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kiss me, he´s watching - ( @enhaflixer ) smut, fake bf!Heeseung x being stalked!reader - You kissed Heeseung to escape your stalkerâs gazeâthis is diffferentttt, i loved reading it sm, felt like a movie
cherry trees - ( @enhaflixer ) smut, angst, fluff, second chandce rom, arranged husband!Jungwon x trophy wife!reader - WHEWWWW this was intenssee, I LOVE WHEN MEN FUCK UP AND THEN GO INSANE :p. also, the whole plot felt real, like hard work was being put in to fix everything. deff one of my jungwon favs out there
change your ticket - ( @demusewriter ) so much fluff, Idol!Jungwon x Non-idol!reader. yESSSss, loved the yearning
the grinch that stole my⌠pants? - ( @mandukkul ) fluff, crack. bf!ni-ki x fIreader, established relationship. nahh this is so cute, reader is valid af
quacked up - ( @veilstqr ) downbad!ni-ki, fluff and crack x ni-ki being whipped and the members not letting him breathe. jungwon is so wrong for that lmao, poor niki
rich boy enha - ( @blairbliss ) fluff, rich!ot7, this is like my dream come true. rICH PRETTY MEN IN LOVE, THAT´S WHAT IM ABOUT
faces and sounds they make - ( @enhaflixer ) smut, ot7. YESSSSSSSSSSSSS, i have no words. this had me grinning like a gremling. yall know that one freaky sonic gif? yeah.
between the shelves - ( @liuhsng ) fluff, strangers to lover, soulmate au, alpha!jake, omega!reader, alpha!enha. I LOVEDDD THISSSSSSS, jake´s so dreamy cool and collected, got me giggling and kicking my feet
perv!sunghoon - ( @urlovebot ) smut. MY JAW IS ON THE FLOOR. this is crrraazzzzyyyyyyyyyyyyy
the price of perfection - ( @woniedarlin ) angst, fluff, academic rival!jake, academic pressure. now now, i know i said i hate those academy rivals, work rivals, enemies to lovers tropes, and i do!, BUUTTT this one´s differente. They aren´t really rivals, she´s just jealouse and jake´s just vibing lmao, but they end up being what each other´s need
king of tears - ( @enhaflixer ) ANGST, fluff, smut. Chaebol Husband!Sunghoon, slow burn, second chance rom. WHAT COMES AFTER 7???? this is honestly amazing, i´ve never read a kdrama inspired fic like this one, so so good. and as the Angsty Fic Ambassador, i aprove tf out of this skdjfkjf, also SUNOO AND NIKI HAD ME CACKLING. After you´re done, read this one too
heavy little love - ( @hazelira ) fluff :´(. dad!heeseung, this is so wholesome, so beautiful. i also believe he´s such a boy dad idk idk.
i´ll never let that happen again - ( @semisasseater ) fluff, angst, protective bf!niki. this one´s for my delulu riki stans, ik you´ll like it :p
take me back! - ( @heeseung64 ) text au, suggestive. desperate ex!hee, bad bitch!reader as she should. sdfkjskj this ones funny af, i do like them a lil crazy anyway
the dollmaker - ( @faeyun ) smut, fluff lowk, husband!sunghoon, dark gothic heavy themes (read warnings). YUUUPPPP, this is an art piece right here. wowwww, author i love ur brain, i´ve never read anything like this!
wrong contact - ( @heeseung64 ) text au, best friend!enha. love love accidental confessiones sjdskjf had me giggling and kicking my feet like the delulu ass bitch i am
off the ice - ( @luvsicktyun ) angst, smut, fluff. hockey player!jake, pregnant!reader, college au, accidental pregnancy trope. this is gewddd, i love how this is written. reader feelings are so so valid and real, getting pregg after a ons by a man who´s future doesn´t seem to include being a father whatsoever is scary af, luckily this is sim jake we´re talking about
beneath the blue - ( @enjakey ) fluff, smut, the plot is EVERYTHING. marine engineer!Jake x marine biologist!Fem!Reade. HOW DOESNT THIS HAVE LIKE +30K NOTES??????? THIS IS A WHOLE MOVIE, ARE YOU KIDDING ME????? people really don´t appreciate lengthy, detailed, beautifully written fics with a thick-interesting-innovating plot anymore and that´s fucking sad. author, this is a MASTERPIECE
caught in my web - ( @fatalhoon ) fluff, crack. spiderman!jake, loser!jake, bsf!reader, school au. this is so cuuteeee and jake aint sleek at all lmao
just married - ( @bywons ) FLUFF, down bad!sunghoon (YOU ALREADY KNOW IM EATING TS UPPP), drunk!sunghoon, not him wanting to elope and get married after breakdancing at a friend´s wedding, i love this sm
hoodie thief - ( @tobiosbbyghorl ) smut, fluff, roomamate!sunghoon, he´s a total boobs guy (canon) so him losing it over them isn´t strange lmao, loved this
richman´s world - ( @okwonyo ) text au, fluff, ceo!jay. ahaha i´m gonna crash tf oUT bc wdym HE´S RICH AF AND GETS TURNED ON BY YOU SPENDING HIS MONEYYYDSLFLSKJFHSKJH and he´s dOWN BAD TOO????? you´re done.
let´s play - ( @fgumi ) crack, fluff. not heeseung getting humbled by his own gf on LOL lmao
loser in a hot man´s body - ( @fgumi ) fluff, school/college au, loser bf!hee (LETSFUCKINGGOOOO) x hot popular!gf. i LOVEEEEEEEEE a hot man with a quirky personality who´s down bad for his gf, i eat it up EVERY TIME
You saw him under the cherry blossom tree with pink petal falling all around him and on his pretty black raven long hair. You felt like you had suddenly forgotten how to breath. His beauty took your breath away as soon as you had laid your almond eyes on him. You absentmindedly clicked a photo of him with your polaroid camera, which your sister, Minji had gifted you on your 17th birthday. The sound from the polaroid camera startling you as you took the printed picture from the Polaroid camera in your hands, wondering why you impulsively took a photo of this pretty stranger. As you trailed your eyes in front of you to take a glance at the said stranger, he was long gone from the spot he had been standing at. You looked around the park to find him but to your disappointment, he had already left the cherry blossom garden. You wondered if you will ever get to see him again as you longingly looked at the polaroid picture in your hand. You took more pictures of the cherry blossoms as a memory to record in your journal and only left the pink garden once you were satisfied with the amount of pictures you had taken.
At home, your mind and heart were preoccupied by the pretty stranger. What will his name be? Is he a student as well like you? Will you ever be able to meet him again? Trails of thought running in you head had prevented you from sleeping that night. You have had crushes before but nobody had this much effect on you to keep you up until the dawn and resisting your sleepiness. You had only seen him for like 10 minutes but his thought would never leave your mind. You remained awake rerunning the whole fiasco of seeing this man in your mind till dawn. You didnât realise when you slept that night but you knew that it wasnât enough for the normal functioning of your body as the next day you had been feeling sleepy during all of your classes. You struggled to keep your eye open as you finally gave in to the tiredness and slept in one of the classes. WellâŚ.that definitely got you in detention and you had to stay back in school for another two hours before heading home.
On your way home you saw a crowd of people surrounding a band which you assumed after hearing the sounds of guitars and drums echoing in your ears. You couldnât see much due to your pathetic height and the amount of people surrounding around them made it quite impossible for you to look at the band. But, you had to admit that they had talent. You wiggled your way into the crowd just enough for you to look the members of the band and there he wasâŚ. The boy that haunted your mind for the past 24 hours and the one responsible for your detention. The crowd chanting his name loud when he started singing with the beautiful voice that he has. Not only was HE beautiful but also his voice was equally as beautiful as him. Through the crowdsâ chanting you got to know his nameâŚ..Park Wonbin you muttered loud enough to be only heard by you. It suits him, you thought as the song was nearing the end. The crowd surrounding them went to talk with the boys, taking turns as you were left standing alone confused as to what to do.
Well standing in line to talk to Wonbin wonât be a bad idea was the thought you had in your mind as you stood there in line of girls waiting to talk to him and some even getting selfies with him. It was finally your turn. Standing in front of him you were once again mesmerised by his blinding beauty. As you opened you mouth to talk with him, his phone rang making you go silent. He answered the phone and it seemed to be some kind of emergency as you watch him muttering an apology and running to his bicycle to ride the other way and there goes your chance of talking to him.
At night you went home and drew his face on your journals and your heartfelt feeling for him well it has kind of became a habit of yours to do this every night after that day meeting him at the road and you also waited in the same spot the band had performed but no performance took place after that day. You would also visit the cherry blossom garden in hopes of meeting him again but your luck had always been low and you never got to meet him again after that. You were almost losing hopes when you saw him again that day in front of the school but you wished you had a detention instead of looking at the scene which unfolds in front of you. You saw him giving a bouquet of roses to a girl who you recognised as Kim Minjeong from another class with a pretty smile. You wished you were in her place and what would it feel like to receive roses from Wonbin, the perfect human being you had ever laid your eye on. You looked away from then unable to bear the uneasiness growing in your heart and headed home. At home, You couldnât manage your feelings, you had felt too empty and thatâs when you decided you should paint. Painting had alway been your comfort zone almost like your safe place. It makes you forget all the pain and bitter memories. You recklessly started painting the empty canvas and poured your heart into painting. After hours it was almost 11 pm when you finally finished your painting. You looked at it and you hadnât even realised all along you had been painting Wonbin smiling under the cherry blossom tree. You were considering to tear it off and to avoid any further feelings for him as it would only result in hurting your feelings. But, it would be such a waste of talent and your time spent drawing it as well. So, you just left it to dry you tore all the paper that consists of his drawings and your feelings you had for him written in them off from your journal note neatly and folded it and kept it next to the painting as you were planning on hiding them all away in your storage room the next day and went to bed as tiredness takes over your body.
The next day, your were woken up by your Sister, Minji. She complimented your painting as soon as you opened your eyes. You sighed and confessed that you were considering throwing it away. Minji immediately refuted that idea and asked if she can use it for her art project instead to which you had agreed without much thoughts. She hugged you thankfully and left the room with your painting. Unknowingly she also took the Journal papers with her, accidentally along with the painting.
You did your morning routine half heartedly and had your breakfast. Soon after you left to your school to continue your normal day
On the other sideâŚ.
Minji actually lied to you,she took your painting for an art exhibition held in her university and not for her personal art project. She knew you wouldnât give it to her so she lied. Well a small lie wouldnât hurt right? Thatâs what she thought when she hung your painting on the art hall and she also thought those journal papers were some rubbish as she hadnât read it. So, she placed it behind the painting and went to help the other students.
Soon the exhibition has started and student started filling in the hall to look at the paintings. Wonbin being the freshmen in that university also joined his friends to looks at the different types of paintings hung in there, appreciating each one of them as he can never imagine creating such beautiful masterpieces with different colours. âWait a minute, doesnât that painting look like wonbin?â These were the words that immediately got his attention. As he looked at the picture he was mesmerised at the beauty of it. He wondered who painted him that beautifully. He started asking around the exhibition about the owner of the painting as everyone pointed at Minji saying she was the one who hung it there. He immediately went to her and called her. Upon looking at him Minji seemed to recognise him from somewhere but she was quite not sure where. âHave we met before? You seem familiar â she told him as he pointed at the painting â well you painted me. Do you know me?â Minji gasped as soon she recognised where she had seen his face. âOh wellâŚ.. it isnât exactly my painting. Its from someone I knowâ she answered âwho?â âI canât answer that. Itâs confidentialâ she said and turned away. âCan I have that painting?â He asked to which she immediately said no, âbut its me in the painting so it belongs to meâ he argued and crossed his hands across his chest. Minji rolled her eyes,âFine, you can have it. She was about to throw it anywaysâ she told him and walked away annoyed by him. âThrow it?? But its such a pretty painting? Who dares to throw away this?â He sighed and went to pick up the painting neatly pinned to cardboard. He wondered who could have painted it. He saw a ream of paper fall to the ground as he removed the canvas from the cardboard. He picked it up and kept it in his pocket to read them later as his friends were hurrying him to go for lunch.
âMinji painted you!?â Asked Seunghan surprised when the others told him about the painting of Wonbin hung on the exhibition hall . âIt wasnât herâŚ.someone elseâ âWhoâ they all asked at the same time. â how would I know? She wouldnât tell. So I only have this painting and these crumbled papersâ he said and threw those paper on the table. Sohee took the paper immediately and started unfolded them and gasped. âYou should see thisâ he immediately gave those papers. Wonbin was surprised to see his drawing again but this time in pencil and along with him in the drawing he also saw another girl he couldnât quite figure out the face of the girl as it was drawn to face wonbin in the drawing. he also found the polaroid picture of him standing under the cherry blossom tree he stood under a month ago and some quotes. He identified these papers to be from someoneâs diary. He felt butterflies reading all those thing written in the diary. No one had ever made him feel these things. Sure he had a lot of fans admiring him but no one has ever made him this flustered and showed this much love for him. Now he had only three details about the owner of the painting. One, she has a crush on him. Two, Her name is Y/n which he found written at the bottom of her journal as a signature. Three, she was somehow connected to Minji but the third clue is pretty useless as Minji wouldnât open her mouth to give out who this Y/n is. He asked the boys whether they know any Y/n but they all were as clueless as him. âWell Iâm going to meet Minjeong. Did you give her the flowers I gave you yesterday?â Eunseok asked Wonbin to which he just nodded lazily thoughts fully on the owner of the painting.
Wonbin hurriedly ran to Minji as he saw her entering the cafeteria. He obviously scared the poor girl with his sudden appearance. She narrowed his eyes at him and asked him what he wanted to which he asked her to tell who painted this picture. âWhy would you wanna know. Its just a painting get over it dude.â She walked away as fast as she can as she knows that you were somehow connected to this boy and that you are not the type to draw just anyone. At first she thought it was just some boy from a kdrama or boy band. She decided that she should not disclose any information about you to this stranger without your knowledge and she should have a talk with you about this tonight.
You were engrossed in your homework when you heard your sister come in through your bedroom door and calmly sat on you bed watching you carefully. She turned to her and smiled, âhey, how was your dayâ you asked as you continue to do your homework. âIt was pretty good until this boy followed me around asking me why you had drawn a painting of himâ she said and you swear your neck would have dislocated at the speed it turned towards her. âWhy did draw him? Do you know who he is ?â She questioned you âI just saw him around and drew out of inspiration. You know I was just inspired by the cherry blossom and he happened to be there. thatâs allâ You lied through your teeth. âThen you have no problem if I disclose about you to him right? He has been asking who drew it and he keeps pestering meâ she asked crossing her arms, tiredness clearly evident in her eyes. âNo. That would be weird if he found out I drew him randomly. Just keep it a secret please?â You begged her to which she nodded. âBy the way, how would he find out? You said it was for your personal art work?â You questioned her confused to which she nervously yawned and walked away saying how she was tired from walking the university campus all day. You shook your head and continued doing your homework.
The following days went peacefully. You would see Wonbin occasionally when he visited the campus to see Minjeong but he was always accompanied by another guy as well who was fairly taller than him. On the other hand, Wonbin had the painting hung in his bedroom wall and treasured the torn pages from your diary to read it occasionally. No matter how many times he spent reading them, they still gave him butterflies. He also constantly pestered Minji to give some clue about your identity but she never bothered to do so, even though, he sought the help of Sungchan, who is very close to Minji. This had made him hopeless. Nobody around him knows anyone named Y/n and he was desperate to find find out who she was.
âŚâŚuntil one day, when Eunseok mentioned your name to his girlfriend, Minjeong that Wonbin had been searching for this girl named Y/n. â you are searching for Kim Y/n? She is in Grade 11. But, I donât know if she is the one your friend has been searching forâ she saying pointing at your classroom window. As soon as the information was conveyed to Wonbin through Eunseok, he immediately rushed out of the class to your school. He somehow managed to jump up the wall of your ground and reach infront of your class without being caught by the guards. But to his disappointment, No one was in the class room, except for one girl who seemed to have injured her legs which he figured out as it was now covered in bandages. She was staring out the window so she had no clue that someone was here until he called out to her.
You immediately turned your head towards the source of the voice and was surprised to see a him in your class. âWhat are you doing here?â You questioned him âoh itâs youâŚ.the girl from our performance at the street, right?â To which she nodded âIâm sorry about that day, I had to leave because of some personal issue. Oh by the way, I came here for Y/n. I heard she is in your class. You know her?â Her heart stopped for a second. Why was he looking for you out of all the students? Is it because of that painting ? Questions flowed through your head as he anticipated your answer for his question. âOh⌠y/n i-is on holiday. She went on a trip somewhereâ you lied spontaneously without thinking. You could see the visible disappointment in his eyes. He had immediately question when she would return to which you said you werenât sure as well and that you arenât close with Y/n so you wouldnât know, when in reality Y/n is you and he is talking to the one he is looking for.
He nodded sadly and was about to leave when he suddenly turn to you again. âWhatâs your name?â He asked as you panicked, pondering what to tell âuhhâŚ. Its Park Jinaâ he smiled at you and took your notebook to sign it. âWe have actually changed the performance spot. Its at XX Club. I noticed after that day you didnât come back to any of our performances. So, please do come and support us, Jinaâ he smiled and left you alone. You were shocked that he remembered you and actually was kind enough to invite you again to his performances.
