every time.

Please help us for their future. Please don't leave us alone and donate, even a little.

Please share our daily suffering.

Please don't leave us to face these difficulties alone. Ease our suffering during these days. Donate for my children and share our story as widely as possible. Please.

My account has been verified by

Gaza Verified ✅

✅️Vetted by@gazavetters, my number verified on the list is ( #736 )✅️

I am Mamdouh Al-Amoudi from Gaza, The father of five children: Lana, Muhammad, Amin, Youssef, Yazan, and my wife Samia. We are currently liv

[myfamilysposts]

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[myfamilysposts]

Amin and Youssef should be in school, but because of the war, they've been deprived of their right to education. Their job is now to fetch water from far away amidst the rubble, and they risk injury every time.

Please help us for their future. Please don't leave us alone and donate, even a little.

Please share our daily suffering.

Please don't leave us to face these difficulties alone. Ease our suffering during these days. Donate for my children and share our story as widely as possible. Please.

My account has been verified by

Gaza Verified ✅

✅️Vetted by@gazavetters, my number verified on the list is ( #736 )✅️

I am Mamdouh Al-Amoudi from Gaza, The father of five children: Lana, Muhammad, Amin, Youssef, Yazan, and my wife Samia. We are currently liv

[myfamilysposts]

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[aahmedd]

In Gaza, my children’s day does not begin with the sound of an alarm clock for school…

It begins with a simple question that breaks my heart every morning:

“Dad, will we eat today?”

I look into their small faces and try to smile, even though I don’t have a clear answer.

The war did not only take our home, it took our safety, my work, and even the simplest things children deserve.

My children once dreamed of school, books, and notebooks.

Today, their biggest dream is a warm meal and a night that passes without fear.

I try to be strong in front of them, but the truth is that I feel helpless when I cannot provide them with food or help them continue their education.

I am not asking for much…

All I want is a chance to feed my children and help them keep learning, so their childhood is not lost between war and need.

If my words reach you, please know that your help could mean a meal for a hungry child or a book for a child who still dreams of the future.

Every act of kindness, no matter how small, can make a real difference in my children’s lives.

[shadi2026]

Help Rami from Gaza 🙏

This is Rami. A young child whose life changed because of the war in Gaza.

Instead of playing with toys and going to school, Rami is now lying in a hospital bed, fighting pain and hoping for a chance to heal. His small body is tired, but his eyes are still full of hope.

Rami needs help. Your kindness and support, no matter how small, could help him receive the treatment he needs.

Rami and his family need help.🙏❤️

Please help Rami and share his story. Every donation can make a difference. 🤍

✅️Vetted by @gazavetters, my number verified on the list is ( #737 )✅️

Donate to Help My Family in Gaza After Losing Everything, organized by Shady Angar

Hello dear friends❤️ My name is Shadi, originally from Palestine. I curren… Shady Angar needs your support for Help My Family in Gaza After

[mandelatechnician]

ONLY $881 RAISED OUT OF 1OK

Please share this (vetted) campaign and donate if you can. This child's life depends on your help!

[motordyk]

request for brand new buddy @paintedplum7 !!!!!!!! oh pickle my pickle wherefor art thou

[nourhamoda24]

YOU ARE MY LAST HOPE PLEASE SAVE MY LIFE AND MY CHILD’S

I am going through a very difficult time. Recent medical tests and a neck ultrasound showed that I have thyroiditis, a serious condition that requires regular treatment and medical follow-up.

My doctor warned me that if I cannot afford the medication and follow the treatment, I may be forced to undergo surgery to remove my thyroid. This is terrifying, and I desperately want to avoid reaching that stage.

Sadly, we cannot afford my treatment or even my child’s medical care. Every day is a struggle, and I feel helpless watching my health and my child’s well-being at risk.

Today, you are my last hope, my miracle. Any support, no matter how small, or even sharing this campaign, could make the difference between getting the treatment we desperately need and facing a life threatening situation. Please Donate Now

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading, sharing, or helping. Your kindness could save our lives.

Vetted by @gazavetters #731

[xxemarrde]

Please, guys, help Nour and her family and give them a chance to live again. Help her receive her treatment before she has to have surgery. Donate now

[helptaim]

My mother's life is in your hands. Please help us with all you can. We are unable to do anything. You are our last hope.

[nourhamoda24]

Please, my friends, don't leave us alone. We desperately need you. My son is my only hope in this life. Don't let him be lost to me. Please, you are his last miracle. Don't watch him die and ignore him.

[virovac]

EMERGENCY! Please help!

