MrK9114

Pain and Desire. Love and Sorrow. Woe to the broken, Hello to the loved. All are welcomed here.

[mrk9114]

Been on here a while now, so I suppose this is better done now than never.

Hello 👋🏼 and welcome.

Welcome to my page—

Here you will find an assortment of;

poems,

stories,

simple songs.

Anything written with suggestive themes will be marked “mature” to try and respect Tumblr’s guidelines.

A bit about me

I don’t really do the whole pronoun thing.

He/him and they/them I guess?

Male,

mid 30’s,

married with 4 kids.

My heart belongs to my family, and what I write.

I write lived in moments, feelings, floods. I post them for nobody specifically except to help those who feel similarly or stuck. To remind them, you’re not alone.

I will respect and support other creators, so you may even find reblogs of works I adore.

[P.S. these are my works, please don’t repost elsewhere taking claim.]

Anyway—

[mrk9114]

Cleopatra’s Whispers

[irishangeleyes2nd]

[fallencalliope]

My notion of peace is the moment,

That I get to wake up every day with you by my side,

Never wanting to take for granted what life has gifted me with,

Which is with your love that submerged,

So unexpectedly into my life,

For you salvaged me from the wreckage,

You are the one who I have always craved to have in my life...

©️fallencalliope

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🖤🫁

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Follow me on Spotify, or don’t 🤷🏻‍♂️

[poppiesandpromises]

Those blurry windows

Smudged sunsets sublimely pass

An interstate dream

The golden strings of twilight

Heaven just keeps speeding by

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Free-Fall

[pre-Intro - Silence for 3 beats, then a low deep beat fades in slow at first]

[Intro — echoey, dissociative]

This isn’t real — you’re dreamin’.

How could any of this be — you’re dreamin’.

She wouldn’t — you’re dreamin’.

(Wake me up)

(Can’t wake me up)

[Full production]

Kept in the dark,

But there it was in-front of me.

You and me,

That was how it was ‘posed to be.

(Did you see it with them?)

(Did you find yourself then?)

I was gone when you came for me,

Didn’t take long — it was plain to see.

What you would hide when you felt the need.

You made choices that lead your way,

To embark onto your mistake.

Did it even matter — what I would say,

Tried to barter — for realities sake.

Too late now to try and fain your innocence.

The officiousness,

Of your ambitiousness.

Did you even care — to be my wife

Would you only stare — if I grabbed a knife,

Would you say a prayer — if I took my life.

Don’t you dare act like this was what we need, for us to be freed.

(Did you see it with them?)

(Did you find yourself then?)

Fallen at your altar,

Certainty’s altered,

Sanity’s faltered.

[outro]

Without a voice, without a call,

Just caught in the free-fall.

Was it worth the sacrifice,

(To be) filled with life,

Among—

The dead—

Free-Fall

Listen and make your own on Suno.

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FALLOUT PTII

[Bridge]

Let it all out — Scream it all out,

FALLOUT!

Fall—

—out

[Chorus 1]

Were they even worth this stain.

Crossed between your misery and my pain.

Don’t know why — but I curse his name.

Don’t know why — but I’d do it all the same.

Do you even see — this field of flames.

Or was I just imaginin’—

Or was this love just rationed thin—

Don’t choke now — let it all out.

[Bridge]

Scream it all out,

FALLOUT!

Fall—

—out

[Chorus 2]

This toxic waste — was our embrace.

See it every day — as I touch your face.

Don’t know why — but I curse her name.

Don’t know why — but I did the same.

Do you even see — this field of flames.

Or was I just imaginin’—

Or was our love just rationed thin—

Don’t choke now — let it all out.

[Bridge]

Scream it all out,

FALLOUT!

Fall—

—out

Hearing the— Click, click, click—

Comin’ from the counter.

Leavin’ wouldn’t be much harder,

But you are the one I long-for.

You weren’t the only falter—

Look at the state we made.

As we scream out each other’s name.

The dust and the ashes may fade—

But we will never be the same—

[outro]

Let it all out — Scream it all out,

FALLOUT!

Fall—

—out

Look at the state we made.

As we scream out each other’s name.

The dust and the ashes may fade—

But we will never be the same—

FALLOUT!

Fall—

—out

FALLOUT PTII

Listen and make your own on Suno.

[mrk9114]

Photo found on Pinterest, made a new version with Suno.

Letting Go

Listen and make your own on Suno.

[mrk9114]

Photo found on Pinterest, enjoy.

[mrk9114]

You and I, and Uncertainty

Listen and make your own on Suno.

You and I, and Uncertainty

Don’t understand, what possessed me.

Don’t understand, what was guiding me.

You and I, and uncertainty.

Didn’t know what I thought I’d find,

But then I saw your biggest lie.

You and I, and uncertainty.

When you see just how easily—

You’re replaceable.

It’s un-deniable.

