Passing by all the places that I remember well
The seats of this old truck ripped and their stuffing
Sticking out from the seams yellow and ash stained
I look desperately for the address I once lived in
But the numbers are too far, and some covered
By the braches of bushes, or crudely written on black
Picket fences, my guitar sits beside me on the seat
What was it that made me once play you? I wonder.
Where did you move on to? to other better things?
I look out to the street and I see an old man looking back
I am disgusted by his wrinkles, the freckles on his pale skin
His eyes seem faded, this color in his iris graying,
His dreams decaying, he looks back at me with the same
Expression, as he is only a reflection in my windshield.
Like a broken toaster that can never be fixed, stagnant.
Like a purgatorial Plymouth that won’t never drive.
I can’t sit here and cry for my sins no more.
I can’t watch you thrive while my callused old soul
Cries for a better life while reaching for nothing.
I peel the saran wrap from my partially eaten pickle and cheese sandwich.
Sink my teeth into the moist plush bun, mayo squishing between my teeth.
Feeling the salt from the pickles burn my tongue, vinegar stink my cracked lips.
Should I like this? Should I let my brain wander through the cracked alleys of our would be affection.
I never will know. I may never see you again. I see your house, your life, your face, your child riding his bike with a smile on his face, your lover hugging you, and I