Art and other rewards being offered for those who have proof of donation (such as a screenshot of receipt, probably with personal information blacked out) to the well-known vetting lists and a few other. I have collected an up-to-date list here. There is also links to other lists: for such as flowerpawarts's spreadsheet, you should make sure they accept the vetting list or are not just funding for a specific family

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[balaclava-trismegistus]

Bro check it out. It's a drawing of an anime girl. But look closer. She is gaunt and has bags around her eyes. Further yet, she has an overall sullen, disheveled manner. Is that a cigarette? Perhaps a can of beer? That's fucking crazy bro. Holy fuck. Is that allowed? Normally girls are cute. Jesus Christ. That's so crazy man. Wow.

[videogamesincolor]

‘Worst of the worst’? ICE snatches beloved video gaming champion living in US legally for decades

“This is the nightmare that I've had—literally had nightmares woken up in a cold sweat about. The government has kidnapped one of my friends

"38-year-old regional video gaming champion Ludovic Mbock, who came to the US legally from Cameroon, was snatched by ICE while applying for his yearly work permit—as he’s done for 20 years. He has since been detained for three weeks and moved to facilities in Louisiana and Georgia, and his freedom depends on a critical bond hearing this week. In this urgent episode of Working People, we speak with Diane Sohna, Ludovic’s sister, and Nikhil Delahaye, a close friend of Ludovic’s and a fellow gamer."

[sumptiousfeast]

hey, this is a friend of a friend -- i made a post that didn't get much traction, if you'd like to help out with legal funds, here's the campaign.

Donate to Support Ludovic’s Legal Defense, organized by David Hazlewood

Ludovic Mbock is a dear friend who has always brought kindness and positivity to those… David Hazlewood needs your support for Support Ludov

[tanukihero]

An update on this: Ludovic's been granted bond as of 3/13, and was released to his family on 3/14 according to updates in the GoFundMe!! His hearing is scheduled for May and they are still asking for support for ongoing legal fees and help getting him back on his feet

UPDATE: Beloved Fighting Game Community Member Ludovic Has Been Granted Bond

His family has been working non-stop, even in the face of the grief of losing a family member, to bring him home before the government can d

[miss-wizard]

i mean i spent the years from 12 to 18 wanting to kill myself for being a fundamentally broken type of person with no understanding of what was even wrong with me, but im sure it would be just as bad to have a mid handjob. fucking sure

[noname-human-being]

This is an example of transmisogyny.

[storyweavingspider]

The first time I saw this, I thought to myself “I don’t think too much would’ve changed to my specific childhood if I had a girlhood besides maybe getting to experience having a childhood lesbian awakening? Getting to experience Black Girl childhood moments like learning how to do your hair right? Getting Misogynoir instead of just racism growing up?” and wasn’t thinking too hard. I wasn’t one of the dolls who “always knew”, for reasons I’m realizing are intrinsically tied to what I’m about to talk about, and how it would’ve deeply and fundamentally changed my whole life.

I was a dancer. I was a professional dancer. I still am a dancer, if not to the capacity I once was. I started dancing when I was 2ish, and became too disabled to continue anything professionally at 21-22. Most of my professional work was in either classical or contemporary ballet, and my own choreography was often a fusion of contemporary ballet and hip-hop.

Gender determines a LOT in ballet, to a degree that no other “formal” dance style really does outside “Ballroom” (not the queer kind) styles such as tango, waltz, etc. generally, only women learn to go en pointe, and men are trained from young ages to partner with ballerinas and be an accentuation, being able to support all sorts of lifts, holds, turns, etc. Additionally, men are viewed as a rare resource for this, and well-trained/competent ones are often scrambled after outside of major dance hubs.

What this meant as a homeschooled Black “boy” growing up in early 2000s Montana, a state that was over 90% white and 0.2% Black, was that I was often not only the only Black person around, but that I was also often the only “boy” my age around as well. As I got older and spent more time in the dance studio each year, it meant more and more time in a space for which I was, quite literally, being Trained To Be Male despite doing something perceived by the outside world at large as extremely feminine or “for faggots”.

So I also ended up with a reflexive aversion to the idea of being anything but a straight man, because it would “prove people right”. I started having Thoughts about being Not A Guy as a teen but suppressed them hard, because of how much of the main driving force in my life depended on Being A Guy.

But thinking now of being able to have been a girl from the jump, to not have been simultaneously isolated and singled out and expected more from my whole life, thinking of how much more, dance-wise, I could’ve had access to. Even if I had ended up only being mediocre or average by women’s standards, I might’ve had a life where I had actual friends, where I wasn’t treated as a pariah, where I wouldn’t have to fight to be included like everyone else naturally was.

Having a girlhood and having that be normal would have changed so much about what I view as one of the most important things about me. Fuck.

[storyweavingspider]

WHY IS THIS MARKED MATURE NOW???