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Let me be frank.

You ruin everything you touch.

You burn it like a pyromaniac.

You cause a sickness so deep within it spreads through the body shutting down every major organ.

You’re poison.

You took the heart I gave you and you squeezed every ounce of love out of it, and watched as the blood coated your hands.

You took the soul I once gave you and you set it on fire and oh so kindly returned it to me, in hopes I can fix it.

You took the body I gave you, engraving your very name and essence into it, then ripping it to a million piece.

You ruin everything you touch.

You drain the light out of me and fill it with your darkness.

You hand me the torch and burned me when you did, telling me to deal with it.

You carve your name in me like a brand and tote me around like a slave you own for your entertainment until you’re bored.

You ruin everything you touch.

And when I have had enough.

And I just want to waste away.

You shame me.

You blame me.

You make me insane.

I hate you.

So yes to be frank,

Baby, you ruin everything you touch.

khaosbewriting

Truth is. I do resent you.

I loved you so much and I still love you. But I’m not sure the same can be said for me from you.

I’m not perfect. I know I’m not. And I’ve never claimed to be. But I strived to be the perfect partner you would ever have. And in return all I asked for was your love, your loyalty, and your warmth.

You took so much from me. And left me to fend for myself. To pick up the piece of the heart you mended once. Just to come back and lend hand, to do it all over again.

And you use your words that make me feel small, unheard, and silent. When all I’m asking for is some attention because I haven’t received any since I’ve been in your presence. And I feel neglected. Forgotten. Uncherished.

But when I just pull away because I need some time to think because I don’t know what to do. It becomes a problem. And now you are seeking my attention. And I give it because I love you and I wouldn’t put you through the pain of unrequited love.

Then you whisper these kind words in my ear. You look me in my eyes and you tell me how much you love me. Only for me to find out those kind words are lies. Now, I can’t trust anything you say.

You had me think I was crazy. That my feelings were invalid. That I was small and weak. And it made me feel so empty and lonely. Then made me feel so angry.

The more I would wake up and find your side of the bed empty, the colder I grew. To hear you would rather go hang out with someone aside from me when we hadn’t even spent a full day together, the lonelier I got. The more you started to hide things from me, the angrier I got. I was starting to hate you.

Now. I just resent you.

poems-she-wrote

I wanted to say I understood why you treated me how you did, I wanted to forgive and forget everything that happened between us. But you don’t deserve that, you don’t deserve anymore of my time.

Because I was good enough, it was you who made me believe I wasn’t.

-fuck you.

iamnotatherapist

Closing the chapter

The worst pain is being in no contact with the one person you’re still in love with, who at one point in time sent you texts that made your heart melt. Butterflies every time you saw them. And now you love them only in silence from a distance. Slowly being forced to close every chapter you never wanted to end. 📖

missinyouiskillingme

When I told you we had to end it, that we had to go on our own separate paths, I wanted you to say no. I wanted you to tell me you would never let me go. I wanted you to say that you couldn’t imagine living life without me, that you would never love anyone as much as you loved me, even if it sounds a little selfish. I wanted you to fight for me, to stop me from leaving. But all you said was, “I’ve been thinking the same thing for a while now.”

missinyouiskillingme

it’s sad when you realize you aren’t as important to someone as you thought you were

dreamsofaparadox

“The problem is I’ve never been loved, not loved how I need or want to be loved. I have always been a placeholder, used for whatever reason and I let it happen just so for a moment I can feel close to someone and feel needed. I just want to be enough, I want someone to love me. I want a love in the movies or that you read about in books. I want someone to fight for me and stay. I want to be loved. I have always felt so alone, but been surrounded by others and that’s one thing but I’ve never ever truly been actually alone. So just please, let me lay here and feel a little less alone. Just let me hold you.”

11/5/22 23:11

missinyouiskillingme

"I'll always love you and never know why."

Goodbye First Love (2011)

jessicaherrerawrites

schuylerpeck

I want to love you so well, your heart relaxes its shoulders all the way down; your body lets out the breath its been holding. I want my love to be such a safe place, the walls never shiver with sharp tongues or high volume. a love solid enough, when you count your worries for the day, our happiness sits miles from the list.