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Albert Engström - The Artist's Father, Reading a Newspaper (1892)

something in me knows where I’m going something in me knows where I’m going something in me knows where I’m going something in me knows where I’m going

Rewatching V for Vendetta and suddenly unlocking like 10 additional childhood memories. I absolutely loved it as a kid and tried memorizing the first V speech. And realizing my alter V is Like That because of this movie. Even the Shadow Gallery was the same like damn, you really are just your childhood through the lense of an adult every time huh.

#What a trip down memory lane #Love this movie and I love V still no surprises there #And I will get that V speech down I swear

kelseykingillustration

Testing out my new custom chipboard sketchbook with more magenta underpainting experiments

kelseykingillustration

Playing around with magenta underpaintings for winter scenes lately.

rustingbridges

I like to fuck around and waste time for at least ~6-10 hours per day, and let me tell you, that really puts some pressure on your schedule. you have no idea how busy I am

laterkiss

i have [gestures vaguely] my tendencies

beingharsh

you can't kill yourself girl i already bought us tickets to do everything ever

#Ae

threefates

i have a severe case of wanting to escape society to go live in a gothic castle by the sea

#Doing that still didn't fix the problems goddamn #If only it were that simple

tordenvejr

just remembered i'm a real person to other people

cheaphalloweencostume

what are any of you ever fucking talking about

You'd think if we were so dead set on offing ourselves we'd at least enjoy the last 3 years instead of fucking bemoaning it.

#I should be at the beach every day actually #Hike a mountain every weekend

It's too early to start stressing about next year but I'm afraid that bitch transient psychosis will get me

#I'm doing rough again lol #Getting real tired of it all again #27 will be absolutely the worst but 29 will be almost impossible #Still don't have any life plans after this lmao. Like. Damn. What am I gonna do when my magnum opus is done?#Especially when anyone that knows you for any length of time wants nothing to do with you eventually #I'm not tryna be a drama queen I mean literally anyone I've opened up to even a little has come to reject me #And it's definitely on me at this point I know that but I still seem incapable of figuring out how to stop doing it #And then the paranoia and anxiety and dissociation and dpdr and ocd and panic attacks and agoraphobia take over #Life's perfect and I want to kill myself. So nothing's new basically

Was today years old when I put together my friends dying at a young age around me actually did affect me and still influences my current life and behaviors.

#I never think about it much because it's sad but yeah I probably work myself to the bone because my friends didn't get to #When she died the very first thought I had was “I wish it had been me instead”#And I've felt like a piece of shit ever since. But she was really amazing and I feel like I have to try to live up to that in her memory #Like she got into college early at 16 and was doing all kinds of honors and early career work. She was going places.#I wish I could've seen her progress.#Johnny died when I was 10ish and I still don't know how to process it #Anyway yeah I guess I didn't ever properly grieve them and it leads to some of my behaviors

kosmogrl

oooh I get it it’s always gonna be because of the environment I grew up in

thekidsfromyestergay

This was on a post about how it's ignorant and privileged to wear headphones in public and I fear its already become a part of my vocabulary. Must everything harbor a moral failure.

hyumjim

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