To my beautiful anons: I know that you told me to ignore it, but I must speak from the heart and say how I feel. I cannot keep how I feel bottled up inside any longer before I choose to go on a break.
My message to this community:
There are now rumors being spread about me. Iโm being called: condescending, immature, and someone who acts superior - all because my words are being twisted to fit false narratives by people who do not know me.
Rumors are being spread all around because of a complete misunderstanding that got way out of hand.
First of all, I never ever called any bloggers here morons. I called the excuse to mock, tear someone down, and make fun of somebody on public blast moronic because I find that kind of behavior to be childish and insanely cruel.ย
Whether the situation involves anyone from any kind of community on here taking time out of their day to intentionally put someone down in order to make themselves look superior and feel better about themselves.
Yeah, yeah, itโs the internet and all those rebuttals. Well, duh. Iโm well aware, but does that make it kind? For an entire community that claims to be all about awareness and compassion, thereโs a huge lack of self-awareness surrounding the intent behind some actions and it seems to be devoid of compassion.
It is exactly what it is: immature and childish behavior that only shows deep levels of insecurity. Whether that insecurity is in themselves or their own views. I'm just calling it out for what it is.
Secondly, I called certain concepts that I disagree with stronger and blunt terms such as: ridiculous, nonsense, etc - because Iโm allowed to have my own opinions and views about things I disagree with.
I want to make it crystal clear right now that none of those terms were ever directed or aimed towards any bloggers.ย
I never called any bloggers here: ridiculous, nonsense, moronic, etc.
Those terms were all about certain concepts that I disagree with and have a different view on.
The hypocrisy around here astounds me:
Itโs perfectly okay and acceptable for this community to put me on public bash mode, spread rumors about me, and mock me for thinking differently and having my own unique perspective, but God, itโs so outrageous and absolutely unforgivable for me to have an opinion about the concepts that I disagree with.
How did I become the villain?
Whatโs that all about? How does any of this make sense?
I want to clear some things up:ย
Letโs start from the beginning, shall we?
This ridiculous drama all started because I shared my thoughts - God forbid I do that on a platform that is solely designed for you to share their thoughts and I brought everyone to the attention about some mockery and making fun of people on public bash mode for the sake of humiliation in this community that I have noticed going on more than once and that somehow made me a villain.
I personally knew someone and I was friends with her. She was harassed to the point where she felt the need to deactivate her account. Why was she harassed and mocked by a community that claims to be so kind? She had a different view that went against the collective standard.
Now I do not know who was all involved in the situation and my message was never directed towards any specific bloggers here in the first which people have twisted into false narratives.ย
{While we are on the topic, you do realize that there has to be countless bloggers in this community, right? Theyโre everywhere and thereโs probably more around here than you could ever count. It could have been anybody and the fingers were never pointed to any specific blogger.}
I found out again that the same situation happened to another blogger who was harassed to the point of deactivating her account.
My message was about the mob-mentality as a whole collective in this community because from the sidelines, I have noticed a repeating pattern play out.
I feel that thereโs a whole unspoken condescending attitude of superiority and spiritual immaturity lingering in the atmosphere of this community as a whole and it has to be hushed.
Weโre not allowed to talk about it.
If you dare talk about it - people then come after you and paint you as the villain.
This is what started a fire and then guess what happened? I became public enemy number one.
All because I spoke out on the atmosphere of this community as a whole:
I became the one who was harassed and called โimmatureโ for speaking out about this and validating the experiences of my old friend and the other blogger who went through the same thing.
But Iโm the immature one.
Iโm the condescending one.
Right, okay. Well, let me get things straight.
I witnessed with my own eyes: anons bringing up my posts with the intention to mock me and humiliate me because it was clear that they felt they were better and โmore spiritual/enlightened" than I am.
{ A "who's more spiritual" battle? Really? }
I saw posts made about me by people who donโt even know me: calling me immature.
Now Iโm having rumors going around from people who donโt know me at all: calling me someone who is condescending and acts superior.
You want to know why people now think that I act condescending and superior?
This was all because during one of my civil discussions about the disagreement between views, I called out the anons who thought it was cool to mock me and I wanted them to know that I wasnโt blind. I could see exactly what they were doing and I was laughing at their attempts to mock me and humiliate me.