Your mind was haunted by his smile again and you had trouble sleeping so you went to the balcony to get some fresh air when you noticed few boys parking their motorbikes at the house located just opposite to your house. You didnât meant to be nosy but you were curious so you just peeked at them. âOh? Jina?? You live here?â NOW WHAT THE FUCK IS WONBIN DOING IN FRONT OF YOUR HOUSE?? He must have caught onto your confused stare as he chuckled a bit and explained from down that it was actually his friend, Sungchanâs house and they were having like a boys night or something at his house. You both continued staring at each other before you cleared your throat awkwardly ,âI have to go now. Its late and you guys have funâ you said and hurriedly went inside. Wonbin thought you were pretty cute blushing under the moonlight and then he immediately retracted that thought and reminded himself that he must stay loyal to Y/n. Poor boy didnât even know that you were Y/n all along. On the other hand, you were hiding in your room and trying take a peek at Wonbin through the window and smiled to yourself when you caught him staring at your balcony, the place where you were standing a few minutes ago. You momentarily thought of him with Minjeong and erased the thought of him having any kind of feelings towards you, as you climbed to your bed and tried to sleep.
Few days later, Wonbin and his friends were at the cafĂŠ. Eunseok has brought his girlfriend, Minjeong as well to hang out. While everyone were talking with each other, Minjeong asked Wonbin whether he had found Y/n and if he had made any progress with her. âBut, she is on holiday. SoâŚ. I havenât really met herâ Minjeong scrunched her eyebrows and said to wonbin that she had actually seen Y/n the campus for the past days and you hadnât really gone to any vacation or anything. âWho told you that though?â âPark Jina from Y/nâs classâ he told her to which Minjeong sighed, âOh my god, wonbin, there is no Park Jina in that class. Someone lied to youâ
Wonbin was shocked and heartbroken as you had lied to him but he wondered why would you do that to him. âShe is not that kind of a person. She is our fan andâŚ.. oh yeah she also lives opposite to sungchanâ Sungchanâs ears perked up at the sound of his name, âlives opposite to me? ButâŚ. Its Minji who lives thereâŚno Jina or whateverâ âMinji?â âYeah, thatâs how me and Minji got close. And yeah I remember she has a sister. Dont know her name though. Minji is so protective of herâ Sungchan explained. âAm I the only one connecting the dots here or did you guys find out as well?â Anton asked which made the group of friends curiously looked in his direction. âSo, my theory is that, Y/n is Jinaâ Wonbin groaned saying this is nonsense and why would you hide the fact that you were infact Y/n and not Jina? âThink about it, someone connected to Minji painted you. The so called Jina a.k.a Y/n lives with Minji who I, assume is Minjiâs sister, who she is so protective of and that might have been the reason why she didnât give any clues as to who Y/n isâ Anton presented his theory to the group as Shotaro gasped and said that it actually makes sense. Wonbin ran out as soon as he heard it. He needed to clarify everything with you and make sure there were no misunderstandings between you two. He waited for you next to your home and came running to you as soon as he saw your figure turning into the street. You greeted Wonbin as you usually do thinking that he is here for another hangout at Sungchanâs house. âY/nâŚ.â He called you with a slight whisper. Your eyes widened at him calling you with your real name. âI-I am not y/nâ âstop lying to me y/nâŚ.all these days i have been looking for you desperately but you lied to me so casually why!?â You were shocked to see him cry. But why? Why would he cry for you? âWonbin⌠I am really sorry for lying to you. Its true that I am y/n bu-â you started explaining but he stopped you âhow can you do this to me? Do you know how desperate I was about finding you? Ask your sister, she will tell youâ he said and ran away without giving you a chance to explain. One thing for sure is, it hurts you to see him like this and you knew it wasnât just some silly infatuation or crush. You loved him, but does he love you back? Well you didnât have answer for that. Before you were sure that he doesnât have any romantic affections towards you as he has Minjeong by his side but his actions today was confusion so you sought the help of your sister. You ran upstairs and opened the door of Minjiâs bedroom. âMinji, did wonbin perhaps ask about me again?â You asked her carefully standing at the entrance of her bedroom to which the older girl sighed in annoyance âOh pleaseâŚ. Donât even get me started with that guys. He asks information on you like 24/7. At this point he is a stalkerâ she said and chuckled âI think he likes you Y/n-ah, I never thought people likes someone just because they painted themâ she smiled at you âbut, what about Minjeong? He has a girlfriendâ you sadly lowered your face and plopped on her bed with you face facing the bed. âKim Minjeong from your school? She is Eunseokâs girlfriend though, Wonbin is terribly singleâ you turned to face her at the speed of the lightening asking if what she told just now was real to which she nodded, confused and told how Sungchan always spills tea about his friends group to her that only Eunseok and seunghan are in a relationship though Seunghanâs girlfriend is currently studying abroad, their long distance relationship has been going strong and stable . Sohee has a crush on someone but is too much of a chicken to admit to her. While the others are hopeless in love life which included Sungchan as well but he wonât admit to it. âMinji, I have something to do now. I will be back. Bye!!â She immediately dashed out of Minjiâs room to search for Wonbin. It was raining hard and she carried her umbrella with her as she headed out. She kept looking for him for around thirty minutes when she finally spotted a figure sitting next to the bus stop, drenched in the heavy rain.
He feels the rain suddenly stopped hitting him. He looked up to find you holding the umbrella above his head. He found you so pretty but he couldnât just forgive you for what you did to him. He immediately got up and turned the other way to walk away as you grabbed his hand to stop him. He heard you apologising quietly. âI was just worried you would think Iâm weird to paint you. I was embarrassed to admit itâŚ.â He turned towards you and held you cheeks in his palm. You couldnât help but blush at the physical contact. You averted your eyes to anywhere but him as he gently asked you to look at him and only him. âStop doing this to meâŚ.. donât make me hopeful if you are not planning on-â he kissed you, stopping your sentence midway. He pulled away and leaned his forehead on yours and smiled, âget your hopes up, cuz I only want youâ.
You saw him under the cherry blossom tree with pink petal falling all around him and on his pretty black raven long hair. You felt like you had suddenly forgotten how to breath. His beauty took your breath away as soon as you had laid your almond eyes on him. You absentmindedly clicked a photo of him with your polaroid camera, which your sister, Minji had gifted you on your 17th birthday. The sound from the polaroid camera startling you as you took the printed picture from the Polaroid camera in your hands, wondering why you impulsively took a photo of this pretty stranger. As you trailed your eyes in front of you to take a glance at the said stranger, he was long gone from the spot he had been standing at. You looked around the park to find him but to your disappointment, he had already left the cherry blossom garden. You wondered if you will ever get to see him again as you longingly looked at the polaroid picture in your hand. You took more pictures of the cherry blossoms as a memory to record in your journal and only left the pink garden once you were satisfied with the amount of pictures you had taken.
At home, your mind and heart were preoccupied by the pretty stranger. What will his name be? Is he a student as well like you? Will you ever be able to meet him again? Trails of thought running in you head had prevented you from sleeping that night. You have had crushes before but nobody had this much effect on you to keep you up until the dawn and resisting your sleepiness. You had only seen him for like 10 minutes but his thought would never leave your mind. You remained awake rerunning the whole fiasco of seeing this man in your mind till dawn. You didnât realise when you slept that night but you knew that it wasnât enough for the normal functioning of your body as the next day you had been feeling sleepy during all of your classes. You struggled to keep your eye open as you finally gave in to the tiredness and slept in one of the classes. WellâŚ.that definitely got you in detention and you had to stay back in school for another two hours before heading home.
On your way home you saw a crowd of people surrounding a band which you assumed after hearing the sounds of guitars and drums echoing in your ears. You couldnât see much due to your pathetic height and the amount of people surrounding around them made it quite impossible for you to look at the band. But, you had to admit that they had talent. You wiggled your way into the crowd just enough for you to look the members of the band and there he wasâŚ. The boy that haunted your mind for the past 24 hours and the one responsible for your detention. The crowd chanting his name loud when he started singing with the beautiful voice that he has. Not only was HE beautiful but also his voice was equally as beautiful as him. Through the crowdsâ chanting you got to know his nameâŚ..Park Wonbin you muttered loud enough to be only heard by you. It suits him, you thought as the song was nearing the end. The crowd surrounding them went to talk with the boys, taking turns as you were left standing alone confused as to what to do.
Well standing in line to talk to Wonbin wonât be a bad idea was the thought you had in your mind as you stood there in line of girls waiting to talk to him and some even getting selfies with him. It was finally your turn. Standing in front of him you were once again mesmerised by his blinding beauty. As you opened you mouth to talk with him, his phone rang making you go silent. He answered the phone and it seemed to be some kind of emergency as you watch him muttering an apology and running to his bicycle to ride the other way and there goes your chance of talking to him.
At night you went home and drew his face on your journals and your heartfelt feeling for him well it has kind of became a habit of yours to do this every night after that day meeting him at the road and you also waited in the same spot the band had performed but no performance took place after that day. You would also visit the cherry blossom garden in hopes of meeting him again but your luck had always been low and you never got to meet him again after that. You were almost losing hopes when you saw him again that day in front of the school but you wished you had a detention instead of looking at the scene which unfolds in front of you. You saw him giving a bouquet of roses to a girl who you recognised as Kim Minjeong from another class with a pretty smile. You wished you were in her place and what would it feel like to receive roses from Wonbin, the perfect human being you had ever laid your eye on. You looked away from then unable to bear the uneasiness growing in your heart and headed home. At home, You couldnât manage your feelings, you had felt too empty and thatâs when you decided you should paint. Painting had alway been your comfort zone almost like your safe place. It makes you forget all the pain and bitter memories. You recklessly started painting the empty canvas and poured your heart into painting. After hours it was almost 11 pm when you finally finished your painting. You looked at it and you hadnât even realised all along you had been painting Wonbin smiling under the cherry blossom tree. You were considering to tear it off and to avoid any further feelings for him as it would only result in hurting your feelings. But, it would be such a waste of talent and your time spent drawing it as well. So, you just left it to dry you tore all the paper that consists of his drawings and your feelings you had for him written in them off from your journal note neatly and folded it and kept it next to the painting as you were planning on hiding them all away in your storage room the next day and went to bed as tiredness takes over your body.
The next day, your were woken up by your Sister, Minji. She complimented your painting as soon as you opened your eyes. You sighed and confessed that you were considering throwing it away. Minji immediately refuted that idea and asked if she can use it for her art project instead to which you had agreed without much thoughts. She hugged you thankfully and left the room with your painting. Unknowingly she also took the Journal papers with her, accidentally along with the painting.
You did your morning routine half heartedly and had your breakfast. Soon after you left to your school to continue your normal day
On the other sideâŚ.
Minji actually lied to you,she took your painting for an art exhibition held in her university and not for her personal art project. She knew you wouldnât give it to her so she lied. Well a small lie wouldnât hurt right? Thatâs what she thought when she hung your painting on the art hall and she also thought those journal papers were some rubbish as she hadnât read it. So, she placed it behind the painting and went to help the other students.
Soon the exhibition has started and student started filling in the hall to look at the paintings. Wonbin being the freshmen in that university also joined his friends to looks at the different types of paintings hung in there, appreciating each one of them as he can never imagine creating such beautiful masterpieces with different colours. âWait a minute, doesnât that painting look like wonbin?â These were the words that immediately got his attention. As he looked at the picture he was mesmerised at the beauty of it. He wondered who painted him that beautifully. He started asking around the exhibition about the owner of the painting as everyone pointed at Minji saying she was the one who hung it there. He immediately went to her and called her. Upon looking at him Minji seemed to recognise him from somewhere but she was quite not sure where. âHave we met before? You seem familiar â she told him as he pointed at the painting â well you painted me. Do you know me?â Minji gasped as soon she recognised where she had seen his face. âOh wellâŚ.. it isnât exactly my painting. Its from someone I knowâ she answered âwho?â âI canât answer that. Itâs confidentialâ she said and turned away. âCan I have that painting?â He asked to which she immediately said no, âbut its me in the painting so it belongs to meâ he argued and crossed his hands across his chest. Minji rolled her eyes,âFine, you can have it. She was about to throw it anywaysâ she told him and walked away annoyed by him. âThrow it?? But its such a pretty painting? Who dares to throw away this?â He sighed and went to pick up the painting neatly pinned to cardboard. He wondered who could have painted it. He saw a ream of paper fall to the ground as he removed the canvas from the cardboard. He picked it up and kept it in his pocket to read them later as his friends were hurrying him to go for lunch.
âMinji painted you!?â Asked Seunghan surprised when the others told him about the painting of Wonbin hung on the exhibition hall . âIt wasnât herâŚ.someone elseâ âWhoâ they all asked at the same time. â how would I know? She wouldnât tell. So I only have this painting and these crumbled papersâ he said and threw those paper on the table. Sohee took the paper immediately and started unfolded them and gasped. âYou should see thisâ he immediately gave those papers. Wonbin was surprised to see his drawing again but this time in pencil and along with him in the drawing he also saw another girl he couldnât quite figure out the face of the girl as it was drawn to face wonbin in the drawing. he also found the polaroid picture of him standing under the cherry blossom tree he stood under a month ago and some quotes. He identified these papers to be from someoneâs diary. He felt butterflies reading all those thing written in the diary. No one had ever made him feel these things. Sure he had a lot of fans admiring him but no one has ever made him this flustered and showed this much love for him. Now he had only three details about the owner of the painting. One, she has a crush on him. Two, Her name is Y/n which he found written at the bottom of her journal as a signature. Three, she was somehow connected to Minji but the third clue is pretty useless as Minji wouldnât open her mouth to give out who this Y/n is. He asked the boys whether they know any Y/n but they all were as clueless as him. âWell Iâm going to meet Minjeong. Did you give her the flowers I gave you yesterday?â Eunseok asked Wonbin to which he just nodded lazily thoughts fully on the owner of the painting.
Wonbin hurriedly ran to Minji as he saw her entering the cafeteria. He obviously scared the poor girl with his sudden appearance. She narrowed his eyes at him and asked him what he wanted to which he asked her to tell who painted this picture. âWhy would you wanna know. Its just a painting get over it dude.â She walked away as fast as she can as she knows that you were somehow connected to this boy and that you are not the type to draw just anyone. At first she thought it was just some boy from a kdrama or boy band. She decided that she should not disclose any information about you to this stranger without your knowledge and she should have a talk with you about this tonight.
You were engrossed in your homework when you heard your sister come in through your bedroom door and calmly sat on you bed watching you carefully. She turned to her and smiled, âhey, how was your dayâ you asked as you continue to do your homework. âIt was pretty good until this boy followed me around asking me why you had drawn a painting of himâ she said and you swear your neck would have dislocated at the speed it turned towards her. âWhy did draw him? Do you know who he is ?â She questioned you âI just saw him around and drew out of inspiration. You know I was just inspired by the cherry blossom and he happened to be there. thatâs allâ You lied through your teeth. âThen you have no problem if I disclose about you to him right? He has been asking who drew it and he keeps pestering meâ she asked crossing her arms, tiredness clearly evident in her eyes. âNo. That would be weird if he found out I drew him randomly. Just keep it a secret please?â You begged her to which she nodded. âBy the way, how would he find out? You said it was for your personal art work?â You questioned her confused to which she nervously yawned and walked away saying how she was tired from walking the university campus all day. You shook your head and continued doing your homework.
The following days went peacefully. You would see Wonbin occasionally when he visited the campus to see Minjeong but he was always accompanied by another guy as well who was fairly taller than him. On the other hand, Wonbin had the painting hung in his bedroom wall and treasured the torn pages from your diary to read it occasionally. No matter how many times he spent reading them, they still gave him butterflies. He also constantly pestered Minji to give some clue about your identity but she never bothered to do so, even though, he sought the help of Sungchan, who is very close to Minji. This had made him hopeless. Nobody around him knows anyone named Y/n and he was desperate to find find out who she was.
âŚâŚuntil one day, when Eunseok mentioned your name to his girlfriend, Minjeong that Wonbin had been searching for this girl named Y/n. â you are searching for Kim Y/n? She is in Grade 11. But, I donât know if she is the one your friend has been searching forâ she saying pointing at your classroom window. As soon as the information was conveyed to Wonbin through Eunseok, he immediately rushed out of the class to your school. He somehow managed to jump up the wall of your ground and reach infront of your class without being caught by the guards. But to his disappointment, No one was in the class room, except for one girl who seemed to have injured her legs which he figured out as it was now covered in bandages. She was staring out the window so she had no clue that someone was here until he called out to her.
You immediately turned your head towards the source of the voice and was surprised to see a him in your class. âWhat are you doing here?â You questioned him âoh itâs youâŚ.the girl from our performance at the street, right?â To which she nodded âIâm sorry about that day, I had to leave because of some personal issue. Oh by the way, I came here for Y/n. I heard she is in your class. You know her?â Her heart stopped for a second. Why was he looking for you out of all the students? Is it because of that painting ? Questions flowed through your head as he anticipated your answer for his question. âOh⌠y/n i-is on holiday. She went on a trip somewhereâ you lied spontaneously without thinking. You could see the visible disappointment in his eyes. He had immediately question when she would return to which you said you werenât sure as well and that you arenât close with Y/n so you wouldnât know, when in reality Y/n is you and he is talking to the one he is looking for.
He nodded sadly and was about to leave when he suddenly turn to you again. âWhatâs your name?â He asked as you panicked, pondering what to tell âuhhâŚ. Its Park Jinaâ he smiled at you and took your notebook to sign it. âWe have actually changed the performance spot. Its at XX Club. I noticed after that day you didnât come back to any of our performances. So, please do come and support us, Jinaâ he smiled and left you alone. You were shocked that he remembered you and actually was kind enough to invite you again to his performances.
