you might as well live.

cole / ask me about my ocs he/him | 18+ | gay + poly | infp been in my choice of games / interactive fiction era since like 2013 i go through people's tags pages if they have an organised system apologies in advance if i start liking things you reblogged two years ago everything is queued

[nazali]

finally threw together a proper oc page !! most of them have individual pages with links to all their inspo tags, pinterest boards, playlists, etc. newer / less developed characters just lead straight to their tags

there are. a lot. i make a lot of ocs. using the filters is probably necessary .

[star-mom-selkie]

happy pride month

[haveyouever-polls]

Have you ever received kindness from strangers?

Have you ever received kindness from strangers?

Yes

No

Remaining time: 4 days 11 hours

[which-ocs]

What is your OC's major?

[nazali]

Which Evanuris is Your OC Most Like?

Tagged by: @viagosbrother (thank you!!)

Created by: idunnaldwir

Rules: There are two steps to this madness. Color the words that most resonate with your Rook (i still haven't played veilguard but this looked super fun so i'm picking another dragon age oc instead! maybe i'll redo this once i have a rook :D). Count where you collected most words, and then search for the corresponding Evanuris codex and add it to the post! Add a pic of your lovely Rook as well (if you want). Have fun and please spread the tag, of course! ♥️

Juniper Trevelyan

Codex entry: The Hearthkeeper

Sylaise the Hearthkeeper is seen as the sister of Andruil the Huntress. While Andruil loved to run with the creatures of the wild, Sylaise preferred to stay by her home-tree, occupying herself with gentle arts and song. It is Sylaise who gave us fire and taught us how to use it. It is Sylaise who showed us how to heal with herbs and with magic, and how to ease the passage of infants into this world. And again, it is Sylaise who showed us how to spin the fibers of plants into thread and rope. We owe much to Sylaise, and that is why we sing to her when we kindle the fires and when we put them out. That is why we sprinkle our aravels with Sylaise's fragrant tree-moss, and ask that she protect them and all within. —As told by Gisharel, Keeper of the Ralaferin clan of the Dalish elves

Mythal (7)

maiden-mother-crone, diplomacy, motherly instincts, supportive, extinguishing fires, deeper meanings, idealism, resilience, survival, fine leathers and fine silks, silver filigree, raven feathers, driftwood, the iris flower, overwhelming yet restrained power, the dark moon, ultramarine fire, double meanings - double desires, hope, the Hawthorne, undeterred belief in oneself, veiled yearning for power

Elgar’nan (4)

the black sun - the blood moon, Patriarch archetype, possessive protection, authoritarian, hunger for power, relentless yet sometimes passive, subjective, strategic, leader, restrained emotions, tradition, heavy leathers and heavy golds, envy and desire, retribution, a fiery temper, conditional generosity, ancient ideals, consuming fire, thorny roses, wings of gold, birds of prey, domination, manipulation and temptation, obsessive, abundance

Falon’din (6)

black waters, myrrh, dark soil, hushed sounds, white, dark side of the moon, rebellion, vanity, the fade, journeys, shadows and reflections, illusions and deep knowledge, arcane, the dark arts, immortality by looking at the abyss, owl calls through the darkness, mania, desire to be admired, the Undertaker's hands, Nightshades, easily corrupted, deep emotions, ambition and competition, onyx

Dirthamen (6)

ravens and bears, hunger for knowledge, whispers, mercury, thick fog through pine forests, North, mountains, blacks and purples, books and libraries, deep blue ink, matters and facts, initiation through knowledge, masters and disciples, order and discipline, loyalty, delve deep, power through knowledge, know-it-all, teacher, curiosity

Andruil (4)

the hunter's moon, fur, iron, anger, spilled blood, dense woods, swamps and dark lakes, the beating of hooves, autumn rains, moose racks, thick moss, the thrill of the hunt, courage, determination, sensual desires, will to possess, purpose, strength and clarity, bluntness, blind to nuance, restless, victory through blunt force, physical prowess and flexed muscles, strained bows, blood-red

Sylaise (9)

harvest moon, flowers and herbs, warm bread and home, everlasting fires, tales around the hearth, healer and protector, hiraeth, the call of the home, beauty and warmth, respite and refuge, potions and balms, intoxicating scents, flower crowns and white gowns, sensuality, fertility, a large family, deep devotion to a partner, hidden devastating power, high goals, underestimated yet beloved, glory and creation, dreams come true, pink gold and apple flowers, sun rays filtered through leaves

June (7)

creation and invention, bronze and quartz, puzzles and labyrinths, lyrium, leather and wood, smoldering embers, anvils, geometric shapes, innovation, mastery, desire for progress, technology, high tech, logic, hard work, diligence, bolts and oil, welding sparkles, practical outfits, protective gear, sharp blades, mechanic whirring, sharp logic, discovery, technical drawings, teamwork

Ghilan’nain (2)

devotion, mystery, fearless, experimental, direction and motivation, medical knowledge, objective morals, orchids and hallas, love for animals, deeper understanding, emotional and sensitive, delicate, persuaded by loved ones, blurred lines, hyper focus, cruelty, ruthless, childish, shrewdness, flesh, blood and bones, creator, perfector, blood garnets and trembling sinews