But Iโm the condescending and stuck up one who acts superior and immature for standing up for myself?ย
Sorry, but if you think itโs ultra-cool and perfectly acceptable to publicly mock someone with the intention to humiliate someone - going as far to lurking on the personโs account to link it on another bloggerโs account with the clear intention to mock and shame that person:ย
It only shows your character and the undeniable fact that you are an insecure individual who gets off on wanting to tear people down and humiliate them. You only make yourself look like a fool.
What happened to nondualityโs philosophy of: all is one? You defeat the philosophy you claim to follow at that point. Thatโs what was so funny to me about the situation and how that one post was just blowing up in flames with traffic.
You know, if anyone came to my account with the intent to mock or humiliate another blogger for the sake of fun - I would shut that down real fast because I do not play those games around here.ย
Unlike some people in *any* kind of online community, I do not feel the need or desire to put others down in order to make me feel better about myself. In fact, that type of behavior is never and has never been welcome on my page.ย
So let me get this straight: Iโm not allowed to call out the cruel treatment that is hushed and swept under the rug in this community because nobody wants to talk about it, but itโs perfectly acceptable and okay to publicly bash people with the intent to mock them and make fun of them.ย
Is this whatโs going on here?
I can hear the outlash now.
โPeople can have their opinions!โ Of course, I agree with that notion completely, but I would call such actions childish mockery and the intent to humiliate someone.
Speaking of opinions, what about my opinions and my own views to share?ย
What about my own perspective?
Oh, that doesnโt count. Right.ย
Because apparently Iโm not allowed to acknowledge God/awareness for what it is since I donโt follow the concept of removing labels when referring to the nature of awareness, but itโs perfectly okay and acceptable for others to do the same.
Iโm just the only one around here who is not allowed to do it, right.
It seems here that Iโm also not allowed to share my own perspective without being accused of spreading misinformation. Right, cool.
โThis is not what nonduality/AD is all aboutโ
โYouโre spreading misinformation-โ
I thought there was no such thing as concepts or philosophies. You canโt have it both ways.
Another thing to add, it seems to me that Iโm not allowed to share my own thoughts and views in the space of my page without being told that my views are wrong and theirs are right.
Or the way I share the philosophy of nonduality is wrong and only their way of teaching is right.
Hereโs what I want to say about this:
You do not have the right to tell me how to run or share this philosophy on my page.
Seriously? All because I choose to keep the labels around and enjoy creating my own reality from knowing my true self as God while acknowledging the existence, incredible beauty, and deep meaning out of the physical human experience?ย
Somebody tell me what the issue is. I have to be missing something here because I just cannot understand what the problem is.
Iโm not in on the joke. What is the issue?
Whatโs unbelievable to me is that weโre constantly told to turn within, right? I completely agree with that piece of advice. We are supposed to turn within and come to our own answers about realizing the nature of awareness in order to shift our perception.
Well, thatโs exactly what I did and I found my own answers that I feel could help my followers and transform their lives. This is all Iโm trying to do here.
I am simply doing things my own way because what has helped me and transformed my world may open the doors for anyone who comes across my page. I am only offering a new and unique perspective to consider.
I donโt care if you approve of the way I share nondualityโs philosophy or not because I am not here for you. I do not need your approval.
I hear what your demands are loud and clear: share the philosophy of nonduality the way you teach, remove the labels when referring to awareness, stop teaching manifestation, get on board with the pointers, and the list goes on.
Well, you hear me: You don't own me and you do not have the right to police what I can and cannot share on my page.
I was perfectly fine with the civil discussions at first, but with all the spread of rumors about me now and people saying that I spread misinformation all because Iโm offering a new perspective: this has gone far enough and Iโve had it.
Iโm done with the games.
I am never going to cave to your demands and force myself to change myself or my personal views because thatโs what you demand of me. I will never be what you want me to be.
For a spiritual community that claims to be kind, open-minded, and accepting: I find it to be very bias, hypocritical, and controlling in terms of its entire attitude as a whole when it comes to the way this philosophy of nonduality and oneness is taught.
Because all Iโm hearing is: โthings must be done/taught in a certain way or youโre excluded.โ
Hear me out now and listen to me closely:
โช๏ธ Iโm not going to remove the labels and concepts and I will acknowledge awareness as awareness.
It is not limiting to acknowledge awareness by its label while recognizing its limitless, boundless, and omnipotent nature. To say that it is - is a contradiction, especially when we take into account what the definition of true and absolute omnipotence means.