Your mind was haunted by his smile again and you had trouble sleeping so you went to the balcony to get some fresh air when you noticed few boys parking their motorbikes at the house located just opposite to your house. You didnât meant to be nosy but you were curious so you just peeked at them. âOh? Jina?? You live here?â NOW WHAT THE FUCK IS WONBIN DOING IN FRONT OF YOUR HOUSE?? He must have caught onto your confused stare as he chuckled a bit and explained from down that it was actually his friend, Sungchanâs house and they were having like a boys night or something at his house. You both continued staring at each other before you cleared your throat awkwardly ,âI have to go now. Its late and you guys have funâ you said and hurriedly went inside. Wonbin thought you were pretty cute blushing under the moonlight and then he immediately retracted that thought and reminded himself that he must stay loyal to Y/n. Poor boy didnât even know that you were Y/n all along. On the other hand, you were hiding in your room and trying take a peek at Wonbin through the window and smiled to yourself when you caught him staring at your balcony, the place where you were standing a few minutes ago. You momentarily thought of him with Minjeong and erased the thought of him having any kind of feelings towards you, as you climbed to your bed and tried to sleep.
Few days later, Wonbin and his friends were at the cafĂŠ. Eunseok has brought his girlfriend, Minjeong as well to hang out. While everyone were talking with each other, Minjeong asked Wonbin whether he had found Y/n and if he had made any progress with her. âBut, she is on holiday. SoâŚ. I havenât really met herâ Minjeong scrunched her eyebrows and said to wonbin that she had actually seen Y/n the campus for the past days and you hadnât really gone to any vacation or anything. âWho told you that though?â âPark Jina from Y/nâs classâ he told her to which Minjeong sighed, âOh my god, wonbin, there is no Park Jina in that class. Someone lied to youâ
Wonbin was shocked and heartbroken as you had lied to him but he wondered why would you do that to him. âShe is not that kind of a person. She is our fan andâŚ.. oh yeah she also lives opposite to sungchanâ Sungchanâs ears perked up at the sound of his name, âlives opposite to me? ButâŚ. Its Minji who lives thereâŚno Jina or whateverâ âMinji?â âYeah, thatâs how me and Minji got close. And yeah I remember she has a sister. Dont know her name though. Minji is so protective of herâ Sungchan explained. âAm I the only one connecting the dots here or did you guys find out as well?â Anton asked which made the group of friends curiously looked in his direction. âSo, my theory is that, Y/n is Jinaâ Wonbin groaned saying this is nonsense and why would you hide the fact that you were infact Y/n and not Jina? âThink about it, someone connected to Minji painted you. The so called Jina a.k.a Y/n lives with Minji who I, assume is Minjiâs sister, who she is so protective of and that might have been the reason why she didnât give any clues as to who Y/n isâ Anton presented his theory to the group as Shotaro gasped and said that it actually makes sense. Wonbin ran out as soon as he heard it. He needed to clarify everything with you and make sure there were no misunderstandings between you two. He waited for you next to your home and came running to you as soon as he saw your figure turning into the street. You greeted Wonbin as you usually do thinking that he is here for another hangout at Sungchanâs house. âY/nâŚ.â He called you with a slight whisper. Your eyes widened at him calling you with your real name. âI-I am not y/nâ âstop lying to me y/nâŚ.all these days i have been looking for you desperately but you lied to me so casually why!?â You were shocked to see him cry. But why? Why would he cry for you? âWonbin⌠I am really sorry for lying to you. Its true that I am y/n bu-â you started explaining but he stopped you âhow can you do this to me? Do you know how desperate I was about finding you? Ask your sister, she will tell youâ he said and ran away without giving you a chance to explain. One thing for sure is, it hurts you to see him like this and you knew it wasnât just some silly infatuation or crush. You loved him, but does he love you back? Well you didnât have answer for that. Before you were sure that he doesnât have any romantic affections towards you as he has Minjeong by his side but his actions today was confusion so you sought the help of your sister. You ran upstairs and opened the door of Minjiâs bedroom. âMinji, did wonbin perhaps ask about me again?â You asked her carefully standing at the entrance of her bedroom to which the older girl sighed in annoyance âOh pleaseâŚ. Donât even get me started with that guys. He asks information on you like 24/7. At this point he is a stalkerâ she said and chuckled âI think he likes you Y/n-ah, I never thought people likes someone just because they painted themâ she smiled at you âbut, what about Minjeong? He has a girlfriendâ you sadly lowered your face and plopped on her bed with you face facing the bed. âKim Minjeong from your school? She is Eunseokâs girlfriend though, Wonbin is terribly singleâ you turned to face her at the speed of the lightening asking if what she told just now was real to which she nodded, confused and told how Sungchan always spills tea about his friends group to her that only Eunseok and seunghan are in a relationship though Seunghanâs girlfriend is currently studying abroad, their long distance relationship has been going strong and stable . Sohee has a crush on someone but is too much of a chicken to admit to her. While the others are hopeless in love life which included Sungchan as well but he wonât admit to it. âMinji, I have something to do now. I will be back. Bye!!â She immediately dashed out of Minjiâs room to search for Wonbin. It was raining hard and she carried her umbrella with her as she headed out. She kept looking for him for around thirty minutes when she finally spotted a figure sitting next to the bus stop, drenched in the heavy rain.
He feels the rain suddenly stopped hitting him. He looked up to find you holding the umbrella above his head. He found you so pretty but he couldnât just forgive you for what you did to him. He immediately got up and turned the other way to walk away as you grabbed his hand to stop him. He heard you apologising quietly. âI was just worried you would think Iâm weird to paint you. I was embarrassed to admit itâŚ.â He turned towards you and held you cheeks in his palm. You couldnât help but blush at the physical contact. You averted your eyes to anywhere but him as he gently asked you to look at him and only him. âStop doing this to meâŚ.. donât make me hopeful if you are not planning on-â he kissed you, stopping your sentence midway. He pulled away and leaned his forehead on yours and smiled, âget your hopes up, cuz I only want youâ.
You saw him under the cherry blossom tree with pink petal falling all around him and on his pretty black raven long hair. You felt like you had suddenly forgotten how to breath. His beauty took your breath away as soon as you had laid your almond eyes on him. You absentmindedly clicked a photo of him with your polaroid camera, which your sister, Minji had gifted you on your 17th birthday. The sound from the polaroid camera startling you as you took the printed picture from the Polaroid camera in your hands, wondering why you impulsively took a photo of this pretty stranger. As you trailed your eyes in front of you to take a glance at the said stranger, he was long gone from the spot he had been standing at. You looked around the park to find him but to your disappointment, he had already left the cherry blossom garden. You wondered if you will ever get to see him again as you longingly looked at the polaroid picture in your hand. You took more pictures of the cherry blossoms as a memory to record in your journal and only left the pink garden once you were satisfied with the amount of pictures you had taken.
At home, your mind and heart were preoccupied by the pretty stranger. What will his name be? Is he a student as well like you? Will you ever be able to meet him again? Trails of thought running in you head had prevented you from sleeping that night. You have had crushes before but nobody had this much effect on you to keep you up until the dawn and resisting your sleepiness. You had only seen him for like 10 minutes but his thought would never leave your mind. You remained awake rerunning the whole fiasco of seeing this man in your mind till dawn. You didnât realise when you slept that night but you knew that it wasnât enough for the normal functioning of your body as the next day you had been feeling sleepy during all of your classes. You struggled to keep your eye open as you finally gave in to the tiredness and slept in one of the classes. WellâŚ.that definitely got you in detention and you had to stay back in school for another two hours before heading home.
On your way home you saw a crowd of people surrounding a band which you assumed after hearing the sounds of guitars and drums echoing in your ears. You couldnât see much due to your pathetic height and the amount of people surrounding around them made it quite impossible for you to look at the band. But, you had to admit that they had talent. You wiggled your way into the crowd just enough for you to look the members of the band and there he wasâŚ. The boy that haunted your mind for the past 24 hours and the one responsible for your detention. The crowd chanting his name loud when he started singing with the beautiful voice that he has. Not only was HE beautiful but also his voice was equally as beautiful as him. Through the crowdsâ chanting you got to know his nameâŚ..Park Wonbin you muttered loud enough to be only heard by you. It suits him, you thought as the song was nearing the end. The crowd surrounding them went to talk with the boys, taking turns as you were left standing alone confused as to what to do.
Well standing in line to talk to Wonbin wonât be a bad idea was the thought you had in your mind as you stood there in line of girls waiting to talk to him and some even getting selfies with him. It was finally your turn. Standing in front of him you were once again mesmerised by his blinding beauty. As you opened you mouth to talk with him, his phone rang making you go silent. He answered the phone and it seemed to be some kind of emergency as you watch him muttering an apology and running to his bicycle to ride the other way and there goes your chance of talking to him.
At night you went home and drew his face on your journals and your heartfelt feeling for him well it has kind of became a habit of yours to do this every night after that day meeting him at the road and you also waited in the same spot the band had performed but no performance took place after that day. You would also visit the cherry blossom garden in hopes of meeting him again but your luck had always been low and you never got to meet him again after that. You were almost losing hopes when you saw him again that day in front of the school but you wished you had a detention instead of looking at the scene which unfolds in front of you. You saw him giving a bouquet of roses to a girl who you recognised as Kim Minjeong from another class with a pretty smile. You wished you were in her place and what would it feel like to receive roses from Wonbin, the perfect human being you had ever laid your eye on. You looked away from then unable to bear the uneasiness growing in your heart and headed home. At home, You couldnât manage your feelings, you had felt too empty and thatâs when you decided you should paint. Painting had alway been your comfort zone almost like your safe place. It makes you forget all the pain and bitter memories. You recklessly started painting the empty canvas and poured your heart into painting. After hours it was almost 11 pm when you finally finished your painting. You looked at it and you hadnât even realised all along you had been painting Wonbin smiling under the cherry blossom tree. You were considering to tear it off and to avoid any further feelings for him as it would only result in hurting your feelings. But, it would be such a waste of talent and your time spent drawing it as well. So, you just left it to dry you tore all the paper that consists of his drawings and your feelings you had for him written in them off from your journal note neatly and folded it and kept it next to the painting as you were planning on hiding them all away in your storage room the next day and went to bed as tiredness takes over your body.
The next day, your were woken up by your Sister, Minji. She complimented your painting as soon as you opened your eyes. You sighed and confessed that you were considering throwing it away. Minji immediately refuted that idea and asked if she can use it for her art project instead to which you had agreed without much thoughts. She hugged you thankfully and left the room with your painting. Unknowingly she also took the Journal papers with her, accidentally along with the painting.
You did your morning routine half heartedly and had your breakfast. Soon after you left to your school to continue your normal day
On the other sideâŚ.
Minji actually lied to you,she took your painting for an art exhibition held in her university and not for her personal art project. She knew you wouldnât give it to her so she lied. Well a small lie wouldnât hurt right? Thatâs what she thought when she hung your painting on the art hall and she also thought those journal papers were some rubbish as she hadnât read it. So, she placed it behind the painting and went to help the other students.
Soon the exhibition has started and student started filling in the hall to look at the paintings. Wonbin being the freshmen in that university also joined his friends to looks at the different types of paintings hung in there, appreciating each one of them as he can never imagine creating such beautiful masterpieces with different colours. âWait a minute, doesnât that painting look like wonbin?â These were the words that immediately got his attention. As he looked at the picture he was mesmerised at the beauty of it. He wondered who painted him that beautifully. He started asking around the exhibition about the owner of the painting as everyone pointed at Minji saying she was the one who hung it there. He immediately went to her and called her. Upon looking at him Minji seemed to recognise him from somewhere but she was quite not sure where. âHave we met before? You seem familiar â she told him as he pointed at the painting â well you painted me. Do you know me?â Minji gasped as soon she recognised where she had seen his face. âOh wellâŚ.. it isnât exactly my painting. Its from someone I knowâ she answered âwho?â âI canât answer that. Itâs confidentialâ she said and turned away. âCan I have that painting?â He asked to which she immediately said no, âbut its me in the painting so it belongs to meâ he argued and crossed his hands across his chest. Minji rolled her eyes,âFine, you can have it. She was about to throw it anywaysâ she told him and walked away annoyed by him. âThrow it?? But its such a pretty painting? Who dares to throw away this?â He sighed and went to pick up the painting neatly pinned to cardboard. He wondered who could have painted it. He saw a ream of paper fall to the ground as he removed the canvas from the cardboard. He picked it up and kept it in his pocket to read them later as his friends were hurrying him to go for lunch.
âMinji painted you!?â Asked Seunghan surprised when the others told him about the painting of Wonbin hung on the exhibition hall . âIt wasnât herâŚ.someone elseâ âWhoâ they all asked at the same time. â how would I know? She wouldnât tell. So I only have this painting and these crumbled papersâ he said and threw those paper on the table. Sohee took the paper immediately and started unfolded them and gasped. âYou should see thisâ he immediately gave those papers. Wonbin was surprised to see his drawing again but this time in pencil and along with him in the drawing he also saw another girl he couldnât quite figure out the face of the girl as it was drawn to face wonbin in the drawing. he also found the polaroid picture of him standing under the cherry blossom tree he stood under a month ago and some quotes. He identified these papers to be from someoneâs diary. He felt butterflies reading all those thing written in the diary. No one had ever made him feel these things. Sure he had a lot of fans admiring him but no one has ever made him this flustered and showed this much love for him. Now he had only three details about the owner of the painting. One, she has a crush on him. Two, Her name is Y/n which he found written at the bottom of her journal as a signature. Three, she was somehow connected to Minji but the third clue is pretty useless as Minji wouldnât open her mouth to give out who this Y/n is. He asked the boys whether they know any Y/n but they all were as clueless as him. âWell Iâm going to meet Minjeong. Did you give her the flowers I gave you yesterday?â Eunseok asked Wonbin to which he just nodded lazily thoughts fully on the owner of the painting.
Wonbin hurriedly ran to Minji as he saw her entering the cafeteria. He obviously scared the poor girl with his sudden appearance. She narrowed his eyes at him and asked him what he wanted to which he asked her to tell who painted this picture. âWhy would you wanna know. Its just a painting get over it dude.â She walked away as fast as she can as she knows that you were somehow connected to this boy and that you are not the type to draw just anyone. At first she thought it was just some boy from a kdrama or boy band. She decided that she should not disclose any information about you to this stranger without your knowledge and she should have a talk with you about this tonight.
You were engrossed in your homework when you heard your sister come in through your bedroom door and calmly sat on you bed watching you carefully. She turned to her and smiled, âhey, how was your dayâ you asked as you continue to do your homework. âIt was pretty good until this boy followed me around asking me why you had drawn a painting of himâ she said and you swear your neck would have dislocated at the speed it turned towards her. âWhy did draw him? Do you know who he is ?â She questioned you âI just saw him around and drew out of inspiration. You know I was just inspired by the cherry blossom and he happened to be there. thatâs allâ You lied through your teeth. âThen you have no problem if I disclose about you to him right? He has been asking who drew it and he keeps pestering meâ she asked crossing her arms, tiredness clearly evident in her eyes. âNo. That would be weird if he found out I drew him randomly. Just keep it a secret please?â You begged her to which she nodded. âBy the way, how would he find out? You said it was for your personal art work?â You questioned her confused to which she nervously yawned and walked away saying how she was tired from walking the university campus all day. You shook your head and continued doing your homework.
The following days went peacefully. You would see Wonbin occasionally when he visited the campus to see Minjeong but he was always accompanied by another guy as well who was fairly taller than him. On the other hand, Wonbin had the painting hung in his bedroom wall and treasured the torn pages from your diary to read it occasionally. No matter how many times he spent reading them, they still gave him butterflies. He also constantly pestered Minji to give some clue about your identity but she never bothered to do so, even though, he sought the help of Sungchan, who is very close to Minji. This had made him hopeless. Nobody around him knows anyone named Y/n and he was desperate to find find out who she was.
âŚâŚuntil one day, when Eunseok mentioned your name to his girlfriend, Minjeong that Wonbin had been searching for this girl named Y/n. â you are searching for Kim Y/n? She is in Grade 11. But, I donât know if she is the one your friend has been searching forâ she saying pointing at your classroom window. As soon as the information was conveyed to Wonbin through Eunseok, he immediately rushed out of the class to your school. He somehow managed to jump up the wall of your ground and reach infront of your class without being caught by the guards. But to his disappointment, No one was in the class room, except for one girl who seemed to have injured her legs which he figured out as it was now covered in bandages. She was staring out the window so she had no clue that someone was here until he called out to her.
You immediately turned your head towards the source of the voice and was surprised to see a him in your class. âWhat are you doing here?â You questioned him âoh itâs youâŚ.the girl from our performance at the street, right?â To which she nodded âIâm sorry about that day, I had to leave because of some personal issue. Oh by the way, I came here for Y/n. I heard she is in your class. You know her?â Her heart stopped for a second. Why was he looking for you out of all the students? Is it because of that painting ? Questions flowed through your head as he anticipated your answer for his question. âOh⌠y/n i-is on holiday. She went on a trip somewhereâ you lied spontaneously without thinking. You could see the visible disappointment in his eyes. He had immediately question when she would return to which you said you werenât sure as well and that you arenât close with Y/n so you wouldnât know, when in reality Y/n is you and he is talking to the one he is looking for.
