End of an Era
I have been meaning to write this post because I feel it will be some sort of therapeutic process in my realization. Reading back on numerous tumblr posts, I have seen how much I’ve grown. One thing that stands out the most is who the fuck did I think I was talking to? Myself? I’m not sure.. I know no one was actually reading what I wrote like no one will now. Most importantly, at the time, what I was writing was no longer in me or my head.
I made my first tumblr in 2010. I’ve used this site to really get out my emotions in some way or maybe just to past the time and be angsty. As I end this decade, I feel it is time to end this era as well. I’ve out grown the immaturity and needing this as an outlet for anything really.
However, it wasn’t all bad. I’ve met some great people from tumblr. I met my first “real” love and then lost it. Made some friends and lost them as well.
I think it is fitting to end it here at this point in my life because I feel that I accomplished all of the things that made me either depressed or angsty.
I finally found my soulmate. Someone I want to spend the rest of my life with and who I have to give most credit in the progress I have made.
The situation with my parents, specifically with my mom is the best it has ever been but it really had to be at its worst before it got to that point. I’ve learned that it is not the end of the world that Aiden was born. He is growing up to be a sweet boy and growing on me I guess. I have made peace with the fact that he is getting the life that I really didn’t have.
I have gone to college, been through numerous majors and finally found the one that fits me perfectly. I got an internship that will be something I am actually passionate about.
I’ve learned how to process my emotions and depression in a more healthier way. I am still learning but I have made a lot of progress in the last year.
It is very bittersweet to let go of this part of my life because it was really all I had for some time. I am grateful for what it did at the time when I needed.
Thank you tumblr for letting me be angsty, you will not be missed.
