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So incredibly proud of myself for this one :”0 I promised greatness and I think I delivered??? I’m very proud of it so even if yall don’t love it I am completely obsessed with it :”0 gotta love some angsty Andrew fanart am I right?
"robby would drink his coffee black" robby is the type of guy to walk into a starbucks and order a caramel ribbon crunch frappuccino at 6 in the morning with his whole chest, actually
Ship dynamics are always like Sunshine and Sunshine protector~ Cinnamon roll and their grumpy one 🤗 Well what about 2 cunts. They're both cunts and that's the dynamic. cunt4cunt.
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how long do you think Kevin took to grieve riko fully ? Did he stop grieving jm public or in front of the foxes because they couldn't understand it or
Oh. Oh I don't think Kevin ever got to fully grieve. I've probably talked about something similar before but no, I don't think so. Not in front of the foxes, anyway. I think there were glimpses, maybe, moments where he broke and couldn't keep it in for just a second or two at a time. But he'd hide it well until he was alone.
Then there's David and Kevin, back in an almost empty hotel bar, black suits on and several drinks deep, and Kevin's been silent for a couple of minutes.
"You can cry," David says, and Kevin just looks at him, breathing like it's the only thing worth focusing on, like if his mind slips for just a millisecond he'll self destruct. "I promise it won't make how he treated you suddenly okay."
Maybe David tells him a story about his parents death - how he struggled with his grief, grief that came in short and intense and incomprehensible bursts. Grief that didn't make sense. Grief that felt shameful, or guilt-filled, or grief that felt like it didn't deserve to be felt. Maybe Kevin doesn't say anything for a little while longer, or maybe he starts to tell a story. It's hard for David not to feel disgusted, knowing what he did to him, listening to a fond memory of two 10 year old boys who just wanted to be famous, as if that was all that Riko was. As if this one memory, these two or three memories, were who Riko really was, as if it was who he could've remained to be. But I think maybe David puts the stories he already knows aside to give Kevin the space to feel these confusing and guilty and shameful feelings of being nostalgic and wistful for the man who almost killed him.
I think Kevin shares his grief in secret for that one night, a closed casket freshly burned into his brain, a rest in peace winning over a rot in hell. Just for one day, at least.
Maybe he shares his grief with Bee - again, that horrible, conflicting feeling of I know how bad he was to me and I know how he treated me. But I miss who he used to be. And maybe I don't think he deserved to die.
But maybe even still, with David, with Bee, he holds himself back. He can't let himself grieve how he needs to grieve because he just can't. He can't let himself think, "I miss him," when he hadn't thought that for a very, very long time, and only feels it now in fleeting moments after his death. He can't let himself believe, "I'm sad that he's dead," when he silently wished it upon him every time his healed hand cramped or hurt, every time the remembered pain flooded his fingers when he moved a certain way.
Kevin's grief with Riko is complicated. That was his brother. His first friend. His first abuser, his worst abuser. That was the person who ruined his life, that was the person who pushed him to be better and better until better became best. That was the person who nearly killed him, the person who held his opinion with such high regard it was deadly. How do you grieve someone that you were scared of, when death makes you think of all the times he swore he was keeping you safe? Or at least, pretended he was. Or at least, did so for his own personal gain. How does he grieve someone who everyones sees as a monster, who he sees as a monster, but who smiled a pre-teen grin his way and said it's you and me against the world.
I don't think anyone would understand. Or, he thinks so, anyway. He doesn't think anyone will get it. He doesn't think it makes sense, or that it's okay, or that he's allowed to feel these conflicting feelings about him. I think Kevin grieves on his own, and that makes it worse, in some ways. It makes it a much longer process to work through. It makes it a long time until he is able to come to terms with it all.
Shameless plug, but I kinda wrote a fic about this concept of Kevin grieving Riko and his complicated feelings about it! It’s called The Boy That Could Have Been and you can read it here:
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the
Organization for Transformative Works
i reworked my original timeline because something was bugging me about it and now it SHOULD be correct
NOTE: some of these dates are approximated from generalizations made in the book– for example, nicky says andrew's letter to aaron arrives two weeks after cass calls tilda. i assume this is an general use of 'two weeks', but i've taken it literally as 14 days, which is why the letter is dated to arrive november 29th. approximated/assumed dates are marked with a *
november 4th, 1986: aaron michael and andrew joseph minyard are born to tilda minyard in san jose, california
november 7th¹*, 1986: tilda gives the twins away to foster care
november 14th*, 1986: tilda returns to the hospital and takes aaron home with her, leaving andrew behind.
november 4th, 1999: aaron and andrew turn 13 years old. aaron lives in san jose with his mother, and andrew lives in oakland with his foster parents cass and richard spear. they are unaware of each other
november 14th², 1999: oakland raiders vs san diego chargers football game at ring central stadium in oakland. aaron and tilda go with one of tilda's boyfriends, and whilst there, aaron is mistaken for andrew by officer phil higgins, who takes tilda's contact information to pass onto andrew's foster mother, hoping to reunite the brothers
november 15th, 1999: cass spear calls tilda to arrange a meet up for aaron and andrew, but tilda refuses, telling cass she wants nothing to do with andrew and to not call her again. aaron hears all of this by listening in on the upstairs phone line, and he and tilda argue.
november 29th* 1999: aaron recieves a letter from andrew that basically says "fuck you, go away."
december 1999: cass writes aaron a letter asking him to try contacting andrew again in the spring, and that holidays are a difficult time at their house
march 2000: andrew goes to juvie for an unspecified offense
may 2000: tilda and aaron move to columbia, south carolina, and aaron meets his cousin nicky hemmick for presumably the first time.