He nodded sadly and was about to leave when he suddenly turn to you again. âWhatâs your name?â He asked as you panicked, pondering what to tell âuhhâŚ. Its Park Jinaâ he smiled at you and took your notebook to sign it. âWe have actually changed the performance spot. Its at XX Club. I noticed after that day you didnât come back to any of our performances. So, please do come and support us, Jinaâ he smiled and left you alone. You were shocked that he remembered you and actually was kind enough to invite you again to his performances.
Your mind was haunted by his smile again and you had trouble sleeping so you went to the balcony to get some fresh air when you noticed few boys parking their motorbikes at the house located just opposite to your house. You didnât meant to be nosy but you were curious so you just peeked at them. âOh? Jina?? You live here?â NOW WHAT THE FUCK IS WONBIN DOING IN FRONT OF YOUR HOUSE?? He must have caught onto your confused stare as he chuckled a bit and explained from down that it was actually his friend, Sungchanâs house and they were having like a boys night or something at his house. You both continued staring at each other before you cleared your throat awkwardly ,âI have to go now. Its late and you guys have funâ you said and hurriedly went inside. Wonbin thought you were pretty cute blushing under the moonlight and then he immediately retracted that thought and reminded himself that he must stay loyal to Y/n. Poor boy didnât even know that you were Y/n all along. On the other hand, you were hiding in your room and trying take a peek at Wonbin through the window and smiled to yourself when you caught him staring at your balcony, the place where you were standing a few minutes ago. You momentarily thought of him with Minjeong and erased the thought of him having any kind of feelings towards you, as you climbed to your bed and tried to sleep.
Few days later, Wonbin and his friends were at the cafĂŠ. Eunseok has brought his girlfriend, Minjeong as well to hang out. While everyone were talking with each other, Minjeong asked Wonbin whether he had found Y/n and if he had made any progress with her. âBut, she is on holiday. SoâŚ. I havenât really met herâ Minjeong scrunched her eyebrows and said to wonbin that she had actually seen Y/n the campus for the past days and you hadnât really gone to any vacation or anything. âWho told you that though?â âPark Jina from Y/nâs classâ he told her to which Minjeong sighed, âOh my god, wonbin, there is no Park Jina in that class. Someone lied to youâ
Wonbin was shocked and heartbroken as you had lied to him but he wondered why would you do that to him. âShe is not that kind of a person. She is our fan andâŚ.. oh yeah she also lives opposite to sungchanâ Sungchanâs ears perked up at the sound of his name, âlives opposite to me? ButâŚ. Its Minji who lives thereâŚno Jina or whateverâ âMinji?â âYeah, thatâs how me and Minji got close. And yeah I remember she has a sister. Dont know her name though. Minji is so protective of herâ Sungchan explained. âAm I the only one connecting the dots here or did you guys find out as well?â Anton asked which made the group of friends curiously looked in his direction. âSo, my theory is that, Y/n is Jinaâ Wonbin groaned saying this is nonsense and why would you hide the fact that you were infact Y/n and not Jina? âThink about it, someone connected to Minji painted you. The so called Jina a.k.a Y/n lives with Minji who I, assume is Minjiâs sister, who she is so protective of and that might have been the reason why she didnât give any clues as to who Y/n isâ Anton presented his theory to the group as Shotaro gasped and said that it actually makes sense. Wonbin ran out as soon as he heard it. He needed to clarify everything with you and make sure there were no misunderstandings between you two. He waited for you next to your home and came running to you as soon as he saw your figure turning into the street. You greeted Wonbin as you usually do thinking that he is here for another hangout at Sungchanâs house. âY/nâŚ.â He called you with a slight whisper. Your eyes widened at him calling you with your real name. âI-I am not y/nâ âstop lying to me y/nâŚ.all these days i have been looking for you desperately but you lied to me so casually why!?â You were shocked to see him cry. But why? Why would he cry for you? âWonbin⌠I am really sorry for lying to you. Its true that I am y/n bu-â you started explaining but he stopped you âhow can you do this to me? Do you know how desperate I was about finding you? Ask your sister, she will tell youâ he said and ran away without giving you a chance to explain. One thing for sure is, it hurts you to see him like this and you knew it wasnât just some silly infatuation or crush. You loved him, but does he love you back? Well you didnât have answer for that. Before you were sure that he doesnât have any romantic affections towards you as he has Minjeong by his side but his actions today was confusion so you sought the help of your sister. You ran upstairs and opened the door of Minjiâs bedroom. âMinji, did wonbin perhaps ask about me again?â You asked her carefully standing at the entrance of her bedroom to which the older girl sighed in annoyance âOh pleaseâŚ. Donât even get me started with that guys. He asks information on you like 24/7. At this point he is a stalkerâ she said and chuckled âI think he likes you Y/n-ah, I never thought people likes someone just because they painted themâ she smiled at you âbut, what about Minjeong? He has a girlfriendâ you sadly lowered your face and plopped on her bed with you face facing the bed. âKim Minjeong from your school? She is Eunseokâs girlfriend though, Wonbin is terribly singleâ you turned to face her at the speed of the lightening asking if what she told just now was real to which she nodded, confused and told how Sungchan always spills tea about his friends group to her that only Eunseok and seunghan are in a relationship though Seunghanâs girlfriend is currently studying abroad, their long distance relationship has been going strong and stable . Sohee has a crush on someone but is too much of a chicken to admit to her. While the others are hopeless in love life which included Sungchan as well but he wonât admit to it. âMinji, I have something to do now. I will be back. Bye!!â She immediately dashed out of Minjiâs room to search for Wonbin. It was raining hard and she carried her umbrella with her as she headed out. She kept looking for him for around thirty minutes when she finally spotted a figure sitting next to the bus stop, drenched in the heavy rain.
He feels the rain suddenly stopped hitting him. He looked up to find you holding the umbrella above his head. He found you so pretty but he couldnât just forgive you for what you did to him. He immediately got up and turned the other way to walk away as you grabbed his hand to stop him. He heard you apologising quietly. âI was just worried you would think Iâm weird to paint you. I was embarrassed to admit itâŚ.â He turned towards you and held you cheeks in his palm. You couldnât help but blush at the physical contact. You averted your eyes to anywhere but him as he gently asked you to look at him and only him. âStop doing this to meâŚ.. donât make me hopeful if you are not planning on-â he kissed you, stopping your sentence midway. He pulled away and leaned his forehead on yours and smiled, âget your hopes up, cuz I only want youâ.
This Fic was originally written for Stray kids Han. But now I'm releasing it as Jay fic. It's just a short fic. Enjoy reading đ
Y/n's POV:
Currently, I'm on a bus to jeju island, waiting for all my classmates to board the bus. We were going to Jeju island for a school trip. Yeah classic. But, going on vacation and stuffs like that are not really my type. I prefer to stay at home watching netflix or reading some good novels. Then you might think as to why I am here.....well, actually my best friend Jina, dragged me to this trip, like literally. Why? Because her crush Sunghoon is going on the trip. I saw Jay boarding the bus, He is one of the richest students in the school, so he had only a few friends whom he trusts and believes.
I have never seen him date any girl despite his Playboy look. I secretly had a teeny weeny crush on him which I never disclosed to anyone. Even Jina doesn't have any idea that I like Jay. I manage to make it a well kept secret which is known only to me and no one else. We made an eye contact briefly before I decided to quickly turn my eyes away from him. The bus started and put my earphones on and presented that I was in a freaking music video as I admired the natural scenery passing by outside the window. The journey came to an end after hours of travel and we all got off of the bus and went to the rooms allocated to us by the homeroom teacher. I shared my room with Jina and some other girls from my class. The hotel was located near the beach so, the view looked really pretty. Oh how I wish I could just sit here and enjoy without having to go out and socialise? But we'll guess who is dragging me outside now? Yep, none other than Jina. She dragged me out to the beach side and saw some guys from our class playing in the water. Now I know why she desperately pulled me out of the room. Sunghoon was here, playing among the students. She kept on rambling about how hot Sunghoon was but my eyes were only fixated on one person, Jay.
Soon it was time for dinner, after we filled our stomach with some yummy foods I decided to just go back to the room but Jina didn't let me," where are you going? I heard they set a campfire next to the lounge. Let's go there"she exclaimed and begged me cutely. Well one can never say no to a cute lady..."okay but only for few minute" I said. I expected it to be crowded but guess everyone left to sleep as they were tired from the travel. Only Sunghoon's group and some other few students were there. Now I know the intention behind why Jina dragged me here and this is the second time I'm getting fooled by her cuteness today. "Hey can you guys join us for a game?" Heeseung asked us. I wanted to refuse but- "of course" Jina happily joined them dragging me down with her again. I sat next to Jungwkm,"so what game are we playing?" Jay asked. He looked kind of bored and not interested.
"So let's spin the bottle and whoever it points to has to play Pepero game with the person on the other side of the bottle" Ni-ki said and wiggled his eyebrows like a evil person. Everyone cheered hearing his idea while I wondered where he gets these weird ideas from. Sunoo spun the bottle first, it stopped in front of Heeseung and Sunoo(đ) they managed to complete the game without any mess(a.k.a lips touching). Next, the bottle pointed on Sunghoon and Jina, we all cheered loudly for them, it was so funny watching Jina flustered. The game went on and it was happy and fun until the bottle stopped infront of me and... Jay. I was clearly nervous when he approached me with the Pepero stick. The game started and he didn't make any efforts to move forward so I did. I looked at his eyes but he was clearly not interested at all.
This broke my heart for some reason. So, I just backed away from the game even when the Pepero stick was not even half completed. "I don't think Jay likes this. So, let's finish it here....please excuse me I have to go somewhere" I told them and walked away from the campfire and went to the beach alone. I sat there crying in silence looking at the sea. Someone sat next to me but I didn't mind since I thought it'd probably be Jina. "Why are you crying?" Once I heard his voice I thought I was dreaming until I turned towards him and made eye contact. "What are you doing here Jay?" I asked him which he replied with, "Look you make it look like I made you cry. So my friends compelled me to console you" he said with straight face. Yeah right, why else would he come here?, "I need some time alone" I said and stood up from there realizing he's not gonna go away from there. "Wait...sit here" he said holding my hand "I'm not your dog to do as you say" I snapped at him. "Please" he made those puppy eyes. Did he learn that from Jina? "Ugh fine, just for few minutes" I sat down again next to him, looking at the sea.
"Do you know why I don't date anyone...? It's because my family forbid me to do so" he said now looking at me. I felt sad for him, "but why are explaining it to me?" I asked him. "It's just I like someone.... I can't express it to her. So, I wanted someone's opinion. You just happened to be here" I felt my heartbreaking. Even though I know he's out of my range, I had a small hope that he looked at me as more than just a classmate when he explained about his family to me but guess not and also he likes someone else. It hurts to know that I am not the favourite person of my favourite person. "If you like her, then just man up and tell her. No family would want to destroy their own children's happiness" I said to him sadly. "Then can I do it now?" He asked bluntly,"go on and tell her. Good luck" I told him and turned away sadly, "I love you" he told loudly and I looked at him weirdly "not here. To the girl you like, stupid Jay" "yeah, that's what I'm doing, I love you, Y/n" he confessed and I can see that he meant it through the look in his eyes. "You never spared a glance at me and you looked so irritated during the Pepero game only to say you love me?" I asked him crying out of happiness (lol) I just want to scold him a little for being so cold to me. "Y/n, it's okay if you don't like me....please don't cry" he said kind of sad and gently wiped the tears out of my eyes. I giggled at him slightly and pushed his shoulder, "now who said I don't like you" he looked at me surprised, "t-then do you like me?" he asked and I nodded.
He pulled my head towards his face and asked "Can I?" To which I nodded my head shyly and the next thing I knew was he kissed me on the lips. I was a bit shy due to our sudden closeness, but kissed back in few seconds. He pulled away slightly and smiled at me. "I love you y/n" "I love you too Jay" he kissed me again but we were interrupted by loud whistling and cheering noises. We turned around to look at his friends and Jina cheering for us. "Did you guys decide to continue your Pepero game alone?? without us??" NiKi teased us and we both flustered like a tomato.
Thank you for reading (â ââ á´â ââ âżâ )
CHAN:
- he would be so shocked when you started to cry
- ' I'm so sorry y/n. I didn't mean to hurt you'
- he would try then pull you and kiss your forehead gently
- apologize till you had to close his mouth with your hand
MINHO:
- he would leave you alone as soon as you started crying
- you'd be so hurt and think that he doesn't care at all
- but he'd actually be feeling guilty
- will buy you your favorite food and plushies on the way home and apologizes cutely.
- brings his cats to cheer you up
CHANGBIN:
- he would pull you into his arms as soon as he saw you cry.
- kisses your tears away.
- ' I'm so sorry y/n. I didn't mean to hurt you. I was just frustrated'.
- you snuggle closer and bury your face into his chest and continues to cry.
- he pats your head until you calm down.
HYUNJIN:
- regrets everything he said to you.
- ' y/n please dont take what i said to you heart. You know i love you right'
- he would kind of get scared and think that your were disappointed in his behavior.
- you saw he was picnicking and tried to control yourself and hugged him
- 'hyunjin, i just got a bit emotional, please don't panic. I love you too'
JISUNG:
- he felt guilty for making you cry
- would sit infront of you and try to make some joke
- when he failed to make you smile, he'd pout
- is ready to sacrifice his cheesecake to make you smile
- 'please take my cheesecake and don't cry please'
- you couldn't help but smile at how cutely he apologized to you
Felix:
- fight??with??felix???that's not happening.
- but in case it happens he'd never make you cry
- he'd be unaware of you crying in your room. He'd be shocked to see you crying.
- he thought it was because of him and felt guilty
- made brownies for you and said ' I'm sorry please don't cry babeâ
- ' felix it's not because of you. I was just frustrated with my homework '
- he'd laugh and help you with your homework.
Seungmin:
- after the argument he'd just dash out of the house.
- after he went you'd feel so hurt and start to cry
- he returned after an hour to see you on the ground with tear stained cheeks
- he realized that he had hurt you
- he'd carry you in bridal style and take you to your bed to give you cuddles
Jeongin:
- you are not the one who is crying here
- baby jeongin starts to cry as soon the argument started getting out of the hand (now stays hate you for making uri baby jeongin cry. Lol jk)
- you felt guilty and hugged him saying,
'I'm sorry jeongin I'm a bad person i made you cry '
- he'd stop you from talking bad about yourself and hug you back gently.
He was cleaning the house when he came across a familiar boxes where he keeps all his precious things. He smiled up on seeing the love letter you had written for him when you guys where still in university.
Would run down to living room where you were watching kdrama.
Reads it out loud to tease you.
đ¸- stop channie. It's so embarrassing
đŚ- no way this is my most precious thing and i can read it everyday.
He'd then kissed your forehead and smile brighter remembering the past days.
Minho:
He actually don't know that you wrote him a love letter when you guys were in high school. He came across you diary and decided to keep it in the shelf when a letter fell down from the notebook.
A smile would immediately spread in his face on seeing how you described your love for him.
đ°- Y/N
đ¸- what? Did something happen?
You'd blush when you see him reading the love letter you wrote for him.
đ°- i didn't know you had such a big crush on međ
Changbin:
You were playing with your brother when changbin visited your home. You cheated and won the game against your brother. Your evil brother took revenge against you by giving your love letter to changbin, when you were showering.
You were shocked to see changbin holding the love letter which you wrote for him ages ago.
- would smirk and pull you near him
đˇ- i didn't know you wrote me a letter, why didn't you give it to me?
đ¸- you know that I'm shy, why are you teasing me? You would blush and hide your face in his chest
You would blush and hide your face in his chest
Hyunjin:
You'd find the letter you wrote for hyunjin when you were in university while cleaning the house. You would wave it infront of kkami and say,
đ¸- look, i wrote this for hyunjin.
But to your extreme shock, kkami grabbed it in his mouth and ran towards hyunjin. Hyunjin took the letter from kkami's mouth and read it's content, smiling spreading across his face.
đŚ- wow, this is amazing. I never knew you wrote me a letter.
đ¸- stop looking at it
You would try to grab it but he's much more taller than you.
He'd keep reading it for a whole day.
Jisung:
He'd toss the letter to the ground thinking it was some rubbish and continue to clean the home. After he finished cleaning, he took the letter and was about to throw it in the bin until he read the word "TO JISUNG" on the letter.
Would be shocked while reading it and happily run to you and asks you if you had written it for him.
đżď¸- i love it. I'm gonna treasure it forever.
Felix:
You accidentally gave him the letter instead of the post that he'd received. -He'd be kind of surprised and excited as to he reads what you have written down.
- smiles at the way you have described him.
- wouldn't ask you about it cuz he know you will be embarrassed.
- cherishes it like it is made out of glass.
Seungmin:
He found your love letter in your diary when he was searching for his book. He read all you fantasies and your ideal date with him in the letter.
-He wouldn't say that he found your letter
- but he'd make sure to takes you on a date which exactly like you had described in the letter.
Jeongin:
He'd get emotional when he sees all you old love letter which you had written for him.
- showers you with a lllooottt of love when you come back from work/school.
-when you asked why he was acting weirdly he'd show you the letters.
- now both of you got emotional because you guys missed those past beautiful days.
do you have groups who's music you love, but you have no idea who's actually in the group? or you know one or two members but the rest are a mystery? rb and put them in the tags
â*âŠâ âĄĚâ* â news reached your school that a boy in your class has passed away and the last thing expected was for the the reaper to show up inside your room and make a bargain with you. He gives you the chance to go back 20 days to save a boy you barely knew under one condition. the question is, would you do it despite the danger?
