[nibelblade]

“ i  forget  things  everyone  else  remembers  just  fine ... and  know  things  i've  got  no  right  knowing. it's  like  there's  different  people  inside  of  me  [ ... ]  i  can't  even  tell  where  they  end  and  i  begin.  

#𝙽𝙸𝙱𝙴𝙻𝙱𝙻𝙰𝙳𝙴 ━━ a private cloud strife writing blog, from final fantasy 7r. primarily of the remake lore, may take some influence from the original game & advent children. personal headcanons will be incorporated. rebirth spoilers will be tagged. established in 2023, revived in 2024.

𝙲𝙰𝚁𝚁𝙳 … 𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙿𝚃𝚂 … 𝚂𝚃𝚄𝙳𝚈 … 𝙿𝙸𝙽𝚃𝙴𝚁𝙴𝚂𝚃 … 𝚂𝙸𝙳𝙴𝙱𝙻𝙾𝙶 .

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affiliates: @nibelfist , @fairesky , @hopeflower , @savioroth , @razubomb , @corelshot , @eversaor .

guidelines.

⁰⁰¹. this blog will be primarily remake based, but i will take influence from advent children, crisis core, the original ff7 and any additional media as they arise (and as i have time). i'll also incorporate any personal headcanons and world-building as i go. that being said, i don't tend to stray far from canon, and will have verses for major divergences/etc.

⁰⁰². i do like to delve into cloud's mental health and his complex trauma, and i won't water those aspects of him down in my writing (this is just a forewarning if these issues may be triggering to you). this particular area is something very relevant to my current studies and field of work, so i apologise if i am overbearing with it lmfao.

⁰⁰³. i do prefer to plot, or build off of a sentence starter/meme, so feel free to send something in to interact or send me a dm! if we're mutuals, i will usually send in prompts if i see things on the dash. if possible, i usually will send 2-3 things for variety, but please don't feel pressured to reply to any, if at all. you're also more than welcome to send multiple in to me/continue on a prompt i've replied to!

⁰⁰⁴. regarding formatting, i tend to switch between small and normal-sized font. if you have issues with a certain sizing, i'll accommodate to you. same goes with icons, i'll usually default to using them, but if you prefer iconless, i will match.

⁰⁰⁵. i am multi-ship and multi-verse, so all ships and threads will be set in their own respective universes. i am ship exclusive with nibelfist's tifa lockhart and therefore any other interactions with tifa blogs will be kept platonic. romantic shipping with cloud is not easy and will depend on many things, such as chemistry, plotting, and so on. while i do have my preferred ships, i will never force them on anyone. i'm also always up for establishing platonic, enemies, found family, etc., type relationships.🥺

⁰⁰⁶. as this blog is 21+, there may be nsfw themes from time to time, however, all will be tagged accordingly. no underage smut. similarly, i will not tolerate problematic, offensive behavior, including racism, homophobia, transphobia, antisemitism, zionism, sexism, pedophilia, incest and so forth. this'll earn a swift block from me. i will also not hesitate to reblog callouts if the individual is a danger to the community, or has continuously shown to be problematic to myself or my friends, mutuals, etc.

⁰⁰⁷. my primary affiliates are who i consider good friends, many of whom introduced me to final fantasy. i established this blog to write with them, however i'm of course open to interacting with all mutuals. this is more just to state that they will likely receive priority in writing/interactions. it's not to be exclusionary, i'm happy to interact with duplicates and all mutuals!

credits— my icon templates were purchased from akaiyarph and paletterph, and edited to suit cloud. psds i use were purchased from venuscommissions. pixel gif of cloud in the audio originated from here. any other graphics were made by me unless otherwise credited.

i'm courtney, i'm 29 years old and i live in australia, timezone is gmt+10. my activity is sporadic for the most part as i'm a full time postgrad student and i work part/full time. i'll be on the dash at odd times of the day most likely, but you can usually find me on discord if not here, feel free to request it :)

other blogs: multi— diaboelic , gojō satoru— sixeis .

[nibelblade]

temporarily moving cloud to my multi @diaboelic, just until his muse returns fullforce ✌️

[nibelblade]

not people out here reblogging my pinned hello????

