cosy fall

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with the heatwave in full swing in the uk and many parts of europe, i can't help but once again wish away the season in anticipation of autumn. tell me this doesn't look better than this heat??

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Moody autumn is the best autumn

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Hello September

Happy September 1st to those who celebrate

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every year I vow to enjoy the seasons as they come, but the second it turns July I am incapable of not mentally fast forwarding to autumn it’s a real issue

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as july rolls in and another birthday is just around the corner, i can’t help but think of everything that has come to pass and where i have ended up. quite frankly, i have thus far amounted to nothing other than a few lessons learned. i have moved out and moved back to my childhood home more times than i can count, been to university and dropped out twice. been to college and dropped out three times. started my life over 6 different times. i spent so many years trying to grow into the person i want to be whilst still clinging on to the past and toxic people around me. i tried doing it all whilst in a heavily toxic relationship. it would never have worked anyway, as much as i tried.

i realised today that what i need to do is heal my inner child. the little girl that was so scared and had to grow up faster than she could ever imagine, years rushing by in a matter of weeks. becoming 5 years older than my actual age was terrifying. that little girl never got to have a childhood really. she was 18 at aged 10. and now i find myself in a position where i’m starting fresh. properly this time. alone. i have no one to prove myself to other than that little girl. i know that no one believes i can do it and i don’t blame them for that after all i’ve done. dropping out of uni and college so many times just meant i was prolonging the inevitable. i knew one day i would go back and do it all again. i’m just really, really hoping that this time, this is it. i have nothing holding me back anymore and i can see my future laid out in front of me, but this time it’s my version. not what other people have told me i should want to be, not what some partner wants me to be, not what my parents want me to be. what i want to be. and that’s just going to have to be enough.

i want to make that little girl proud. and i wish i could give her back her childhood, but as much as i want to, i will never be able to do that. and so i have to work on fixing the problems that paying that price has created, and start at the root.

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Sooo…. I just finished my first year of university :D I finished college and got top marks, and now I’ve finished first year of uni with a 2:1 average (a 68.9…sooo close to averaging a 1st!) and I am so proud of myself ahhh

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Magical Research by Iren Horrors

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Autumn is finally here in our town and I couldn’t be more happy! 🍂🎞️🧦🦇

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What’s on your autumn reads list?

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thank you so much for 400 followers 🎃

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｡ﾟﾟ･｡･ﾟﾟ｡ ﾟ. September will bring blessings.

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despite the heatwave I am so ready for autumn

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fall is coming

she will be here soon.