â*âŠâ âĄĚâ* genre(s) â highschool au, strangers to lovers, romance, angst, supernatural
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OCTOBER 15Â ŕźŕź
Ever since you were a mere infant, you loved the rain. Being brought into the world in the rainy month of June, all your birthdays were greeted by a storm. When you were eight years old, you and your parents decided to go to the theme park for your birthday. However, your plans for outside fun were soon soiled when the rain started pouring the second you'd entered the premises.Â
Instead of being dejected, you were ecstatic. With a wide smile coated across your porcelain childlike face, you ran into the pouring rain with open arms, not giving a single fuck about your hair, clothes, or shoes getting wet nor soggy. In the background, You could hear your parents yelling at you to go back and take shelter but you tuned them out, in love with the feeling of rain dropping against your skin.Â
The next day, you woke up with a boiling hot fever. Snot was dripping from your nose, reaching your lips. Being the curiosity filled child that you were, your tongue darted up to taste it, pleased to say that you weren't disgusted by the taste but never willing to admit doing the action in front of anyone. Along that was a pounding headache and a series of sneezes but you didn't regret your actions, not one bit.
Years have gone by and sure, people change. You can say that you have for sure. You've grown taller and quieter. Though, you're still you. The same girl who loved to become one with the rain.
It rarely rained on the city of Seoul but either way, whenever it would, you'd be overjoyed. They say that if the sunny day is excitement, then a cloudy day is a well-earned chance to rest your eyes and cleanse your soul. It's a chance to daydream and breathe in a calm, reflective mood. Those very words expressed how you viewed the much-hated weather.
But today, the sky seemed as if it was sobbing. An overcast day if you would. The clouds were darker, more terrifying compared to the bright and shining ones you would see every other day in the city whenever the year would soon end. Â
The rain pooled on the ground, creating muddy puddles as you walked towards your school building. A striking yellow umbrella in one hand, protecting you from the droplets of rain while the other hand grips your jacket tighter, trying to obtain more warmth.
Stepping inside the building, you shake your umbrella, trying to get rid of the water that clung to it. The water detaches itself from your umbrella, lightly sprinkling everywhere. After, you put it somewhere inside of your locker where you were sure none of your papers would get soaked.
For some odd reason, as you walk down the hallway towards your classroom, you can't help the heavy feeling that's weighing on your chest. You wonder, was there a possibility you missed something? Did you have homework that you forgot to bring? Was there supposed to be a quiz today and you didn't study? No, none of those could've been it. Being the honor student that you were meant you had to be ahead of every lecture, assignment, project, and anything that correlated to your academics and you did just that. You always carry with you a planner that holds all your schedules and work deadlines so that you could rest assured that you never missed anything.
Loud chatter fills your ears as you step inside your classroom. Some of your classmates sat atop of their desks while the others stood up as they huddled up with one another, gossiping, you assumed. You lay your belongings on top of your table, taking a seat beside the window so you could look out and watch as multiple students ran to enter the school gates, practically drenched by the rain with only their bags to shelter them from the pouring rain. A few more minutes pass and you finally hear the school bell ring, signaling that classes were starting.
Your classmates hurry to resume their places back into their own seats, not wanting to be caught out of place by your advisor and have an earful early in the rainy morning. The chattering and the noises stop when your homeroom advisor enters the room with a somber look. She takes her eyeglasses off with a sigh, resting her palms on either side of her desk upfront.Â
She's tense, you could easily tell. It makes you wonder what had happened for her to act like that as you fix your gaze onto her completely. You're used to your advisor's usually bright and bubbly expression whenever she comes skipping inside the room so for her to turn like this means that something awful must've happened for her aura to stray so far from her usually energetic personality.
"Alright, guys. Can I have your attention please?" Your adviser calls out. All eyes fixate themselves on her figure, giving her the attention she wants as they wait for her to continue. "I have some very sad news that I need to share with all of you. Your classmate, Lee Heeseung," She sighs out as if merely speaking the boys' name is hard for her. "He... He won't be with us anymore."
A moment passes in silence before one of your classmates stands to speak up. "Huh?" He wonders. "Did Heeseung transfer?" He asks, voicing out your own thoughts.
"No," She answers, shaking her head "l hope that was the case." She whispers.
This time, a boy with strikingly white hair and pale skin raises his hands before standing up. This time you were familiar with him. His name, based on your recollection, is Park Sunghoon. Like your other classmates, you've never interacted with the boy. Thus meaning that you knew little to nothing about him and the only thing you could remember about him was his face and that he belonged to the same popular friend group as the boy in question Lee Heeseung. "Then where is he? He didn't even bother telling us where he went and hyung never does that." He says.
"H-He... Uhm," Your adviser stutters before tightly closing her eyes, gripping the edges of her table even tighter to the point where her knuckles turned white and her nails dug into the wood. You can tell she's holding her tears back as much as she can. As to why, You're still not sure and you stay seated there, waiting to find out.
With a deep exhale, she finally continues. "Lee Heeseung won't be joining us anymore. Last night, the police found his dead body inside his apartment and that they've suspected that... that," Her voice breaks when she continues, saying, "He had overdosed on sleeping pills the night prior."Â
Time seemed to have passed and yet, no one dared to move in their seat when those words left your advisor's mouth. Your classmates looked shocked, faces showing disbelief at the news she had just dumped on them.
"W-what?" You hear one of your classmates ask. You remember his name being Jake.
Sim Jaeyun. Member of the soccer club and Lee Heeseungs closest friend.
You had seen the two boys bond with each other all around campus. Lee Heeseung and Sim Jaeyun were in the same class as you as well as some of their other friends but you've observed that the two were the closest to each other despite the latter being a year younger. Although Lee Heeseung was older, they had managed to form an incredible friendship that you envied, so truly envied.Â
You're no outcast per se, you just detested the company of people and prefered to be alone, wanting to focus on getting out of this hell hole than creating connections. However, even loners yearn for some company from time to time. You've just never bothered to scout for the right people that matched well with your personality.
Resuming, the poor boy is frozen in his seat, looking as if he was about to break down. Your eyes are trained on the way he clenches his fist into a ball with overwhelming amounts of force. It wouldn't be a shock to you if you see his hand bleed due to his nails digging into it.
"I'm sorry, Jaeyun." She apologises, her expression sad as she looks at the boy. "I wish it was a lie too but it's true, he's dead."
"Th-That can't be! We were just talking about what we were going to do for his biâ" All of a sudden, he stops talking. His eyes turn wide as if something had just dawned on him and his hand comes to cover his mouth in shock. You can see the boy's whole body start to tremble and you knew he going to break down into tears any minute now. Sim Jaeyuns chair screeches back as he runs out the room and your teacher does nothing to stop him, understanding that he was Lee Heeseungs closest friend and that this whole news is even more haunting for him.
You watch as all your classmates bow their heads down, a heavy feeling looming around the room as everyone mourns Lee Heeseungs death. Some even start crying in their seats; one of them being Jay, otherwise known as Park Jongseong, another one of Lee Heeseungs friends.
"Heeseungs family will be having his funeral tomorrow and... I hope you all can come." Your teacher says. "We won't be having any lessons for the entirety of this day and you can all go home early. We just want to give you all some time to mourn such a bright student's unfortunate death. Class dismissed."
Now, you've found the reason why the air was so gloomy and why the rain didn't seem to stop no matter how long it's been pouring. It was because the sky was crying, mourning the death of Lee Heeseung.
"Y/N? God, I just heard the news."
As soon as you step inside your home, your mom is there to envelop you in a warm hug. She places your head on her shoulder as she caresses the back of your hairâ something your mother has always done when consoling you.
"I wasn't even that close with the guy." You say, words coming out automated as you assumed she was talking about the suicide announcement that your advisor had made not even an hour ago. "How did you find out anyway?"
"Mrs. Lee told me." She says, frowning afterwards. "Don't tell me you didn't know the Lees are our neighbors?"
Your expression is a dead giveaway that this is new news to you. You're never one to dwell on your mother's business since you had no interest in gossiping nor did you have time to with all the studying you were doing. However, it does come out as a surprise to you that Lee Heeseung lived close to you and yet, the two of you never seemed to have bumped into each other.
"Gosh, YN. You really should stop and listen in sometimes. I know I'm your mother and I'm supposed to be happy that my child is a genius but I don't want you to waste your youth." Again, she's frowning at you.
What's so bad about wanting to focus on school? It's not like being stupid will make a difference.
"It's fine mom. I'm okay." You assure.
"Nonsense. I'll tell you what, I'll go into the kitchen and make you some soup. You can go and take that upstairs. You're looking too thin these days." Once again, her motherly nature surfaces.
"Sure, Mom. That'd be nice." She smiles at you, feeling satisfied with your answer. afterwards scurrying into the kitchen to bring you some food to eat.
You lay down on your bed, staring at the blank ceiling of your bedroom. The chicken noodle soup your mom had made for you sat cold and untouched on top of your desk, making no move to eat it.
Lee Heeseung isn't a close friend of yours nor was he an acquaintance. He was just simply a boy in your class that seemed to have his life put together. From what you knew, the boy had excellent grades, powerful friendships, and skills that exceeded everybody's expectations.
He was a boy with a smile that could rival the suns.Â
You remember catching sight of him while he was talking with one of his friends. The other must've said something extremely funny because that day, you were graced to see the way Lee Heeseungs eyes crinkled in happiness, his nose scrunching in glee, and his teeth on full display as he laughed; his head thrown back and his protruding adam's apple bobbing every time he gulped while doubling over with laughter.
"That's all I knew of him." You lie.Â
But why was his death affecting your mood this much? Maybe because he was such a nice, talented boy that you saw it as a great shame he had to go so early.
Eventually, your mind wandered around why he did what he did. Granted, you knew nothing about the boy's personal life but you could only imagine how hard it was for him to push himself into committing such a horrific act.
He took his life.Â
Was it because behind that bright perfect smile was a boy bearing a shattered soul? What drove him to do something like this?
You're a quiet person and you usually stay in your own company. You don't like big crowds and you loved it whenever it rained because it made you feel at peace whenever you listened to the way it pitter-pattered, drenching everything and anything blocking its way, but today, you just wished it stopped.Â
The rain reminds you too much of Lee Heeseung, the boy who took his life and the rain is making you feel restless.
You hope wherever he is right now, that he's finally at peace with himself. You hope that he's happy and that he can rest. Again, you never bothered to get close with anyone, meaning you never knew Lee Heeseung personally but you wish, for once, that you could have done something, anything, to change his mind.
OCTOBER 16 ŕźŕź
As you open your eyes to greet a new daydream, you immediately frown. The skies are so dark and bitter that you don't even notice that it's now morning. There's no sign of the bright warm sun on top of a blue horizon nor are there any white fluffy clouds covering the sky.Â
A storm is brewing and it's evident it'll hit your area soon.Â
Tempestuous, bleak, and angry.Â
The heavens are angry.Â
It's the next day but you didn't get a wink of sleep. You supposed it was because of the never-ending thoughts that flowed inside your head.Â
It may have been two days since Lee Heeseung died, assuming that he killed himself at the strike of twelve on his birthday. You still can't wrap your head around it nor can you stop wondering why it's affecting you so much.Â
Still, you begrudgingly get up from your bed. You look around and everything is the same spot it used to be and nothing has changed. Your books are still in the same place on top of the shelves, your cabinet is still open like how you left it, heck, even the wall clock that's been there for five years is standing strong. So why is it that you feel so lost?Â
Fuck Lee Heeseung.Â
"Can you stop occupying every single space in my brain for at least five minutes?"Â
The boy is dead yet he's bothering you even more than when he was alive.
You groan once you hear your bitter thoughts. Immediately, you realize how cruel you were being and you mutter a silent apology to the boy in heaven before falling back onto your bed.Â
A soft knock on your door catches your attention as your mom's head peeks through the space. "Darling, Are you awake?"Â
You sigh. "Yeah. I'm up, Mom." You reply dryly, feeling the symptoms of a headache brewing inside your head.
"Great. Get ready, we're going to Heeseungs in a few minutes."
Lee Heeseungs funeral was a poor sight to witness.Â
Everybody at the funeral was either crying, yelling out for the dead boy to come back, or had a sad look on their face. Bouquets of pretty and colourful flowers decorated the place, you wished you got the time to bring one for him too. There's also a huge chandelier hung in the middle of the room and rows of chairs adorned the place. At the front is a huge picture of the boy, smiling brightly like how you've mentioned before; lively and perfect. If only the casket holding his dead body wasn't there, then you might have smiled too.
The room was packed with Lee Heeseungs friends, relatives, and classmates. You even spot some of your teachers in the room as they pay their respects and you're not at all shocked when you see the school principal there either.
Your school principal is a fake, to say the least. You've watched him work and you've seen the way his face falls and scrunches in disgust when a person's back is turned to him. When he doesn't get his way, he manipulates people like the bastard he is just so he can get what he wants. You scowl as you watch him look into Lee Heeseungs casket, fake tears rolling down his cheek, continuing his act to seem like he cared for his students. You choose to ignore his presence for the time being because this night isn't about him, it's about Lee Heeseung and you intend to keep it that way.
A couple dressed in white stood at the front, right beside Lee Heeseungs coffin, catching your attention.Â
Trailing behind your mother, you follow as she walks towards the said couple, greeting them with a sad smile, proving the hunch you had that these people were Lee Heeseungs family.Â
"Hello, you must be YN. " The woman says, smiling fondly at you as she reaches for your hands, holding them inside hers and although her hands were cold due to the air-conditioned room, you let her. "Heeseung told us so much about you."Â
At her statement, you're only able to reply with a confused smile. This confuses you because as you recall, you've never had any sort of interaction with Lee Heeseung that'll leave him wanting to tell his parents about you. You weren't close friends, nor were you ex-friends. So why does it seem like his mother already knows a lot about you?Â
"Mom!"Â
Suddenly, a boy who looked a few years older than you yelled from a few meters away, effectively catching your attention. He takes a quick jog towards you and scratches the back of his neck, awkwardly. "Hi, I'm Lee Heewon. Heeseungs older brother." He introduces, stretching his hand towards you.Â
"It's nice to meet you" You smile politely, grabbing his hand before releasing it. "I'm YN."Â
Lee Heeseungs older brother nodded, however it seemed as if he already knew that.Â
He reaches to wrap his hand around his mother's waist, whispering something to her. She replies with a confused look, scrunching her brows together and eyes squinting in confusion, yet she replies with a nod either way. Lee Heeseungs brother pulls away, looking at you and then asking if you would follow him.Â
Although confused, you agree. "Mom I'll be right back, okay?" You tell your mother who is now sitting on one of the chairs, talking with Lee Heeseungs parents. She simply smiles at you and agrees, letting you off on your own with the boy before turning back to their conversation.
Looking back at the male, you nod as he gestures for you to follow him towards the corner of the room, where not that many people were around so the two of you could have a conversation in private.Â
"Hi, so uh. Listen." He starts, eyes unable to look at yours as they shift everywhere, feeling awkward. "Heeseung-ie... he told us a lot about you becauseâ uh, y'know what, Iâ I don't think it's my place to tell you this."Â
"Huh?" You reply, stunned.
"Sorry, forget it." He dismisses. "It's just... he said he was going to do it." He finally heaves out.Â
By the way his hands started getting clammy and shaky, you could tell the boy was nervous to tell you something. "I'm sorry but I don't understand what you're trying to say."Â
"Heeseung he likes you, or at least he did." He whimpers at that, hands coming up to comb his unruly hair. "He would talk to us a lot about you and we always teased him about it because... he just couldn't confess to you." He finishes with a sad laugh. "B-but now, he's g-gone and..." His voice trails off and his face wears a sad smile as he remembers the moments he spent with his dear brother.Â
Upon hearing those words, you stood rooted to your spot, unable to form a coherent sentence to respond to him. Like you've said before, you and Lee Heeseung were never close so when you found out that he had that big of a crush on you, so big that he couldn't help but tell his family, you were speechless, to say the least. "He... likes me?"Â
The older male chuckles, incredulous. "You didn't know?"
You shake your head in response, "We weren't really close."Â
"Damn, if Heeseung-ie heard you say that right now, he probably would've cried himself to sleep. The guy basically only had eyes for you." He comments, shaking his head as he laughs at the possibility.
Lee Heeseung likes me.
A sudden memory from about twenty days ago flashes in your mind and you're reminded of the time when you found a cute letter that was slid inside your locker on one warm afternoon.
'Hi, Y/N! If you're free, can you please meet me on the rooftop after classes end?Â
- your secret admirer âĄ'Â
The short yet adorable note made your heart flutter and your chest bubble up in excitement as you read it. No one had ever bothered to confess to you, much less become your secret admirer. With you being so focused on your studies, you never made it a task to make yourself look good to please yourself and even more for other people. Of course you never want anyone to see you at your worst but at the end of the day, you don't really care as long as you don't look at yourself in the mirror.
After reading the letter multiple times, you finally concluded that you'd spent enough time fangirling and so, you eagerly folded the note and put it in a safe place inside your locker afterwards.
You were a loner, had no friends, and were basically isolated from everyone. You did feel sad about the fact you couldn't go to someone and gush about the letter to themâ with no friends or siblings to approach, to whom were you supposed to go? But as you stood there alone on top of the rooftop with the sweet letter at hand, you were glad you didn't have anyone as you were greeted by no one other than the faltering light of the sunset.