(Yes, in its true form: awareness is nameless, but in this human experience the label for awareness is awareness and thatโs what I will call it.)
โช๏ธ Iโm not going to get on board with the pointers. I find it to be robotic, tedious, and passionless. It doesnโt resonate with me or speak to my heart.ย
I am only going to speak from the depths of passion and follow my heart because that is what feels right to me.
(If I have to hear the concept of pointers one more time then I may bash my head against the wall.)
โช๏ธ I will not be vague or keep my descriptions short. My approach is about being direct and clear. This is just the way I naturally speak which is in a more formal nature and I prefer to break things down for my followers.ย This is something they appreciate and I am here to inspire my followers.
โช๏ธ Iโm going to continue to share about the aspect of manifestation because it is directly tied into nonduality's philosophy.ย The human form is a manifestation, and the whole human experience is a manifestation. All of this is a manifestation itself.ย
The whole entire nature of human existence and reality itself is all an elaborate manifestation from awareness. You cannot share the concept of nonduality without acknowledging manifestation.
โช๏ธ Iโm going to embrace the beauty of the human experience because it is deeply meaningful and beautiful to me. I will not ever promote the idea that everything is meaningless or pointless because there is now deep meaning, treasured moments, and value in the entire human experience. It is a gift.
To summarize it all, I am going to share the philosophy of nonduality in a way comes straight from my heart and passion for it.ย
Iโm not going to share or teach the philosophy of nonduality the way you want me to and if I have a certain outspoken opinion on a concept I do not agree with then I have the right to share my views on the concept I donโt care for.
Go ahead, exclude me. I will happily wear the crown as the black sheep around here who dares to think for herself and stay true to her views.
Exclude me, mock me, and think whatever you want about my views. I really do not care what you think of me. I am not here to please you.
I will not be pushed around and told how to share this philosophy on my page. Thatโs where I draw the line. My page is my own safe space for me to share my views with the intention of inspiring.
I am more than confident enough in my own views to the point where I do not feel the incessant need to pressure another to bow down and change their perspective to conform to the collectiveโs standard way of sharing this philosophy.
Let me ask: If one is truly secure and confident in their own views or perspective on their page then why is there a need to control or pressure to change how other bloggers share their own views?
That right there to me just reveals insecurity and a lack of confidence in your own views and teachings. You should always remain confident in your views regardless of what anyone else thinks of you.
So from now on, if anyone comes onto my page and tries to police how I run things then they will have to be blocked. I have the right to be left alone in peace and free to run my page however I please.
With all that said, I guess I have become the villain around here because of my outspokenness, my stubborn loyalty to my views, and refusing to have the way I run things on my page controlled or pressured to change to conform to the demands.
But you know what? If Iโm the villain now, Iโll just wear the title proudly with a pair of black cool shades because people are going to think what they want to think anyway, right?
You canโt please everyone and at the end of the night, people will draw their own conclusions whether they see the whole situation with their eyes open to listen to the individualโs side of the mirror or clouded by their own false narratives.
Speaking from the voice of my true self:ย
Nonduality is supposed to be filled with kindness and compassion for all since we are all one and interconnected. This beautiful philosophy is meant to deepen oneโs empathy and compassion for others which leads to a more profound way of relating and connecting to each other on a deeper level as one. We are all here to connect with each other as one and achieve our greatest potential from realizing our true self as divine and unlimited awareness while having the time of our life living by and sharing this empowering philosophy of oneness.ย
I just want to say that I wish everyone here in this community nothing but love, happiness, and compassion on their own spiritual path. We are all one as divine awareness and unified with all of existence at the end of the night and I find that to be such an incredibly beautiful truth.
Lastly, I want to send a whole ocean of love to my precious followers who I consider to be my family.ย
I will always have your back and support you the same way youโve had my back and continued to support me throughout all the madness.ย
I love you all very dearly from the bottom of my heart and there are no words for me to describe how much your loyalty and support to me has remained throughout all of this. It has meant so much to me and your messages of kindness and understanding throughout these rough times touched my heart. You have been a light in darkness for me and you guys are the absolute best. ๐ค
By the way, to show that manifestation is a fundamental aspect of nonduality - read this.
Now I am going on break for a little while and when I come back, the posts will continue and it will be a brand new fresh start for everyone.
I have said all that I needed to say and I wish to put all of this to rest now. Much love to my followers. ๐ค