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[firstkanaphans]

He didn’t burn them all 😭😭

[mylovehalfway]

One of my favorite things about the ending of TTH is the closure Barth and Tanrak received regarding their faith and family. They spent the majority of their lives thinking they had to choose between happiness and heaven, only to discover neither had to be sacrificed and both could be obtained.

Going back to episode 4, Barth opened up about how most of the turmoil in his household was caused by religion. Both of his parents valued their faith over anything else, even if it came at the expense of their child’s (and their own) wellbeing.

He witnessed his family fall apart, and began to resent God because he did nothing to stop it despite all his prayers. Early in his life, he came to the conclusion that there would never be happiness where religion was involved. He could only live how he wanted if he rejected it all together.

When it came down to choosing between happiness and heaven, Barth made the decision to sacrifice his “ticket” to heaven for a chance at happiness.

When it came to Tanrak, his battle with religion was less obvious on the surface because it was mainly internal. Ever since his parents’ passing, he dedicated his entire life to becoming a priest and reuniting with them in heaven. Whenever he felt his faith waver, he saw it as him getting further away from seeing his mom and dad again.

When he first fell for Barth, he didn’t think it was possible to have a relationship with him and God simultaneously. He felt as if it was necessary to give one up to keep the other, and he was willing to give up everything if it meant keeping his faith intact.

One viewed religion as the primary source of his suffering, and the other saw it as the only thing keeping him together. It was only after reconnecting with their loved ones where they began to shift their viewpoints regarding religion.

Tanrak realized that his faith did not have to come at the expense of his own joy, nor did it have to prevent him from pursuing his heart’s desires. Barth learned to no longer see religion as an obstacle in his life, but simply another part of it. It also served as something that brought him and his mom closer.

Through all these trials and tribulations, they discovered happiness and faith do not have to be mutually exclusive. They did not have to leave behind everything they knew and loved just to live a life they truly wanted. They only needed to find their balance, and in the end, they found it together.

[mylovehalfway]

One of my favorite things about the ending of TTH is the closure Barth and Tanrak received regarding their faith and family. They spent the majority of their lives thinking they had to choose between happiness and heaven, only to discover neither had to be sacrificed and both could be obtained.

Going back to episode 4, Barth opened up about how most of the turmoil in his household was caused by religion. Both of his parents valued their faith over anything else, even if it came at the expense of their child’s (and their own) wellbeing.

He witnessed his family fall apart, and began to resent God because he did nothing to stop it despite all his prayers. Early in his life, he came to the conclusion that there would never be happiness where religion was involved. He could only live how he wanted if he rejected it all together.

When it came down to choosing between happiness and heaven, Barth made the decision to sacrifice his “ticket” to heaven for a chance at happiness.

When it came to Tanrak, his battle with religion was less obvious on the surface because it was mainly internal. Ever since his parents’ passing, he dedicated his entire life to becoming a priest and reuniting with them in heaven. Whenever he felt his faith waver, he saw it as him getting further away from seeing his mom and dad again.

When he first fell for Barth, he didn’t think it was possible to have a relationship with him and God simultaneously. He felt as if it was necessary to give one up to keep the other, and he was willing to give up everything if it meant keeping his faith intact.

One viewed religion as the primary source of his suffering, and the other saw it as the only thing keeping him together. It was only after reconnecting with their loved ones where they began to shift their viewpoints regarding religion.

Tanrak realized that his faith did not have to come at the expense of his own joy, nor did it have to prevent him from pursuing his heart’s desires. Barth learned to no longer see religion as an obstacle in his life, but simply another part of it. It also served as something that brought him and his mom closer.

Through all these trials and tribulations, they discovered happiness and faith do not have to be mutually exclusive. They did not have to leave behind everything they knew and loved just to live a life they truly wanted. They only needed to find their balance, and in the end, they found it together.

[mylovehalfway]

The first and last look of love.

[mylovehalfway]

Starting off strong this episode I see

[softneomiro]

Cause I've done some things that I can't speak And I've tried to wash you away, but you just won't leave So won't you take a breath and dive in deep? Cause I came here so you'd come for me I'm begging you to keep on haunting

Ticket to heaven x Haunting by Halsey

More: Ticket to heaven x Young god by Halsey, Ticket to heaven x Coming down by Halsey

[mylovehalfway]

Ticket to Heaven is airing its last episode tomorrow but I’m still stuck on this dialogue.

