...is so frickin' easy. Staying on top of things on the other hand... not even the tiniest bit.
Today I picked up my watercolors again. I had to, my husband dropped them on the floor yesterday and the colors got all messed up, so I had to sort them out. Had to.
I didn't do a lot paintingwise, just some silly leaves and not a lot of effort at all, but still, I painted. The thing is, this is as far as I usually get. I pick out jars for water, pick a brush, get my colors wet, paint something simple (like leaves, not even flowers) and then put everything away - or let it be a mess until dust covers everything - and forget about it.
We had staff training today, something about change and yadda yadda. An old colleague of mine asked me if I'd finished my first picture book yet. She said I really should write one, illustrate it myself. Me? No way.
Sure it'd be wonderful to have that kind of talent, but honestly I don't think I have the focus to finish something as huge as that. I admire people who can start a project, work on a project and FINISH a project, because I can only do one of those things, tops.
I want to write a book too. I want to go to university and study, any subject. I want to be able to paint like the people I admire. I want so many things and the only thing stopping me is, well, me.
I started learning programming, entered an mooc for it too, but never got any further than the first few exercises. Started learning Korean, didn't learn anything after teaching myself to read hangul. Poorly, I might add. Started learning bengali. I can write আম, 'am', which means mango. That's pretty much it. Went to Dutch class, didn't finish it and DEFINITELY did not go to the final exam. Enrolled in personality psychology 101 class, did not finish that either. Did NOT go to the exam.
I don't know why finishing things is so much harder than starting them. How do I learn to finish things? Any tips on that are more than welcome.
Also, how do people with continuous meds remember to take them? I sure don't. Always fun when you see your antidepressants at 9pm and have to choose between a sleepless night or dizziness and/or nausea the next day.