about me: stella, 25y/o. i've got 5 tattoos, a love for brown sugar lattes, daisies, lilies of the valley, silver jewelry, and way too many lipsticks.
♦️ listen. not all my fics are 18+ but this is still an 18+ blog so mdni. you've been warned.
masterlist ⇊
Jack Abbot — The Pitt
coffee tables pt. 1 (hurt/comfort)
coffee tables pt. 2 (hurt/comfort)
she's a menace (suggestive)
what survived the fire (discontinued series)
gym crush (fluff)
i love him (fluff)
ask me again (small hurt/comfort)
the night after (suggestive)
constellations (fluff blurb)
was it ever fake? (fluff, smut)
is it too early? (fluff blurb)
pretty fucked (small hurt/comfort)
protective (fluff)
full of life (hurt/comfort)
suggestive blurb (suggestive)
a ring (hurt/comfort)
spare keys (hurt/comfort)
nanny! (fluff)
>> nanny! prequel: jack is sick (fluff)
>> nanny! sequel: date night (wip)
younger jack abbot (fluff blurb, slightly suggestive)
old bets (hurt/comfort)
Michael "Robby" Robinavitch — The Pitt
seize the moment (hurt/comfort)
scoliosis (fluff, slightly suggestive)
take a break (angst)
take a break pt. 2 (hurt/comfort)
run an ex (fluff)
green-eyed (hurt/comfort)
not just a jacket (hurt/comfort)
too old for this (fluff blurb)
isn't really real (hurt/comfort)
baby baby (angst blurb)
Andrew "Pope" Cody — Animal Kingdom
invisible (kinda angsty?)
clementine (angst)
matchy match (fluff blurb)
Pairing: Dr. Michael “Robby” Robinavitch x FilipinaNurseFem!Reader
Warnings: 18+ Unrequited Love, Second-Chance, Friends-to-Lovers ANGST, Slow Burn Romance, She falls first, but He falls harder, Yearning, Delayed Hurt to Comfort, Depression, PTSD, Flashbacks, Medical Inaccuracies, Suicidal Ideation, Anxiety, Age-Gap (Robby is in his 50s, what did you think?), Insecurities, Longing, PittFest, Blood, Needles, Death of a patient, Reader has a nickname (Ducky), Gossip, Passive Aggressiveness, Sassy!Robby, Sad!Robby, Dark Humor, Jokes about unaliving (it's unserious, I swear), Medicated!Reader, Hospitals, EMTs, Lots of medical jargon, Miscommunication, Flirting, Jealousy, Vomiting, Reader knows ASL,
Main Song: The Knocker by Tiny Habits
Note: Gif in the moodboard by @/wesandresons. Each chapter is one episode of The Pitt, so the chapters are hella long. Thank you!
SEASON ONE:
Summary: It’s your birthday, but The Pitt doesn’t slow down for that. Between subway accidents, drownings, shootings, and the quiet heartbreak of patients who come back again and again, you do your best to keep your hands steady and your head clear. Somewhere in the blur of alarms and blood, you realize you’re holding onto something you shouldn’t—feelings for your quietly grieving chief attending. At The Pitt, you don’t just learn how to save lives.
You learn how hard it is to ignore your own heart.
Chapter 1: Everything's Circling Around Us
Chapter 2: Maybe He Doesn't Care For Sentiment, Or He Doesn't Care For You
Chapter 3: My Persistence Left Me Empty-Handed
Chapter 4: I Should've Learned By Now, You Would Say The Words Out Loud Just To Break Me In Half
Chapter 5: When You Drown Once, It's Scary To Swim Again
Chapter 6: You Turned Me Into Something, And I Allowed You
Chapter 7: Why'd You Have To Leave Me Here Still Hoping?
Chapter 8: I Know It'll Take Time, Some Time To Get Over You
Chapter 9: With The Way You Look At Me, I'm Scared It's Gonna Happen Again
Chapter 10: For Me To Let Go Of What You Meant To Me
Chapter 11: I Wish I Didn’t Feel Like A Burden All The Time
Chapter 12: We Both Got What You Asked For
Chapter 13: The System Works, And We All Stay Terrified
Chapter 14: But You Dream Of Some Epiphany
Chapter 15: I Won’t Ever Mind Crisping Up On Your Backburner
PRE-SEASON TWO:
Chapter 16: I'll Just Wait For The Wind To Sweep Away My Words
SEASON TWO:
Summary: It’s Dr. Michael “Robby” Robinavitch’s last shift before a three-month sabbatical, and the Emergency Department is already bracing for endless commotion. So are you. After years of loving him quietly and surviving louder things, you’ve finally started choosing yourself — therapy, healing, and a life beyond the Pitt. With job offers in New York and nothing tying you down but habit, leaving no longer feels impossible.