No sign of anyone and certainly no signs of your secret admirer.Â
So it was him.Â
Lee Heeseung, you fucking coward.Â
'Why did he not show up? Was he too embarrassed? What on earth did I even do to make him like me? Well, if he bailed on me just like that then he mustn't have liked me as much as his brother says he does.'
So many questions flew around your head that you didn't even notice that long gone was Lee Heewon, older brother of Lee Heeseung and instead, your mother stood in his place. The tapping on your shoulder is what brings you back to your consciousness, your eyes turning to look at your mother as she continues to look at you in wonder.
"Sorry, Just spaced out." You apologise, blinking.
The evening goes on smoothlyâ as smooth as you'd expect a funeral to be. You saw his friends there; Sim Jaeyun, Park Jongseong, Park Sunghoon, and a few other juniors that you've seen around campus. Although you had so many questions in mindâ so many questions to ask him, you brushed them off and prayed for his well-being up there with God instead, hoping that he was no longer suffering.Â
His father, along with many others, gave tribute to the boy in the form of a long and heartfelt speech. With suicide grief, theyâre dealing with trauma on top of the loss. With most people who die by suicide, itâs usually violent or tragic in some wayâ like what happened to Lee Heeseung. So, the person grieving has to deal with the fact that a person chose to take their life and that is how they died. That changes the grief process entirely.
Death can be tragic, like a murder or a car vehicle accident. But the stigma around suicide still exists today, and so family members have to contend with that piece as well. It makes their grief different.
"... I'm sure to everyone here, you all know that Heeseung was a kind and caring son. He was also a hardworking and honest student. A fun and talented friend." He continues. Your eyes danced across the room and situated themselves on his friends that were sitting in front. All of them were crying, gripping each other closer as they hugged one another, afraid that if their grip loosened, one of them might leave the others behindâ just like their fallen sibling has. "And I'm sure he was a wonderful stranger to many of you as well."
"We'll never accept his death, for our Heeseung was one of a kind. Our family will continue to carry the sadness of losing him as grief is not something we ever get over, and it doesnât ever stop. What we'll learn to do is grow around our grief, to encompass it and incorporate it or manage it into our own life,â He says. âWe walk with it.â
âEvery time you turn aroundâ thereâs a reminder of him, thereâs a statement, thereâs a feeling, thereâs an emotionâ and we ask you to not look past it,â His father says. âAs we walk with this grief of losing him, we also hope that you don't forget him. Even though he isn't here anymoreâ physically, our family hopes that you'll still carry your memories of him inside your heart. Where he'll be forever until we see him again."
It's already nine in the evening when you get home. Feeling exhausted, you step inside the darkness of your room with a sigh, carelessly tossing your bag onto your desk as you plop down on your bed, staring at the ceilingâ something you've been doing so much as of recently.
"Lee Heeseung..." You say to no one in particular. "You're such a loser"Â
"Ouch," a voice suddenly says. Your eyes unnaturally widen in shock as you sit up from the position you previously laid in because as far as you knew, there's no one in your room besides you. Looking at the knob on your door, you see that it's locked, making it even more impossible for someone to come inside without you noticing. "That was a little harsh, dont you think?"
But finally, there, in the corner of your room, you watch as the figure of a boy suddenly appears out of thin air. He stood there with a smirk playing across his red lips. He has stunningly dark hair, a pointed nose, and cheeks that look lively and soft. You would assume he was just some normal boy who slipped into your bedroom but the intimidating dark aura that coats his figure, spreading throughout the space of your room says otherwise.Â
A sense of fear envelops you as you stand up, stance as if ready to fight. "Whâ who are you!?"Â
"Ah, that's a complicated question, y'know. I go by many names." He says. "Some call me the Grim Reaper, some call me Death but I prefer the name Sunoo the most so make sure to call me by that!"Â
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Sunwooâ or whatever his name is, smiles deviously at you. His eyes crinkle in amusement as he watches you with your mouth agape, struggling to wrap your head around the fact that an otherworldly being might actually be in your room wearing a plaid shirt and Nike sweatpants.Â
"Th-this can't be happening. This is all just a dream." You say, smiling freakishly as you move to pinch your arm, hoping to wake up from whatever nightmare this is, but all you do is yelp at the pain you've caused yourself. Feeling the pain you inflicted, your eyes take frantic turns looking at your reddened arm and the magical being sighing defeatedly at you.
"Listen," He calls out for your attention. Hearing the authority in his voice makes you tense up, stopping all your actions in the process. Your ears are tingling for some unknown reason but you can only guess that it's because of the overwhelming amount of panic being struck in your veins. "I'm here because I need a favour from youâ"Â
Before he could continue with what he was saying, you cut him off "No! No, you can not have my soul!" You scream out, hugging your body tightly around your shaking arms.
His eyes widen, index finger coming up to his lips to shush you "Stop. I'm not here for your soulâ"Â
"Good because I'm not giving it to you anyways." You humph. You're still scared of the boy as his powers and true intentions are still unknown to you. However, hearing that he isn't here to take your soul just yet is already enough for you to relax and gain some sort of fake confidence.Â
"Will you stop cutting me off for a goddamn minute!" He shouts in a whispering manner. "I'm starting to regret coming to you for help."Â
Your eyes squint. "What did you just say?"Â
"Okay," He says before releasing a breath. "Do you want Lee Heeseung to come back?" He asks you slowly, watching your every move as if he expected you to scream out for your mother if he's not careful.Â
Thankfullyâ or not, you don't. All you do is stand there, unmoving. In a swift move, Sunoo pushed himself off the wall he was leaning up against and made a cautious step towards you.Â
"Do I want to... what?"Â
Sunoo sighs in relief, thanking his familiars that your body hasn't frozen due to shock and that he doesn't have to collect another young body again. "Do you want Lee Heeseung to live again?"Â
"H-How is that even possible to begin with?"Â
"I can make it happen. I can send you back twenty days from now to when he was still alive and you can change his future." He explains. "Only if you are willing to."Â
"Why me? Why not his friends? I'm sure they'd be willing to help. "Â
The Grim Reaper shrugs, "I simply don't believe they can change the outcome and besides, I wouldn't have chosen you if I didn't think you could do it."Â He explains, smiling softly at you.
You stay in place, taking a moment to catch up with your thoughts as well as the events that are currently taking place. The reaper, who took the form of an incredibly charming looking boy, is inside your room asking if you would be willing to go back exactly twenty days so you couldâÂ
Wait, what?Â
"Twenty days? Why twenty days? There must be some sort of reason."Â
"Because it took Lee Heeseung exactly twenty days to decide whether or not he was going to kill himself or not." Hearing that, you nod.
"And what will happen if I fail?" You ask, looking him in the eye. Afraid of what the answer might be, you caress your earlobe; a habit you had developed over the years when you would get nervous. "There must be some sort of consequence for tampering with time like this."
"I'm afraid there is, yes." The Reaper answers, head bowing in defeat. "Apollyon. If he finds out that I've messed with the cycle, he's going to try and do everything he can to stop you. He might hurt you or Heeseung Iâm not sure. Although he can't kill you, thereâs a possibility he might hurt you if you defy him." He exhales.Â
"But don't worry too much about it." He composes himself and continues, "I'll try and do everything I can to stop him. If you succeed, then Lee Heeseung will come back and he'll be alive."Â
This creature in front of you, this conversation, it all feels surreal. Naturally, your mind jumbles through all the possible horrendous outcomes of this bizarre situation. Someone could get fatally injuredâ not just you but the innocent could too. Is the life of someone you barely knew really worth all the pain you might cause someone else? Is it worth it to play this dangerous game of tag with Apollyon?
Lee Heeseung is someone you barely had no connections to. Besides the fact that you share a few classes together and have interacted even fewer, you knew nothing of the boy. The only feeling you have of him is a slight distaste but even that seems like a lie.
If only you didn't know that he was such a good person. If only you didn't know that he was a volunteer tutor at the daycare. If only you didn't see how many people loved and cried for him when they heard the news. If only you didn't know that he committed suicide on the same day as his birthday. If only you didn't see the way his bullies punched him.
Maybe, just maybe, if you didn't know any of these, you would've declined. But you couldn't.
Why is it that even despite hearing the danger you'll face, you're still yearning to agree?Â
If you had the chance to save someone's life, wouldn't you debate on saying yes as well?
There's a risk of you getting harmed but you throw that away because there's only one thing that occupies your head.Â
"Don't worry too much, once you've completed your task and I'm assured of Heeseungs future, I'll take you back to the present." His smile somewhat brought a tinge of comfort in you, finding a small bit of relief at the small gesture which only further jumbled your mind.
"I... fuckâ Okay."
Lee Heeseung can come out of this whole mess alive. It's damn worth a try, isn't it? There's a possibility that everyone will be able to see that endearing smile again. You can save him from his unfortunate future. And lastly, you can give his grieving family their son back.Â
So, with feigned bravery, you nodded before breathing out heavily, eyes locking with Sunoo's. "Let's do it."
Upon hearing your agreement, he expresses his happiness with your decision with an excited giggle. You're left once again to debate whether he was actually supposed to be what people called 'Death' as he claps his hands, finding him inconveniently cute. "Yes!" He cheers. "Tomorrow, when you wake up, it will be September twenty-fiveâ exactly twenty days from now. Everything that happened before will be the same, except for the things you will change, of course. Remember YN, you only have one shot at this. I'll be with you along the way so don't hesitate to call me if you feel like you're being watched or just simply need help. I'm rooting for you."Â Â
Change Lee Heeseungs fate. Sounds easy enough.
The Reaperâ I mean, Sunoo grabs your shoulders and you still as he pushes you gently so you could sit on the edge of your bed. You give him a weird look but say nothing in return, getting the signal that he probably wanted you to go to sleep now.Â
"Good luck, Y/N." You hear him whisper before your eyes close, suddenly feeling incredibly heavy as you fall into an effortless slumber. Being an insomniac meant that you didn't spend a lot of time sleeping at night. But as the moon shone, joined by the soft sound brought by the pitter-patter of the rain, you fell into one of the most comfortable slumbers you've had in a long long time.Â
"Y/N! Darling you're going to be late for school!"Â
The piercing sound of your mother's voice mixed with the relentless knocking on your door makes you jolt awake. Indeed, as you turn to look at the huge clock in your room, you're late.Â
You bolt up, making a beeline towards your dresser, grabbing your uniform and hurriedly putting it on, not caring to bathe or comb your unruly hair. However, when you catch sight of your calendar, you stop, limbs frozen in place as your eyes focus on the piece of paper.Â
September 25...Â
'Fuck, so that wasn't some weird dream after all.' You physically slap yourself for forgetting such crucial information, your forehead stinging because of your actionsâ though, you don't have the time to look if a red mark shaped like your hand is imprinted on it or not, before shrugging it off and focusing on continuing to put your clothes on. If you don't get to school today then you'll miss an important chance to find out something about the boyâ and no one wants that.
After saying goodbye to your mother, you step outside, the rays of sunlight hitting you. The warmth of it makes you feel cozy in contrast to the feeling of the heavy rain you've been experiencing since a day agoâ or should you say in the future? You have no idea.
"This time travel shit is messing with my head."
"Just stop thinking about it and it'll be easier." A voice says, popping out of nowhere, making you jump.
"Will you stop doing that!?" You scream out, feeling lucky that no one is in the vicinity to witness your outburst. "Seriously, you're going to give me a heart attack before I even get to Lee Heeseung."
"By the way, why do you call Heeseung 'Lee Heeseung'?" Sunoo asks. "Sounds a bit too formal for a classmate don't you think?"
"That's because we aren't close." You reply monotonously as you fish for your planner inside your bag, sighing gratefully once you've found it.
All you get is a hum from the boy before he disappears and you let out a satisfied hum of your own, happy that he's left you alone to do your own bidding.
As you step inside the establishment of your school, you go straight to the destination of your locker. After entering the right combination, it prompts open with a click and there, you see it. Your heart flutters the same way once again as you see the familiar note but this time, it makes you smile sadly, knowing what'll happen to the sweet boy who gave it to youâ not to mention how he stood you up that evening either, or this evening? You still have no idea why your secret admirer, who you now knew was actually Lee Heeseung, ditched you when he was supposed to confess but you're sure as hell that you're going to find out why.Â
Instead of putting the letter back in your locker as you did before, you grasp it in your hands, making the sudden call to look for the boy who gave it to you, wanting to see that he was alive and well.Â
However, as your eyes scan over the halls, you find no traces of Lee Heeseung. A sudden feeling of nervousness consumes your chest as you look around for him but fail to spot a single trace of him or his friends. Before you get a chance to search the school grounds for him, however, the school bell rings, signaling that classes are going to start soon. Begrudgingly, you make your way inside the classroom you've been in several times before.Â
The looming feeling of nervousness drops, your breathing fastening when you finally catch sight of him.Â
Lee Heeseung is there, sitting on top of his desk, his nose wrinkling the same way his eyes are. His smile is bright and it showed his perfect teeth as he laughed at whatever conversation he and his friends were having.Â
You don't care about the conversation, you care about him being there, looking so real that you almost ask yourself if you were dreaming until you remember what you're here for and why you've gone twenty days back into the past.
As you make your way towards your usual seat beside the window, you almost miss the way his eyes trained on you and the letter you held inside your hands.Â
After finding out from his family that he likes you, all of the longing gazes and the shy smiles he sends you whenever the both of you make the smallest and shortest eye contact are now so crucially visible to you it hurts that you were so dense before not to notice.Â
Lee Heeseung, why is my heart hurting?Â
From the corner of your eye, you can see the way he bites his lip nervously as you open the letter he sent you.Â
Like before, nothing has changed in the letter; it's the same words, the same question, the same handwriting, and the same stupid little heart that he put at the end of the note. You smile adoringly at the letter, folding it neatly before tucking it inside your bag as if it's a treasure.
From across the room, Heeseung suppresses his grin when he catches you reading the letter he slid inside your locker. His heart bubbles up in happiness to see that you didn't gag at the sight of it, knowing that you weren't the romantic type and basically never showed any kind of interest towards male suitors. Even though you barely ever throw a glance his way, his heart seemed to have a mind of its own when it fell for you. He admired your effortless beauty and the way you were so driven to always come out on top.
The first time he saw you was years ago when you had just moved into his neighborhood. He remembers looking out of the window, annoyed at all of the noise the truck hauling your furniture was making. His scowl immediately left his face however when he caught sight of you trying to pick up a box that looked like it was twice your weight. From his window, he watched as your small, flimsy body struggled to carry just one box inside.
He could have offered some help but the thought flew way past little Heeseungs mind as he was too shy to approach you at that time. Years have passed and it seems as if nothing has changed over the years. Sure he's grown taller, and gained more confidenceâ he could even say he was more attractive than most. But whenever it came to you, all his ego seemed to fly out the window and he would go back to the same shy boy he used to be.
However, nearing the age of nineteen he's grown tired of it all. That's why he slid that letter inside your locker, opting to make a big change. Its purpose is to finally express to you his undying feeling of admiration. And he's determined to pull through with it.
After minutes of hearing the same lecture, the school bell eventually rings, signaling that classes are finished and that you can all go and take your breaks. Yes, this meant lunch for your growling stomach. However, this is also the time Lee Heeseung is supposed to confess to you on the rooftop but will eventually fail to do so and you ought to find out why he stood you up. So, you hurriedly gather all your things, trying to catch up to the boy so you could follow closely behind him.
Making sure none of your stuff got left behind, you dash towards the door, eager to follow the said boy when a sudden voice calls out to you. "YN, Can I talk to you for a second?"
Fuck. You forgot today is the same day your teacher asks you to stay behind in class. It's so he could talk to you about the details regarding the literary contest in Busan that the school is going to compete in in three days. As the top student in your year, you're good at many things that involve using your wit, intelligence, and logicâ physical labor isn't your strongest asset, thus, you're always the top option whenever it comes to district competitions.
The conversation doesn't go the same as beforeâ the result of your intention to leave immediately. However, it doesn't end as quickly as you'd like it to. Your English teacher is known to be a chatterbox throughout the students of your year as he's known to beat around the bush, prolong the conversation, and dwell on non-school related topicsâ all of which you don't appreciate at the moment, but either way, much to your distaste, the conversation goes longer than you want it too.Â
If this continues, you might not be able to catch Lee Heeseung at all and he'd think that you stood him up.
"Right. Great. I understand. I'll make sure to send you an email if I have any questions just like you said. Bye!" You say all in one breath, giving the man a thumbs up before sprinting out of the room, giving him no space or time to open his goddamn mouth which smelled like outdated anchovies by the way.
Frantically, you search every hallway in your building, desperate to find Lee Heeseung before it's too late. As you near the corner leading towards an exit, you hear a loud slamâ as if something or someone was thrown against the lockers, followed by a thump as it hits the ground.Â
Peaking at the edge of the corner, careful not to be seen, you see three boys huddled around one guy who looked vulnerable amongst the others and you immediately recognise who these people are. To any outsider, they would assume that these people are your typical high school bullies who liked to pick on people for fun but no.
These people, they're dangerous.
Associating oneself with these people automatically gives you a free pass into doing whatever wrong you can imagine. With their leader being the son of the biggest investor of your school, Choi Yeonjun, meant that every teacher, staff, and even the guidance counselor you're encouraged to approach for help will turn a blind eye to their actions as they tell you to forget the events ever happened. Beside him is Choi Beomgyu, a boy with undeniable anger issues. One trigger, one wrong action or move will have you six feet underground with him waving you off.
