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Today's gender is fuckin naptime and headaches and blegh why is everything sticky

Today's gender is 90s anime androgynous with mid-length blondish hair, leather belt, tucked in/ tied shirt, Jean jacket. No bra, loose undershirt/wifebeat, unbuttoned shirt, maybe a dog tag? Dunno all I know is... Small chest, almost unable to tell if masc or femme, maybe a bit of a bulge? Yeah that works

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blackxmansxhaki

Fr? Lemme check this out

Here’s the link to all of the free online classes offered by Harvard:

https://www.edx.org/school/harvardx

But TBH I prefer the MIT Open Coursewear approach. Feel like taking a class on the policy and economics of nuclear engineering? MIT’s got you covered:

https://ocw.mit.edu/courses/find-by-topic/#cat=engineering&subcat=nuclearengineering&spec=nuclearsystemspolicyandeconomics

In fact they’ve got you covered with A LOT of their courses, everything from fine arts to immunology.

Have fun :)

pluto-the-demigod

WHERE HAS THIS BEEN THE LAST TWO YEARS

Coursera offers a number of MOOCs (Massive Open Online Courses) for free on a variety of subjects from a number of Colleges/Universities.

debonair-flintt

Knowledge!!!

It’s hard having the soul of a sugar daddy but the wallet of a college student.

I want to buy people things they want and I want to send people money for bills on occasion but

thelighthousewatcher

I can hear that picture

I feel this on such a fuckin spiritual level it hurts

#My goal in life is to have enough money to be my own sugar and throw cash at people who needs it

I made a friend :D

Oh boy, I think I woke up on a low function bad mental day thisss isn’t goooddd

Doesn’t help that it’s overwhelmingly human where I work rn, it’s all sticky and gross and uncomfortable

Wtf I just wanna break down into tears already and like… Throw up. Today is going to be fucking rough and I don’t know if I can hold up until 2. It’s bloody and gross feeling, my stomach is not fuckin happy at all and it’s so fucking warm oh my God which really doesn’t help. Gotta think of ways to cope with this, I’ll ask a few people about what I should do. Thinking about it too much is gunna ruin me rn, really don’t need to be all up in my head

Hour left of work because I go home early, bosses wants me to rest because I look like shit according to them both. I don’t blame then, I’m out of it. Lost. Sick to my stomach and that pain is back. It fuckin hurts, my hip feels like it’s slowly getting ripped off. The cramping doesn’t help either in feeling sick but I’ve got this. Even if today’s bad an I’m near falling apart I’ve got this, I think imma isolate for a while and nap because I don’t wanna drag anyone into my head right now. I just want to embrace static, wake up and get back to work. I’ve got this.

I’ve been home for a while and I’ve got too much on my mind I don’t know what to do. I took a nap. My anxiety is through the roof. Why. Why is it so high? It feels like I’m being ripped apart by myself. Like I’m going to explode over one small fucking thing, like I’m going to die. I hate thinking. I hate being like this. Being so guilty and nervous over nothing. I want to be different. I want to be better than this. I don’t like feeling so alone.. Its so fucking lonely and frustrating. Not having a sense of time very much throws me off. My memory makes it worse. I can’t remember anything other than what I feel in the moment. I want to change that impending sense of dread. I want something to give and I’m scared of what happens when I give. I feel so lost and upset. Something doesn’t feel right. I’m so fucking.. Hhnn can’t do that, I’m not stupid. I’m smart. I just don’t want to admit it. I’m going to shut up now.

I don't want to spiral. So I won't. I can break down and cry but I can not spiral. I won't allow it. I'm better then that. I've learned.

Oh boy, I think I woke up on a low function bad mental day thisss isn’t goooddd

Doesn’t help that it’s overwhelmingly human where I work rn, it’s all sticky and gross and uncomfortable

Wtf I just wanna break down into tears already and like… Throw up. Today is going to be fucking rough and I don’t know if I can hold up until 2. It’s bloody and gross feeling, my stomach is not fuckin happy at all and it’s so fucking warm oh my God which really doesn’t help. Gotta think of ways to cope with this, I’ll ask a few people about what I should do. Thinking about it too much is gunna ruin me rn, really don’t need to be all up in my head

Hour left of work because I go home early, bosses wants me to rest because I look like shit according to them both. I don’t blame then, I’m out of it. Lost. Sick to my stomach and that pain is back. It fuckin hurts, my hip feels like it’s slowly getting ripped off. The cramping doesn’t help either in feeling sick but I’ve got this. Even if today’s bad an I’m near falling apart I’ve got this, I think imma isolate for a while and nap because I don’t wanna drag anyone into my head right now. I just want to embrace static, wake up and get back to work. I’ve got this.