Un-forgettable.

When will you see just how much,

you mean to me—

You and I, and uncertainty.

There’s no more room for mystery—

It came from your posts,

what you hid from me.

You and I, and uncertainty.

It’s 3 a.m. when your phone rang,

Straight to voice mail,

‘cause you’re workin’.

I sent the pics, too late to deny it—

You knew what this is.

Silly rabbit,

Trix are for kids.

Don’t understand, what possessed me.

Don’t understand, what was guiding me.

You and I, and uncertainty.

Don’t understand why I felt the need.

But I just felt it — when you lied to me.

You and I, and uncertainty.

Don’t understand why you felt the need,

But I just felt that — you abandoned me,

You and I, and uncertainty.

Was I really what pushed you, Bae,

Or were they just worth, your energy?

You and I, and uncertainty.

[Bridge]

(You and I, and uncertainty)

(Uncertainty)

(Uncertainty)

[Outro]

When you see just how easily—

You’re replaceable.

It’s un-deniable.

Un-forgettable.

When will you see just how much,

you mean to me—

You and I, and uncertainty.

(Uncertainty)

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WORTH

Listen and make your own on Suno.

[Instrumental buildup]

[Chorus]

Was I ever worth the truth?

Was I ever worth your time?

Or was I just the place you stayed

Before you crossed that line?

Was I ever worth enough,

Or only worth the lie?

Or did it take losing me,

Just to finally know why?

[Verse1]

You were quiet, you were restless,

Always somewhere in your head.

I was reaching for your focus,

You were giving it instead.

I don’t need to know the story,

I don’t care how it began—

I just keep replaying moments

Wondering where I lost your hand.

[Chorus]

Was I ever worth the truth?

Was I ever worth your time?

Or was I just the place you stayed

Before you crossed that line?

Was I ever worth enough,

Or only worth the lie?

Or did it take losing me,

Just to finally know why?

[Verse 2]

Maybe I asked for too much,

Maybe I was hard to hold.

Maybe love just rots in silence

When you let it grow cold.

I tell myself it wasn’t me,

But the thought still lingers—

If I was worth your honesty,

Why did I have to find it later?

Maybe I missed the signs

Before you let me go.

I keep telling myself it wasn’t you—

But I don’t know.

[Outro]

Was I ever worth the risk?

Were we even worth a chance?

Or did it take losing me,

To open your eyes?

And I hate that part of me

That still wonders why—

Or if I was worth it.

[mrk9114]

Have you published any book worldwide. Your writings are interesting.

I have not no. I appreciate the ask though, I plan to someday.

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Untitled 2–

I have something to say,

You’re welcome to stay.

With me, for a while—

Unless you’d rather walk the next mile.

You can probably see it on my face,

I don’t hold it well, this space.

I don’t want to decide my fate—

But I don’t know if the decision is late.

Would the fates be ashamed,

Knowing my will has been maimed?

Or would they cackle and snicker—

Already knowing my life is but a flicker?

Is the anxiety I feel just them playing,

With my mind, and my nerves just relaying.

Do they pull the string taut—

Just to make me feel the thought?

That my time is finite,

I wonder if the clock will forgive me at midnight.

I always ponder over things I can’t control—

Thinking “if I know, I can move the goal.”

But what even is the goal? It’s fake,

Casted down by the Fates.

Ever laughing,

Ever cackling.

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Fallout

(Photo from Pinterest)

[Intro]

I ignited this fire,

You snuffed out its flame.

Perpetual liar,

WHO

TAKES

THE

BLAME— (stretch)

[Chorus]

Don’t you choke now — fuck the hope now.

Pushed me as far as I’d allow.

Tear it all down — cut it all down.

Watch my blood drip to the ground.

Let it all out, scream it all out,

FALLOUT —

FALLOUT —

FALLOUT

[Verse 1]

Hands that broke me, hands that lied,

Every secret, every time you tried.

I’ll watch it crumble, I’ll watch it burn,

No return — no concern.

Throw them to the pyre,

Just caught in the crossfire.

Tired of this game,

Stand back — take aim.

Panicked eyes, caught in the lies,

Perpetual liar…

WHO

TAKES

THE

BLAME— (stretch)

[Chorus]

Don’t you choke now — fuck the hope now.

Pushed me as far as I’d allow.

Tear it all down — cut it all down.

Watch my blood drip to the ground.

Let it all out, scream it all out,

FALLOUT —

FALLOUT —

FALLOUT

[Verse 2]

Plume clouds rising — we’re the ones dying.

Fuck off with these alibis — What’s it justify?

(LIES — LIES)

What’s to believe — what’s to die.

(LIES — LIES)

[Outro]

Let it all out, scream it all out,

FALLOUT —

FALLOUT —

FALLOUT

Let it all out, scream it all out,

FALLOUT —

FALLOUT —

FALLOUT

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