Fen’harel (3)

the wolf moon, pride and vulnerability, wisdom and mania, sharp teeth, furs and leathers, rebels and isolationists, planet Pluto, the great change, uproot, unearth, fixations and deep knowledge, paradoxical subjectivity, hypocrisy, eyes that see it all, silent judgment, adaptability, revenge, blind purpose, grey morality, unfulfilled purpose, ether and dreams, mournful howls, thwarted purpose, thwarted heart, Loki archetype, well laid plans that fail, sharp tongue, sharp mind

[nazali]

fffffffffffffff i finally worked up the courage to reach out to the mutual friends i have left with my abusive ex-fiance and told them the gist of what happened

didn't go into detail but told them i have a domestic violence report filed & that we're still feeling out other legal things

there weren't many mutuals left bc most of the friends who actually witnessed our relationship cut them off after we broke up before i ever even told them anything just based on what they saw, but it was still very scary and i've been putting it off for months because. what do i even say. i don't wanna rehash everything over and over in detail & i don't know how to word anything & i don't know who's likely to go to my ex and show them my messages etc

but i finally did it because i hit a point where i just know completely separating our social overlap is the best path for me to heal and move on, whether that means accepting cutting off mutual friends or not

so far all but one of them who responded have told me they have immediately cut them off and have been so so lovely and apologetic (for no reason it's not like they knew this before)

the one person who's chosen to stay in contact w them and not me was completely expected bc she's always been closer w them than with me & i don't blame her at all bc she made it super clear she's not choosing sides or saying she believes them over me but just doesn't want to be involved unless there's like clear-cut overwhelming evidence for one thing over another, which makes sense when you're friends with both parties i feel like. i considered going through everything w her and giving evidence but ultimately i've decided it is better for me to just make my peace w distancing myself from this one friend rather than going through all of that and basically trying to beg to be believed only to risk it not being enough, especially considering a Huge amount of stuff was only in a server i no longer have access to so there's so much i can't prove to anyone who wasn't there, and even if i ask other people to vouch for me it's still word against word idk

i will miss her because i genuinely really do like her but ultimately we weren't all that close and this still feels like the best & healthiest thing for me to do, plus while legal stuff is still ongoing it's the cleanest thing to do legally too

idk i just feel so relieved to have gotten it out and completely detached myself from any proximity to them & mutual contact w them. i lowkey want to cry because of just the amount of anxiety i've had about telling people and how scary it's been waiting for responses but everyone has been so kind and supportive

[evergreen-femme]

im just so happy i live in a time period where actual meaningful biological transition is possible. even if we lose rights or the ability to exist in public, nothing can turn back the clock on that, and just by having any sort of access to that our lives are made immensely better. millions of our sisters throughout history would never have dreamed of a day where they could have what HRT does for us.

please don't lose the plot of this. if you're a trans person on HRT you're a living miracle, the dream of hundreds of millions of your ancestors. your lives are all deeply meaningful no matter what anyone says.

[t4t4t]

תפילה להפך – מאבן בֹחן | Prayer for Transformation, from the poem "Even Boḥan" by Rabbi Ḳalonymus b. Ḳalonymus ben Meir (1322) • the Open Si

A prayer by Kalonymus b. Kalonymus ben Meir that appears in his poem ספר אבן בוחן, יג Sefer Even Boḥan (§13), describing the author's wish t

[unabashedllamamusic]

Cursed be the one who announced to my father: “It’s a boy!"... ...How could he twist the course of the stars so much? How could he have erred so in his astrology? A lying tongue, a fool’s mouth it had given him For he foolishly transformed justice to poison He altered the law and transposed the lines

Oh, but had the artisan who made me created me instead – a worthy woman... ...I would say "how lucky am I"

Father in heaven who did miracles for our ancestors with fire and water... ...Who would then transform me from a man to woman? Were I only to have merited this being so graced by goodness...

What shall I say? why cry or be bitter? If my father in heaven has decreed upon me and has maimed me with an immutable deformity then I do not wish to remove it. the sorrow of the impossible is a human pain that nothing will cure and for which no comfort can be found. So, I will bear and suffer until I die and wither in the ground. Since I have learned from our tradition that we bless both, the good and the bitter I will bless in a voice hushed and weak: blessed are you [HaShem] who has not made me a woman.

I think I'm gonna go lay down for a little while.

[nazali]

husband said "i'm going to write motivational quotes on my blackboard" and then when i look over he's drawing an artistic depiction of sisyphus

[withered-rose-with-thorns]

[thewitchqifrey]

[taiturner]

Willa Fitzgerald as Madeline Usher in The Fall of the House of Usher (2023)

[teardropsonmyguitar]

[orpheuslament]

i think about "you spend a lot of time building walls, hannibal. its natural to want to see if someone is clever enough to climb over them." -> will graham quite literally climbing over the walls of hannibal's childhood manor way too often

[rocktheholygrail]

Hannibal 2x12 - “Tome-wan”

[jackharkness]

VICIOUS - 1.02 "Cheat”

[jackharkness]

VICIOUS 2.01 "Sister"

[warriorxena]

VICIOUS (2013-2016) | 1.02 — Cheat SIR IAN MCKELLEN as Freddie Thornhill SIR DEREK JACOBI as Stuart Bixby