I've been home for a while and I've got too much on my mind I don't know what to do. I took a nap. My anxiety is through the roof. Why. Why is it so high? It feels like I'm being ripped apart by myself. Like I'm going to explode over one small fucking thing, like I'm going to die. I hate thinking. I hate being like this. Being so guilty and nervous over nothing. I want to be different. I want to be better than this. I don't like feeling so alone.. Its so fucking lonely and frustrating. Not having a sense of time very much throws me off. My memory makes it worse. I can't remember anything other than what I feel in the moment. I want to change that impending sense of dread. I want something to give and I'm scared of what happens when I give. I feel so lost and upset. Something doesn't feel right. I'm so fucking.. Hhnn can't do that, I'm not stupid. I'm smart. I just don't want to admit it. I'm going to shut up now.

#This is basically becoming a diary. So be it #Fuck it #I don't talk about shit that eats me up a loy #I need... Some fucking release.#I feel like I'm a failure of a human and maybe it's just my hormones being out of wack rn #I just want a hug #I'm so conflicted right now

Oh boy, I think I woke up on a low function bad mental day thisss isn’t goooddd

Doesn’t help that it’s overwhelmingly human where I work rn, it’s all sticky and gross and uncomfortable

Wtf I just wanna break down into tears already and like… Throw up. Today is going to be fucking rough and I don’t know if I can hold up until 2. It’s bloody and gross feeling, my stomach is not fuckin happy at all and it’s so fucking warm oh my God which really doesn’t help. Gotta think of ways to cope with this, I’ll ask a few people about what I should do. Thinking about it too much is gunna ruin me rn, really don’t need to be all up in my head

Hour left of work because I go home early, bosses wants me to rest because I look like shit according to them both. I don't blame then, I'm out of it. Lost. Sick to my stomach and that pain is back. It fuckin hurts, my hip feels like it's slowly getting ripped off. The cramping doesn't help either in feeling sick but I've got this. Even if today's bad an I'm near falling apart I've got this, I think imma isolate for a while and nap because I don't wanna drag anyone into my head right now. I just want to embrace static, wake up and get back to work. I've got this.

Oh boy, I think I woke up on a low function bad mental day thisss isn’t goooddd

Doesn’t help that it’s overwhelmingly human where I work rn, it’s all sticky and gross and uncomfortable

Wtf I just wanna break down into tears already and like... Throw up. Today is going to be fucking rough and I don't know if I can hold up until 2. It's bloody and gross feeling, my stomach is not fuckin happy at all and it's so fucking warm oh my God which really doesn't help. Gotta think of ways to cope with this, I'll ask a few people about what I should do. Thinking about it too much is gunna ruin me rn, really don't need to be all up in my head

Oh boy, I think I woke up on a low function bad mental day thisss isn’t goooddd

Doesn't help that it's overwhelmingly human where I work rn, it's all sticky and gross and uncomfortable

Oh boy, I think I woke up on a low function bad mental day thisss isn't goooddd

I think I give myself anxiety? Anyone else ever think way too hard about their life and what their doing then get mad about just not doing things? I'm gunna change that. I'm gunna be less of an asshole to myself and kinder and push myself to do things that scare me. I've done it before I can do it again. It's all just reinforcement, repetition, schedules and acceptance of uh facts that I don't think are facts

#a selfish lil slut who's doing things for themselves #I haven't got this but I can fuckin do this #Also I really feel very... Anxious #It's like that shifty eyed dog in undertale who only sees moving things and I've been standing still so long afraid to move #I'm.. Gunna do better for myself #I'm gunna be. to quote someone who means a lot to me.#Sometimes that pops in my head and kinda just... Gets to me in a strange way #On the path to more stability starting with taking a damn nap on time

I am sad my day wasn't good I have a headache I barely ate I want a hug and the sweet embrace of death lot of suicidal ideation and weird dysphor I want to die something is wrong with me right now I can't tell maybe I'm not sleeping enough or whatever maybe maybe maybe maybe

I am tired I want out I need out

Tired

#Gunna try sleeping in cuffs wee if that helps

Holy fuck Ban you are…. A fuckin dork

D-diane you are bapy energy

Oh my God melodis you… Got tied up because you’re a fucki–OH MY GOD I CANT LMAO

Long haired Ban what the...

#Wtf it's big dumbass crush hours over nothing #Wtfff it's real snuggly bitch hours #It's real like... Fluffy and soff hours #I wanna like.... Be v warm #Let me love on someone I feel so soft

Holy fuck Ban you are…. A fuckin dork

D-diane you are bapy energy

Oh my God melodis you... Got tied up because you're a fucki--OH MY GOD I CANT LMAO

#Melos a fuckin playful perv #Diane is bashful bapy hours #Ban is dumbass fangy showy man #Ban has fangs and guyliner and I want that

Holy fuck Ban you are…. A fuckin dork

D-diane you are bapy energy

Holy fuck Ban you are.... A fuckin dork

#Ban you are... A fuckin... Hot mess of moron #Also wow the fuck I'm like... Super fucking mellow rn #Ban is a unit of fuckin dipshit and I relate to him

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