What happens when the person who always stayed… stops staying?
Chapter 17: Felt Good About You Til I Didn’t
Chapter 18: If She's Got A Pulse, She Meets Your Standards Now
Chapter 19: I'm A Little Bit Lost Without You
Chapter 20: It's An Endless Cycle, Turns Me Upside-Down
Chapter 21: Did You Like Her In The Morning?
Chapter 22: I Just Wanted You To Know That This Is Me Trying
Chapter 23: When It Kills Your Heart But You Can't Say No
Chapter 24: 'Cause I'm A Real Tough Kid, I Can Handle My Shit
Chapter 25: Breaking My Back To Carry The Weight of Your Heart
Chapter 26: I Gave You All My Best Me's, My Endless Empathy
Synopsis: Robby falls in love with a young nurse and fights it every step of the way. But when you know, you know.
Warnings: eventual smut, smut, 18+, MDNI, angst, fighting, slow burn, co-workers to enemies, enemies to friends, friends to lovers, blood, gore, medical inaccuracies, pittfest, panic attacks, mentions of suicide, mentions of drug OD, mentions of abuse, violence against medical staff.
🦋 - fluff
🌧️ - angst
🔥 - smut
Pre season one:
one | two | three | four | five | six | seven | eight | nine | ten | eleven | twelve | thirteen | fourteen | fifteen | sixteen
season one:
7 am | 8 am | 9 am | 10 am | 11 am | 12 pm | 1 pm | 2 pm | 3 pm | 4 pm | 5 pm | 6 pm | 7 pm | 8 pm | 9 pm
Blurbs:
During the ten months between season one and two (can be read as a standalone)
Synopsis: Robby falls in love with a young nurse and fights it every step of the way. But when you know, you know.
Warnings: eventual smut, smut, 18+, MDNI, angst, fighting, slow burn, co-workers to enemies, enemies to friends, friends to lovers, blood, gore, medical inaccuracies, pittfest, panic attacks, mentions of suicide, mentions of drug OD, mentions of abuse, violence against medical staff.
🦋 - fluff
🌧️ - angst
🔥 - smut
Pre season one:
one | two | three | four | five | six | seven | eight | nine | ten | eleven | twelve | thirteen | fourteen | fifteen | sixteen
season one:
7 am | 8 am | 9 am | 10 am | 11 am | 12 pm | 1 pm | 2 pm | 3 pm | 4 pm | 5 pm | 6 pm | 7 pm | 8 pm | 9 pm
Blurbs:
During the ten months between season one and two (can be read as a standalone)
(pick a quote + a feeling + a trope ! let’s see what fic you end up with.)
author's addition: this lil build-a-fic is inspired by @scealaiscoite ’s adorable idea ! her prompt lists are literal perfection. go stalk her blog pls she’s the best ever 🧸
— a quote !
☆ “stop smiling like that. it’s distracting.”
☆ “you make it really hard to stay just friends.”
☆ “why does it feel like a goodbye?”
☆ “you’re blushing.” — “no i’m not.”
☆ “just friends don’t look at each other like that.”
☆ “i missed you. that’s all.”
☆ “you remember the little things. that’s what gets me.”
☆ “tell me to stay. and i will.”
☆ “my hand fits so perfectly in yours. it's like i'm made for you”
☆ “do you want me to leave?” — “no. i want you to stay forever.”
☆ “i think i knew it was you. even back then.” — “then stay.” — “but that's the thing. i don't know if i know you anymore.”
☆ “i don’t know how to stop wanting you.”
☆ “this means something. don’t pretend it doesn’t.”
☆ “you’re not just anyone. you’re you.”
☆ “if we kiss now, everything changes.” — “i know but that's a risk i'm willing to take.”
☆ “i’ve been in love with you since the night we met.”
☆ “tell me it meant nothing. lie if you have to.”
☆ “i was easy to leave, wasn’t i?”
☆ “you don’t get to miss me now. you lost that right when we broke up.”
☆ “say something. anything. please.”
☆ “i loved you. that should’ve been enough.”
☆ “i wish i didn’t remember everything.”
☆ “don’t look at me like you still care.”
☆ “i’m tired of pretending this doesn’t hurt.”