[mylovehalfway]

Ticket to Heaven is airing its last episode tomorrow but I’m still stuck on this dialogue.

[clemelntine]

Ever since (I think) Aichi pointed out that Augur and Ko Neung used to be really close and the show hinted at some jealousy towards Ko Song, I knew this was gonna come, but I really didn't expect it to happen like this.

I think that the reason Augur brings it up, to help Ko figure his shit out (or to force him to face his shit ig), has a sense of youthful soberness. Augur wasn't hiding it per se but just never saw value in telling Ko because he didn't have an interest in pursuing his crush and later was able to just move on.

It's also played of as just having been a fun moment. Which is really nice because crushes can be fun and they can be the start or even just a part of a friendship. Relationships and feelings are gonna change, but that doesn't always have to mean something.

It's nice, and it fits really well into the general sweet and nostalgic vibe of the show where (romantic) emotions are high, but friends are always there and always important.

[mylovehalfway]

The difference in how Ko Song & Ko Neung navigated their awkward phase is so fascinating to me because it perfectly captures their “push-pull” dynamic. When faced with conflict, one tends to be avoidant while the other jumps straight to confrontation.

When Ko Song was becoming more aware of how he really felt about Ko Neung, it caused him to shrink back into the reserved person he was when they first met and attempt to avoid him in every way possible. His method of dealing with the situation was to remove himself completely and avoid any further inconvenience.

In his mind, he ruined the friendship by miscalculating and making the first move. So why bother trying to repair it and risk making things worse?

Ko Neung, alternatively, knew he was beginning to feel “off” around Ko Song even before things took place, but wasn’t sure why. He only saw him pulling back and assumed it was solely due to him feeling guilty about the kiss.

Being the extroverted and confrontational person that he is, Ko Neung believed that the correct thing to do was to reassure Ko Song and mend their friendship, while the latter thought it would be best to isolate himself and cope with his emotions on his own.

Their opposite personalities were the main factor that brought them together and made them so close, yet it almost successfully drove a wedge between the two when their real emotions were put to the test.

[mylovehalfway]

I love these losers so much

[mylovehalfway]

The difference in how Ko Song & Ko Neung navigated their awkward phase is so fascinating to me because it perfectly captured their “push-pull” dynamic. When faced with conflict, one tends to be avoidant while the other jumps straight to confrontation.

When Ko Song was becoming more aware of how he really felt about Ko Neung, it caused him to shrink back into the reserved person he was when they first met and attempt to avoid him in every way possible. His method of dealing with the situation was to remove himself completely and avoid any further inconvenience.

In his mind, he ruined the friendship by miscalculating and making the first move. So why bother trying to repair it and risk making things worse?

Ko Neung, alternatively, knew he was beginning to feel “off” around Ko Song even before things took place, but wasn’t sure why. He only saw him pulling back and assumed it was solely due to him feeling guilty about the kiss.

Being the extroverted and confrontational person that he is, Ko Neung believed that the correct thing to do was to reassure Ko Song and mend their friendship, while the latter thought it would be best to isolate himself and cope with his emotions on his own.

Their opposite personalities were the main factor that brought them together and made them so close, yet it almost successfully drove a wedge between the two when their real emotions were put to the test.

[mylovehalfway]

I love these losers so much

[mylovehalfway]

The interactions between Kongdech and Tanrak are painful to witness because it’s hard for me to not feel sympathy for both sides.

For starters, there were multiple instances throughout the episodes where Kongdech was noticeably suspicious of the two, yet he still ended up going to Tanrak with hopes that he’d tell the truth.

He fully trusted their friendship and figured that Tanrak would tell him anything, only to be met with the same “it’s nothing” response that he gave everyone.

As the viewers, we are aware that the reason behind Tanrak not being truthful was due to him feeling torn between his faith and his desire. Involving Kongdech would’ve further complicated the situation, and put them at risk of being caught by their peers and Father. Kongdech took this avoidance as betrayal, while Tanrak saw it as essential.

