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go to marriage counseling ❌

impersonate a kidnapper and harass your emotionally constipated husband by phone to make death threats on your own life ✅

mysticluv

girlboss

snufflescribbles

i love you insane, unhinged female characters who fuck everything up. i love you female rage that ruins everything else. i love you evil women who don't give a shit.

mysticluv

RAHHHHHHHHHH

mysticluv

stuck on you

for the first time in months, our eyes met again across the roaring party and the familiar ache tightened around my chest and nausea swarmed in my stomach.

he looked as good as the day he carelessly broke my heart and walked away. the signature chain dangled across a fitting black shirt that carved his biceps and strong shoulders. the same arms i held onto 6 months ago for comfort and joy.

we held each others gaze, neither moving away. i couldnt read what he was thinking; i never could. yet i still wanted to try because despite the pain and time, a part of me still cared about his stupid thoughts and how he was doing.

mainly, i wondered how he moved on so easily. how he found a new girl a week later with ease but my chest tightens every time i think of him. even now after all this time.

i tore my gaze away from him and turned to seek a distraction. god why am i so weak? why couldnt i let go as simply as he could?

i poured myself a shot and downed in one go feeling the burn shoot down my throat as i reached for another. i took 4 before feeling the affect in my head as logic blurred in my mind i felt bold enough to mingle into the crowd dancing in the center of the garden.

i let my body loose and swung to the music, screaming lyrics with a blonde girl next to me as we held hands and jumped up and down. this was my youth and prime that i should be enjoying. i let go of the girls hands and closed my eyes, feeling the music and the drunken laughter echoing around me.

i hummed and swayed, unaware of my surroundings when suddenly a warm body bumped into my back. i spun around with a dazed smile, an airy apology on my lips when my eyes opened to meet familiar brown ones. the air grew thick around me as i instantly sobered and my smile dropped.

someone stumbled into my back, propelling me straight into his chest and his arm steadied me, warm against my back. neither of us moved as we stared into each other's eyes.

the agony tightened in my chest but i couldnt step away from his warmth.

he still smelled the same.

his touch still feels the same.

tears began to well in my eyes as his amber eyes bore into mine, unreadable as ever.

fuck i missed him.

mysticluv

ew wtf girl stand up this is embarrassing he was not worth all that

lastofthe20thcenturygirls

no handsome has ever handsomed the way ro woon is handsoming in destined with you

iamacolor

don't you just love it when a character is keeping his distance from someone they like (even if they don't think they really do) for "good reasons" but also they can't help but just always look at them and notice them and they're not just looking at them no there's always some longing some sense of "seeing her isn't enough why does it feel wrong to be far away why does this distance feels wrong but also i can not simply go to her (again for "good reasons") and he's promised to stop making his feelings obvious, and he's even sort of convinced himself thses feelings aren't real anyway and yet his eyes are drawn to her and he has to look back (and he's not just looking at her he's also looking out for her by covering her eyes from the sun, by confronting the garden owner after telling her to be careful at night, when she's drunk etc)