cry baby

24 y/o. DID system. vent blog. tags generally for different alters

[daily-spooky]

[penbrydd]

Your periodic reminder that in people who have been subject to threats and punishment for having emotional responses or ‘inappropriate’ facial expressions, panic attacks look different.

They may look like the person has become calmer and less involved, dismissive, even. Some people become intensely subservient and silent. Some become catatonic.

Panic doesn’t always involve screaming, crying, and obvious signs of distress. It involves an extreme form of the person’s fear response – which can be altered by circumstance, ability, and what they’ve learnt to fear.

Which is to say, it’s not your place to decide someone isn’t having a panic attack, when they’ve told you that’s what’s happening.

[curlyspoonie]

Oh, so that time I just couldn’t move or talk or anything and was basically catatonic was a really thing? Why am I constantly finding out that experiences I’ve had are not just me???

[hollowedskin]

See also: being totally fine until reaching somewhere safe like your car, your house or your room. That also includes seeming totally fine to YOURSELF. The amount of times i’ve been like, oh wow that went better than expected then closed the door and lost my fucking shit while going “but i was fine????”…

it’s a safety thing. you weren’t safe in public to be seen with emotions you could be punished for, and now you are.

[it-wasnt-that-bad]

[nebuloussystemic]

i love when we just randomly start talking about physical abuse in class with absolutely no warning ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[thisisalsoyou]

[nebuloussystemic]

haha broke a 3 1/2 year clean streak ✌🏼

[nebuloussystemic]

incomplete list of things that are more important than me according to my mother:

-smoking

-drinking

-my siblings

-her boyfriends

-half off drinks at the bar

-partying on a thursday night

-weed

kinda hurts still

[nebuloussystemic]

i Hate when i complain about something and people offer to help me. they have the best of intentions but it just makes me wanna scream I DONT NEED HELP I JUST WANT TO COMPLAIN FUCK OFF

[cryptid-corpse]

[infiniys]

Friendships

30//08//19

[virtual-ang3l]

{only reblog if you’re a trauma survivor}

[nebuloussystemic]

me: starts on anxiety meds

every other mental illness i have: so it’s my turn to fuck up your life, perfect!

[nebuloussystemic]

you ever peel back one layer of mental illness only to find another, possibly worse mental illness hiding in wait?

[nrthuldraa]

[nebuloussystemic]

me: needs to talk to my bf abt something important but has to wait until he’s available

me: starts dissociating like i’m gonna switch out

me: @ alters 🔫

[nebuloussystemic]

my medication rly is fucking with my appetite. I ate half a bag of chips for dinner and a muffin for breakfast and i’m So full i can’t even drink my coffee

[wrong-person-deactivated2020051]