I freaked out everytime things were out of hand. If I dont, thats mean I have a backup plan wilding in my head. But If I do, it's the feeling I have pulsing in my chest, it is this anxiety, this familiar dread. For a result-oriented person, I cant wait, I pushed myself hard, I want an instant solving, I cant confine my worriness & constantly went back & forth muttering "think, think, think". I reached out for help, but if help cant come within my so called time frame, my brain started to wire another attempt. I dont want to annoy people, I hope I dont, I tried, sometimes did work, but sometimes I am out of control. Despite my tackiness, there are always persons who come in handy, those whom unexpectedly granted to me out of no where & those whom I treasure the most, those who dont exactly solve the mystery, but to come in lenient act "no, dont panick, relax, its not the end of the world, have a deep breath, we cant control everything, redha, have sabr, its not meant for us". To all of you, Thank you for staying by my side. (وَٱصۡبِرۡ فَإِنَّ ٱللَّهَ لَا یُضِیعُ أَجۡرَ ٱلۡمُحۡسِنِینَ) And be patient! Certainly Allah does not discount the reward of the good-doers. [Surah Hud 115] https://www.instagram.com/p/CJS9SaqHGkAQzOvwsrkbMNaW4ZAPX4y7CZvvlQ0/?igshid=4czq976cliut