12 june 2026 // friday
ch: 17, 18, affix, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 28 i am on section 21.3 and over halfway through my course content. i have to book my midterm soon and am working on assignment 1 at the moment. time flies when you're having fun. i'm actually really enjoying ochem now!!
i finally know what my autoimmune disease is. after seven years of struggling so much and become increasingly disabled i have an answer. i have psoriatic arthritis. as someone who was worked in dermatology i never ever expected it to be me?? i saw people who were much much worse off than me from all sides of it. but i happen to be one of those who got the arthritis before the psoriasis, and now i finally have visible plaques. i don't know whether i feel relieved to have an answer and a treatment plan going forward or if i'm grieving the confirmation that the disability is real. add onto that, i have told some people close to me and one of the responses was "at least it's just psoriasis!" but you know, that would have been mine too before i worked in derm and saw that it's never just psoriasis.
work is going pretty well. i have a bunch of data collected and i've hard to start my qualitative coding because i had to pause data collection due to IT issues. i've had so many great conversations, some that have moved me to tears in all honesty. i am so excited to keep chugging along and to eventually present my findings at a conference in november. i think we've already got a lot of good stuff.
my faculty released a form to fill out if you want to apply/nominate someone for an award or scholarship and my friend and i are nominating each other. there's a renewable for the remainder of my degree that i would love to get and is the only thing like this i've ever felt like i deserved honestly. i am working so hard this time around. (and if i don't get it, i 100% know the person who will deserved it just as much. we are a small cohort and know each other and faculty members well).
maybe things are going to be okay?