☆ “you said forever. i believed you.”
☆ “if you didn’t mean it, why did you say it?”
☆ “you chose them. you always do.”
☆ “i don’t hate you. i just wish i’d never met you.”
☆ “you let me go like i was nothing.”
☆ “please don’t make this harder than it already is.”
☆ “are you sure? cause whatever this is it doesn’t feel like love.”
☆ “it’s always been you. i just didn’t know how to say it.”
☆ “say that again. i dare you.”
☆ “you really don’t see it, do you?”
☆ “i think i like you. like, like like you.”
☆ “do you always look at people like that?”
☆ “you make it really hard to think straight.”
☆ “oh my god. you’re blushing.”
☆ “this means something. don’t pretend it doesn’t.”
☆ “i should’ve kissed you when i had the chance.”
☆ “you’re not helping. you’re being pretty. it's distracting.”
☆ “you make me nervous in the best way.”
☆ “every time you look at me, i forget what i was saying.”
☆ “just admit it. you like me.”
☆ “if you don’t kiss me right now, i might explode.”
☾ only one bed
☾ mutual pining
☾ fake dating gone real
☾ friends to lovers
☾ strangers to almosts
☾ found family
☾ rivals with tension
☾ the “oh” moment
☾ confessions at 2am
☾ sunshine x grump
☾ forbidden
☾ hurt/comfort
☾ secretly in love
☾ reunion after years
☾ accidental domesticity
☾ slow burn
☾ “just friends” denial
☾ second chances
☾ love letters never sent
☾ childhood friends
☾ exes
☾ soulmates who don’t believe in fate
☾ enemies on the same side
☾ sleep talking confessions
☾ one falling first, the other falling harder
☾ patching up wounds with shaky hands
☾ “who did this to you?”
☾ dancing in the kitchen
☾ jealousy over nothing (but also everything)
☾ late-night phone calls
☾ caught in the rain
☾ almost kissing but someone interrupts
☾ waking up next to them
☾ fixing each other’s tie/collar
☾ taking care of them while they’re sick
- you will always be stronger as a team than you will alone
- people grow and become better when they are given external support and community, and tend to struggle when they don't have those things
- there is no such thing as a good or bad person, a hero or a villain
- your actions are what make you who you are, not anything else
- connection and understanding always start with meeting people where they are at and empathizing with them
- doing the right thing always comes at a cost. That's why it's so hard to do
- reckless and selfish actions impact those around you, not just yourself
- being a "hero" isn't about one big gesture, one big fight against evil, one flashy showdown. It's helping others even when they are rude. Even when they are thoughtless. Even if they don't care about you. Especially - ESPECIALLY, if it is inconvenient
- doing the right thing doesn't have to be fucking boring
No because he really is a yearner and a loverboy beneath a grumpy facade, the persona that grew like armor on him through years and years of constant rejection and fighting for his right to live. He really is capable of wanting to give love and care despite all the hatered that this world has been throwing at him since his birth and for his whole life.
Finally, I can show you what @mscreativity and I were cooking during these last months!! 💪💪💪
This was an incredible and beautiful experience. Working alongside Mscreativity was magnificent. She's been veeeeey patient with. Most of the time, I didn't dedicate enough time to the project because life happened for both of us, and I was extremely stressed by work. But we were always aligned, she always showed understanding, and yes, probably we are both procrastinators. But we did it! We worked hard towards the end and I am proud of ourselves! ❤️❤️❤️
I can say that I put a lot more effort into this project than I did in the last ones. So, I hope you like it.
The drawings are based on the story of Mscreativity.
You can read it here: The Taste of Colour
Or in the magnificent zine, alongside many other artists and writers. It is free to download and there are two versions, dark and white. Unexpected SplendAUr Zine
There's another painting I did, but I will post it tomorrow. 😚😏
I would love to accompany this with a few snippets of the full chapter! Working with @falesiastuff wad amazing! She is truly a lovely person and an amazing artist!! Putting Eliana in her hands was a terrific decision, and when I got the WIP for this scene I probably stared at it on and off for a few days straight!
So, for you, a preview of The Taste of Colour: Chapter 1
The full story is available here on AO3
Preview below!
“PROFESSOR VOLKARIN. KEEPER.” The entity nodded in greeting towards the pair as they stepped inside. “OUR GUESTS HAVE ARRIVED.”
“Thank you for making the trip here.” Myrna nodded her thanks, moving to join Vorgoth as Emmrich closed the door. “Might I introduce Professor Emmrich Volkarin, a senior member of the Mourn Watch and our foremost expert on the Fade and spirits.” She gave the older man a small, encouraging, smile as she introduced him before turning to the elves.
