s.c.u.m

hi I'm a useless poet and I love dr who also trying to recover

[nananananaratking]

I'll never make friends

Too be fair I don't want them in person I Have extreme dyspraxia which causes kinda verbal dyslexia and makes me slur and I'm autistic and I slur my speech and it's just I feel like going non verbal after my father passes away because texting and writing is just so much easier I'll end up spazzing and annoyed in public settings when I'm belittled all my friends in real life struggle with addiction and most of them are homeless I have two online friends but they're never online at night and I am never on my phone during the day which is usually literal hell except being with my husband who fully trust me on the internet because I'd never be disloyal I watch the videos on tiktok of people hanging out with their best friends and I just don't have that I crave socialization but the only thing I get is extreme discomfort of what my body is doing am I wearing clothes? did I say something offensive? Did they look at my whorish cleavage? Did I look wrong with my eyes? Can they smell me? Do I smell like smoke? Am I clean? Are they disgusted by my very appearance? it's a constant hell. I overshare in person yet not enough. Is my fat eating me? Can they feel my breathing. Do they think I'm a liar? A thief? Homeless? Do they consider me damaged? Am I in trouble? Am I in trouble? Am I in trouble?

[nananananaratking]

Tw

[mwagneto]

aint no WAYYY THEY JUST TRIED TO SAY THAT. not even "the doctor's" but doctor who's in general 💀💀 so now that they have a disney contract every single gay thing (which they've had for fucking decades) is gonna be a huge big huge first gay thing ever!!1!1!1!! event??? like yeah there's a very specific significance to it i get it but what the fuck do you mean😭 jamie pull up the files

[nananananaratking]

I kinda liked that doggo

[nananananaratking]

You're Unforgiven

[nananananaratking]

Rewatching "The last of the Time Lords" and thinking what a badass Martha is, and how much I love her, and hate how underrated she is it kills me when people overlook her story lines. Almost as if a powerful black female was overshadowed by David Tennant way too much. That's not the writer's fault they did great with her story it's the fandoms fault for taking episodes like 42 and Utopia and completely ignoring Martha's entire existence. She was absolutely brilliant imo. But I do agree she would have done better with 9 or 12. I loved her tho.

[nananananaratking]

I cannot find a comparison

[nananananaratking]

Has there been a doctor since 2005 who isn't insanely attractive or are they all supposed to kill us with there face🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵

[stephadoo]

[cyber-corp]

Ruby and 15 acknowledging Susan Twist as a coincidentally recurring face everywhere they go the same way Rose and 9 acknowledged Bad Wolf. GIFset accounts get on it

[nananananaratking]

I've been thinking this too across the universe

[cecelovesrats]

happy pride here's a couple rats celebrating :3

[ngatwa]

[nananananaratking]

Oh my gosh brilliant

[sunsetuniverse]

The saddest thing about the ending of Dot and Bubble is even after Lindy and her friends use words like taboo and contaminated when around the Doctor, even after they outright scoff at his offer of salvation when he says they will die in the outside world, even after he is faced, for the first time in this body, pure racism, and that they would rather take their chances than be saved by a black man—he is watching them leave and still trying so hard to not think they deserve it.

[nananananaratking]

Its pride month 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

[yelsapo]

Wow, the people of Finetime are SO dumb. Like come ON, imagine being so reliant on the guidance of an external device that you start to lose the concept of your mental autonomy and become completely ignorant of your own surroundings. Imagine being so enveloped in your own little personal bubble that you're blind to atrocities that are literally happening right next to you. Imagine being privileged enough to choose to ignore those atrocities because they're not affecting YOU. Imagine if that were us.

That would be such a terrible world to live in...

So glad it's just a fictional story!

[nananananaratking]

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[nananananaratking]

Honestly I think the doctor really did mistake the racist comments for stupidity. He was a white guy for a very very long time. Even tho he's regenerated so many times we don't even know about. It's different times different planets and Gallifrey didn't seem to have a racism issue that I'm aware of. I think he was a white guy and then a white woman and very briefly a black woman. and then he went to save some really racist people. It broke his two hearts too be like oh my gosh I'm a black man i am labelled and it might be harder to save people because of my race. He went from a white guy with a lot of power to experiencing racism. I really wish it didn't cut to the trailer for the next episode and had explicitly given us a breakdown of the doctor's innermost thoughts and feelings. But the episode never does that and it always ends.

[nananananaratking]

How did I go from losing 68 pounds to gaining 15 and extremely ill this isn't fair I'm not even skinny I don't even think I care I just want to be better but everyday wake up to relapse and remember that I need to keep my kidneys and then puking at random moments of the day