"Yah, Heeseung." One of them squatted down beside the said boy, who stayed seated on the filthy ground. You could only assume that the third guy who's squatted down beside him is Kang Taehyun as with him, their trio would finally be complete. Your eyes go wide as the realization hits you that the boy being picked on is actually Lee Heeseung, the boy you've been searching for for the past five or so minutes.
'So this is why he couldn't meet me at the rooftop before.'
When Lee Heeseung doesn't give any sort of reply, they scoff in annoyance, throwing a harsh kick on his stomach. Although you weren't the one hit, you wince in pain as you could only imagine the torture Lee Heeseung is going through.
"Come on, Heeseung-ssi. Just do as we say and we'll stop bothering you." Kang Taehyun says, grabbing a fist full of Heeseungs hair in his hands and forcing the boy to look up. "It's that simple."
Now, you can see the boy's face clearlyâ all thanks to the asshole that was pulling his hair away from his face. Lee Heeseungs lip is bruised up and there's a stray line of blood dripping down towards his chin. There's also blood gushing out from the damaged skin of his cheekbone, undoubtedly punched. By who? You have no idea but you could only guess it's from one of them.
"Fuck you." He spats out to the boy who's gripping his hair, blood mixing in with his saliva. From his position standing up, Yeonjun only scoffs in utter disbelief, poking his tongue on the side of his cheek to show his impatience.
Kang Taehyun wipes his face slowly using his hands. You can tell he's annoyed however he doesn't show it. Only showing how his temper has been running thin, and now, even thinner because of the blood mixed with saliva running down from his eye all the way to his cheek. "You son of a bitch!" He screams out before throwing a nasty punch at Lee Heeseungs already damaged cheekbone, worsening the wound. "Why're you defending that whore anyways, huh? I thought you liked that quiet kid in your class. Did she get too boring or did she finally find out how much of a stalker you are?"
The three of them let out an annoyingly loud laugh and it makes your skin crawl. Tearing your eyes away from the scene, you lean against the wall, unsure of what to do. You're sure you want to help Heeseung but the question is how?Â
Closing your eyes, you take a deep breath trying to calm yourself down but it seemed that doing so only made it worse as now, you're focused on their voices, their words, and at the way, every kick, punch, and slap is directed towards Lee Heeseung.Â
You're itching to do something, anything just to make all of it stop because you can't bear hearing his grunts every time they throw a punch his way or his small screams of pain as they kick his stomach. Lastly, you can't bear hearing their insults, the names they call him. Lee Heeseung doesn't deserve any of it but what can you do? There's only a handful of options you can think of that may benefit the both of you in the outcome. You can't just go out there to fight them. You're no boxer and you're certainly no athlete. One punch from them can easily knock you out, rendering you useless. The option of going out there and threatening them with a weapon isn't good either. It's three against two and you dont think Lee Heeseung can even stand up and fight so really, it's just you against three well-built bullies.Â
Running out of time and favourable solutions, you choose to run. With all the strength you could muster, you dash away from the scene, running out of the building, praying to God that you find someone, anyone who you know is willing to help you fight against them.
His friends are your first option so you scurry around trying to find at least one of them when finally, sitting there at the bottom of the stairs leading towards the rooftop, you see Sim Jaeyun with his head propped up on one hand that rested on top of his knees and the other on he's using to scroll through his phone, seeming as if he's impatiently waiting for someone.
"Sim Jaeyun!" You're out of breath but you don't stop for air as the only thing in your jumbled mind that stays coherent is your drive to relieve the boy in need from his pain. "It's Lee Heeseung! He's⌠They're beating him up and IâI don't know what to do. Please help him." You ask, voice desperate and pleading.
Sim Jaeyuns eyes turn wide, immediately jolting up from his seat as he gestures for you to lead the way. The boy doesn't ask questions like "What happened?", "What's wrong?", "Is he badly hurt?" as his mind is too occupied with the thought of his brother being in trouble. The boy follows you as the both of you sprint back towards the same corner you had initially found Lee Heeseung and finds that the four of them are still there.
At the sound of your heavy running footsteps, the three of them turn their heads towards the both of you, followed by Lee Heeseung whose head felt heavy due to the endless beating he's received and the amount of blood he's lost. As the man beside you takes the scene of his friend looking battered and beaten, rage fills his veins as he lunges towards the three of them, not giving a damn even if he's outnumbered. You had guessed that Sim Jaeyun is stronger than he looked with the way three of them are struggling to contain the outraged boy.Â
While they're preoccupied with each other, you use this as a chance to come to Lee Heeseungs aid. Running up beside him, you crouch down to his level, cautiously pushing his bangs away from his face so you could inspect his injuries. His wounds have gotten worse, bigger and bloodier. His lip is completely busted, swollen and full of cutsâ even worse than when you left. His cheeks are purple and swollen and you're angered to have found a new injury directed towards his left eye. Looking at him now, you can't help but feel like shit for leaving him alone to suffer at the hands of Choi Yeonjun and his friends, feeling useless that you couldn't have taken them all at onceâ like his friend is doing.
"H-Heeseung?" You ask him in a whisper, cupping his swollen cheek in your hands so you could turn his head to look at you and so that he could feel you there. He winces in pain and you immediately retract your hand, afraid to hurt him even further. "I-It's me, YN." You smile nervously, shy to have been so close to him. "You're okay now. I got your friend? Sim Jaeyun, right? He's here."
Upon hearing that, he smiles dreamily, as if out of it before sighing comfortably, closing his eyes and passing out after due to exhaustion. "H-Heeseung?" You call out, stuttering as you tap his cheek. When he doesn't answer, you panic, quickly turning to Sim Jaeyun who just threw a punch at Choi Beomgyus face, knocking him to the ground. "J-Jaeyun! H-Heeseung isn't⌠He passed out, Jaeyun. I don't know what to do." You whimper, feeling helpless.
Endless punches, kicks, and shouts were exchanged by the four of them with Sim Jaeyun miraculously coming out on top.Â
"You fucking bastards!" He screams, swinging his fist at Choi Yeonjuns face. Afterwards, he grabs the boy's collar, pushing his face closer as he threatens their leader. "I thought I already told you to stay away from Heeseung hyung?!"
"Aw come one, Jake. You act like you're so different from us." One of them manages to cough out.
The boy is fuming as he takes in the unconscious figure of his dear friend lying on the ground and your distressed figure beside him, trying to make Lee Heeseungs unconscious body as comfortable as you can. There's a line of sweat coating his forehead but that's the least of his worries. Kang Taehyun is down on the ground, writhing in pain while clutching his stomach. Choi Beomgyu is leant against the wall as he spits out the blood that pooled inside his mouth, body swaying in dizziness. The only one left standing is Choi Yeonjun but you doubt he'd last long as you're proven right as he's immediately knocked down to the ground by the other.
"I swear, if you touch Heeseung hyung again, you three are really going to pay." He seethes out as neither of them reply, too tired and beat up to do so. Afterwards, he takes quick steps towards the two of you, immediately hooking Lee Heeseungs arm around his shoulders as you help him, the three of you exiting and going towards the nurse's office.
You're flabbergasted, to say the least. This is the first time youâve ever witnessed a fight happen first-hand and you have a feeling this won't be the last if you keep associating yourself with his friend group. This side of Sim Jaeyun is unknown to youâ as any side of him is. Having only known the boy as a mere bystander through the year, you had expected the boy to be an adorable puppyâ much like his face. A happy-go-lucky friend that's cheerful and always ready to bring a smile to your face, not a punch. Perhaps you've judged too quickly as not everyone is the same as their cover shows. However, what makes your mind confused the most is how there's not a single ounce of fear in your body as you stand beside the boy.
The way his body moved so naturally in that setting made you wonder whether he's done this before, fighting. It seemed as if they had a history together, based on the words Sim Jaeyun let out in anger as he defended the older.
Speaking of the boy, you wonder what the reason for Choi Yeonjun and his crew targeting Lee Heeseung isâ as you know they don't just mess around with random people. This eventually takes you back to the conversation they had prior to when you called Sim Jaeyun over for help. Lee Heeseung did something they didn't like, that's for sure. What is it? You have no idea but you ought to find out.
This might be the reason Lee Heeseung chose to take his life. The beating, the constant haunting done by the trio. Whether your hunch is fact or not, you'd do whatever it takes to find out, because after all, saving him is the reason you agreed to be sent back despite the danger, right? You only have one chance, so there's no room for failure. Soon enough, the creature named Apollyon is going to find out and you know for a fact that when he does, you're going to get hurtâ much like how Lee Heeseung is right now. Standing beside Lee Heeseungs unconscious body which lay peacefully across the hospital bed placed inside the nurse's office, you can't help but feel a sense of responsibility to look after the boy when the creature does come and try to hurt the both of you. You wonder, is there a possibility that he's already found out? Within a day? Was this his doing?
Your mind buzzes as questions flow endlessly and you make a point to ask the Grim Reaper or rather, Sunoo, about this later, hoping that he can spare some details about what's going to happen.
You almost forget the fact that Sim Jaeyun is standing there beside you until he speaks. "I'm sorry you had to see me like that, YN." The said puppy-dog-faced boy apologizes, scratching the back of his head awkwardly.
"O-Oh it's fine, really. I understand." You try to assure him but your tone seems to have betrayed you. "I'm just glad Lee Heeseung's going to be fine."
"Yeah," Sim Jaeyun agrees, rocking his feet back and forth as he nods. "The nurse says all he needs is some ice and rest and then he'll be good to go."
You nod in understanding, happy that the damage dealt was minimal. There's a moment of silence that passes between the both of you as the other is unsure of what to say next.Â
"Say, YN. I-I actually have a favor to ask you." He says smiling sheepishly, digging his hands inside the front pockets of his pants. You let out a hum, prodding him to continue as your eyes stay glued to the way Lee Heeseungs chest heaved every time he breathed. "If⌠um⌠Can you keep what happened earlier a secret?"
You tilt your head to the side as you tear your eyes away from Lee Heeseung to look at him. "Don't you think Choi Yeonjun and the others will tell someone before I even peep a word in?" You reason.
"They won't tell anybody about it, I'm sure." He assures you before sighing deeply, looking back and forth between you and his palmsâ as if he's debating on whether to tell you something. Noticing this, you give him an encouraging smile, motivating him to continue. This seemed to have worked as he finally found the courage to open up to you. "I've known those guys a while back. Iâ I'm not proud of my past with them. Those guys have big egos. They aren't going to admit to anyone they lost a fight with three against one."
Laughing at how convenient this all is, you ask "You used to be friends with them?"
"Yeah, Iâ um⌠used to." He answers. "We used to get into all sorts of trouble. Luckily, Heeseung hyung pulled me out and I left that life behind."
Nodding, you take the information in, failing to find the right words to reply with. Clearly, you aren't as observant as you thought you were as you had barely even noticed how Sim Jaeyun used to be in the same group as them. "It's a good thing he knocked some sense into you then." You conclude.
"He was great, really. He saw the good in me even when I didn'tâ when no one did, and I'm forever going to be thankful for that."
"You're a good guy, Sim Jaeyun. I'm glad Lee Heeseung has a friend like you by his side. And don't worry, I won't tell anyone about what happened today, I promise." You smile at him and he smiles at you back.Â
After a while, he tells you that he'll be right back, informing you that he's going to go and tell the others what happened. Understanding the worry the others might have been feeling at the absence of two of their oldest, you nod, allowing him to leave you as you stay beside Lee Heeseung so you could provide him with some company when he wakes up.
"Oh, and YNâ fuck. Wait, sorry. Is it okay if I call you that?" He asks and you nod, appreciating how he's asked you for your consent at the smallest thing like calling your name. He gives his own nod back, biting his lips to conceal his grin. "Great! And call me Jake, yeah? And I'm sure Heeseung hyung will appreciate it if you just called him Heeseung instead."
A few hours passed and it's already three in the afternoon. Classes are almost done and you're happy to walk into the nurse's office hearing Lee Heeseungs voice talking and laughing, his body is now well and awake. The six of them came in about thirty minutes ago and you left for a moment to provide them some privacy.Â
Upon your entry, his gaze locks with yours and all chattering and banter seem to stop as all heads turn to look your way. Now, all their attention is directed towards you as their expressions vary between shocked and speechless to mischievous and teasingâ the latter being directed mostly towards the boy who laid in bed. It's not only theirs but his too. Lee Heeseungs eyes, you mean. You fidget with your hands from where you stood as heat pools across your cheeks, offering him a small, shy smile.
"Hi." Whispering, you wave a hand curtly towards his way. "You okay⌠Heeseung?" You ask, your voice faltering towards the end when you had said his name as you threw a glance at Sim Jaeyun, who you now refer to as Jake. He gives you a satisfied grin and a thumbs up, appreciating that you had accepted his previous request.
Calling him just by the name 'Heeseung' is still new to you and it sends your tongue into a frenzy every time you say his name as a rebellious surge of heat makes its way all throughout your body. Still, you love the feeling it gives you when it rolls out.
Heeseungs bambi-like eyes seem to widen, heat making its way to his bruised up cheek, seemingly forgetting your question as cheers and screams erupt around the room. Clearly, the younger ones like to tease their oldest. You're sure of this because of the way Park Sunghoon pokes Heeseungs shoulder, snickering at the older. Heeseung throws the boy a playful glare whilst telling him in a whispering manner to shut up. This doesn't seem to be the remedy for his problems however as now, everyone seems to be doing the same all at once; poking, teasing, snickering, and smirking.
You can't hide your own giggle as what you had expected to be an awkward check up on the boy had turned into pure chaos as you use the back of your hand to hide the grin on your face.
"Alright guys, that's enough."Â Park Jongseong is the one that finally shuts the others up, Heeseung throwing a thankful glance at the boy. "We'll leave you guys alone for a bit. I think Heeseung hyung has something to say to YN?" He inquires, casting a knowing glance towards the oldest who's now blushing an even deeper red than before.
The rest erupt into cheers, patting his shoulder as they make their way outside the door. Before they go out of sight, they give you a small wave, seemingly shy now that they're in front of someone they don't know as they sport a few small teasing grins. You bid them your own farewell, shaking your head at their nonsense, leaving Heeseung and you alone inside the nurses office.
"UmâŚ" He starts, chewing the bottom of his lip, a nervous habit, you assume he has. "Hi, YN."
You tilt your head, smiling at him, happy that he's okay and finding the situation silly as you could only guess what's about to happen next.Â
He's going to confess, like he initially planned.
"Hi, Heeseung." You reply, simply. "How're you feeling?" You ask.
His eyes widen, seeming to have forgotten his current state as he realizes and takes a look at the multiple bandages covering his healing wounds. "O-Oh! These? These are nothing. I'm okay!" He assures you quickly, shaking his arms in front of him as if to show you he was well. "Nothing I can't handle."
"Don't tell me you're used to getting beaten up, Lee Heeseung. I never took you as a scuffler." You say in a teasing manner.Â
For the umpteenth time since seeing him in a conscious state, he widens his eyes cutely and he's quick to deny your playful accusation. "N-No! That's not what I meant! I don't get into fights, I swear!" He says, shaking his head cutely and it makes his hair sway. "I'm a good guy. You can ask Jake!"
You shake your head, finding his reactions funny. "I know, Heeseung. I'm just messing with you."
Taking a look inside Heeseungs mind, it's filled with thoughts of you; how you're talking to him right now, how he's managed to say coherent words to you, how pretty you look, how you're looking at him, how he's in the same room as you are. He's in chaos right now, trying to calm his fastening heartbeat.Â
He's always found you so beautiful, his adoration only growing as he grew taller. In his mind, he thinks that you probably don't pay attention to him much but still, you have all of his. He's seen the way you act around your parents, so caring and gentle. How you're so unbelievably smart, winning all the competitions and gaining the highest marks. How passionate and driven you are when you set your mind on something. Those were only some of the things he loved about you.
Out of the blue, he takes a deep sigh. "Y-YNâŚ" He calls out and you reply by humming as you tilt your head, waiting for him to continue. "I actually have something to tell you."
His face has only grown hotter by the second, trying to gather the confidence to finally tell you what he's been dying to confess for years. In a way, you feel as if you're cheating, already knowing what he's about to do and thus, lacking the suspense you're supposed to feel. But you can only feel a tinge of guilt as you take a look at his expression, so adorable and deer-like while you wait for him to confess.Â
Still, you feel giddy regardless of knowing. "Yeah? What is it?"
"Iâ I've actually liked you⌠for a while now." He says, shyly, looking at your expression. "This might actually seem kinda weirdâ is it? Umm, I-I don't know. Sorry, this is so awkward. I'm awkward! Not you!" He rambles on.Â
"This is definitely not how I wanted this to go." He mutters the last part mostly to himself but still, you hear it. Giggling at his antics, you shake your head, using the back of your hand to cover the shit-eating grin that's on your mouth, not wanting to make him feel embarrassed any further as you tell him to go on. Breathing out, he clears his throat before speaking, "Â I-I like you, YN."
Although you already knew that, your heart still seems to be flustered, beating faster than you had expected. As you take in his confession, a surge of heat dances across your whole face, much to your protests. Truthfully, you're not sure what to reply and you have no idea where this side of you that's all shy and playful came from. Does he bring out a side of you that even you were unaware of having? Maybe. Talking to him seems so comforting, so calming that it seems to just come out naturally when you're around himâ albeit, this is the first time it's happened.Â
Did you have any interest in Lee Heeseung before knowing what happened?Â
'No, no, I definitely didn't.'Â
Way to make it more obvious, smartass.