“Professor, these are three members of Arlathan’s Veil Jumpers. Strife, one of their leaders.” The older elvhen man nodded his head in greeting, though remained stoic in his stance. His arms were crossed over his chest; his dark skin creased with lines that were from frowns like the one he was wearing. The sharp arrows that he had tattooed on his face only made him look fiercer, as did the greying dreadlocks secured behind his head in a warrior’s knot.
“Bellara Lu-” Before she could complete her introduction, one of the women shot forward to excitedly shake Emmrich’s hand.
“Professor Volkarin! It’s so good to finally meet you in person.” The brunette either didn’t notice the temperature of his hand was much lower than it should be, or she simply didn’t care. “I’m Bellara, we’ve been sending letters for years now! Your theories are always so insightful.” The young woman was a veritable ball of energy. Her hair was piled up on her head in a large bun, held in place by a golden hair stick. Where Strife wore the garb of a warrior, the yellow wrap she wore conveyed she was more of an explorer. Light leathers and loose fabrics for ease of movement. She did have a curious gauntlet on her left arm though, the concentric rows of triangles similar to the bow on her back. Her own forehead was adorned in detailed diamond-like tattoos. “I can’t believe I get to meet the actual Professor Volkarin.” If she was anything it was enthusiastic.
“Bells,” A chuckle cut through the young woman's babble, drawing attention to the last in their trio. Compared to the woman still shaking his hand, she had a teasing lit to her voice that had an easy relaxed feel to it. Emmrich’s eyes immediately snapped towards her, their green depths reflecting mirth back at him. They were obscured slightly by blonde bangs, the rest of her hair pulled back into a ponytail. “We’re supposed to be asking for help, not shaking the poor man’s arm off.” Her face was split into a smirk; her arms crossed over her chest. The armor she wore was different compared to the other two. Lighter than Strife’s but offered more protection than Bellara’s, a sort of shoulder cape obscuring most of it. The marks on her own forehead were more reminiscent of antlers.
“And Eliana Aldwir.” Myrna finished, gesturing to the woman. Still smiling, she politely nodded towards him.
“Most people call me Rook though.” As Bellara finally let go of his hand, she shifted to the side to make room for them all. “It’s nice to meet you professor. Love the coat, and the” As she spoke, she pointed to the ornate shoulders of his coat, still grinning and maintaining that gentle teasing tone. Given his level of thirst, the teasing normally would have irritated the necromancer, but there was a look of sincerity in her eyes that had him pausing.
Her words weren’t meant in jest but more… Flirting?
“Ah… Yes. Thank you.” Clearing his throat, Emmrich adjusted his coat before approaching the table. “I am happy to be of service. Now, what has brought you here seeking out our help? In your letters Ms. Lutare, you made it seem like I was most qualified?” He made sure to keep his tone even and friendly, looking at the young woman in question.
“Right! Yes. Well…” Trailing off, the woman turned to her compatriots. “We, Rook and I, were investigating a ruin that had recently appeared. The fluctuations around it weren’t terrible but we still had to make sure everything was okay. When we went below, we came across an artifact…”
To our esteemed Veilguard Fandom, we've been putting together something special in the name of our beloved Skullfu-- liker... Skull liker!
The Fade Discord Server proudly presents...
The Unexpected SplendAUr Zine!!
With more than 1000 pages and 45 incredibly gifted and talented creators, this zine has been a summer long labour of love for both our fandom and our favourite necromancer!
Included below is access to the full, free to download PDF in both light and dark mode! We are so unbelievably proud and grateful to everyone who has brought this fandom together and made this zine possible!
Every artist and writer is listed within our extensive index, and we truly hope you, dear fans and readers, to follow them and give them a massive round of applause for this one of a kind collaboration!
I'm a little bit behind, but I just wanted to share this now that it's out!!!!
All the artists and writers worked so hard, and it's been a joy to reach the little snippets everyone has posted, or see the work in progress updates, the past few months. And than you to the mods who put so much effort into compiling all our works!!
I wanted to give a special thank you to @falesiastuff . She is an amazing artist and one of those people on my bucketlist of people I want to work with. Brainstorming together was so much fun, and I was able to get more ideas for our story every time we spoke. If you haven't seen her art before, I highly recommend you take a look!!
I hope you all enjoy, and I'll be posting teasers of my contributions shortly!