[nibelblade]

sorry for my flip-floppy activity, i'm in the middle of my uni semester so i have assignments coming out of my ears. but!! i'll be around this weekend to send people memes and hopefully reply to starters/drafts 🥴

[disgustinggf]

the sexual tension between me and getting worse

[nibelblade]

❛ can’t sleep? ❜

he's  come  to  recognise  most  of  his  companions'  footsteps by now,  enough  to  discern  who's  sneaking  up  on  him  and  who  isn't. her  footfalls  are  lighter  than  most,  and  usually  with  pep  to  her  step,  but  at  this  hour,  understandably  lethargic. sunrise  is  still  a  way  off,  however,  he  knows  there's  no  going  back  to  sleep now.

the  shildra  inn  was  quiet  in  the  backdrop,  and  he  wonders  if  his  waking  had  unintentionally  woken  her. cloud  props  his  elbow  on  his  crooked  knee,  one  boot  dangling,  swaying  to-and-fro  over  the  edge. it'd  be  a  long  drop  into  the  canyon, a  light  shiver  racks  through  him. without  turning  his  head,  “   what  gave  me  away?   ”      

his gloved  thumb  digs  into  red  dirt,  and  her  footsteps  neither  retreat  nor  advance;  they  idle. she's  quiet,  abnormally  so. so,  cloud  turns  his  cheek  to  her,  catches  the  outline  of  her  figure  in  his  peripheral. she never seemed the sort to wait and ask for permission, unless she was routinely checking up on him as most everyone else did. he hoped not. “   may  as  well  catch  the  sunrise  everyone  keeps  raving  about,   ”   he  sighs,  tired; the locals had recommended waking early to witness the cosmo canyon's sunrise at least once, anyway. it was supposed to be beautiful.

   “   i  wake  you?   ”

[nibelblade]

shall i give you ... 🍐?

[nibelblade]

they'd  lingered  maybe  a  little  too  long  in  gongaga  for  cloud's  liking. following  the  incident  at  the  destroyed  reactor,  cloud  was  eager  to  move  on. however,  turns  out,  people  were  in  need . . . just  about  everywhere. @exturk  had  been  more  than  hospitable  throughout  their  stay  thus  far,  so  the  party  had  unduly  reminded  him  ━ what  was  a  few  more  days  of  labour  going  to  cost  them?

the  surrounding  forests  are  dense,  he  notes  as  he  brushes  the  hundredth  overhanging  vine  out  of  his  path. there's  two  chimera  corpses  a  few  feet  behind  them,  courtesy  of  his  guide,  which. . . was  a  revelation  in  and  of  itself. cloud  was  currently  trying  to  puzzle  that  mystery  together. most  with  a  skillset  like  that  were  in  league  with  shinra  or  their  adversaries.

“   . . . where'd you learn to fight like that?   ”

[appleweiss-deactivated20241205]

@nibelblade / sc.

"Don't lie to me, boy," he says gruffly. "You're not interested in my life. So don't pretend to care when I'm sure as hell you don't."

[nibelblade]

“   if i didn't, i wouldn't've asked,   ” he folds his arms, defensively. “   touchy subject then, huh? forget i said anything.   ”

[robasarel]

[nibelblade]

hey soldier boy 🙂

hey mr president... boy 😠

[nibelblade]

when i tell u i have been playing rebirth instead of doing an assignment worth 55% of my overall grade, and that i had to get an extension for it because i had barely started it and here i am, still playing rebirth

[nightprompts]

&. 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭𝐬.

( this is basically just a very self indulgent list of various fluff, angst, and suggestive themed dialogue sentence starters. )