Okay, so maybe you did have some interest in him way back then. It was a simple crush really. He's your classmate. You found him nice to look at. You also found out that he's an incredibly nice person. Thus, just for the sake of having someone to crush on, purely for inspiration purposes, you chose him, reasoning that he's the best candidate and suited your 'ideal man'; tall, big and pretty eyes, tall nose, pouty lips, huge ears, prominent Adam's apple. You inwardly sigh whilst rolling your eyes, realizing that you've been describing how Lee Heeseung looks and him being your 'ideal man.'
Being the introvert you are, you never bothered to make a move and confess to him about it, nor did you assume that he was the secret man who left a love letter to you so he could confess.
Would you have still saved him if you were oblivious to the fact that he loved you? Yes, definitely. There were no questions asked about that. But now he's here. Sure, you admit this isn't how you expected him to confess to you; him laying on a hospital bed, all bruised up after you had just helped save him from a fight, but it's real and true and that's all you desire in a man.
"R-Remember the love letter that you got this morning? That was actually me. I'm sorry I didn't get to confess to you on the rooftop like I said I would. And I'm sorry I'm confessing to you like this." He says, apologising although it's not his fault. "But I'll take my chances and ask anyway. YN, would you⌠err⌠mind dating me?"
And now, the answer seems so simple, so clear. You like him and he likes you. What idiot are you to pass up a chance to fall in love with someone like him? Taking this mission on, you didn't expect to come out of it with a potential boyfriend. That is, if you succeed in saving him.Â
You're still not too confident, thinking that you aren't the best person for this as changing someone's mind about committing suicide when they're so set on doing so is harder than you it let's on to be. However, The Grim Reaper's words resonate in you, reminding you that you're the only person that can do this, and so, you'd like to think that being close to him like this will help and also because maybe acting upon your feelings doesn't seem so bad. Even if there's a chance he might leave you heartbroken in the end.
So, yes. "Yes, I'll gladly date you Heeseung. I'd be really happy to."Â
And now, you're really in it. You're going to save Lee Heeseung.
SEPTEMBER 26 ŕźŕź
After Heeseung had confessed to you in the nurse's office and being the head-over-heels man that he is, Heeseung immediately sprang up the idea of the two of you going on a date this Saturdayâ which is tomorrow. Grinning, you happily agreed, completely forgetting the literary contest you had to prepare for. However, as of the moment, that's the least of your worries because if things go according to how it happened before, you'll win the contest in Busan and go back home with a medal and certificate in your hands.
Leaving with each other's phone number, you bid the other goodbye, wearing the same identical grin on your faces. Leaving the room, you left with the promise of meeting each other again tomorrow lingering in the air while the last school bell rings.
That confession would've never happened if you weren't given the task to be sent back in time to save him. Although it's irrelevant, now, you hold no grudges towards your secret admirer because the reason he couldn't meet you wasn't because he stood you up, but because he was actually getting beaten up. If you didn't opt to search for the boy, the fight would've lasted longer, leaving him with an even more horrible outcome.
Currently, you're sprawled across your bed with nothing to do but think and reminisce about the events that happened and that're going to happen. You opt to think of a course of action ahead of time, trying to remember all the events that are going to take place in the next twenty days so you could maneuver around it.
Tomorrow, instead of going on a date with your highschool crush, you stayed in your room to practice for the literary contest and the same will happen tomorrow.
On Monday, you and a few other willing students who want to show their support for the school will go to Busan. This leaves you wondering if Heeseung was there because when school work is involved, you don't pay attention to anybody else but the work at hand. So it's hardly unlikely for you to remember or to even notice his presence. But in the end, like you've said, you'll win and come home happy as the rain will start pouring on your way back home. The next day, you were absent as you had played in the rain the night prior, rendering you sick and unable to go to class.
Amidst your thinking, a gust of wind suddenly made your windows fly open, curtains swaying wildly. Your heart rate slightly picks up, suddenly feeling nervous as chills run along your arms, giving you goosebumps. You sit up and kneel on top of your bed, peeking out the opened window only to see a cat walking along the roof of your neighbours house. This makes you calm down, sighing in relief as you close the windows shut. Suddenly, you hear a whip of air followed by a thud coming from behind you. The sound makes you turn quickly, eyes widening in shock to see Sunoo there, looking out of breath.
"Sunoo! For the last time, will you stop scaring me like that!?" You scream as you rush to stand up, stopping once you're in front of him as you hold a hand above your beating heart.
But all he gives you is a guilty smile. "Sorry, YN. It's fun seeing your reaction every time I scare you."
Rolling your eyes, you huff at the boy, crossing your arms at your chest. "It's not funny, you ass." Your eyes narrow, leaning your face close to his. "Where have you been anyways? I've been waiting for hours."Â
"Nowhere. Just trying to keep things unnoticed as much as I can." He shrugs as if it's nothing, pulling your desk chair back to sit. "Anyways, I have good news." He smiles widely, making his cheeks look plumper.
"Yeah, well that sucks because you have to answer my questions first. I assume you saw what happened today." You ask, quirking your eyebrows up, daring him to protest and you let out a satisfied hum when he only replies with a nod. "Say, what happened to Lee Heeseung before? I was busy preparing for a contest back then, I barely took notice of him." You casually ask, turning your back to him as you start walking towards the small shelf at the corner of your room.
He sighs, the cheerful and bubbly aura on his face wavering, showing remorse and pity in its place. "Heeseung went into a short coma after almost getting beaten up to death." He starts and you listen with wide eyes, shocked that you were so preoccupied to the point where you didn't know that something so life-threatening happened to one of your classmates.
As if to reminisce about the past incident, Sunoo looks outside, moonlight hitting his face as he admires it. "That day when he was supposed to meet you at the rooftop, he got stopped by those three. They started beating him up because he was a witness to something horrible they did. Heeseung wouldn't agree to turn a blind eye like they wanted him to so they beat the crap out of him. He got beaten up over and over after he woke up and was well enough to go back to school again. His family isn't that rich and they already have trouble paying their usual bills. As you know, hospital bills aren't cheap and they have to work themselves to death just to pay their debt. Heeseung could tell they were all having a hard time because of him." Picking up a random pencil on your table, he starts fidgeting with it, twisting the object between two fingers as he continues to tell you Heeseung's story.
"Heeseung changed after that day. He suddenly got more serious, more stoic and he even stopped hanging out with his friends all together. He stopped doing everything he loved and drowned himself in work. He was still getting beaten up by those three until all of it became too much to bear for a high school student. That, along with carrying the guilt of knowing⌠N-Nevermind. Eventually, you know⌠He⌠He killed himself."
"So if I didn't arrive there at all he would've gotten into a coma and all of this would've happened?" Sunoo nods sadly, speaking the truth. Your heart feels dejected and hurt as drops of what would usually be rain but âare now replaced with tears of your ownâ make their way down your face for the first time in what seemed like forever. Your thoughts are scrambled, filled to the brim with emotion, when suddenly, you remember something that doesn't quite make sense to you still. "You said he was a witness to something, what was he a witness of?"
"I-I don't know if it's my place, YN." He's hesitant to say as he tries his best to avoid eye contact with you. Already feeling the guilt of not knowing something so vile happening to someone, you're speechless when he doesn't tell you.
"Oh for goodness sake! You already brought me back here against the universal laws, I'm doing this with the fear of me and the people around me getting fucking hurt. I'm sure you can tell me what he saw." You scoff. Still, he seems conflicted about whether to tell you or not but his hesitance only annoys you so you press him on even more. "What did he see, Sunoo?" You ask, pausing in between words.
"YN⌠I-I really think you should ask Heeseung, instead. I won't be able to give you the fullâ"
"Just tell me what you know!" You scream out. "I'm so sick of this! You want me to help him yet you give me nothing to go off of. How am I supposed to save him if you won't tell me why he's getting beaten up?!"
"That's the thing! You've already saved him, YN!" He replies back enthusiastically, hoping you'd change your mind. "You're a smart kid YN. I'm sure you know what the butterfly effect theory is, don't you?"
You pinch the bridge of your nose in annoyance. "Yes, I do and what about it?" You deadpan.
"You managed to save Lee Heeseung from his coma! Meaning, his family won't get flooded with debts and he won't feel guilty for being the reason for it. That's enough to lessen the pain Heeseung felt and he won't be pushed to take his life anymore." It sounds absurd but his theory pans out right. With you arriving early to the scene, Heeseung didn't get beaten to the brink of death, saving him from his coma and lessening his feeling of being a burden. It seems like a small change but the effect is massive. Just like what the butterfly effect entails.
"We can go back right now while they still don't know about it and you won't be harmed." His offer seems too good to be true but you see no signs of error with his plan.
But still, you're bothered, itching to know what Heeseung has seen. "If we continue now won't Heeseung still get beaten up by those shit heads?"Â
"He'll fight back this time. With you and the others by his side, his resolve is now stronger." He's not telling you the whole truth.
By the way his hands are moving and the tone of his voice, you can tell he's lying. He might be an otherworldly being but the boy doesn't know anything about being a good liar.
"And what about the thing he witnessed, are you willing to tell me now?" You ask, leaning your body weight onto on foot whilst crossing your arms over your chest.
"No." He tries to answer simply. However, you notice the way his jaw clenches along with his fists whenever you touch upon the subject. "You don't need to know about that, YN."
"And why is that? You've told me useless information before. Surely this isn't any different than those."Â
"It is, YN." He tries convincingly but in the end, his gaze falters as he locks eyes with your persistent ones, finally realizing that you weren't going to stop asking until he told you. So with a sigh of defeat. "Five days ago, when Heeseung was on his way back home from school, he saw a girl being assaulted by those people who beat him up. Before they could do anything to the girl, Heeseung managed to rescue her and get away. In the original timeline, Heeseung and the girl will press charges and fail. The girl⌠she'll continue living her life in fear of them coming back. She blamed Heeseung for not being able to do anything. She said that if he couldn't help her put them in jail then he should've left them to do what they wanted with her; that it was all his fault."
'Ungrateful bitch.'
You don't have any idea who the girl is but your blood feels like it's going to boil through your skin with your hand itching to touch a certain someone's cheek. Despite what you know she's been through, all you feel is hatred and malice towards the girl as there's not an ounce of sympathy as you're unable to wrap your head around her thought process.
"How can someone be so ungrateful!?" You scream out in shock. "He's just as much of a victim than she is and she has the fucking audacity to blame him? The person who saved her?" You don't expect a reasonable answer from the boy, more so saying it out of disbelief and anger.
Far from his usual bubbly self, Sunoo only replies with a nod, seeming to be ashamed as he bows his head down, unable to look you in the eye.
"Why did you keep this hidden from me?" You sigh in exasperation, nudging your chin towards him.
"She⌠She's actually my sister, sadly." He smiles both in shame for her sister's actions and sorrow for what could have almost happened to her. "I guess I was just ashamed."
Speechless, you stammer for a few moments, mouth open and closing in shock as you try to compose a more coherent sentence. "Wow, I guess we can't really choose our relatives, can we?" You sight out, smiling sadly. "I'm sorry for talking crap about her like that."
All Sunoo does is shrugs. "It's okay. She wasn't always the best sister."Â
"Okay then. As long as Heeseung is fine, I'm willing to go back." You breathe out, patting the sides of your thighs to ready yourself. Sunoo smiles at you, nodding in appreciation.
OCTOBER 16 ŕźŕź
Opening your eyes, you're met with the same frost that the rain brought you like the last time you went to bed. The only difference your half-awaken body could comprehend is the amount of pillows suddenly decorating your bedâ not to mention how hard the one placed on your back feels. Gripping the blanket tighter around your body, you turn in place, humming in satisfaction when the pillow wraps its arms around your waist tighter. In your state, you snuggle deeper into its warm embrace.
You stay like that for a couple of minutes, trying to catch your dreams as you relish the comfort both your pillows and blankets were giving you when out of nowhere, a chuckle breaks its way through your ears, catching you off-guard. With wide eyes, you turn around in a quick motion and sure enough, like a male lead in a teenage romantic drama, Lee Heeseung is laid there beside you on the bed, looking at you with stars in his eyes. Seeing your expression, he giggles and it feels like he's serenading you with tooth rottingly sweet songs while his nose crinkles with glee as strands of his hair decorate his puffed up face.
In this moment, you could tear up. In fact, that's just what you do, you burst into tears the moment you lock eyes with him. Sobbing, you bury your head at the crook of his neck as your hands wrap around his waist tightly, afraid to let go because you think that if you do, you might wake up. Your own tears stain his neck but he doesn't seem to mind, more so showing concern towards your actions. He pats you in the back, asking you what's wrong, but you only reply to him with a defiant shake of your head and a hard squeeze as he tries to take a look at you.
"YN?"
He's alive and he's laying down beside you. Your heartbeat is fastened, stupefied by how you could feel his touch on your skin, how you could feel his breath on your forehead, and how you can feel the beating of his heart through the thin layer of his plain white t-shirt. Heâs the only thing you can feel and youâre over the moon by it.
âH-Heeseung.â You hiccup, leaving his neck to look at his face as you cup his cheeks with both hands. âYouâre here.â You breathe out, chuckling as you smile through your tear stricken face.
His eyes are filled with worry as he looks at you, hand coming to mirror your actions as he wipes the stray tears that left your eyes. âIâve been here since yesterday, baby. What do you mean?â
Although youâre confused by how Lee Heeseung, your classmate who had just confessed to you, is in your room, sleeping beside you, you donât question it. Wanting to indulge in the moment longer, you bury your head in his chest in a hug, overjoyed by the outcome of your crazy adventure. Truely, it's a blessing in the skies to have Heeseung beside you, living and breathing. Whatâs more lucky is how your relationship with him has seemed to blossom after your obscure confession, but you wouldn't have it any other way because right now, Heeseung will be right beside you, alwaysâ just where you want him to be.
âDid you have a nightmare again?â He pouts with furrowed brows. âI didnât cheat on you in your dreams again, did I? Dream Heeseung is actually such an asshole.â He finishes by rolling his eyes in disgust.
Heâs insulting himself and normally, you would be against it, voicing your distaste through your inner thoughts, however, instead of doing that, you laugh, finding his humor comforting while his body is pressed against yours.
Now, you donât mind the thunderous rain anymore. With Heeseung beside you, you feel like you can have a positive view on everything bad that gets thrown your way. Besides, what's the worst that can happen? Him dying? No problem, you have a reaper as a friend to help you with that.Â
Although yours and Heeseungs relationship hasnât been online for that long, youâve come to the realization that in your case, time is irrelevant. Time is complex and always changing. Some may say that time goes by too fast and for some, too slow, however, there is one thing you know that will never change, and thatâs Heeseung. With time, your admiration for him will only grow, turning into love and the next is whatâs beyond that. As you watch the way his eyes shine every time he talks, you dive in deeper, willingly drowning yourself in him until heâs all that you can see, hear, feel, touch, and taste. With time, the both of you will grow, change, and mature, but that doesnât scare you. You aren't frightened that he might turn into someone else and leave the highschool Heeseung behind him, no, because like time, Heeseung is ever so changing.
How you know your relationship was formed might not be what others perceive as normal, but to you, itâs perfect. No matter how many lives you live nor how many universes there are, youâll still choose him because at the end of the day, who doesnât want Lee Heeseung to sing them to sleep. Itâs like walking around with a spotify premium wherever you go!
Nevertheless, youâll protect him and he'll do the same for you. With this frail and useless body of yours, youâll defend him. It doesn't matter who you're dealing with or how big the problem is because he knows that youâll be there by his side. With that thought and your love in mind, Heeseung feels like he could conquer the worldâ not that he wants to anyways. All the things he wants in life are already right in front of him, in the shape of you. Sure, itâs short, messy, and can get incredibly emotional at times but that doesnât matter because he wouldn't want you any other way than yourself.
"Belated Happy Birthday, by the way." You whisper through your tears..
From outside the water stained window of your room, two prying eyes are peeking in, looking at the loving couple sprawled across their room on a rainy day.
âSunoo, youâre lucky this didnât cause any trouble with the time cycle.â Apollyon says whilst sighing in defeat once he turns his head and notices that the reaper he came here with just continues to blatantly stare at the both of you with longing in his eyes. âYouâre new thatâs why im letting you get away with this but I'll have you know that if you do something like this againââ
âI know.â The boy simply replies.
Tired, he shakes his head at the boy in defeat. Like the other, he turns his head to look at the unknowing couple happily talking to each other. Heeseung leans his lips near your ear, whispering. You listen to him eagerly, eyes growing animatedly wide once heâs finished and a feverous red-hot blush coats your face. He leans away to look at your reaction, however before he could, you turn your head away, slapping his chest and pointing a lecturing finger at him afterwards.Â
âTheyâre good for each other.â Apollyon comments, complimenting the both of you. âYouâre more suited to be cupid instead of reaper, don't you think?â He jokes which the other only shrugs in response.
âBy the way, about the soul you're looking forââ
âLeave it.âÂ
Apollyon stops and looks at the boy with disbelief written across his face. âA-Are you sure?â
âI'm sure. She deserves peace and Iâm not going to be the one taking it away from her.â Sunoo says, smiling even though his heart felt like it was chipping away.
âBesides, she killed herself to get away from me, didn't she?â
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