hello, goodbye.

28. Mexican. Instagram: mynameiscecilia Twitter: @cecili_ugh

[mynameiscecilia]

I think my life is passing me by, I do the same exact things every day. I’m in love with a person that’s so unattainable. I can’t even begin to think of dating at all because no one will ever make me feel the way he does, ever. I keep thinking of harming myself but I can’t bring myself to do it, I fantasize about taking my own life but I can’t bring myself to do it, which makes me feel like a coward. But I also need to be here for my family and I don’t want to break their hearts. I wasn’t asked to be born, and I’m exhausted. Emotionally and physically. I know I will never kill myself because again I need to be here for my family, but I have to keep reminding myself that I will die someday, I just have to be patient until then. I somehow always knew that I wasn’t made for this. I wasn’t meant to have anything normal in life, I genuinely think I was put on this earth to suffer and to serve others. I am absolutely pathetic and that will never change, and as much as I do my makeup, as much as I do my hair really pretty, as much as I wear cute outfits or do my nails or wear pretty perfume, I will always be deeply deeply wounded and broken.

[mynameiscecilia]

I wish I was dead

[bufotoxin-blog-deactivated20221]

i really like long-distance domesticity. like, when you get into the habit of saying good morning and goodnight to someone, telling someone your plans for the day not because they’re remarkable but so they’ll know what you’re up to, telling someone where you’re going, if you’ll be drinking, when you’ll be home, asking someone if they’ve eaten or showered or slept or taken their meds, that kind of thing. just the habitual knowledge of another person’s life over a space of hundreds or thousands of miles. that’s cool

[thelovejournals]

I’ll be here just waiting and hoping for every long dream of you to come true.

F. Scott Fitzgerald, Benediction (via thelovejournals)

[ashstfu]

i love being independent but i also want someone to love and talk to but i always want to be left alone but im also lonely

[gregabbott]

“Fox In Snow”

[whizpurr]

[mynameiscecilia]

3AM RANT:

Just came on here to say that I’m proud of myself for deleting all of Grimes’s music from my phone, I thought I’d never be able to do it lol I’ve been done with her for a while now but I held onto some of her songs because they meant a great deal to me at certain times but ugh I can’t support someone so fucking stupid and privileged and annoying anymore, also lol I deleted any trace of her I had on my tumblr page ahahahaha, because I remember when I loved her a lot all I wanted was to look like her and be like her because she was “so fucking cool” and I’m so glad I’ve grown up because I can’t believe I wanted to look like a WHITE GIRL LOL WTF I was trippin fr fr fuck that white bitch and her billionaire ugly ass boyfriend 🖤

[sleazeburger]

[contourkit-deactivated20160224]

Brown nipples brown eyes brown lipstick

[saudi-overload]

I just need you and some sunsets

[catasters]

[twigsinmyteeth]

oop there it is.

[awardweiner]

i type with no punctuation because i want to write sentences so long that people will run out of breath reading it and suffocate

[touchesbutts]

[dauntingdaisies-deactivated2017]

basically

[2000ish]

[iamindyamarie]

Reblogging again because this shit had me weak

[paisleyline]

every time, every time

[lillyrosaura]

Love!

[grizzlyblack301]

“G-Unit” 💀😂😂😂

[niggaloden]

beyonce performing “ring the alarm” at the mtv awards. she snapped. 

[freekumdress]

beyoncé, ring the alarm (2006)