❛ i could keep you safe. they’re all afraid of me. ❜

❛ i’m trying to fix your hair, so hold still. ❜

❛ your heart is beating so fast right now. ❜

❛ promise me you’ll still be here when i wake up. ❜

❛ you’re not as bad as everyone says you are. ❜

❛ i thought you’d like some company. ❜ 

❛ clean yourself up. you're getting blood all over the place. ❜

❛ here, give this a try and tell me what you think. ❜

❛ you can kiss me, you know. ❜

❛ come back to bed. ❜

❛ you look good like this. ❜

❛ working together again, it’s just like old times. ❜

❛ how is it you always know what i need, huh? ❜

❛ you’re lucky you got away with only a scratch. ❜ 

❛ i can’t imagine losing someone like that. i’m sorry. ❜

❛ you know you can always talk to me. ❜

❛ the only one who gets to kill you, is me. ❜

❛ so, what do i owe this pleasure? ❜

❛ ah, so you aren’t heartless after all. ❜

❛ may i have this dance? ❜ 

❛ it’s okay, you can touch me. i won't break. ❜

❛ enemies make the best lovers, you know. ❜

❛ hold still. this might sting a little. ❜

❛ we can't keep doing this. ❜ 

❛ you look like you've got something to say. ❜

❛ just relax and let me take care of you. ❜

❛ thought you’d be lighter without all that blood. ❜

❛ i had it under control. you didn’t need to do that. ❜

❛ everything looks so beautiful from up here. ❜

❛ you treat all your ladies like this? ❜

❛ well? how do i look? ❜

❛ can’t sleep? ❜

❛ do you mind if i smoke? ❜

❛ i’m scared of ending up alone. ❜

❛ i don’t think i’ve ever seen you smile. ❜

❛ how long has it been since you've slept? ❜

❛ you are losing my interest, and that’s very dangerous. ❜

❛ i’d suffer hell if you’d tell me what you’d do to me tonight. ❜

❛ you look really pretty right now. ❜

❛ i’ve never cared for anyone the way i care for you. ❜

❛ i’m not wearing any underwear. thought you’d like to know. ❜

❛ just a few more stitches and you’ll be as good as new. ❜

❛ i’d say we make a pretty good team. ❜

❛ i want you to forget this ever happened. ❜

❛ i'm here for business — not pleasure. ❜

❛ if i didn't know any better, i'd say you were jealous. ❜

❛ you'd look better down on your knees. ❜

❛ fine, keep acting like you hate me. ❜

❛ kiss me again. ❜

❛ are you asking me out on a date? ❜

❛ just sit there and look pretty and let me handle this. ❜

❛ you okay? caught you staring off into space again. ❜

❛ well, i do feel better now that you're here. ❜

❛ i'm not drunk enough for this. ❜ 

❛ why is it whenever we see each other, you’re covered in blood? ❜

❛ i was wrong about you. ❜ 

❛ the first time i met you, i had no idea you'd mean this much. ❜

❛ you gonna be a good girl / boy for me? ❜

❛ i’m not afraid of you. ❜

❛ books mean more to me than people anyway. ❜

❛ i just wanted to say thank you for protecting me. ❜

❛ how about a kiss goodnight? ❜

❛ i don’t have time for distractions right now. ❜

❛ you shouldn’t be out here by yourself. ❜ 

❛ if i have to think about one more thing today, my head will explode. ❜

[weltenwellen]

Sara Luisa Kirk, from "Begin here,"

[kcdeliverance]

[sarastuss-a]

O' THE WARM FIRE, : how it brings ease to the weary ... the camp set up only for a moment ; 𝐀 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄 to rest. the campfire crackles softly, &. it is easy in this silence for the warrior of light to notice his hesitation, eyes ever wary of their surroundings. ━━━━ ❝ there is no harm in a little rest, you know. @nibelblade ❞ it is more of an invitation, spoken with 𝐇𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐘𝐃 𝐓𝐔𝐍𝐄. ... HUES LEFT WITH A DIM GLOW, ( ethereal glow from the past ) move to face him now, instead of the dancing flames. corners of her lips curl upwards, if only a little. ❝ but not resting enough will do harm ━━━━ if they find us, we'll be ready. ❞

[nibelblade]

he  watches  the  fire  lap  at  fresh  kindling,  embers  drifting  upward  into  the  starless  sky  above,  shrouded  by  a  canopy  so  disconcerting  in  the  darkness. the  same  feeling  has  resided  within  him  ever  since  they  stopped  for  the  night. rest  didn't  come  easy,  and  cloud  introspected  whether  sleep  would  extricate  him  from  himself  at  all. a  sigh  blusters  past  his  lips  at  her  words,  the  heel  of  his  boot  digging  into  the  dirt  as  he  stretches  his  leg  out,  opposite  bent  at  the  knee. “   easier  said  than  done,   ”   if  they  find  us. he  wasn't  so  concerned  with  what  happened  to  him  as  he  was  the  others,  they  were  all  separated  now. chin  touches  his  chest,  arms  folding,  under  the  guise  of  attempting  rest. cloud  peeks one eye open  at  her seconds later,  only  to  find  her  watching  him  with  a  subtle  smile;  with  the  light  of  the  fire,  she  appears  other-worldly. he couldn't quite describe it. “   and you? clearly this isn't new for you.   ”

[nibelblade]

tickles a daisy under his nose.

the  brush  of  petals  over  his  philtrum  startles  him,  the  earthy  scent  propelled  closer,  underneath  his  nose  and  making  the  bridge  wrinkle;  his  senses  running  haywire. “   hey, knock  it  off—   ”   cloud  bats  the  back  of  his  hand  toward  the  flower  to  deter  her  mischief,  only  seconds  before  the  daisy's  pollen  makes  him  sneeze  so  harshly,  it  causes  a  few  petals  to  dislodge  and  float to  the  ground. he  covers  his  nose  too  late,  the  apples  of  his  cheeks  pink,  bashful,  embarrassed. cloud  assumes  a  frown  through  an  awkward  apology, unable to meet aerith's eyes,   “   . . . sorry. ”