*unspecified time in early-ish 2001³: luther hemmick finds out about andrew and begins a 'years-long' campaign to reunite him with tilda and aaron. i am choosing to place this around april 2001
six months later, approx. october 2001: luther flies to california to meet andrew and his foster family
one month later, november 2001: aaron flies out to 'meet' andrew for the first time at juvie. they have probably just turned 15
march⁴ 2003: andrew makes early parole and is released from juvie. luther makes tilda take him home, and then aaron, andrew, and tilda, finally all live together in columbia
→ sidebar: on the second night living there, andrew makes his deal with aaron
august 2003: aaron and andrew start their junior years at macon high school, andrew's first outside of juvie
early september 2003⁵: tilda mistakes andrew for aaron and hits him. andrew goes to the hemmicks' who call tilda and she takes him home. aaron is actually at a study group standing in for his brother, and on the drive back, andrew orchestrates the car crash that kills his mother
→ nicky hemmick moves back from germany on the day of tilda's funeral, presumably about a week after the crash. he gets a job at sweetie's diner to provide for the twins, eventually becoming their legal guardian⁶
→ not long after, andrew locks aaron in the bathroom to get him clean from the drugs tilda got him addicted to
october* 2003: nicky and the twins start working at eden's twilight
november 4th, 2003: the twins turn 17, their first birthday together
december 2003: nicky is attacked by four homophobes outside eden's. andrew saves him, almost killing the men in the process, and he is arrested
may⁷ 2004: andrew, 17, finishing his junior year of high school, is put on trial for what he did and sentenced. his parole agreement includes court-mandated therapy and mood altering drugs that he is scheduled to be on for 3 years
august 2005: andrew and aaron begin their senior year at macon high school
february⁸ 2005: kevin day and riko moriyama offer andrew a contract to play with the edgar allan ravens, which he refuses. kevin and riko travel to south carolina to find out why, where andrew refuses again and he and aaron play a scrimmage with kevin on the court
march 2005: david wymack meets with the twins and nicky at subway, and gives the three of them contracts to sign with the palmetto state foxes, which they do
june 2005: aaron, andrew, and nicky finally join the lineup for the PSU foxes
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notes/citations under the cut
1) guesstimate based on when i think it's legal to give children to foster care. i assume its not that long after birth, and i believe the twins had to spend time in the ICU beforehand as well. the 14th is an approximation based on the fact that nicky says tilda went back for aaron after a week
2) raiders v chargers was an actual football game that took place in oakland 10 days after aaron's 13th birthday and therefore works out perfectly for the timeline thank youu nora
3) nicky says this in the start of the raven king, october 2006:
4) he went to juvie in march 2000 so i'm assuming his 3 year sentence just works out linearly like that
5) approximated from being about 5 months after andrew moves to columbia
6) while he DOES do this it's probably a very long process so i assume its ongoing as other events in the timeline happen
7) this is just me counting backwards because andrew is SUPPOSED to come off his drugs in may 2007 (obviously he doesn't) and so once again i assume the 3 year time period is linear or nothing else works
8) i'm saying february for this for two reasons: 1) i'm completely guessing when college teams recruit athletes 2) in the EC aaron describes the drive home as being darker earlier in the evening, so late winter feels about right
I know someone’s probably said this before but spike is the most character ever like
he’s platinum blond. he’s mousy brunet. he’s a 70s punk. he’s a victorian poet. he’s a violent killer. he’s a mama’s boy. he likes crazy murderous women. he uses cutesy pet names for them. he lives in a crypt. he watches soap operas. he’s william the bloody. he’s love’s bitch. he’s catty. he is co-parenting a teenager. he’s a lab rat for a government organization. he and his gf fucked a house down one time. he’s a vampire. he crumbles wheatabix into cups of blood for texture. he’s the slayer of slayers. he’s babygirl. he hates the english. he IS english. he has an eyebrow scar. he’s bisexual.
AFTG 2024 Summer Olympics Event - Day 1 @aftg-olympics-event
July 26 — “I have never seen an announcer look so close to giving up”
During their match vs Ireland, Neil decides to show off in the last seconds with a between the legs goal. (Based off Connor Fields’ goal earlier this month). The announcers don’t even know what to say. Does the media decide Neil is a show off? Maybe. But it’s cool as shit and he deserves it
Bonus: piece w/o text and partially lineless bc i ate