the brisk autumn breeze nips at your rosy cheeks, offering a tinge of relief from the heat building in your face as you follow yukhei to a secluded area outside of the bar. your heels echo on the dirty concrete, your feet feeling heavier and heavier with every tipsy step you take. you sigh, trying your hardest to prepare yourself for whatโs to come, although youโre not entirely sure what youโre expecting to happen.
in fact, youโre not even sure what or how youโre feeling about any of this. just a few months ago, you wouldโve done anythingย to salvage this relationship. yukhei was your entire world; almost your entire life seemed to revolve around him. everything was always about him โ not that he forced it to be that way, it was just the way you were.ย
you wonder when this all started because, as you recall, you definitely didnโt like him at all the first time you met him; he was just too handsome, too loud, too chaotic for your taste. you didnโt think that he would ever find a way into your heart, much less that he would cuff you for the next four years of your lives.ย
you two had been so in love, or at least, thatโs what you had thought. you had given everything to this man โ he was your first boyfriend, your first kiss, your first sexual experience, your first love.ย
where had things gone wrong?ย
why werenโt you enough for him?
when did he fall out of love with you?ย
was he ever in love in the first place?ย
you nearly trip over your own feet when he halts in his tracks. he turns to face you, and you feel yourself tense, as if you were bracing yourself for his next move. he lets out a light chuckle.ย
โyou donโt have to look so scared,โ he starts, brushing a strand of hair from out of your face. he stops to caress your cheek with his thumb, and you feel yourself almost lean into his touch.ย โyou look really good tonight.โ
โthanks,โ you say, your tone icy and brimming with suspicion.ย โwhat exactly did you bring me here for? howโd you know that iโd be here?โย he shoves his hands into his pockets,ย his demeanor shifting as he sighs.ย
โten told me youโd be here after i asked about you.โ your heart sinks horribly, and you feel like screaming. ten? chittaphon leechaiyapornkul? your best friend of nearly a decade? your best friend who knows just how triggered you get at the sound of yukheiโs name? you take a deep breath and try to hold your anxiety in, but itโs like keeping down a cough thatโs violently trying to escape.ย
โwhy did you ask about me?โ
โi just wanted to check up on you,โ he says, his voice much softer than before. ย
โwhy?โ the corners of his mouth twitch before he sighs again, sheepishly shoving his hands into the pockets of his jacket.ย
โi know i hurt your feelings,โ he mumbles. โi wanted to make sure you were okay.โ
โwow, thank you,โ you snap, your tone stained with the the familiar acidity of resentment. โhow kind of you to check in on me after leaving me so abruptly.โ
โi donโt appreciate the sarcasm, y/n.โ
โwell, i donโt appreciate you calling me out like this, yukhei.โ
he opens his mouth to speak, but shakes his head and sighs instead.ย
โy/n,โ he mutters. โi care about you, i really do.โ
โwhy should that matter to me now?โ he shoots you a look, though itโs too dark for you to clearly interpret what heโs feeling.ย
โdid the last four years mean nothing to you?โ you nearly choke on your own spit in disbelief.ย
โwhat do you want me to say, y/n? what is it that you want from me?โ
โiโm fucked up, okay? iโm fucked up for not loving you anymore andย iโm fucked up for hurting you and iโm fucked up for thinking about other girls while i was with youใ
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โyukhei, i told you to stop.โ his lips tighten together, and a wave of guilt washes over him. itโs like someone had switched on the world again, and suddenly, he could hear the bustle of the nightlife, the zoom of the cars whizzing by, the whimpers you were trying to hold back. he steps closer to you, but you back away, your eyes downcast.ย
โdonโt talk to me ever again. donโt ask about me, donโt look for me, donโt even think about me. fuck you,ย wong yukhei.โ
and just like that, youย slip from his fingertips and disappear into the lights of the busy city.ย
pairing: jaehyun x reader
summary: a promiscuous basketball star finds his carefree world turned upside down when he crashes the winning teamโs afterparty. a short series about unexpected relationships, broken bonds, and the quintessential struggles of college life.
a/n: sorry for not really following through with theย โsocial mediaโ part of this series, i just feel like i can better express the plot through written chapters. please feel free to leave feedback in my inbox!
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