On the other hand, Tanrak has already been going through his own inner conflicts as he tries navigating longing to reunite with his parents in heaven, and his feelings for Barth. To add on to that, he now has deal with the additional guilt of unintentionally hurting his childhood friend.

He thought he was doing the right thing by keeping him in the dark about the details of their relationship, only for it to backfire and make it appear as if their years of friendship were insignificant to him.

What we saw in this episode was just a confirmation of what we’ve already known. Kongdech planned his future around having Tanrak alongside him, and now feels frustrated because everything that was once so certain is completely changing in front of him. Tanrak doesn’t know if the love he’s feeling is worth the sacrifice of everything he’s ever known; including his relationships.

Both of them were caught between a rock and a hard place, and unintentionally ended up wounding each other in the process.

[suzteel]

The thing that’s sticking with me is how the fire stained. How the fear and the shame stained Tanrak’s hands and the pool ground. A pool now devoid of water. Also something about how when the fear truly seized Tanrak’s heart, it was with the shadow of the priest framed in a red-orange glow like fire.

[mylovehalfway]

Adding on to this wonderful observation because this is something that I looked overlooked at first but understand a bit more clearly now.

Something worth noting is that the pool is where their relationship really “blossomed.” In the first episode, the pool was where we got to see them really bond and even have their first deep conversation in the entire show. We learned the basis of their characters, and a little about their actual feelings towards faith/religion. It can basically be counted as the beginning of their relationship.

Tanrak going to this location of all places to burn the evidence of everything they’ve shared is really meaningful. He went back to where it all began, just to make it seem like it never existed in the first place. The staining that op mentioned could be a representation of how he’ll never get away from his desire despite how he attempts to. The evidence of his true feelings will always remain with him, because they aren’t something physical that he can simply rid himself of. They’re deep, and they’ll still be there no matter how he tries to hide it.

[mylovehalfway]

The interactions between Kongdech and Tanrak are painful to witness because it’s hard for me to not feel sympathy for both sides.

For starters, there were multiple instances throughout the episodes where Kongdech was noticeably suspicious of the two, yet he still ended up going to Tanrak with hopes that he’d tell the truth.

He fully trusted their friendship and figured that Tanrak would tell him anything, only to be met with the same “it’s nothing” response that he gave everyone.

As the viewers, we are aware that the reason behind Tanrak not being truthful was due to him feeling torn between his faith and his desire. Involving Kongdech would’ve further complicated the situation, and put them at risk of being caught by their peers and Father. Kongdech took this avoidance as betrayal, while Tanrak saw it as essential.

On the other hand, Tanrak has already been going through his own inner conflicts as he tries navigating longing to reunite with his parents in heaven, and his feelings for Barth. To add on to that, he now has deal with the additional guilt of unintentionally hurting his childhood friend.

He thought he was doing the right thing by keeping him in the dark about the details of their relationship, only for it to backfire and make it appear as if their years of friendship were insignificant to him.

What we saw in this episode was just a confirmation of what we’ve already known. Kongdech planned his future around having Tanrak alongside him, and now feels frustrated because everything that was once so certain is completely changing in front of him. Tanrak doesn’t know if the love he’s feeling is worth the sacrifice of everything he’s ever known; including his relationships.

Both of them were caught between a rock and a hard place, and unintentionally ended up wounding each other in the process.

[mylovehalfway]

We got the angst we asked for,

but at what cost? 😭

Almond and Progress, please take a bow.

The build up leading to the confession scene was truly stunning. The tension, yearning, and eventual breaking point was all so well executed.

The way Ko Song chose to isolate himself from everyone because he figured it would be easier than confronting his feelings directly and dealing with the growing frustration of Ko Neung was so heart-rending.

Then the confession scene in the rain… my goodness. I could feel the exasperation in every word Ko Neung spoke and how much it was affecting Ko Song until he eventually told him the truth.

Their relationship prior to this situation was adorable, and I’m hoping they can find a way to reconcile in the next episode and actually talk it out. There was more to Ko Neung’s reaction than the episode revealed.